I Wonder

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    I once loved a man. He was smart

    and he was witty. He was funny and he was kind. He made me feel alive and he made me smile. But sometimes I wonder. Was it him I loved or the man I saw in him? Does that man exist? Was he real or did I make him up? Or perhaps it was he who made himself up, who projected the...
    Diablessse Diablessse
    51-55, F
    21 Responses Sep 9, 2014

    Do you lay awake at night with constant

    thoughts of me? Do you feel sudden twinges of guilt at the thoughts of what your actions have caused me? Do you try to busy yourself through out the day so you can have moments if only seconds of my image not stuck in your head? Do you feel sudden attacks of breathlessness...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 2, 2015
    DiamondAuthority DiamondAuthority
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 9

    If I ever crossed her mind like I did.

    . When she woke up at 2am, did she miss me.. Is my touch still fresh on her skin like hers on mine? If you said that you got over that person who you claimed you love the most,that's a total bullshlt, but you moved on, carrying the memories with you.. you are who you are today...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i
    70+, M
    3 Responses Mar 4, 2015

    If society had not frowned upon corporal

    punishment (in the sensible, loving way), would there be fewer just-turned legal male s.issies looking for a m.istress to dominate them? Child psychologists and therapists in the house?
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe
    41-45, F
    12 Responses Jul 18, 2015

    Connections, though brief it was nice

    while it lasted. Over the course of my two years on EP I have met a few wonderful people who became good friends. Though some have left ep and others who stopped interacting, I am blessed to have had the pleasure of their acquaintance. I will always wonder about them and how...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 18, 2015

    What motivates the hamster to finally exit his

    wheel? Does he see the futility of his action or does he simply become too exhausted by the status quo to continue?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Sep 3, 2015

    I wonder why so many girls/women are starting

    to make all these dirty stories and showing off. like just outta the wood work. even more weirdos are coming out
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 29

    I wonder what is it with men these days

    and their penis pics? We get it...you have a d*ck and you think it's cute, or needs someone to tell you how hot looking it is. But here's the truth it looks just like the other d*cks. I'm sure lots of women are receiving in EP, messages from dudes wanting to show off their...
    l1skub4n l1skub4n
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    Reflecting

    Wandering through the battlefield of my past sorting through the wreckage of misspent days cringing at decisions made in haste laughing at desires that became a waste I came upon a clearing that seemed safe and quiet I sat there quietly and saw my plight and softly I wept, into...
    shenightowl shenightowl
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Jan 28, 2012
    whyacinth whyacinth
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 21
    ZenLioNESS719 ZenLioNESS719
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Mar 21
    DiamondAuthority DiamondAuthority
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 30

    my heart achesi wonder

    if there is a placelike a shell for a snailmade just for me to fit in and live there..my heart aches 
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 12

    I wonder why some of the most ugliest things

    happen to the most kindhearted souls of why such great things happen to the ungrateful. It's hurts my heart to see such wonderful people hurting so much. I wish I could take all of their pain away.
    elenabello elenabello
    18-21, F
    15 Responses May 28, 2015

    I Wonder

    I wonder... do i sound like a mosquito in the air ? are people really listening or have they mastered the stare ? Why i bother wondering I really have no idea, But i just keep on wondering in case i disappear. So i wonder, wonder, wonder all through the day .. And i...
    caroli9 caroli9
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 19, 2007

    the day came when the risk to remain tight in

    a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom .. 💐🍃🌷🍀🌹🌻🌺 - Anais Nin
    birdblu birdblu
    36-40, F
    May 6, 2015

    I often wonder why some people seem to

    understand others better, and what happened to those who stopped caring along the way...
    ZenLioNESS719 ZenLioNESS719
    51-55, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2015

    ...If I could ask to be shown parents' consent

    every time users 13-15 years old would want to message me.
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    Since ep is closing I wonder what people would

    remember me here for. I know most of my ep circle is pretty much disbanded now so that's a thing but I wonder what people would remember me here for personally.o would say that I'd miss ep if this had been ep. I came Here in the beginning to meet new people and make friends but...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 1

    How my head manages to think

    so much, always so patient with the never ending thoughts the best part is it never gets tired sometimes i just wish things were a lot easier and my head didn't complicate itself so much because you cant always listen to someone who talks and talks and talks consistently can you...
    bloomish bloomish
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 4, 2015

    i wonder how is to have a bestfriend

    or a boyfriend online 🙄
    saaddgirl saaddgirl
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 22

    I saw it, the words of those you left behind.

    I tried to ignore it... But it is hard. You said you loved me. Yet not long after we ceased to be, you got your feelings entangled with someone else. It hurt. Was I just thinking too highly of myself? It hurt to think that you didn't love me as strongly as you said you did...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 9

    What it feels like to be truly in love with

    someone who is truly in love with me...?
    syntheticrhyme syntheticrhyme
    46-50, F
    1 Response Mar 17

    I have been told by a good friend here

    that in the beginning I was intimidating to her because of my strong opinions. I realise that I may look like that, but as a matter of fact it is just a way to cover my insecurity. I wonder if unconsciously we all try to protect ourselves one way or another. Using shyness...
    Cierzo Cierzo
    41-45, M
    7 Responses Apr 14

    Why can't she have it easy

    for once and have her desires, her dreams and what is right aligned in perfect harmony. Just this once...
    Diablessse Diablessse
    51-55, F
    6 Responses Jan 15, 2015

    It's Wonderful to Wonder..

    I wonder about so many things... I have so many questions.  Wonder is the zest for life... the pursuit of knowledge, or just trying to figure out or to understand.  It's wonderful to learn, to gain an understanding, to see things from a new perspective.  Children...
    Dee67 Dee67
    41-45, F
    14 Responses May 31, 2008

    Sometimes I wonder if I wasn't

    as special as you thought I was. Maybe I'm just someone who stumbled into your path. Wide-eyed and unsuspecting. Not knowing how to shield my heart, because I was drawn to you. I wanted you to feel the same... I could've held back. But I knew I was already attached to you...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    Apr 18

    could have the Ep doomsday have been fake

    since it's past the marker or are they waiting until after today to close the place up hmm I wonder could it have been false or not maybe they changed their minds or maybe they didn't. hmmm
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 21

    I wonder...Why "experiences" show up

    for me that I never chose. ??? I don't appreciate some of the things listed as my experiences. I'm no saint but come on ... Some of that stuff is so not me and I had nothing to do with listing it. I believe you can be sexual, hot and open minded without being tacky and vulgar...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 4, 2015

    I always wonder why nobody chats with me

    but then I realize it's because either I don't answer them or I use one word sentences and they leave. Lol ooops
    DiamondAuthority DiamondAuthority
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 7

    I always wonder... why is it

    that those who always try to stay strong, always end up having to deal with other people's weaknesses? The strong pays for the strength that they hold... Every time they get stronger, they get hurt and scarred in the process. And the pain they weather is usually dealt by those...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 13

    Sometimes people adding me to their circle,

    never making any comments on my stories, nor answering my questions... Not even messaging ever... Why do they add then? I really wonder...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Oct 28, 2015

    Many EP users can write really well.

    To be honest, I felt their writings can reach closer to my heart than the books I have read till today. Even in the category which I do not see eye to eye, they hold my interest till the very last comment. I wonder why there are very few best sellers out there... If possible, I...
    whyacinth whyacinth
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Apr 14

    Life is funny. You can be just cruising along

    one day, feeling completely content, and knowing exactly where the path takes you... then suddenly, you get surprises. And all these surprises will wake you up to something you never knew was missing from your life. And you are never the same again after. Then somehow... it...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 25

    I wonder if all my issues

    now come from not forwarding that chain letter 10 years ago...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Apr 5, 2015

    What is society coming to,

    l really do! Does no one have decent standards or self respect anymore? Does anyone care about anything, apart from their own self gratification?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    22 Responses Dec 6, 2015

    I wonder how much our ideas (about society,

    politics, economics) are influenced by our current status. I know that if it were different, my ideas would not be, but somehow my current situation makes them more intense. Now my partner lives far away. At some point we would like to live in Europe. This desire makes me feel...
    Cierzo Cierzo
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Mar 1

    I wonder if I did something wrong.

    I guess I'll find out soon enough.
    lovesthenightsky lovesthenightsky
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 20

    Do you ever think how you got the idea behind

    your fantasy? I wonder about mine. Daddy and daughter... I don't know if it's because I didn't have a dad growing up or what. But I feel like a weirdo about it. When I fantasize about it he's not my real dad. He's like a male role model like a step dad, neighbor, or even...
    Prettygirl8726 Prettygirl8726
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Jan 1, 2015

    I wonder how missing works.

    Sometimes you're so far out of my thoughts, and at others I can't see past you. Maybe it's the time of year. Maybe it's just me. Or maybe I feel you most strongly when my missing and your missing collide halfway.
    arailia03 arailia03
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2015

    if men I find attractive know about that.

    If they somehow notice that I'm eyeing their figure, face, hair...and can't get enough! Damn, it feels so good to spend time with a good looking man. I don't expect anything, I'm just happy when I can look at them.
    OpenlyHonestly OpenlyHonestly
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 5
    Cierzo Cierzo
    41-45, M
    4 Responses Apr 16

    What now? Five years of my life invested in

    this site,this community and it's all just going away. ****! This really really sucks!
    TheGirlFromJupiter TheGirlFromJupiter
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 31

    How easily the fruits

    and veggies get cut! They don't resist, they don't oppose. Coz that's how they are made, soft, cutable, eatable.. Sounds a bit absurd lol, but while slicing them I was wondering.. How often do we resist things and situations and people and opinions! How often do we oppose.. How...
    DropsOfRain DropsOfRain
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 15

    All the things you do point to the conclusion

    that I meant less than others. This sensitive heart of mine will always clench at the thought, and this negative mind will grasp at this as the most likely truth. And I will ask myself, "Why them, and not me?" But I always remember in the end... Nothing you do would ever be...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 5

    How much longer will my poor little phone last.

    The screen is cracked all to hell, and today I got it all wet. Now there are gray spots all over the screen, and they're getting worse :(
    PraiseBeToYevon PraiseBeToYevon
    31-35, F
    5 Responses May 19, 2015

    would it be heaven if

    once you click the block button, they all gone from yr sight? No them on Q&A, no them in newsfeed.. oh EP angels, do you want me to sacrifice a pig for you to grant my one wish...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i
    70+, M
    2 Responses Mar 9, 2015

    I wonder if there will ever be a time

    when Paris will no longer be synonymous with what might have been....
    Diablessse Diablessse
    51-55, F
    12 Responses Mar 20, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 31

    EP is closing soon so

    if any of my friends want to keep in touch with me please let me know!
    MountainBrew MountainBrew
    22-25, M
    Apr 4
    computerfreak computerfreak
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Mar 17

    Do you sometimes wake up feeling inexplicably

    sad? With a huge lump in your throat and a profound sadness pervading everything? Do you wake up struggling to hold back tears that have no precise cause other than a sadness that fills your heart to overflowing? Is it from missing someone so much it physically hurts? Could it...
    Diablessse Diablessse
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Jan 28, 2015

    I sometimes stumble across posts,

    where the user is so happy that she found someone. Someone who understands them, someone who accepts her imperfections, someone who says he'll never leave. And I recognise it. I recognise it as the person I was just several months ago. And for a moment I almost want to laugh...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 16

    Men are born between a woman's legs

    and spend the rest of their live trying to get back between them...... WHY? is it because there's no place like home.. lmao
    badmel badmel
    31-35, F
    10 Responses Sep 30, 2015

    I wonder why kids and young people had cowboys

    (or indians), cops (or robbers), firemen, soldiers, as idols, and nowadays it is not unfrequent that they have Steve Jobs or Bill Gates. It sounds scary to me.
    Cierzo Cierzo
    41-45, M
    5 Responses Apr 12
    SimplyTracie SimplyTracie
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 25
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