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I Won't Allow My Future to Be Detroyed By My Past

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    Fungirl's Thoughts

    I got tired of my past dictating my future.  One night I had a dream that changed me profoundly.  In the dream, although he didn't say it in real life, Silver said to me, "Don't lose sight of your future by allowing your past to cloud the view."  Pretty...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 7 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    I've heard many women say,

    "I want to be just like my mother". I've never once in my life had that thought. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother. But she was never a good mom, even now at 27, I'm still not close to her. Yes, she made sure there was a roof over my head and food to eat, but that's pretty...
    Court424 Court424 26-30, F Feb 17, 2014

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    Breaking the Cycle

    I have dealt with a lot of crap, from having an alcoholic father that my mentally ill mother finally left, then ending up with a stepfather who is verbally abusive, feeling like I wasn't good enough ever, spending a lot of time with guys because I wanted to feel...
    katpunkhippiegirl katpunkhippiegirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2008

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    Good Times And Bad

    Growing up in poverty, never really fitting in, having to do most everything for myself on my own along with helping my siblings (2nd oldest of 6), being put in foster care, losing part of my family, home and family never really being the same, falling in love young and being...
    MissSunfire MissSunfire 26-30, F Mar 9, 2010

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    am looking forward to my future with the one i

    love she makes me feel like luckiest man alive every day
    atomicbombastar atomicbombastar 26-30, M May 15

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    Always Reminders

    I try very hard not to let things from my past interfere with today. But... the best laid plans... There are times... in the dark... that I go through the what ifs. At times I take a chance and reveal a little more, a few more pieces of me, to select few others. Wanting no...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F May 30, 2009

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    No, I Won't

    And neither should you.If you buy into the idea that the past is part of your present and will forever be part of your future, then you have paid for something that is worthless.Life has some really bad turns in it.  Everybody gets thrown into a ditch from time to time.  Some...
    iwritebiographies iwritebiographies 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 27, 2011

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    There's No Way

    There's no way,Future destroyed by past,Won't let it,Wanna move on,Live again,Forget the past,I've changed!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 28, 2012

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    My Life

                                         My greatest failer became  my greatest acomplishment...
    bohemianbeauty72 bohemianbeauty72 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    Forgiving Myself

    What I have learned, am still learning, is to know who you are and set goals that are within your reach. Some of us have come from terrible backgrounds, others have made poor choices. We first recognize our faults and confront them. We must learn from our past and move forward...
    princess4ever01 princess4ever01 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    My past was hard, I didn't have a childhood at

    all. I had to grow up at a young age. But I won't let that stop me today, now I'm living my childhood at 20 years old. Doing all the things I wanted to do as a child but couldn't. Why? Because I owe that to my self, I can't blame myself for my past. When one door closes another...
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective 18-21, F Dec 16, 2013

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    Their selfish hands always expecting more was i

    their child or just a charity award ..?
    SexyNightmare SexyNightmare 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2014

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    I like to think of myself

    as a Phoenix. I will be reborn from my mistakes and be stronger because of them.
    Emiliodecker Emiliodecker 18-21, M Mar 17, 2014

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    At Least I Hope Not.

    I was recently given a sharp reminder that we don't always have any say in the matter...
    notdarcy notdarcy 41-45, M 4 Responses May 18, 2009

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    Changed But Not Destroyed

    I know that trying to insist I'm not damaged because of my past is a waste of breath...and an outright lie.  I am damaged.  I have scars, both physical and emotional.So what?I am no longer that helpless child, that trapped teenager, or that paralyzed young adult.  I no longer...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 9, 2011

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    What Matters

    I've come too far along to just let the progress I've made slip through my fingers again.  I'm also never going to let another person have the power to control my heart and mind and make me believe that I'm worthless.  I used to think that hiding all my problems...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2008

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    my father basically abused me.

    yep. hit my strangled me once he slammed a car trunk door on my shoulder. I was 8. he's like 6'4. he bought me a python once made me hold it all the time. I hated it so much. I still have trouble sleeping and I had to go to therapy sometimes to even get thru the day. I will not...
    JessieJ16 JessieJ16 16-17, F Dec 25, 2014

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    I can't stand people

    that bring others down because of their past. I didn't realize that there were perfect people in this world...ever!
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F Oct 3, 2014

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    I as a person has been through hell

    and back. I've experienced things that others couldnt possibly imagine. At the age of 3 my parents divorced and that when everything started, the molestation that had went on for years, the beatings, and all of the heart break. Sometimes i wonder why god chose me to suffer and...
    Haleymarie123 Haleymarie123 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F Jul 29, 2014

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    Freedom

    freedom is what i desire....it seems to elude me......maybe i am already free because i desire it as those that live in a world unaware of the impact that there past has had on them will never be free.awareness is the key to freedom and i hold that in my hand.
    bohemianbeauty72 bohemianbeauty72 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    Hope In Darkness

      It is still there.       The light of hope shines, even though I cannot see it.         I need to remind myself of this truth. There are better days to come. Today is a better day then so many other ones I have...
    stormynightsky stormynightsky 22-25, F 16 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    Mark My Words...

    It's been a tough road so far.. I've had some smooth sailing and some really rough bumps... still going through them too..  People have hurt me, and I've hurt myself..  but I refuse to let things that others have done to me stop me from loving or living. 
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel 31-35, M 3 Responses May 21, 2009

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    So True

    I have so many crappy stories about my past, and I have a ton of regrets. However, every day I choose to not let those memories dictate who I am or who I will be.
    TayterTot TayterTot 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2009

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    And thats why i am going to live far away from

    my parents and my family. they ruined my whole childhood.
    BooksAreMyComfort BooksAreMyComfort 16-17, F Jul 5

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    I have concluded that yesterday is past,

    but I get to decide what my future will be like. This is not a cliche. I will set my path toward my goals. I'm 17 and will graduate next May. No more stupid mistakes (that many assume girls make). I am an intelligent black young lady. You want to step with me you must come...
    TaysteeHan1 TaysteeHan1 18-21, F Sep 21, 2014

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    NEVER!!

    i used to have a drug addiction...meth...and it got me a felony...and it used to be a problem to me finding a job... i went to school got off meth have made something of myself...and now i have a goal to not let my future be destroyed by my past!!! thank u for putting this...
    OceanicDebris OceanicDebris 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2009

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    Dear future self, We both know that pointless niceties mean nothing to us. So, I'll get straight to the point. What have you done? Can you honestly say that you're happy with the...
    PianoChan PianoChan 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Even though my past has only really hurt me, I don't want it to be that crutch, that spot that just won't disappear, but it is. I have mistakes and some wrong decisions along the...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    It never cease to amaze me how deep the basic animal instincts go in us humans, and how strong of a need people have to have the protection of a "heard", so to speak. I don't...
    MantisReligiosa MantisReligiosa 66-70, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I gave up. I did. But, I won't give up again. I was making progress overcoming my social anxieties in the spring. I was getting more comfortable in social situations and making...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    You won't get my attention if you're being a tool and/or nasty, perverted, rude etc. Avoid of all that and you'll get my undivided attention. Unless my cat wants attention of...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    I believe we all have a Batman like friend (emotionless and stotic) while i'm the Joker friend (carefree and funny), except almost nowhere near psychotic:I tried so hard, my dear...
    EternalLuckyGuy EternalLuckyGuy 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Are casual hookups okay these days?
    Valzz Valzz 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Frankly, my relationship with my mother sucks. I do not want it to suck. I do not want to be angry with her, but I am so tired. I moved back home over a year ago to get my life...
    DV527 DV527 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Well I don't know where to start. My parents are getting a divorce soon. And it is my moms fault. She has been having an affair for god knows how long and my Dad is always very sad...
    youchewy youchewy 18-21, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    My dad treated my family like crap. For years. I forgive him, but I won't forget what he did to us.
    imveryboring imveryboring 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    Dear Past, please stop bothering me. Just stop. Please. No matter how fast you run and chase me, you'll catch me anyway. No matter how hard you beat me, I'll break anyway. No...
    crackedwriter crackedwriter 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    * I love a good quote * " She has walls because she's been hurt before. It's not unusual that those walls have built higher standards. She's not willing to make the same mistakes...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 23

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    Depending how the next few months pan out I might become homeless... I live with my mom's boyfriend but he's getting bored of us because my mom's In Mexico, because my grandma is...
    Manuel1Martinez Manuel1Martinez 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 22

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    I am a disappointment. I am nothingness in the sense of the word. I don't belong here. I've known this for a very long time. life and love are not deserved here. not then not now...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    enough with feeling like crap. crappie can take a holiday or buzz off. so If life Is down and you know It change It small way. try and hobby join and dance class. go to and concert...
    Awesomegal81 Awesomegal81 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 22

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