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I Won't Allow My Future to Be Detroyed By My Past

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    I have concluded that yesterday is past,

    but I get to decide what my future will be like. This is not a cliche. I will set my path toward my goals. I'm 17 and will graduate next May. No more stupid mistakes (that many assume girls make). I am an intelligent black young lady. You want to step with me you must come...
    TaysteeHan1 TaysteeHan1 18-21, F Sep 21, 2014

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    NEVER!!

    i used to have a drug addiction...meth...and it got me a felony...and it used to be a problem to me finding a job... i went to school got off meth have made something of myself...and now i have a goal to not let my future be destroyed by my past!!! thank u for putting this...
    OceanicDebris OceanicDebris 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2009

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    I have had the tendency to ignore my feelings.

    Been doing it for so many years to cover my memories of the emotional abuse by my mother and few times sexual abuse by the father figure. Somehow you just can't escape yourself. After time the dreadful feeling of fears, loneliness, hatred and destroyed self-esteem came back to...
    belleverano belleverano 22-25, F Jan 20

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    And thats why i am going to live far away from

    my parents and my family. they ruined my whole childhood.
    DELETEDDXXXXXXX DELETEDDXXXXXXX 18-21, F Jul 5, 2015

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    Hope In Darkness

      It is still there.       The light of hope shines, even though I cannot see it.         I need to remind myself of this truth. There are better days to come. Today is a better day then so many other ones I have...
    stormynightsky stormynightsky 22-25, F 16 Responses Apr 13, 2009

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    I've heard many women say,

    "I want to be just like my mother". I've never once in my life had that thought. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother. But she was never a good mom, even now at 27, I'm still not close to her. Yes, she made sure there was a roof over my head and food to eat, but that's pretty...
    Court424 Court424 26-30, F Feb 17, 2014

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    My Life

                                         My greatest failer became  my greatest acomplishment...
    bohemianbeauty72 bohemianbeauty72 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2009

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    Changed But Not Destroyed

    I know that trying to insist I'm not damaged because of my past is a waste of breath...and an outright lie.  I am damaged.  I have scars, both physical and emotional.So what?I am no longer that helpless child, that trapped teenager, or that paralyzed young adult.  I no longer...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 9, 2011

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    Forgiving Myself

    What I have learned, am still learning, is to know who you are and set goals that are within your reach. Some of us have come from terrible backgrounds, others have made poor choices. We first recognize our faults and confront them. We must learn from our past and move forward...
    princess4ever01 princess4ever01 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    My past was hard, I didn't have a childhood at

    all. I had to grow up at a young age. But I won't let that stop me today, now I'm living my childhood at 20 years old. Doing all the things I wanted to do as a child but couldn't. Why? Because I owe that to my self, I can't blame myself for my past. When one door closes another...
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective 22-25, F Dec 16, 2013

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    I as a person has been through hell

    and back. I've experienced things that others couldnt possibly imagine. At the age of 3 my parents divorced and that when everything started, the molestation that had went on for years, the beatings, and all of the heart break. Sometimes i wonder why god chose me to suffer and...
    Haleymarie123 Haleymarie123 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    No, I Won't

    And neither should you.If you buy into the idea that the past is part of your present and will forever be part of your future, then you have paid for something that is worthless.Life has some really bad turns in it.  Everybody gets thrown into a ditch from time to time.  Some...
    iwritebiographies iwritebiographies 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 27, 2011

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    Mark My Words...

    It's been a tough road so far.. I've had some smooth sailing and some really rough bumps... still going through them too..  People have hurt me, and I've hurt myself..  but I refuse to let things that others have done to me stop me from loving or living. 
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel 31-35, M 3 Responses May 21, 2009

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    What Matters

    I've come too far along to just let the progress I've made slip through my fingers again.  I'm also never going to let another person have the power to control my heart and mind and make me believe that I'm worthless.  I used to think that hiding all my problems...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2008

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    I can't stand people

    that bring others down because of their past. I didn't realize that there were perfect people in this world...ever!
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 26-30, F Oct 3, 2014

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    There's No Way

    There's no way,Future destroyed by past,Won't let it,Wanna move on,Live again,Forget the past,I've changed!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 28, 2012

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    I have strong family values.

    .. Although I don't know for the life of me where they come from. Family values WERE NOT instilled in me... Rather, I was taught the opposite. My parents avoided family. If I can paint a picture for you... As a child I remember, one of my aunts (my dad's sister) and her...
    StarLily71 StarLily71 41-45, F Jan 23

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    Fungirl's Thoughts

    I got tired of my past dictating my future.  One night I had a dream that changed me profoundly.  In the dream, although he didn't say it in real life, Silver said to me, "Don't lose sight of your future by allowing your past to cloud the view."  Pretty...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 7 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    my father basically abused me.

    yep. hit my strangled me once he slammed a car trunk door on my shoulder. I was 8. he's like 6'4. he bought me a python once made me hold it all the time. I hated it so much. I still have trouble sleeping and I had to go to therapy sometimes to even get thru the day. I will not...
    JessieJ16 JessieJ16 16-17, F Dec 25, 2014

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    I like to think of myself

    as a Phoenix. I will be reborn from my mistakes and be stronger because of them.
    Emiliodecker Emiliodecker 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 17, 2014

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    Freedom

    freedom is what i desire....it seems to elude me......maybe i am already free because i desire it as those that live in a world unaware of the impact that there past has had on them will never be free.awareness is the key to freedom and i hold that in my hand.
    bohemianbeauty72 bohemianbeauty72 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    Their selfish hands always expecting more was i

    their child or just a charity award ..?
    SexyNightmare SexyNightmare 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2014

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    So True

    I have so many crappy stories about my past, and I have a ton of regrets. However, every day I choose to not let those memories dictate who I am or who I will be.
    TayterTot TayterTot 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2009

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    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F Jul 29, 2014

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    Good Times And Bad

    Growing up in poverty, never really fitting in, having to do most everything for myself on my own along with helping my siblings (2nd oldest of 6), being put in foster care, losing part of my family, home and family never really being the same, falling in love young and being...
    MissSunfire MissSunfire 26-30, F Mar 9, 2010

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    Breaking the Cycle

    I have dealt with a lot of crap, from having an alcoholic father that my mentally ill mother finally left, then ending up with a stepfather who is verbally abusive, feeling like I wasn't good enough ever, spending a lot of time with guys because I wanted to feel...
    katpunkhippiegirl katpunkhippiegirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2008

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    am looking forward to my future with the one i

    love she makes me feel like luckiest man alive every day
    atomicbombastar atomicbombastar 26-30, M May 15, 2015

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    At Least I Hope Not.

    I was recently given a sharp reminder that we don't always have any say in the matter...
    notdarcy notdarcy 41-45, M 4 Responses May 18, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I also don't expect you to change for me. Unless you're an idiot...or an *******, then yes change.
    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I sat in a chair today. It was comfy.
    Splosh279 Splosh279 13-15, M 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    My father has been an irresponsible child for as long as I can remember. We always suffered economically and I never had any stability in my life. Bills unpaid, rent unpaid...
    swiftword08 swiftword08 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I sexually identify as a pickup truck. Pls don't judge
    YungHopeless YungHopeless 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I suffer from severe depression and high anxiety, people seem to have expectations of me that I can't fulfill. I can't always fake being happy, sometimes I will have panic attacks...
    KittySoules KittySoules 22-25, T 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have a friend that is going through not such an easy time in her life. I want her to know that no matter what what she does or doesn't do, no matter how she decides to live her...
    Pilotbob75 Pilotbob75 36-40, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    We've established that through enough of my postings so there's nothing more to say on the subject.
    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    Some people actually believe changing views and more acceptance of gay and bisexual people will ruin humanity, but there arguments are based on what people with a religious view...
    4myinnerchild 4myinnerchild 56-60, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am really hoping there is someone out in this world who can understand me and tell me what to do with myself because I don't know what to do with all this. I don't know why my...
    Kailey76 Kailey76 36-40, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    The brilliant ones who don't think just about themselves are always taken first. However the world cannot forget them. 😊
    SymphonyChild SymphonyChild 13-15, F a week ago

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    Never blame anyone in your life. The good people give you happiness. The bad people give you experience. The worst people give you a lesson. The best people give you memories.
    XxmakaronxX XxmakaronxX 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    You told me how I mattered right to my face, and how there was no way I'd ever be replaced. Well your words have etched out disgrace. BS. And I wonder how it tastes? Repeating it...
    Taynkbot Taynkbot 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 6

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    Lately, I don't know why but I haven't been able to will myself into keeping up with homeworks from school. I just haven't been doing anything at all, and it's hard to wake up the...
    somniatorlupus somniatorlupus 18-21, M Feb 5

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    I am basically a happy person and I will not allow anyone to influence me in a negative way. No matter how much people may try to bring my spirits down I won't allow them to...
    samantha468 samantha468 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    Is it normal to feel like killing everyone that's hurt me? It 's like, I dont care if they have a family, life, people who love them, nothing. I just want them to die. I think...
    kardelen kardelen 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 4

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