I Won't Allow My Future to Be Detroyed By My Past

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    my father basically abused me.

    yep. hit my strangled me once he slammed a car trunk door on my shoulder. I was 8. he's like 6'4. he bought me a python once made me hold it all the time. I hated it so much. I still have trouble sleeping and I had to go to therapy sometimes to even get thru the day. I will not...
    JessieJ16 JessieJ16
    18-21, F
    Dec 25, 2014

    Breaking the Cycle

    I have dealt with a lot of crap, from having an alcoholic father that my mentally ill mother finally left, then ending up with a stepfather who is verbally abusive, feeling like I wasn't good enough ever, spending a lot of time with guys because I wanted to feel...
    katpunkhippiegirl katpunkhippiegirl
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 11, 2008

    Fungirl's Thoughts

    I got tired of my past dictating my future.  One night I had a dream that changed me profoundly.  In the dream, although he didn't say it in real life, Silver said to me, "Don't lose sight of your future by allowing your past to cloud the view."  Pretty...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Dec 6, 2008

    My Life

                                         My greatest failer became  my greatest acomplishment...
    bohemianbeauty72 bohemianbeauty72
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2009


    freedom is what i desire....it seems to elude me......maybe i am already free because i desire it as those that live in a world unaware of the impact that there past has had on them will never be free.awareness is the key to freedom and i hold that in my hand.
    bohemianbeauty72 bohemianbeauty72
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2009

    Mark My Words...

    It's been a tough road so far.. I've had some smooth sailing and some really rough bumps... still going through them too..  People have hurt me, and I've hurt myself..  but I refuse to let things that others have done to me stop me from loving or living. 
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel
    31-35, M
    3 Responses May 21, 2009

    am looking forward to my future with the one i

    love she makes me feel like luckiest man alive every day
    atomicbombastar atomicbombastar
    26-30, M
    May 15, 2015

    I can't stand people

    that bring others down because of their past. I didn't realize that there were perfect people in this world...ever!
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25
    26-30, F
    Oct 3, 2014

    Their selfish hands always expecting more was i

    their child or just a charity award ..?
    SexyNightmare SexyNightmare
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2014

    Forgiving Myself

    What I have learned, am still learning, is to know who you are and set goals that are within your reach. Some of us have come from terrible backgrounds, others have made poor choices. We first recognize our faults and confront them. We must learn from our past and move forward...
    princess4ever01 princess4ever01
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 31, 2009

    I have had the tendency to ignore my feelings.

    Been doing it for so many years to cover my memories of the emotional abuse by my mother and few times sexual abuse by the father figure. Somehow you just can't escape yourself. After time the dreadful feeling of fears, loneliness, hatred and destroyed self-esteem came back to...
    belleverano belleverano
    26-30, F
    Jan 20, 2016

    No, I Won't

    And neither should you.If you buy into the idea that the past is part of your present and will forever be part of your future, then you have paid for something that is worthless.Life has some really bad turns in it.  Everybody gets thrown into a ditch from time to time.  Some...
    iwritebiographies iwritebiographies
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Nov 27, 2011

    Hope In Darkness

      It is still there.       The light of hope shines, even though I cannot see it.         I need to remind myself of this truth. There are better days to come. Today is a better day then so many other ones I have...
    stormynightsky stormynightsky
    22-25, F
    16 Responses Apr 13, 2009

    Changed But Not Destroyed

    I know that trying to insist I'm not damaged because of my past is a waste of breath...and an outright lie.  I am damaged.  I have scars, both physical and emotional.So what?I am no longer that helpless child, that trapped teenager, or that paralyzed young adult.  I no longer...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2011

    There's No Way

    There's no way,Future destroyed by past,Won't let it,Wanna move on,Live again,Forget the past,I've changed!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    1 Response Feb 28, 2012

    I've heard many women say,

    "I want to be just like my mother". I've never once in my life had that thought. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother. But she was never a good mom, even now at 27, I'm still not close to her. Yes, she made sure there was a roof over my head and food to eat, but that's pretty...
    Court424 Court424
    26-30, F
    Feb 17, 2014

    I like to think of myself

    as a Phoenix. I will be reborn from my mistakes and be stronger because of them.
    Emiliodecker Emiliodecker
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 17, 2014

    My past was hard, I didn't have a childhood at

    all. I had to grow up at a young age. But I won't let that stop me today, now I'm living my childhood at 20 years old. Doing all the things I wanted to do as a child but couldn't. Why? Because I owe that to my self, I can't blame myself for my past. When one door closes another...
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective
    22-25, F
    Dec 16, 2013

    I have concluded that yesterday is past,

    but I get to decide what my future will be like. This is not a cliche. I will set my path toward my goals. I'm 17 and will graduate next May. No more stupid mistakes (that many assume girls make). I am an intelligent black young lady. You want to step with me you must come...
    TaysteeHan1 TaysteeHan1
    18-21, F
    Sep 21, 2014

    And thats why i am going to live far away from

    my parents and my family. they ruined my whole childhood.
    18-21, F
    Jul 5, 2015

    I as a person has been through hell

    and back. I've experienced things that others couldnt possibly imagine. At the age of 3 my parents divorced and that when everything started, the molestation that had went on for years, the beatings, and all of the heart break. Sometimes i wonder why god chose me to suffer and...
    Haleymarie123 Haleymarie123
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2013


    i used to have a drug addiction...meth...and it got me a felony...and it used to be a problem to me finding a job... i went to school got off meth have made something of myself...and now i have a goal to not let my future be destroyed by my past!!! thank u for putting this...
    OceanicDebris OceanicDebris
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2009

    Good Times And Bad

    Growing up in poverty, never really fitting in, having to do most everything for myself on my own along with helping my siblings (2nd oldest of 6), being put in foster care, losing part of my family, home and family never really being the same, falling in love young and being...
    MissSunfire MissSunfire
    26-30, F
    Mar 9, 2010

    What Matters

    I've come too far along to just let the progress I've made slip through my fingers again.  I'm also never going to let another person have the power to control my heart and mind and make me believe that I'm worthless.  I used to think that hiding all my problems...
    yoyy yoyy
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2008

    So True

    I have so many crappy stories about my past, and I have a ton of regrets. However, every day I choose to not let those memories dictate who I am or who I will be.
    TayterTot TayterTot
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2009
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