I Won't Self Harm

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    I Want To Stop

    Its hard hiding the scars in a short sleeved top.
    christos77 christos77
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 1, 2012

    Write now if I was alone,

    I would probably punch brick walls. I am so depressed and feel so defeated. But the pain would make me feel strong. It might make me feel like I'm actually in control of something for once. I get so angry, because I work so hard and nothing ever goes right. If I was a cutter I'd...
    ICantJustBeMe ICantJustBeMe
    18-21, F
    Dec 24, 2015

    Trying Again....

    it seems like any day that i go more than three days, and i think, okay maybe i can beat this battle with self-injury, and i can do it, something happens, and i just go back to cutting again. i hate that, i just want to stop self-harming myself, but i feel like i need to punish...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 1, 2010

    What Helped Me

    "When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer." Psalm 94:19I am writing this today for everyone reading this who deep down feels less than, who feels like they might not be somehow "eligible" for healing and blessings, who feel like God is there for...
    girl4god girl4god
    36-40, F
    Feb 24, 2012

    Never will I ever damage my body in any way.

    No matter how unhappy I am with it, it's me. That's how I look & that's how God made me & my beautiful body doesn't deserve that. Nobody deserves that.
    EmiTru EmiTru
    18-21, F
    Feb 9, 2014

    Even through everything I've been through

    from; My parents been drug addicts Severe bullying Getting tripped up/tackled to he floor from people who don't like me And getting threatened I've never self harmed and that's because my mum always told me, "Do people really want to grow up and have ugly scars all over...
    IMAVAMPIRE IMAVAMPIRE
    16-17, F
    Jan 7, 2014

    One Day One day. I hope.

    I will be able to stop. One day. I hope. I will no longer need to self harm. One day. I hope. I will no longer have the urge. One day. I hope. Cutting will just be. Something In my past. One day. I hope. Cutting will just be. Something that I struggled with. One day. I hope...
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel
    26-30, F
    Jul 3, 2015

    When I think about it,

    doing drugs & cutting yourself is basically the same thing. Not always but let me explain; people do drugs to relieve the pain & stress & so do cutters. They both are damaging their bodies. Not realizing what they are doing to themselves. It's just different ways & forms of...
    EmiTru EmiTru
    18-21, F
    Feb 9, 2014

    Hopefully Not Again No....

    I have self harmed.. Not badly just enough to cause a little pain and blood and only a hand-full of times but hopefully i wont do it again.  Well i better not do it again because i have promised to a friend that i wouldn't do it again. Problem is when i hurt someone i like...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Apr 15, 2010

    No matter how close I have come,

    or how much I think about it, I just couldn't do that to you, you've been through enough already and i won't make it worse for you. I will try my hardest to keep myself sane but it keeps getting harder.
    Verix Verix
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 27, 2014

    Razor Blades...

    ... I get it, I really do. I don't have to try to understand, it just makes sense to me. Inflicting physical pain upon yourself to take you mind off of what you are enduring mentally or emotionally does not sound too shabby. Physical over emotional sounds like a good trade off...
    KatjaShoshanaGrace KatjaShoshanaGrace
    31-35, F
    Dec 29, 2010
    cashetty69 cashetty69
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    I Won't Say I Won't.....

    I won't say I won't self harm. But I will say this, I am trying not to resort to self-harm as a way to run from my problems, and to escape the emotional pain. I won't say I will never self-harm again, because we know that is a Lie. But, I will say, I am trying hard not to resort...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 5, 2010

    Its Mental Harm

    I dont know why i keep on doing this..hurt myself like dis! One moment i am cool with everything and moving on..the next,i get my guards down and all those crappy flns get me feeling miserable!!ì hate it..why i get tempted..i dont wana go to that damn person's ep profile,n see...
    Alonewoolf Alonewoolf
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Oct 16, 2010

    ..........

    one day i know wont feel the need to self harm..i know it will be ok..i know i do things i shouldnt..i know even when i dont eat,its self harm..i just cant stop it..its in thoughts..but one day it will stop..all the things i feel ..bout cutting ..about many things 
    amysangels amysangels
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jan 23, 2010

    Cut Too Deep...

     Cutting was a massive part of my life. It still is i guess... But Ive "cut down" (haaa ironic choice of words) because of a very nasty reality check i got a while ago. I'd had a really bad episode with my dad that morning and had just got insanely depressed. I...
    Bleue Bleue
    16-17, F
    Mar 4, 2010

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