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I Worry I May Be Bipolar

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    I'm Too Scared To Go To The Doctor

    My mom is diagnosed bi-polar. I know that doesn't mean that I have it too, but there's a chance and I almost would rather not know. I've been feeling the reality of it a lot lately. In one moment I will be so happy and full of energy; like nothing could ever go wrong in life. And...
    Bfota Bfota 22-25, F May 8, 2012

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    I have never posted a blog entry in my life but I need support from people who understand mental illness. I cannot stand being bipolar. I ******* hate it! It is exhausting and...
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    Here I sit in a dilemma I often do to myself my ambitions have outweighed my capabilities.(if you're a grammar nut pls stop here) I'm bipolar and currently not medicated which has...
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