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I Would Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothing At All

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    I was hurting.  Sore, aching.  Miserable.  My mind in a confusing whirl of thoughts and feelings.  In despair I spoke to a friend.  Said I was feeling bad, desperate.  "Well, be thankful that at least you can feel, as there are many people who can't...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    “ I Would Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothing At All”

        Words to a great song “I need you Now” by Lady Antelbella. it’s a great song, and I simply Love it. It says so much, about Love, and wanting someone, and needing someone so bad, that you are unsure if you can go on with out them...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 21, 2010

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    Medicated.

    I've been prescribed medications for depression. They made me numb.I self-medicated with alcohol. It made me forget.Now I use nothing, and life pretty much sucks a lot of the time, but I plaster a smile on my face and go through the motions of being okay. No matter how much I...
    DopeyGirl DopeyGirl 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2010

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    Hell On Earth..

     I had always heard this saying....I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all..and in my naivite, I scoffed at it.  How could anything be worse than the excruciating torture of heartbreak??  Now, I know the true meaning of this phase, and it's unfortunate truth. ...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    Drugs

    i have a mental condition I know that. i know that going on drugs would help a lot. What I can't stand is how it makes you feel nothing at all. i would rather have the feelings I have than not knowing what I feel. i don't think we were intend to feel nothing, millions of people...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2010

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    This Is My Addiction

    Numb is the enemy. It leaves open ends in the back of my mind that continuously unravel in stillness. I need something, ANYTHING to distract me from life, love, and the lack of those. From myself... even if it means pain. Pain isn't painful to someone who can't feel. It is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 24, 2010

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    Hurt & Nada

    I felt hurt and I felt numb.  I was on both side.  I guess it is cause I have a good heart.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Aug 21, 2011

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    I Used To Say That.

    I used to say I would rather hurt than feel nothing at all, but now I would rather be numb than have feeling at all. Check out this group for online counselling. We are forming a group of unique counsellors. I hope you enjoy, and at least stop in! I Want To Offer Free Counselling...
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 1 Response Jan 1, 2012

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    I'm Not A Robot ...

    I had gone through that feeling of feel nothing at all ... I was hurted badly but I couldn't cry .. As if I was extremely shocked and I could feel nothing .. like a robot .. body worked but heart didn't .. Its so bad .. and took a while before I was recovered again ..
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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