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I Would Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothing At All

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    Hurt & Nada

    I felt hurt and I felt numb.  I was on both side.  I guess it is cause I have a good heart.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Aug 21, 2011

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    Hell On Earth..

     I had always heard this saying....I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all..and in my naivite, I scoffed at it.  How could anything be worse than the excruciating torture of heartbreak??  Now, I know the true meaning of this phase, and it's unfortunate truth. ...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    Medicated.

    I've been prescribed medications for depression. They made me numb.I self-medicated with alcohol. It made me forget.Now I use nothing, and life pretty much sucks a lot of the time, but I plaster a smile on my face and go through the motions of being okay. No matter how much I...
    DopeyGirl DopeyGirl 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2010

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    “ I Would Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothing At All”

        Words to a great song “I need you Now” by Lady Antelbella. it’s a great song, and I simply Love it. It says so much, about Love, and wanting someone, and needing someone so bad, that you are unsure if you can go on with out them...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 21, 2010

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    Drugs

    i have a mental condition I know that. i know that going on drugs would help a lot. What I can't stand is how it makes you feel nothing at all. i would rather have the feelings I have than not knowing what I feel. i don't think we were intend to feel nothing, millions of people...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2010

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    Functioning

    I was hurting.  Sore, aching.  Miserable.  My mind in a confusing whirl of thoughts and feelings.  In despair I spoke to a friend.  Said I was feeling bad, desperate.  "Well, be thankful that at least you can feel, as there are many people who can't...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    This Is My Addiction

    Numb is the enemy. It leaves open ends in the back of my mind that continuously unravel in stillness. I need something, ANYTHING to distract me from life, love, and the lack of those. From myself... even if it means pain. Pain isn't painful to someone who can't feel. It is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 24, 2010

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    I'm Not A Robot ...

    I had gone through that feeling of feel nothing at all ... I was hurted badly but I couldn't cry .. As if I was extremely shocked and I could feel nothing .. like a robot .. body worked but heart didn't .. Its so bad .. and took a while before I was recovered again ..
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    I Used To Say That.

    I used to say I would rather hurt than feel nothing at all, but now I would rather be numb than have feeling at all. Check out this group for online counselling. We are forming a group of unique counsellors. I hope you enjoy, and at least stop in! I Want To Offer Free Counselling...
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 1 Response Jan 1, 2012

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    if you have any news good or bad i would rather hear it from the person that has something to say rather than other people cause by time it make it to me there story has been...
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    I love it when people are affectionate with me. I like it when people invite me places, or text me, or call me. I would rather have that person than someone who makes me text them...
    foreignindulgence foreignindulgence 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Perhaps I am not the "Ideal" person in Todays Overly Politically Correct Society , and am far too concise and blunt for most peoples taste nowadays , Nor am I rich , dashing...
    TsavoHunter TsavoHunter 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I think that we have lost the ability to talk to one another in person. Case in point, my own mother would rather express her issues via text than talk to people about it. What is...
    SemiAthleticFoodieChick93 SemiAthleticFoodieChick93 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Okay so I've been on here a while and I think I finally feel comfortable sharing my story. I lived with my uncle most of my life, from age 6 to age 17. I never felt comfortable...
    anonymous2396 anonymous2396 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 10

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    I'm in a dead relationship it feels. I made him move out because our rship was toxic in a bid to save it. But now, he rarely makes the effort. I have a 7 yr old son and he's like...
    Sia88 Sia88 26-30, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Way back in college i used to party every weekends with my friends, but after graduation and keeping yourself busy with work and saving money for your own expenses i'd rather stay...
    jellynecaryl jellynecaryl 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Being a creative mind, destruction isn't really in my nature. I draw, make music, take pictures, let's just say I 'create' things on a daily basis. This is a part of me you could...
    AlphaOmega13 AlphaOmega13 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I'm about to work my last two night shifts at 7-eleven I really won't miss this place overall. I will miss some of my customers but I might see them anyways. Nothing is changing...
    alcool91 alcool91 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    so many people believe that they should tell lies to cover the disgusting nature of their actions but in truth , nothing is more beautiful than the utterances of truth , because...
    Nichalas Nichalas 22-25, M Jul 10

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    Recently I met this guy on Facebook he went to high school with some childhood friends of mine also. He's sooo hot nd seems smart, he doesn't drink or go clubbing or smoke what so...
    marieshineh marieshineh 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I am currently 14, When I was about four I lost my mom in a vicious custody battle. I lived with my dad and did not see my mom at all. I met my grandparents a while before i lost...
    RayneZ RayneZ 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 11

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    Fake and adored lol no way! Gotta be yourself and it doesnt matter if you are hared or adored,there is always people with taste for all.What matters is what make us grow,so yeah...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I definitely find nudity a more comfortable and refreshing way to live. It feels like whatever worries you had when you wore clothes don't matter anymore once they slip off. When...
    madamebovary86 madamebovary86 46-50, F 7 Responses Jun 27

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    I think we grow from relationships: good ones, bad ones, mediocre ones. I believe one can only learn what they're like in a relationship empirically. So yeah, I'd rather be with...
    LipstickShield LipstickShield 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    I have always, and always will be, myself. I am happy with the fact that I have a 'contradictory' personality (who doesn't? It's part of being human) and really don't care when...
    randomlygenerated randomlygenerated 18-21, F Jul 5

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    i can hardly even think about it without crying. I feel it now. The hot tears running down my face. Ill have to hide it. From my parents. From my friends. From everyone. This is...
    cloakedgarden cloakedgarden 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    yes alone.. if someone cant stand and fight for your love.. why do they have to stay in a relationship.. ? Love is an experience but not a rehearsal of feelings and emotions. Love...
    sheshe39 sheshe39 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I cannot understand why people don't like to listen to the suggestions of someone who is younger than them.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    Therefore, I love you all ^^
    Xxina Xxina 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    Played the role of a third wheel or loner today with 9 people in our group. Nobody made an effort to talk to me today. I guess I'm "annoying" as my "best friend" would say. God, I...
    Maq98 Maq98 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I didn't think I would end up on my own. Two sons, one failed marriage and one long term relationship behind me, I still believe in love and marriage. Just wish I could have my...
    Littlemisspixie Littlemisspixie 51-55, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I know I can be crazy and weird and say blunt things. But it's not out of hate. I love the way I am and wouldn't have myself any other way. I hope someone someday loves me as much...
    mindpalace mindpalace 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I wasted three ******* years on a friend I thought would stick with me forever. Turns out she was lying about every damn thing.
    saralynnn saralynnn 18-21, F 20 hrs ago

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    I grew up in a country setting when I went to beauty school I was 15 on ROP. I made friends with older girls in bad neighborhoods. I got to spend the night at Sherrys home. My dad...
    JMay1994 JMay1994 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Hello everyone, today I think it is telling a story to some, it is only my feelings. I'm an ugly person that lasts as long silence, I am of those who by everything and nothing...
    ferrer95 ferrer95 18-21, F Jul 14

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    The ones that I love the most I always push away and hurt I can't help it. I know the reasons why I do it and I'm trying to forget about all of the things so I can finally move on...
    Burningslowly Burningslowly 13-15, F Jun 25

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    If I could I would live underwater. Take a break from the biosphere and go under for a little bit :)
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F Jul 6

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    Like, everything is crap. Worthless ****. Nothing.. And that I can go on no more. But i been there, and I dont want to go there again. I read many books over my time now... Much...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Jul 11

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    When I was younger (7) my cousin (9) began molesting me. He would do it every time I went over to my aunt aka his mothers house. My family are pretty close, and so I went there...
    loudd03 loudd03 13-15, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Back in the first year of school everything was great and fun, and innocently happy. Now, in such a short time everything has changed and I feel, well, crap. All the time. In the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I'm a teen, not allowed to really do anything, leave the house, go down the street even. I sit on my laptop in my room every single day, with a few exceptions.
    Kessae Kessae 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    "Sorry but I have to **** you" was the last thing I heard before everything changed. I've never told a soul. I can't. They wont treat me the same. Im terrified it'll happen again...
    NowhereKid NowhereKid 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    It was almost 2 years ago. I was a little drunk at a small gathering then two boys came in that we didn't invite. Constantly asked them to leave but they didn't. I was taken into a...
    hdrvhkj hdrvhkj 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 13

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    I was 12 when my brother first started raping me and he punched me and I was knocked out and he must of drugged me, cause I could feel the pain but not do anything and he was just...
    AAmmyyPPiiee AAmmyyPPiiee 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    This is so true...but I'm so lonely waiting for a "right" person
    amandapanda88 amandapanda88 26-30, F 7 Responses Jun 29

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    I used to like being popular with a lot of friends until I realized, what I'd deal with. now I have 3 friends
    princecold princecold 13-15, M Jul 4

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    Life is too short to waste it trapped in unfulfilling relatiomships. I was married for close to a year, and I'm so much happier and satisfied picking and choosing with whom I...
    thegirlnobodyknows thegirlnobodyknows 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    Why waste time on a person that u know that doesn't give a f **** about u .
    romi777 romi777 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago