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I Would Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothing At All

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    This Is My Addiction

    Numb is the enemy. It leaves open ends in the back of my mind that continuously unravel in stillness. I need something, ANYTHING to distract me from life, love, and the lack of those. From myself... even if it means pain. Pain isn't painful to someone who can't feel. It is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 24, 2010

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    Functioning

    I was hurting.  Sore, aching.  Miserable.  My mind in a confusing whirl of thoughts and feelings.  In despair I spoke to a friend.  Said I was feeling bad, desperate.  "Well, be thankful that at least you can feel, as there are many people who can't...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    I Used To Say That.

    I used to say I would rather hurt than feel nothing at all, but now I would rather be numb than have feeling at all. Check out this group for online counselling. We are forming a group of unique counsellors. I hope you enjoy, and at least stop in! I Want To Offer Free Counselling...
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 1 Response Jan 1, 2012

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    Drugs

    i have a mental condition I know that. i know that going on drugs would help a lot. What I can't stand is how it makes you feel nothing at all. i would rather have the feelings I have than not knowing what I feel. i don't think we were intend to feel nothing, millions of people...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2010

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    Hell On Earth..

     I had always heard this saying....I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all..and in my naivite, I scoffed at it.  How could anything be worse than the excruciating torture of heartbreak??  Now, I know the true meaning of this phase, and it's unfortunate truth. ...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    Medicated.

    I've been prescribed medications for depression. They made me numb.I self-medicated with alcohol. It made me forget.Now I use nothing, and life pretty much sucks a lot of the time, but I plaster a smile on my face and go through the motions of being okay. No matter how much I...
    DopeyGirl DopeyGirl 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2010

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    I'm Not A Robot ...

    I had gone through that feeling of feel nothing at all ... I was hurted badly but I couldn't cry .. As if I was extremely shocked and I could feel nothing .. like a robot .. body worked but heart didn't .. Its so bad .. and took a while before I was recovered again ..
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    Hurt & Nada

    I felt hurt and I felt numb.  I was on both side.  I guess it is cause I have a good heart.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Aug 21, 2011

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    “ I Would Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothing At All”

        Words to a great song “I need you Now” by Lady Antelbella. it’s a great song, and I simply Love it. It says so much, about Love, and wanting someone, and needing someone so bad, that you are unsure if you can go on with out them...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 21, 2010

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    It's better to be alone than to get your feelings hurt by someone you may not really know.
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    snm1991 snm1991 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 11

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    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 13-15, M 4 Responses Mar 19

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    I never really feel completely alone, I feel fortunate to have so many amazing people in my life, both friends and family..but as for intimate relationships, that's a different...
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    Fioritura Fioritura 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 7

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    For me, it's truly easy for me to be alone rather than struggle, hope and try to have someone like me for me. I say that not without fault as there are times when I'm truly that...
    Happinessisthinking Happinessisthinking 46-50, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    me and my brother we both like to eat at home than outside.we feel very comfortable in home.we do this when are both home, mostly saturdays.iam the younger one so it has become a...
    Camouflage Camouflage 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 7

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    I've actually never been in a relationship... even many are trying but then if I consider all things around I will rather stay alone... only once I fell in love (I guess it still...
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    When I see my friends getting into relationships and all. It makes me think about how I can't see myself in a relationship. It's kind of sad thinking about it. Still in all honest...
    nuwandaisaphony nuwandaisaphony 16-17 1 Response 6 days ago

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    yes i do . they like saying hurtful things and do hurtful things . if they only knew how painful and miserable it is to have to keep telling people the awful things they say and do...
    furrycats furrycats 31-35 Mar 10

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    yes i do . they like saying hurtful things and do hurtful things . if they only knew how painful and miserable it is to have to keep telling people the awful things they say and do...
    furrycats furrycats 31-35 1 Response Mar 10

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    yes i do . they like saying hurtful things and do hurtful things . if they only knew how painful and miserable it is to have to keep telling people the awful things they say and do...
    furrycats furrycats 31-35 Mar 10

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    I was raped by my exboyfriend when we were still together... I was 14 and he was at the same age as me. He didn't physically rape me but mentally pressured me a lot and force me to...
    qingxiaqiantong qingxiaqiantong 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    What is wrong with guys these days? Aren't you suppose to dress to impress when you go on a date??? Is that too much to ask or something irrelevant these days??? I went on a date...
    melissav369 melissav369 41-45, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    Because the world is far more interesting than I could hope to be.
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 16-17 4 days ago

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    it happened when i was younger but i was messed up for a little bit but always blamed myself insed of the person who hurt me. about a year ago, after years of pushing the pain back...
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 13-15, M 4 Responses Mar 13

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    I know I am worthy of love so why am I alone? I like to tell myself I am ok alone but I would love something more
    isfj isfj 36-40, F a week ago

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    This is the first time, in my short life that I have ever even thought of seriously killing myself. I thought about the future. About what would happen. Then again, the future...
    ISellCrackForTheCIA ISellCrackForTheCIA 18-21, F Mar 4

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    mavrick0417 mavrick0417 36-40, M Mar 17

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    And it hurts. I try to distract myself with other things and try to think this is just a phase, I will find other friends some other time. I wish I could just turn off my...
    Isobel1985 Isobel1985 26-30, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Well not all day, cause I do like the sun sometimes and yeah. But I really do order night time. Not to mention its when I talk to my boyfriend most :P so it's more enjoyable
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 9

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    Okay hi. My name is Katherine and I'm not the user of this account. She's allowed me to use "Experience Project" to share me story. When I was sixteen, I went out to get the mail...
    Justagirllivinglife1 Justagirllivinglife1 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    I mean, I suppose it's impossible to literally "do nothing," but I'm sure most everyone understands how doing nothing just implies a lack of significant activity.
    Blue707 Blue707 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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