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I Would Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothing At All

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    Medicated.

    I've been prescribed medications for depression. They made me numb.I self-medicated with alcohol. It made me forget.Now I use nothing, and life pretty much sucks a lot of the time, but I plaster a smile on my face and go through the motions of being okay. No matter how much I...
    DopeyGirl DopeyGirl 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2010

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    Functioning

    I was hurting.  Sore, aching.  Miserable.  My mind in a confusing whirl of thoughts and feelings.  In despair I spoke to a friend.  Said I was feeling bad, desperate.  "Well, be thankful that at least you can feel, as there are many people who can't...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    This Is My Addiction

    Numb is the enemy. It leaves open ends in the back of my mind that continuously unravel in stillness. I need something, ANYTHING to distract me from life, love, and the lack of those. From myself... even if it means pain. Pain isn't painful to someone who can't feel. It is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 24, 2010

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    I Used To Say That.

    I used to say I would rather hurt than feel nothing at all, but now I would rather be numb than have feeling at all. Check out this group for online counselling. We are forming a group of unique counsellors. I hope you enjoy, and at least stop in! I Want To Offer Free Counselling...
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 1 Response Jan 1, 2012

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    “ I Would Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothing At All”

        Words to a great song “I need you Now” by Lady Antelbella. it’s a great song, and I simply Love it. It says so much, about Love, and wanting someone, and needing someone so bad, that you are unsure if you can go on with out them...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 21, 2010

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    I'm Not A Robot ...

    I had gone through that feeling of feel nothing at all ... I was hurted badly but I couldn't cry .. As if I was extremely shocked and I could feel nothing .. like a robot .. body worked but heart didn't .. Its so bad .. and took a while before I was recovered again ..
    DollyDiva DollyDiva 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    Hurt & Nada

    I felt hurt and I felt numb.  I was on both side.  I guess it is cause I have a good heart.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Aug 21, 2011

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    Hell On Earth..

     I had always heard this saying....I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all..and in my naivite, I scoffed at it.  How could anything be worse than the excruciating torture of heartbreak??  Now, I know the true meaning of this phase, and it's unfortunate truth. ...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    Drugs

    i have a mental condition I know that. i know that going on drugs would help a lot. What I can't stand is how it makes you feel nothing at all. i would rather have the feelings I have than not knowing what I feel. i don't think we were intend to feel nothing, millions of people...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2010

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    than to feel what I feel, I would rather not remember than to reminisce. I feel a void within that still smolders. She created this. Now I further know what's to be had....or so it...
    idleheart idleheart 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 25

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    They hug and kiss you....almost as if they care....only to betray you first chance they get....just for the sake of good gossip....never caring about your feelings and your pain...
    Sjenka Sjenka 36-40, F Nov 29

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    I currently feel nothing. It's strange, like looking out the eyes of someone else's body but not feeling anything- no hunger, happiness, horniness, desire or anything- just this...
    Shackledreturn Shackledreturn 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 15

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    i would rather be happy within myself as a person, treat ppl good, and stable in life, then rich in money living the good life and feel miserable within myself and terrible to...
    Deztiney Deztiney 36-40, F Nov 30

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    Experience project has been here for me through thick and thin. It keep my secrets and helped me cope with my deepest, darkest worries. Thank you for all the people on this site...
    heynice2meetu heynice2meetu 13-15, F Dec 14

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    I would much rather you tell me the hard truth than any kind of lie. Lies build up and hurt over time. A hurtful truth just stings and can be talked about. Lies just always hurt...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Dec 8

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    Wrong person makes you feel even more lonely than being alone.
    Awanputih Awanputih 18-21 3 Responses Dec 1

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    If something is “taboo” then everyone knows not to talk about it. Someone has to defy that. To be taboo, that defies all odds, and shows everyone that someone can be...
    SamanthaJadeee SamanthaJadeee 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Years ago, I was lonely and living in a new city and signed up for a dating site. I was looking for anyone; love, friendship, sex, or drugs, it didn't matter. I met many people...
    UrbanArtFan UrbanArtFan 26-30, T 2 days ago

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    "The TRUTH may sometimes hurt for a moment, but the pain you experience from a LIE can last forever." http://refe99.com/quotes/truth/
    ArrowPewPew ArrowPewPew 18-21 1 Response Dec 8

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    I can be with my husband, yet feel completely alone. We're not really communicating anymore. After the holidays, I'm going back to school. When I'm finished and have a job, it's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 1

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    There's someone I care about, he feels the same. But when we're together we just can't ever seem to talk, I'm not sure he 'gets me' and it's really frustrating because we're...
    lilyrose345 lilyrose345 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 8

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    Exhausted daily in my physical body than constantly keeping trying to understand why my souls feels the same.
    emiri77 emiri77 18-21, F Dec 16

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    You can't force loyalty, some people will always let you down. Everybody won't always be who you want then to be. I'm never perfect, but I'm always genuine, and I've realized...
    lovinglife699 lovinglife699 51-55, F 4 Responses Dec 14

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    My whole family is weird and some people think were "insane!" We all tried to be normal once, but none of us could do it! It was way too boring!
    s123456789s s123456789s 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 14

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    Of course for me my comfortable dress gets me more attention than I want.
    draganaeros draganaeros 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    You probably know how much "power" you have over him and that is a huge threat to me even if you never have done anything wrong. You know that he will always be there for you and...
    Nannyxd Nannyxd 18-21, F Dec 9

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    I was ************ And I thought I wouldn't come But after 3 hours I felt this warm , exciting n, enthralling Oh sleep my precious!!!
    jinna69 jinna69 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 4

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    I don't feel safe in this world, when I was 14 my uncle raped me every night for four months straight, in the day time he was the nicest person you would never know and then at...
    openbookbri openbookbri 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I think I can never achieved a relationship in this lifetime that is equal in both ways. I've dealt with unrequited love so much and it's not that I feel tired of waiting...
    Efoile Efoile 22-25, M Dec 13

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    I was raped by my ex best friends older brother. He was 23 at the time and I was 13. I'm 17 now and still have nightmares and everything. It feels like this will always haunt me.
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    when I was 5, I was well uhm raped He came into my room and well I don't want to say it at all but it was the most horrific experience of my life and just thinking about it again...
    TerrabyteMcEwan TerrabyteMcEwan 16-17, M Dec 4

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    I woke up at 3 am cuz of nightmares now I just cant go back to sleep at all..
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    Just be yourself!!! ;)If you try to be normal, then you miss out on being weird and awesome!
    Aryg Aryg 36-40, F 8 Responses Dec 6

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    For the longest time in my life I was ashamed of myself. I wanted to be liked, so I made myself into different people. As you can imagine this really took a toll on me...
    tiredgoodguy tiredgoodguy 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 15

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    I hate getting my picture taken. Yet, unfortunately for me I live in a faimly where every one likes to take MY picture....
    Muffin421 Muffin421 22-25, F Dec 15

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    Things I don't do:- soap operas pubs bingo socialising charts music cinema restaurants The list goes on and on and on to the point where my usual reaction to 99% of everything I...
    charnwood charnwood 61-65 Dec 16

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    I will never fit into societies rule of "normal" or what most think i should be . I love who I am and I'm good to those who i care about and even kind to strangers that most of the...
    RyRy9 RyRy9 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    Is there really a such thing as NORMAL, I mean I can't necessarily look at someone and say "Hey, that person over there well they sure are normal." Again normal I'm not sure there...
    orchids2blu orchids2blu 36-40, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    Anyone watches shark tank here? A show about how aspiring entrepreneurs pitch for investments by AI/VC in exchange for their company's equity. It's super addictive. I love how I...
    HeyHiHelloOla HeyHiHelloOla 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Anyone have any thoughts on Diablo 3 ultimate evil edition? On sale for Black Friday but I've never played any of them... Is it worth getting?
    jbar291 jbar291 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 28

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    But people my age don't seem to like to play dammit.
    justme195 justme195 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 14

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    Do I pass? I went to see the Nutcracker Ballet, so I got dressed up, do I pass as male?
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Shorty gets cute she gets a binder also.....
    denial123 denial123 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Proud Horror Geek - I'm an extreme horror geek with a strange sense of humor and I LOVE IT. There's no one I would rather be than myself.
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Dec 5

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    First: There may be writing mistakes, so don't judge pls :( It began in April 2014, nothing special, thats what i thought. A good friend of mine was celebrating her birthday in...
    chrysantheme chrysantheme 16-17, F Dec 4

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    If he was cheating on me, I deserve to know the truth. He has lied to me about so many things, and then he told me I was acting psychotic, that he had nothing more he was hiding...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 29