I close my eyes this evening
Hoping it will be the last
Wishing I'd never again need these muscles
The nerves and cellular communication
To give breath
To give me a body in which to have a life
In this hell enclaved torture device
This world is my worst nightmare
I said no.
He asked again with the eyes of a doe.
His friend wouldn't let it go.
I said no, I said no, I said no.
I repeated until he conceded,
"let her be if she won't smoke"
As if getting me high was only a joke.
It was only harmless weed,
but like so many others it would plant...
Lying alone in a darkened grave,
A rose for the one you couldn't save,
Face still beautiful completely white,
Her Demons took her away that night,
You tried to fight them with all you had,
But she remained quite so awful sad,
You tried to love her couldn't get through,
I wonder why my life isn't bright withought you
My thoughts are so dark
I try to grasp the light
Though the light is slipping through my fingers
Just as my wounded pride is slipping away
Quick! Catch it before there is no light in my soul
Hurry my dear before you see my dark side...
And im soo deep in the ocean that no one knows i'm there. I can scream.. But no one will hear me. And fighting.. Fighting only makes it worse.. Fighting only makes me suffer more.. Im running out of time.. I'm running out of oxygen. I use to have my head above water.. But i dont...
When you looked into my eyes, telling me you would hold my entrusted heart gently in your hand i believed you.
Then i solemnly watched in disbelief as you squeezed until no more blood could fall like so many teardrops to this earth.
My body trembled as your laughter haunted me...
and dark.. I feel no light nor do I feel any hope.. Nor do I wish to see any...
Instead I wish for just one moment to taste death.. So that I could taste it and see that it is far worse than the pain I feel now... Then maybe.. Just maybe.. I could find some type of joy...
angry at how my life’s turned out
too sad and overwhelmed to cry
ashamed at how I feel
searching for purpose
looking for the key to unlock my power
not sure if I’ll work tomorrow
exhausted going through the...
My darkness rages like a roaring sea,
Shadows haunt faceless echos of me,
My soul cries in a razors embrace,
Blood red tears stream down my face,
Where is the shelter that comforts thee,
Where is the solace for my sanity,
Is it just lost in the remnants of time,
Agony that claws...
Down in my basement, I'll lock you away.
And this is where I'll keep you long past your dying day.
Just you and I, in my basement we'll stay.
Where you'll be all mine, only mine, forever and ever as they say.
Down here you and I, we've become quite quaint.
If you promise...
I am the noose around your neck
I am the razor on your vein
I am the voices in your head that drive you so insane
I am the creature that you meet on that dark and lonely path
I am the bringer of all wars,I am the aftermath
I am the killer virus,I am the sickest of the sick
Planning planning soon to come. Crying crying all the time. Wishing wishing for the end. Wanting wanting to be all done.Cutting cutting arms so sore. Talking talking but being ignored. Breathing breathing but wanting no more. Bleeding bleeding finally all done.
open the eye to the unseen,
an unconscious memory,
something of what used to be.
an energy so pure to me,
opening up new realms to see.
thrown to this earth, instantly broken,
encased in a shell of insecurities,
a place where fear and doubt reside...
this body, a battleground...
The weight I'm losing
I'm slowly leaving
No one's grieving
I'm in pain
It feels so strange
It doesn't hurt
But I feel worse
Tight clothes feel loose
This is the life I choose
I can't eat now
It never stays down
My throat burns
My stomach turns
Family just steps...
I cut my wrists to forget the pain
I live my life everyday in vain
Sometimes my life is that of a crazy train
Or im just left out in the rain
I let the pain over take me
Carve into my arm 'let me be'
But i hide it so nobody can see
Everynight i wish upon a star to be free
laying in bed
just wishing that I was dead
I can't take it anymore
Nobody cares about me
They just can't see
What I'm going through
each day my suicidal thoughts grow
They tell me to go to hell
All I can do is hide in my shell
cause there's no one to tell
This is a poem from an unpublished collection of mine. I never thought that I will revisit it but what the heck.
(13) Private City
Crippled streets, caressed by void and echoes
Sound reflections bounce
Provoke awakenings of reckless dreams
In the sweat of the day’s...
Who doesn't even care if she falls over and dies .
She never eats anything
She has no energy
All she can do is sleep
Why has she fallen so deep
She's in a hole
She won't come out
There's even a ladder
But that doesn't matter
She's already free
From the beast she sees
So recently I've taken up this hobby with drawing and literacy. My poems rather reflect on my life and how I feel whereas my drawings just express myself. If you want to take a look at them I've created a 'book' on Wattpad. A few of my drawings are posted up through it. My...
Yes I'll admit it you've won, but
You're only the copy of the best...
Be on your guard now
This is a warning
Only doom awaits,
those wearing My ring
My ring will show you
both happy and sad
It will show you experience
you wish you had
It will trick your soul
It will damn your...
I've cried so much it cant be true
I've cried so much just for you
I sat back and watched you destroy my world
All because there was another girl
I once had every dream of only you
But all the things you had to do
Turned my living dream come true
Into a living nightmare of you...
I wrote this after an incident with a friend of mine ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A simple joke sent in your direction
was meant to be funny, until you had to threaten.
Arrest us for laughing, when to us you do the same?
I'm sick and tired of playing this childish...
for your affectionI wish you could careand share with me my passionemotionless, your vacant stare.I caress your frosted beautydazzled by your fleshensnared, my beating heartentwined in lovers mesh.My kisses drink your flavourupon skin my fingers playfrom peaks down to your...
all alone in a cold dark room. You scream but no one can hear you. as the knife cuts deeper in to you. the blood runs down. U go to the sink. Wash it up. Then cut again. Over and over again and again. Getting deeper and deeper till there is nothing left to cut. The floor it...
Mirror mirror on the wall.
Who's the girl who woos them all?
And blinds them with a pretty face,
Fitting clothes, a hint of lace
with a smile and large dark eyes
She lures them to a web of lies
A web that they themselves create
When picturing her as perfect mate
She never reveals...
A moment of silence in a vacuum of people's
voices intersperses space and time
with a pattern of a deconstructive melee
A moment of stillness touches intricate
fibers of perplexed, bewildered souls,
an invasive grabble rescues, with induced
propensity to moral acquisition...
I feel your hatred
Stab me in the back
I see your smile
Hang me on a rack
I fear your anger
knows that I'm here
I hear your vengeance
Drawing ever near
I smell your ambition
writing my life away
I hate your shield
beating me to a pulp.
I have a resolution
stops you in your tracks...
Her tears fall from her pale white face.
Every tear full of pain and hurt.
Her Blood falls from her scarred up wrist.
Every slice of the razor taking away the pain and hurt.
Every blood drop falling from her wrist as if it is a canvas where she draws all her hurt and pain almost...
Isn't that 99% of it ~_~'
Me: Shut up HecTurd NiiSan >_< Anyway I promised a poem once upon a time ^_^'
Ghost in the Shadows:
I cannot remember when it got this bad
This shockingly sweet silence is going to drive me mad
Maybe that's okay when I...
Obscure thoughts evaporate like condensation on a window
Making my vision opaque
Reality a hallucination of my demented mind
Shadows radiate their darkness into my soul
I cut my fingers on the jagged outline of my aura
Blood drips from my skin
Leaking a tirade of mystical disease...
That's all it takes, just one single tear.
That one tear turns in to a pond.
Which then turns to a river.
Then an ocean.
That one little tear, this is it's end result
The water falls, the tear drops.
Hits then floor, spreading about...
I guess I'm an artist .
I like to draw on my wrist .
That will always exist .
When people see , they turn away
I guess this is why no one stays .
They scream & shout & ask me why ?
I just start to breakdown and cry .
My pictures are painted in red .
How could this be
That I'm so broken
It's easier to breathe
I'm no longer losing sleep
Is this what it's like to die?
It's better now
Now the beast is in my mind
I am the beast
And the beast is I
You said you lost everything
Does this mean im nothing?
It hurts me everyday,
To see you turn and walk away
I try my best to make you smile
Its like im losing this already lost trial
I love you with all my heart
And i dont want us to be torn apart
I will never ever leave you...
And that day not a person cried
Was she ok? "Of course" she lied
In seconds she bled out and died
They found her body all alone
A month had passed no one had known
And in her hand they found a phone
She'd text herself saying "please come home"
This girl was so...
Like a broken recorded it is played again. All the hate and the words. you being to fad. You wish to dissaper with out a trase. Where no one can find u. Your all lone no one can save you. Your forever gone. You come home from school with tears in your eye. Straight up to your...