Blackened misty breath entwined around a stolen kiss
Serpentine words beating an echo of past expulsions that guard the door of sincerity
Once a craving, I don't need words to see lips dance
Does nonchalant drip, sometimes
Does truth breed with contempt, sometimes
or be controlled
I'll just swallow your soul
swallow that sweet soul
Bind you and tie you down
Gag you and bring you down
Don't worry my little flower
You're a dead withering flower
No life within anymore now
Eyes don't sparkle too now
Blackness will soon engulf
lurks around every corner ..no boast
Could this be the very end
I just may think so my sweetest friend
Darkness takes over
Look over your shoulder
There it is
Demon that is
Laughing at this
Grabs you by its dreadful mouth
Laps you up ..from the south
Take me now...
why my life is such a mess
As from my wrist drops something red
Why does life makes me feel so worthless
Seeing everyone happy
Making friends and relationships
I'm already starting to feel crappy
While im just grabbing my chips
Oh life why are you so horrible
I never signed up...
is it the moments come now.
And yet the ache still twists and completely turns.
Even though I made a home I lost the fucken house.
I thought I was safe I thought I was loved.
I was nothing but filth to be washed not smudged.
Who could expect heat from eyes so dark and cold...
I can't do it
It will go wrong
Living is hard
Just can't go on
I'm tired of this
Too much pain
I can't endure this
Just not again
I can't hold it in
I just need to cry
But first I have to
Just say goodbye
All I feel
Is crippling sorrow
Unable to conceive
From a silver thread
With the monsters within
You just want to give in
Now imagine that's you
Every day, every hour
Like a wilting flower
You try to tell your dad
And you try to tell your mom
But they say you...
but had once shone so very bright
are now filled with a sadness and is losing the battle and will to fight.
Her mind is torn and twisted not knowing what she should do
as the battle rages within her head and heart tearing her in two.
Her fighting and inner strength is really...
Keep my mouth shut .. Take my place
Something inside wants to snap
Is that the right way to react ?
My heart fell out again and again
Is there anywhere I can begin?
I'm not sure there is at all
I stumble and crumble as I fall
Someone hold me and say it's okay
darkness seems to surround me where i go..it is my friend and my enemy.it is my serenity blanket of security like a little child.it scares me and hurts me so. wherever i go i carry darkness with me for i've only known darkness.I can't stand in fear against it and yet i fear it...
my acts I always take them further
I keel you if you agree
or not I won't care
I like to torture
you will just stand and stare
be ready no one has ever bare
what you thought life was fair
ha that's a joke
I don't need a Facebook poke
well I don't get them anyways
deep within me
Where no one can see
Walls built thick through years of guilt
How the puzzle pieces don't really fit
To far down
Where they can't be found
Now within me
Will never be free
First day of school
And she thinks it's a new start,
But these kids have painful words that shot deep inside her heart.
But no amount of hiding
No amount of closed doors
Could keep away the taunting of the kind of clothes she wore.
Long sleeves in the summer.
What was she...
The pain, the shame,
That I hide beneath the smile in my eyes,
And the nightmares,
They continue to wake me,
Leaving a trail of tears along my face,
Some escaping to my hands,
Leaving invisible marks of the churning emotions below the smile in my eyes.
cracked ..nothing united
Ice cold heart resides in this shell
Living my own creation ..of personal hell
Demons and angels claw for my soul
Evil prevails .. It's always so cold
You think burning alive is actually hot
Mind bending, spirit quenchin, simply distraught
in my head
so I scratch it till I am satisfied
but wait I feel my hand wet
so I look and it is all red
dripping blood on my carpet.
my arms hurt and I see
scratches and marks
my mind is in shock
what did I do
my mouth has dry blood around it
I get up and walk to my kitchen
now .. How would it be
Take a whole look ..at all of me
I want death to take me now
I won't ask questions or wonder how
Constant tears flow from my face
I feel battered, lonely and only disgrace
I say what I feel but it's not taken
I try to release.. All I feel is a broken...
My angel of death
With long flowing dress’s
My life’s only breathe
I plot and I stock her
She knows I exist
I beckon her to me
Her steadfast resist
My beautiful darkness
You never look in my eyes
You’re so self-consuming
You’re always saying goodbyes’
From out of blackest pits of hell
There comes a form you know too well
Upon your thoughts it feeds and dwells
And fed by fear its stature swells
You try to block it from your mind
But something in you undefined
Feels apathetically resigned
To give it what it’s come to...
is there; it ceases connection
I ball up my fists.. As tight as can be
I shatter this mirror before I can see
My fists all bloody and full of pain
My eyes are streaming ..as steady rain
Inside ..my true self howls at the moon
No one to hear.. All alone in this tomb
I held her hand so frail, so small.
I heard the weeping of those close by...
All those asking why.
I knew the time had come, I leaned in very close.
I could smell the slightest fragrance of her favorite perfume....
All at once there was silence in the room.
My lips now almost...
drip drip drip
the blood leaving the wounds of my body seeps into the dark earth
why was it so easy to be destroyed and maimed by the ones who I thought I could trust
drip drip drip
I feel the weakness growing in me
I am alone now but what good is it to have defeated my...
Demigods of Logic and ill Wisdom
Loaded pistol pointed blank
Towards the blissful existence
Incisions into true human visions.
Walk forward blind into the firing line
Like a prisoner with his hands tied
and his Mind fried, a slave to nonexistent time,
Dead yet as well as Alive...
around a memory past
Death swoops in and takes a soul
Floods unravel.. if truth be told
Death is dark and grabs you quick
Sorrow filled eyes continue to stick
Death checks to see if you're okay
Then grabs you up with no delay
Death pulls your heart strings with delight...
The noise it makes has sealed my fate
It closes in.
I know I'll die to stay within
I rail against
The injustice of this cloying fence
I rush it
Smash it up
It bloodies me but gives me up
until you want something from me.
You ignore me when I need you.
You neglect my feelings and emotions for you.
You have forgotten that I exist until you no longer have someone else.
You dismiss me like a rag doll into the abyss.
I'm tired of being rejected like some nothing that...
reigning over this land
Sing her song and she'll take your hand
Her touch electrifies, with a kiss unique
Lips caress lips on the mild and meek
Melody is heard, there's no escape
Eyes staring at your soon dead face
Gazing deep, into her tar black eyes
Returns you back, to...
me ..quite insane
Can't fathom anymore pain
Pulsing beats.. Down the drain
Crying is easy for the weak
Logical reasons don't keep
One person ..will reap
Hanging head constantly weeps
Travel far ..away from here
Hold on to my son ..so dear
Living in a state .of fear
once more on the floor
Pick them up to put back together?
No, I'll just leave them on the fu.ck.ing floor
My shattered dreams
Have cut me deep
Toxic thoughts brew in my brain
As I swallow the pain
With the dirt under my nails that won't come out
All I have left is to heap...
To Much To Bare
I Fail Again
I Can Not Mend
I Search, I Seek
Can’t Be Found
I Cut, I Scratch
I Tear At Skin
Have To I Must
Find A Way In
My Foolish Heart
I Must Get Inside
Must Pull The Plug
My Pain Subside
My broken heart
My screaming brain
The questions why
I do not know
She will not speak
To tell me so
How do you stop my bleeding heart?
The love I’ve lost
A poison dart
I cry alone
The pain inside
To much to bare
I can’t abide
This life, to much
of my past visible only to me
An empty feeling
Leaves me reeling
As I stare out of my lifeless eyes
Waiting to feel my pulse
Day turns to night
Night turns to endlessness
As I feel the weight of the universe
Pushing me down
Down to the ground
All laid out to waste
Mesmerized inner glance
Pitch black circumstance
Pitched scream, ignorance
leaves copper-like taste
Waking state will deflower
nightmarish morning hour
vade retro black in power
virgin minds stay...
It’s cold and it’s damp
And filled with decay
My friends in the crypt
Invite me to stay
“ rest you bones over here
Let our spirits go play”
I roam and I wonder
I sit where I please
If prayer where to work
I’d drop to my knees
I lay on a casket
To rest, for I’m...
Says the Hatter, 'What’s the matter?
Your mind is going queer!'
Says the Rabbit (out of habit)
'Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear!
In my mind I think you’ll find
A cog is coming loose...
Explaining why (you can’t deny)
My thoughts are quite diffuse!'
Replies the Hatter...
let me be dead
I'll go to sleep and never awake
take me god for goodness sake
My heart falls out again and again
It's pouring outside , I see the rain
Let the floods come an wash me away
Dried eyes crack and are blind to stay
Rocks are tied now to my feet
I jump in the rivers...
over my stream of solitude
Shattered pieces of my strength catch the wind briskly
No backbone left in my delicate heart
Time stands still
Will this moment pass?
Death.. Will you step up your game?
In recent times, seems I have no name
Gut wrenching thoughts float in my head...