As black stained cheeks arrived again
Artice blue eyes burned bright with rage
Frantically grasping her rusted brass cage
Fits of fury vibrated to the core
Shouts an echo that will be ignored
The naked trees sway violently east
All alone and shaken... forever deceased
I feel your presence slowly creep,
As if my soul you came to reap.
The fear infects my thoughts so deep,
I feel you watching as I sleep.
The apparition fills my door,
Sending shivers through my core.
Too terrifying to ignore,
As she moves across my floor.
She takes her place...
of my past visible only to me
An empty feeling
Leaves me reeling
As I stare out of my lifeless eyes
Waiting to feel my pulse
Day turns to night
Night turns to endlessness
As I feel the weight of the universe
Pushing me down
Down to the ground
I held her hand so frail, so small.
I heard the weeping of those close by...
All those asking why.
I knew the time had come, I leaned in very close.
I could smell the slightest fragrance of her favorite perfume....
All at once there was silence in the room.
My lips now almost...
and crying tonight
And as I look my Demon he is by my side
He laughs at me with a devilish smile
He says "I'll only be here a little while"
He spands his wings and we take flight
He takes me to my childhood and I close my eyes
I hear my screams and I hear my cries
I feel the...
Demigods of Logic and ill Wisdom
Loaded pistol pointed blank
Towards the blissful existence
Incisions into true human visions.
Walk forward blind into the firing line
Like a prisoner with his hands tied
and his Mind fried, a slave to nonexistent time,
Dead yet as well as Alive...
my acts I always take them further
I keel you if you agree
or not I won't care
I like to torture
you will just stand and stare
be ready no one has ever bare
what you thought life was fair
ha that's a joke
I don't need a Facebook poke
well I don't get them anyways
now .. How would it be
Take a whole look ..at all of me
I want death to take me now
I won't ask questions or wonder how
Constant tears flow from my face
I feel battered, lonely and only disgrace
I say what I feel but it's not taken
I try to release.. All I feel is a broken...
My angel of death
With long flowing dress’s
My life’s only breathe
I plot and I stock her
She knows I exist
I beckon her to me
Her steadfast resist
My beautiful darkness
You never look in my eyes
You’re so self-consuming
You’re always saying goodbyes’
My broken heart
My screaming brain
The questions why
I do not know
She will not speak
To tell me so
How do you stop my bleeding heart?
The love I’ve lost
A poison dart
I cry alone
The pain inside
To much to bare
I can’t abide
This life, to much
is there; it ceases connection
I ball up my fists.. As tight as can be
I shatter this mirror before I can see
My fists all bloody and full of pain
My eyes are streaming ..as steady rain
Inside ..my true self howls at the moon
No one to hear.. All alone in this tomb
but had once shone so very bright
are now filled with a sadness and is losing the battle and will to fight.
Her mind is torn and twisted not knowing what she should do
as the battle rages within her head and heart tearing her in two.
Her fighting and inner strength is really...
Little girl dreaming of death
She's only sixteen but her life is a mess.
Sitting up alone all night
Feeling these thoughts that she just can't fight.
She's up in the bathroom staring at herself in the mirror,
She thinks why can nobody hear her!?
She takes out her secret box...
why my life is such a mess
As from my wrist drops something red
Why does life makes me feel so worthless
Seeing everyone happy
Making friends and relationships
I'm already starting to feel crappy
While im just grabbing my chips
Oh life why are you so horrible
I never signed up...
The noise it makes has sealed my fate
It closes in.
I know I'll die to stay within
I rail against
The injustice of this cloying fence
I rush it
Smash it up
It bloodies me but gives me up
From out of blackest pits of hell
There comes a form you know too well
Upon your thoughts it feeds and dwells
And fed by fear its stature swells
You try to block it from your mind
But something in you undefined
Feels apathetically resigned
To give it what it’s come to...
I really did,
That was my mistake.
I put a knife to my throat,
A gun to my head,
The knife slides like butter across my throat,
The bullet tears through me,
As I'm bleeding out,
Do I see a helping hand?
No of course not,
I'm just am extra in...
is it the moments come now.
And yet the ache still twists and completely turns.
Even though I made a home I lost the fucken house.
I thought I was safe I thought I was loved.
I was nothing but filth to be washed not smudged.
Who could expect heat from eyes so dark and cold...
cracked ..nothing united
Ice cold heart resides in this shell
Living my own creation ..of personal hell
Demons and angels claw for my soul
Evil prevails .. It's always so cold
You think burning alive is actually hot
Mind bending, spirit quenchin, simply distraught
drip drip drip
the blood leaving the wounds of my body seeps into the dark earth
why was it so easy to be destroyed and maimed by the ones who I thought I could trust
drip drip drip
I feel the weakness growing in me
I am alone now but what good is it to have defeated my...
until you want something from me.
You ignore me when I need you.
You neglect my feelings and emotions for you.
You have forgotten that I exist until you no longer have someone else.
You dismiss me like a rag doll into the abyss.
I'm tired of being rejected like some nothing that...
The pain I felt when you hurt me.
The anger that followed what you did.
I could never understand why you did these things to me...
I was 6
Just beginning life..
And you took it from me.
How is this fair to me??
I hurt everyday because you raped me.
The pain of knowing you...
The pain, the shame,
That I hide beneath the smile in my eyes,
And the nightmares,
They continue to wake me,
Leaving a trail of tears along my face,
Some escaping to my hands,
Leaving invisible marks of the churning emotions below the smile in my eyes.
First day of school
And she thinks it's a new start,
But these kids have painful words that shot deep inside her heart.
But no amount of hiding
No amount of closed doors
Could keep away the taunting of the kind of clothes she wore.
Long sleeves in the summer.
What was she...
darkness seems to surround me where i go..it is my friend and my enemy.it is my serenity blanket of security like a little child.it scares me and hurts me so. wherever i go i carry darkness with me for i've only known darkness.I can't stand in fear against it and yet i fear it...
A razor kiss
When she gave up on her life.
Her crys for help
That never came
Instead she yelpS
With the pain.
On her mind
Like a flowerpot
That cracks through time.
A little cut
To numb the pain
Buts instead it
Came with rain.
Scars cover her thighs
around a memory past
Death swoops in and takes a soul
Floods unravel.. if truth be told
Death is dark and grabs you quick
Sorrow filled eyes continue to stick
Death checks to see if you're okay
Then grabs you up with no delay
Death pulls your heart strings with delight...
the skies with blackening fright
Tell me your angle.. my precious one
Feel the fire burning.. like eternal sun
Paint me thought
One wish I bought
Catch all the glory
All time can see inside .. each vile story
From a silver thread
With the monsters within
You just want to give in
Now imagine that's you
Every day, every hour
Like a wilting flower
You try to tell your dad
And you try to tell your mom
But they say you...
Says the Hatter, 'What’s the matter?
Your mind is going queer!'
Says the Rabbit (out of habit)
'Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear!
In my mind I think you’ll find
A cog is coming loose...
Explaining why (you can’t deny)
My thoughts are quite diffuse!'
Replies the Hatter...
over my stream of solitude
Shattered pieces of my strength catch the wind briskly
No backbone left in my delicate heart
Time stands still
Will this moment pass?
Death.. Will you step up your game?
In recent times, seems I have no name
Gut wrenching thoughts float in my head...
or be controlled
I'll just swallow your soul
swallow that sweet soul
Bind you and tie you down
Gag you and bring you down
Don't worry my little flower
You're a dead withering flower
No life within anymore now
Eyes don't sparkle too now
Blackness will soon engulf
lurks around every corner ..no boast
Could this be the very end
I just may think so my sweetest friend
Darkness takes over
Look over your shoulder
There it is
Demon that is
Laughing at this
Grabs you by its dreadful mouth
Laps you up ..from the south
Take me now...
in my head
so I scratch it till I am satisfied
but wait I feel my hand wet
so I look and it is all red
dripping blood on my carpet.
my arms hurt and I see
scratches and marks
my mind is in shock
what did I do
my mouth has dry blood around it
I get up and walk to my kitchen
once more on the floor
Pick them up to put back together?
No, I'll just leave them on the fu.ck.ing floor
My shattered dreams
Have cut me deep
Toxic thoughts brew in my brain
As I swallow the pain
With the dirt under my nails that won't come out
All I have left is to heap...