I really did,
That was my mistake.
I put a knife to my throat,
A gun to my head,
The knife slides like butter across my throat,
The bullet tears through me,
As I'm bleeding out,
Do I see a helping hand?
No of course not,
I'm just am extra in...
I am a wolf with anger that grows and grows, till the day it snaps. All run loose with thrill. we all have issues in life, is family really there ?
Can I play freely in the night underneath a moonless sky, to a forest we run, and in a cave we hide. To echoes of voices we hear...
I can't do it
It will go wrong
Living is hard
Just can't go on
I'm tired of this
Too much pain
I can't endure this
Just not again
I can't hold it in
I just need to cry
But first I have to
Just say goodbye
All I feel
Is crippling sorrow
Unable to conceive
there is a creature that comes from a place where there is no hope or joy. The air itself is filled with misery. His heart is filled with a sadness that words really cannot depict. He walks among you but you would never noticed him. He is me.
Day by day,
We own our one lie.
Promises are broken,
We all give up hope.
Who was first to go?
Trapped inside, alone and scared.
We survive these days, living in fear.
Their minds are their home,
To see nothing,
and always be alone.
For a moment,
A brave soul...
First day of school
And she thinks it's a new start,
But these kids have painful words that shot deep inside her heart.
But no amount of hiding
No amount of closed doors
Could keep away the taunting of the kind of clothes she wore.
Long sleeves in the summer.
What was she...
Let me turn on the light in your dark room,
I will show you my discoveries , trust me,
They're all over these walls.
I am not naive,
Nor am I ignorant.
Can't you see?
The hidden messages that were on this wall?
They are unscrambled and answered,
Can you feel at all?
To Much To Bare
I Fail Again
I Can Not Mend
I Search, I Seek
Can’t Be Found
I Cut, I Scratch
I Tear At Skin
Have To I Must
Find A Way In
My Foolish Heart
I Must Get Inside
Must Pull The Plug
My Pain Subside
in my head
so I scratch it till I am satisfied
but wait I feel my hand wet
so I look and it is all red
dripping blood on my carpet.
my arms hurt and I see
scratches and marks
my mind is in shock
what did I do
my mouth has dry blood around it
I get up and walk to my kitchen
"what's in a name? that which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet."
No matter thy name of Allie, Nor Enemy, a Devil, nor Saint..you are the one who has captured my lonely heart.
my dreams carry me, as my heart flutters a million butterflies... thinking of...
the soul but for some "appearance" seems to take the leading role from a scene where "ones virtues" fall in to decay, within this sickened feature film once thought as "too risque" so the prior "innocents" succumb to the trappings of "fame" (these twisted values) and perversions...
a troubled mindset would re-invent. A once carefree and happy teen, succumbing to pervasive screams. "Desires to kill" began his cries. The death of his Mother gave birth to lies. This mental illness had taken hold, the rest is fact (as will un-fold). Growing up an only child...
darkened days drenched daily.
its own apocalyptic undoing.
For the highly functioning monsters,
who hunt alone.
Lacking a parent or two,
or maybe beginning with none at all.
segregated and alone for all to see,
Embracing the devil...
and crying tonight
And as I look my Demon he is by my side
He laughs at me with a devilish smile
He says "I'll only be here a little while"
He spands his wings and we take flight
He takes me to my childhood and I close my eyes
I hear my screams and I hear my cries
I feel the...
Demigods of Logic and ill Wisdom
Loaded pistol pointed blank
Towards the blissful existence
Incisions into true human visions.
Walk forward blind into the firing line
Like a prisoner with his hands tied
and his Mind fried, a slave to nonexistent time,
Dead yet as well as Alive...
and rot it?
How is it that you run out of meadows?
When will it start raining colors besides bloody red??
You can dance on coal, but how about a mirror?
Will you be able to stand the sight of yourself?
I held her hand so frail, so small.
I heard the weeping of those close by...
All those asking why.
I knew the time had come, I leaned in very close.
I could smell the slightest fragrance of her favorite perfume....
All at once there was silence in the room.
My lips now almost...
Blackened misty breath entwined around a stolen kiss
Serpentine words beating an echo of past expulsions that guard the door of sincerity
Once a craving, I don't need words to see lips dance
Does nonchalant drip, sometimes
Does truth breed with contempt, sometimes
darkness seems to surround me where i go..it is my friend and my enemy.it is my serenity blanket of security like a little child.it scares me and hurts me so. wherever i go i carry darkness with me for i've only known darkness.I can't stand in fear against it and yet i fear it...
Little girl dreaming of death
She's only sixteen but her life is a mess.
Sitting up alone all night
Feeling these thoughts that she just can't fight.
She's up in the bathroom staring at herself in the mirror,
She thinks why can nobody hear her!?
She takes out her secret box...
The glamorous stones draw the eye
Whilst the others: in the sun they fry.
The yellow sickle-swords taunt the dead,
Whilst the powerful lie cast upon a stone made bed.
But nor they will be remembered, still
For no soul treads the path by the mill.
and as this...
i have spent alone, when the Shamen made his presence known.To me i believed his spirit was drawn, allowing me the comfort and time to mourn.Unsure of how (and where) to turn, but there was so much more to learn."Our spirits will merge as well as to coexist", "in light of our...
my acts I always take them further
I keel you if you agree
or not I won't care
I like to torture
you will just stand and stare
be ready no one has ever bare
what you thought life was fair
ha that's a joke
I don't need a Facebook poke
well I don't get them anyways
Death will find you,
encroached in the most sinister of dreams.
Clawed, bloody chest marks.
Mutilated baby dolls,
hurting…. to hurt, is to be alive.
Pain and death entwined,
Is to be reborn.
Reborn as a parasite,
once more on the floor
Pick them up to put back together?
No, I'll just leave them on the fu.ck.ing floor
My shattered dreams
Have cut me deep
Toxic thoughts brew in my brain
As I swallow the pain
With the dirt under my nails that won't come out
All I have left is to heap...
All laid out to waste
Mesmerized inner glance
Pitch black circumstance
Pitched scream, ignorance
leaves copper-like taste
Waking state will deflower
nightmarish morning hour
vade retro black in power
virgin minds stay...
Says the Hatter, 'What’s the matter?
Your mind is going queer!'
Says the Rabbit (out of habit)
'Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear!
In my mind I think you’ll find
A cog is coming loose...
Explaining why (you can’t deny)
My thoughts are quite diffuse!'
Replies the Hatter...
My angel of death
With long flowing dress’s
My life’s only breathe
I plot and I stock her
She knows I exist
I beckon her to me
Her steadfast resist
My beautiful darkness
You never look in my eyes
You’re so self-consuming
You’re always saying goodbyes’
My broken heart
My screaming brain
The questions why
I do not know
She will not speak
To tell me so
How do you stop my bleeding heart?
The love I’ve lost
A poison dart
I cry alone
The pain inside
To much to bare
I can’t abide
This life, to much
The pain, the shame,
That I hide beneath the smile in my eyes,
And the nightmares,
They continue to wake me,
Leaving a trail of tears along my face,
Some escaping to my hands,
Leaving invisible marks of the churning emotions below the smile in my eyes.
It’s cold and it’s damp
And filled with decay
My friends in the crypt
Invite me to stay
“ rest you bones over here
Let our spirits go play”
I roam and I wonder
I sit where I please
If prayer where to work
I’d drop to my knees
I lay on a casket
To rest, for I’m...
A feeling which just never was.
A thought I'll never miss.
This feeling of depression;
I tell you I'm alright,
now leave me be and go away.
My tears kept out of sight.
This feeling of depression;
I tell you I'm ok,
Now close your eyes and rest your head.
but had once shone so very bright
are now filled with a sadness and is losing the battle and will to fight.
Her mind is torn and twisted not knowing what she should do
as the battle rages within her head and heart tearing her in two.
Her fighting and inner strength is really...
until you want something from me.
You ignore me when I need you.
You neglect my feelings and emotions for you.
You have forgotten that I exist until you no longer have someone else.
You dismiss me like a rag doll into the abyss.
I'm tired of being rejected like some nothing that...
From a silver thread
With the monsters within
You just want to give in
Now imagine that's you
Every day, every hour
Like a wilting flower
You try to tell your dad
And you try to tell your mom
But they say you...
is it the moments come now.
And yet the ache still twists and completely turns.
Even though I made a home I lost the fucken house.
I thought I was safe I thought I was loved.
I was nothing but filth to be washed not smudged.
Who could expect heat from eyes so dark and cold...
.......... She is all alone just siting watching a blank tv. the walls start screeching and the windows start to crack. she sits silently and questions her life. the dark night is darker when the stars dim and the moon turns into blood. the lights get dimer you can barely...
Kids wearing deep frowns,
Intoxicating pollution kills with no care,
Life was happy and used to be fair,
Poor child am I,
Gazing at the thick smog pondering why?,
Father and mother brought me into this world,
Not a damn given as I sit in waste,
This planet suffocates and with...