is there; it ceases connection
I ball up my fists.. As tight as can be
I shatter this mirror before I can see
My fists all bloody and full of pain
My eyes are streaming ..as steady rain
Inside ..my true self howls at the moon
No one to hear.. All alone in this tomb
All laid out to waste
Mesmerized inner glance
Pitch black circumstance
Pitched scream, ignorance
leaves copper-like taste
Waking state will deflower
nightmarish morning hour
vade retro black in power
virgin minds stay...
the skies with blackening fright
Tell me your angle.. my precious one
Feel the fire burning.. like eternal sun
Paint me thought
One wish I bought
Catch all the glory
All time can see inside .. each vile story
there is a creature that comes from a place where there is no hope or joy. The air itself is filled with misery. His heart is filled with a sadness that words really cannot depict. He walks among you but you would never noticed him. He is me.
.......... She is all alone just siting watching a blank tv. the walls start screeching and the windows start to crack. she sits silently and questions her life. the dark night is darker when the stars dim and the moon turns into blood. the lights get dimer you can barely...
Day by day,
We own our one lie.
Promises are broken,
We all give up hope.
Who was first to go?
Trapped inside, alone and scared.
We survive these days, living in fear.
Their minds are their home,
To see nothing,
and always be alone.
For a moment,
A brave soul...
Kids wearing deep frowns,
Intoxicating pollution kills with no care,
Life was happy and used to be fair,
Poor child am I,
Gazing at the thick smog pondering why?,
Father and mother brought me into this world,
Not a damn given as I sit in waste,
This planet suffocates and with...
"what's in a name? that which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet."
No matter thy name of Allie, Nor Enemy, a Devil, nor Saint..you are the one who has captured my lonely heart.
my dreams carry me, as my heart flutters a million butterflies... thinking of...
deep within me
Where no one can see
Walls built thick through years of guilt
How the puzzle pieces don't really fit
To far down
Where they can't be found
Now within me
Will never be free
i have spent alone, when the Shamen made his presence known.To me i believed his spirit was drawn, allowing me the comfort and time to mourn.Unsure of how (and where) to turn, but there was so much more to learn."Our spirits will merge as well as to coexist", "in light of our...
and rot it?
How is it that you run out of meadows?
When will it start raining colors besides bloody red??
You can dance on coal, but how about a mirror?
Will you be able to stand the sight of yourself?
A razor kiss
When she gave up on her life.
Her crys for help
That never came
Instead she yelpS
With the pain.
On her mind
Like a flowerpot
That cracks through time.
A little cut
To numb the pain
Buts instead it
Came with rain.
Scars cover her thighs
lurks around every corner ..no boast
Could this be the very end
I just may think so my sweetest friend
Darkness takes over
Look over your shoulder
There it is
Demon that is
Laughing at this
Grabs you by its dreadful mouth
Laps you up ..from the south
Take me now...
Little girl dreaming of death
She's only sixteen but her life is a mess.
Sitting up alone all night
Feeling these thoughts that she just can't fight.
She's up in the bathroom staring at herself in the mirror,
She thinks why can nobody hear her!?
She takes out her secret box...
From out of blackest pits of hell
There comes a form you know too well
Upon your thoughts it feeds and dwells
And fed by fear its stature swells
You try to block it from your mind
But something in you undefined
Feels apathetically resigned
To give it what it’s come to...
is it the moments come now.
And yet the ache still twists and completely turns.
Even though I made a home I lost the fucken house.
I thought I was safe I thought I was loved.
I was nothing but filth to be washed not smudged.
Who could expect heat from eyes so dark and cold...
until you want something from me.
You ignore me when I need you.
You neglect my feelings and emotions for you.
You have forgotten that I exist until you no longer have someone else.
You dismiss me like a rag doll into the abyss.
I'm tired of being rejected like some nothing that...
let me be dead
I'll go to sleep and never awake
take me god for goodness sake
My heart falls out again and again
It's pouring outside , I see the rain
Let the floods come an wash me away
Dried eyes crack and are blind to stay
Rocks are tied now to my feet
I jump in the rivers...
in my head
so I scratch it till I am satisfied
but wait I feel my hand wet
so I look and it is all red
dripping blood on my carpet.
my arms hurt and I see
scratches and marks
my mind is in shock
what did I do
my mouth has dry blood around it
I get up and walk to my kitchen
The pain, the shame,
That I hide beneath the smile in my eyes,
And the nightmares,
They continue to wake me,
Leaving a trail of tears along my face,
Some escaping to my hands,
Leaving invisible marks of the churning emotions below the smile in my eyes.
The noise it makes has sealed my fate
It closes in.
I know I'll die to stay within
I rail against
The injustice of this cloying fence
I rush it
Smash it up
It bloodies me but gives me up
once more on the floor
Pick them up to put back together?
No, I'll just leave them on the fu.ck.ing floor
My shattered dreams
Have cut me deep
Toxic thoughts brew in my brain
As I swallow the pain
With the dirt under my nails that won't come out
All I have left is to heap...
why my life is such a mess
As from my wrist drops something red
Why does life makes me feel so worthless
Seeing everyone happy
Making friends and relationships
I'm already starting to feel crappy
While im just grabbing my chips
Oh life why are you so horrible
I never signed up...
my acts I always take them further
I keel you if you agree
or not I won't care
I like to torture
you will just stand and stare
be ready no one has ever bare
what you thought life was fair
ha that's a joke
I don't need a Facebook poke
well I don't get them anyways
I really did,
That was my mistake.
I put a knife to my throat,
A gun to my head,
The knife slides like butter across my throat,
The bullet tears through me,
As I'm bleeding out,
Do I see a helping hand?
No of course not,
I'm just am extra in...
To Much To Bare
I Fail Again
I Can Not Mend
I Search, I Seek
Can’t Be Found
I Cut, I Scratch
I Tear At Skin
Have To I Must
Find A Way In
My Foolish Heart
I Must Get Inside
Must Pull The Plug
My Pain Subside
First day of school
And she thinks it's a new start,
But these kids have painful words that shot deep inside her heart.
But no amount of hiding
No amount of closed doors
Could keep away the taunting of the kind of clothes she wore.
Long sleeves in the summer.
What was she...
drip drip drip
the blood leaving the wounds of my body seeps into the dark earth
why was it so easy to be destroyed and maimed by the ones who I thought I could trust
drip drip drip
I feel the weakness growing in me
I am alone now but what good is it to have defeated my...
Let me turn on the light in your dark room,
I will show you my discoveries , trust me,
They're all over these walls.
I am not naive,
Nor am I ignorant.
Can't you see?
The hidden messages that were on this wall?
They are unscrambled and answered,
Can you feel at all?
around a memory past
Death swoops in and takes a soul
Floods unravel.. if truth be told
Death is dark and grabs you quick
Sorrow filled eyes continue to stick
Death checks to see if you're okay
Then grabs you up with no delay
Death pulls your heart strings with delight...
Blackened misty breath entwined around a stolen kiss
Serpentine words beating an echo of past expulsions that guard the door of sincerity
Once a craving, I don't need words to see lips dance
Does nonchalant drip, sometimes
Does truth breed with contempt, sometimes
My angel of death
With long flowing dress’s
My life’s only breathe
I plot and I stock her
She knows I exist
I beckon her to me
Her steadfast resist
My beautiful darkness
You never look in my eyes
You’re so self-consuming
You’re always saying goodbyes’
My broken heart
My screaming brain
The questions why
I do not know
She will not speak
To tell me so
How do you stop my bleeding heart?
The love I’ve lost
A poison dart
I cry alone
The pain inside
To much to bare
I can’t abide
This life, to much
over my stream of solitude
Shattered pieces of my strength catch the wind briskly
No backbone left in my delicate heart
Time stands still
Will this moment pass?
Death.. Will you step up your game?
In recent times, seems I have no name
Gut wrenching thoughts float in my head...
It’s cold and it’s damp
And filled with decay
My friends in the crypt
Invite me to stay
“ rest you bones over here
Let our spirits go play”
I roam and I wonder
I sit where I please
If prayer where to work
I’d drop to my knees
I lay on a casket
To rest, for I’m...
of my past visible only to me
An empty feeling
Leaves me reeling
As I stare out of my lifeless eyes
Waiting to feel my pulse
Day turns to night
Night turns to endlessness
As I feel the weight of the universe
Pushing me down
Down to the ground
the soul but for some "appearance" seems to take the leading role from a scene where "ones virtues" fall in to decay, within this sickened feature film once thought as "too risque" so the prior "innocents" succumb to the trappings of "fame" (these twisted values) and perversions...