is it the moments come now.
And yet the ache still twists and completely turns.
Even though I made a home I lost the fucken house.
I thought I was safe I thought I was loved.
I was nothing but filth to be washed not smudged.
Who could expect heat from eyes so dark and cold...
but now I'm relaxed. u have no worry. I feel nothing. I see nothing, though a black sky with stars.
the moon is so brighter than mine. don't think about every lie they told you.every word they have broken. this is what I want to lay here and die.
looking at the most beautiful...
that is bound to be broken by careless caretakers,
the rumpled bed being silent, awake
just waiting for the new human to use me up
I am tired and have no more energy,
Who am I with out emotions,
I am the toy and the child ,
you see I am so broken but that...
until you want something from me.
You ignore me when I need you.
You neglect my feelings and emotions for you.
You have forgotten that I exist until you no longer have someone else.
You dismiss me like a rag doll into the abyss.
I'm tired of being rejected like some nothing that...
Despite the lack of light ...i can see
You adjust my eyes into the dark
Your in my skull wearing me as i wear my favorite boots.
I lent you my eyes
you whisper as i write
Theres more space than what i know
More Wonders that what i suspect
Love cant find me here
and scream. outside the walls lies his big dream. a place to act his evil deeds the countless victims he will bleed.
He stabs and pokes the blood soaked walls of his hellish prison of blood and bones.
now deep in my head to find his way out. surely he'll find it of this ive...
Demigods of Logic and ill Wisdom
Loaded pistol pointed blank
Towards the blissful existence
Incisions into true human visions.
Walk forward blind into the firing line
Like a prisoner with his hands tied
and his Mind fried, a slave to nonexistent time,
Dead yet as well as Alive...
wall slammed behind my back.
The wall began to push me forward
Through my life, up the stairs of aging.
And when I entered my teens,
A rope hoisted me around my waist
Lifting me into the air, over a pit of fire.
Below my dangling feet, I saw my mother.
She lies on her back, on a...
From out of blackest pits of hell
There comes a form you know too well
Upon your thoughts it feeds and dwells
And fed by fear its stature swells
You try to block it from your mind
But something in you undefined
Feels apathetically resigned
To give it what it’s come to...
that is gone
this is a hymnal
to broken bonds...
prayers for my tears,
tears my eyes lost
never were worth
as much as they cost-
prayers for my shadow,
my dark lonely life
stabbed by seclusion
each window a knife-
prayers for my heart,
it died in scream
I am now grateful
tongue of now
whispers of past
a funeral kiss
her touch of wreath
again I hold
the death of me...
her eyes of blue
a graveyard stare
to share a heart
she has no care
too soon she'll be
as she succumbs
the death of me
now it's mine you're about to lost it. sleeping beside the Devils human form a cute little girl you couldn't help but fall for but I warned you, you didn't listen and now you suffer mentally. I'm still plotting, skimming, soon you will...
Says the Hatter, 'What’s the matter?
Your mind is going queer!'
Says the Rabbit (out of habit)
'Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear!
In my mind I think you’ll find
A cog is coming loose...
Explaining why (you can’t deny)
My thoughts are quite diffuse!'
Replies the Hatter...
Out of his tapping fingertips, came all the words he had to type.
Those words that laid within his mind, through all his sleepless nights.
The fanning flames of starkness, of his reality of spite.
From Inside that mind so twisted, came the words of such...
Little girl dreaming of death
She's only sixteen but her life is a mess.
Sitting up alone all night
Feeling these thoughts that she just can't fight.
She's up in the bathroom staring at herself in the mirror,
She thinks why can nobody hear her!?
She takes out her secret box...
I feel your presence slowly creep,
As if my soul you came to reap.
The fear infects my thoughts so deep,
I feel you watching as I sleep.
The apparition fills my door,
Sending shivers through my core.
Too terrifying to ignore,
As she moves across my floor.
She takes her place...
but maybe if anyone could critique?
The darkest night
She'll ever know
She breathed her first
Ready to quench his thirst
He looked on
While mom went gone
Soul rapist and the beast
The baby cried
But didn't die
So began the feast
Is there no body else out there that can hear the alarms,
Or do they just not realize the harm of not answering the call to arms?
Or maybe by inaction they will make their choice,
And never lift their voice, so that our enemies rejoice.
Or maybe they've decided that tomorrow...
There is no time to run
The terror has just begun
Hands rise up from the graves
No where to hide
Your rooms occupied
The world becoming nullified
Black , swollen tongues stick out
Their eyes rolled back in their heads
Black ooze spread
All brain dead
I look myself in...
First day of school
And she thinks it's a new start,
But these kids have painful words that shot deep inside her heart.
But no amount of hiding
No amount of closed doors
Could keep away the taunting of the kind of clothes she wore.
Long sleeves in the summer.
What was she...
I really did,
That was my mistake.
I put a knife to my throat,
A gun to my head,
The knife slides like butter across my throat,
The bullet tears through me,
As I'm bleeding out,
Do I see a helping hand?
No of course not,
I'm just am extra in...
Making me see things that only live in imaginations
Hungry for my soul
They scream my name
Looking to make me bleed out my sins of the past
Leaving me in cold sweats
Looking and seeing nothing but hopeless barren landscape
Lost in my mind
The pain, the shame,
That I hide beneath the smile in my eyes,
And the nightmares,
They continue to wake me,
Leaving a trail of tears along my face,
Some escaping to my hands,
Leaving invisible marks of the churning emotions below the smile in my eyes.
I WALK TOWARDS YOU SLOWLY MY FACE HIDDEN BY MOVING SHADOWS
YOU HEAR THE WHISPER OF MY MOVEMENTS
YOU SEE MY FORM MAKES ITS WAY TOWARDS YOU
YOUR HEART RACES AND YOU SKIN SWEATS
THIS IS WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR
YOU FEEL THE BLOOD THUNDER IN YOUR HEAD
sun high in the perfect blue sky,
air clean and fresh,
walking along the beach,
walking through a cultural city
outdoor cafés, smiling couples;
What a day, what a day!
You pick up your toddler,
you squeeze her tight,
money may be limited
but everything's gonna be...
what's commonplace is far from fear
but when the light, so faint, does fade
my own dark self may find me here
Where are you now, oh brother I loved?
We do not walk the same cold path
I thought, in life, that some might stay
a while, to stray, though night became day...
Lurking behind the scenes
Hiding in shadows
Don't look over your shoulders
Love just go to sleep and never open your eyes
Because he is still watching
He's eyes blazing with pure evil
He's look poison, venom
He only smiles at ones misery
He doesn't appear in...
Reminiscing days of hell.
And in the sun that starts to rise,
He leaves the world in great surprise.
As he slips into the deep,
Starting with his own two feet.
He disappears into the dark,
Of the well within the park.
As he falls without a scream,
He slowly drifts into a dream...
and crying tonight
And as I look my Demon he is by my side
He laughs at me with a devilish smile
He says "I'll only be here a little while"
He spands his wings and we take flight
He takes me to my childhood and I close my eyes
I hear my screams and I hear my cries
I feel the...
All laid out to waste
Mesmerized inner glance
Pitch black circumstance
Pitched scream, ignorance
leaves copper-like taste
Waking state will deflower
nightmarish morning hour
vade retro black in power
virgin minds stay...
I lay down close and listen
through ice and death I hear
What is this thing called love?
I ask in seriousness
does it come from those above?
Why put me to the test?
I die as I have lived
I am not full of strength
The words elude me still
and will for eternity's length...
even knowing me
How you know me is through another's perspective
Rather than experiencing me yourself
You take the slick words of others that leave their lips without thought
Or remorse for the poison they've led you with
The poison that generates...
bothers to know
No one ever notices
The pills aren't working
I noticed you lay on your bed
Debating on death
When you're laying on bed
You try to open your eyes
But they won't open
Traumatized in a nightmare
Can't get ahold of reality
The monsters tight their...
there is a creature that comes from a place where there is no hope or joy. The air itself is filled with misery. His heart is filled with a sadness that words really cannot depict. He walks among you but you would never noticed him. He is me.
darkness seems to surround me where i go..it is my friend and my enemy.it is my serenity blanket of security like a little child.it scares me and hurts me so. wherever i go i carry darkness with me for i've only known darkness.I can't stand in fear against it and yet i fear it...
although it was I
who did such a deed
I, just a nothing
so I plunged the knife
a cruel act of hurting
dreams that tower
and always shine
do not belong
so they had to die
with blood on my hands
my head lowly hung
I morn for my dreams
and what I have done...
I can't do it
It will go wrong
Living is hard
Just can't go on
I'm tired of this
Too much pain
I can't endure this
Just not again
I can't hold it in
I just need to cry
But first I have to
Just say goodbye
All I feel
Is crippling sorrow
Unable to conceive
antidotes, deprived breath like rope around my throat.
Hypnotic apparatus finally exposed, force-fed bargains for a timely decompose.
Sinfully brazen, lust of a deadly rose.
Mirrored vision of themselves I kindly give a toast. Deranged minds shamelessly untwine, given the...
so I wanted to share this.
I see the words of many men
Who speak as though their deeds are sacred
I see the very hearts of saints.
Who’ve turned from love now into hatred
I see the sky above turn black
The rivers empty, oceans red
I see an enemy everywhere
Both in the street...
Took a sledgehammer to it
Left it in a bloody mess you *****
Took my hopes and dreams
And threw them in the dumpster
Razor blade to my veins
Bleeding to death
You spit in my face
Left me paralyzed
Stole my happiness
Left me in this abyss
I hope you know
I hate your guts...
mirror. with dark dead eyes wide open in terror.
with skin a dirty white and cuts deep to the bone. Teeth rooted and deformed and black tongue were shown.
Hands coveres in blood, fingers ripped and nails torn. palms slashed and black veins fold out like a horn.
From a silver thread
With the monsters within
You just want to give in
Now imagine that's you
Every day, every hour
Like a wilting flower
You try to tell your dad
And you try to tell your mom
But they say you...
but can kill without a second thought.
Water is life upon which many seek,
But to much and you will sink.
A tree provides shade, beauty, and air
The leaves fall each season.
Then snow comes.
A beautiful yet wild thing.
Untainted, unmanned, disoriented
Yet with each snow flake...