I Write Down My Thoughts

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    Do Dreams have some Meaning

    or they are just Dreams? I feel they are the Impressions of our Subconscious mind
    Amnik Amnik
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 3

    She's the girl that believes what comes around

    goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won't give up on you. She's the girl that's unlike the rest. The one that spent her her days smiling, and her nights crying. She's the girl that would love to be loves. The one that looks so damn strong, but...
    Jhayz Jhayz
    26-30, F
    8 Responses Sep 1, 2014

    It's my goal to love without conditions.

    .. If you are in my heart to stay I need to accept and love every piece of you. I need to give without reason...you are the one I love and I want you to be happy. Your happiness is tied to my own. I do not need preconceived expectations...We are who we are. I have known you...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 10

    You state you've never heard of beards

    or tattoos killing someone, but you have heard about people with guns killing; I can only hope that you missed the irony and weren't intentionally hoping that others would miss it as well. I have to ask. Have you ever seen a gun without a person kill someone? Have you never seen...
    Triundi Triundi
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Dec 12, 2013

    How does one prepare

    for that which has been a long time coming?
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    Mar 10

    Your greedy lips I could not stop kissing But

    you stung me Like an angry wasp Your fearsome hands I gave myself too Brushing and bruising my flesh Have pushed me away in anger Your eyes, oh God, your eyes Made my eyes fill with tears The passion, raw passion Filled my soul with desire I raise my glass And toast to you...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 8

    I am a very emotional

    and emphatic person. I can be walking down the street and a situation or a person will inspire me randomly. It will move me enough to log onto EP and write about it. It is a lifeline for me and a way of sharing and connecting with others which is of course the beauty of this...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 29, 2015

    Why don't I like flowers?

    They whither Just like everything else, and then they die. when you cut their roots and take them from their natural environment they lose so much of their potential even if they have their roots. When you cut off their roots and give them to me they lose all of their...
    Lacrimosadies Lacrimosadies
    18-21, F
    Mar 15

    It is such a lonely road.

    At first you think your companion is in the same car as you and the road is pretty and pleasant and you have much to share in your conversation. Little by little, you realize he's actually in another vehicle. You take this as a good-humored challenge. You race. You make faces at...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    Nov 22, 2015

    I haven't always been a happy,

    confident person. In fact Im not always a happy, confident person. Long ago, during one of my darkest times, I was really, truly broken and I was lost. Don't want to focus on how I got there, most of us know how we end up in darkness, not all of us know how to move towards the...
    SagSunshine2014 SagSunshine2014
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 23, 2014

    Let my weak heart remain silentProtected in a

    mistNever letting anyone else touch itNo words can break throughA poisonous vapor like a grim fairy taleMaking no one see more of meNo one feel a desire to grab hold andDraw forth my passionThose that already possess my loveNeed not fearYou are already within...you are in no...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 10

    Who are You, Adonai? Who are You,

    Yeshua?? That You would hear the cries of my heart and the longing of my soul whilst my feelings feel as though we are light years away?? Oh Lover of my soul, yea, Keeper of my heart, surely, I'm but a speck of dust in the magnificence of Your splendor. Even still, You...
    WanderingManSeeking WanderingManSeeking
    26-30, M
    Mar 23
    nirvsemp nirvsemp
    18-21, F
    Mar 30

    For some weird reason,

    it feels like today is the last day of my life. So I'm making sure I have my cleanest underwear on. Nothing more embarrassing than being found dead with dirty linen on!
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Feb 27

    When you've lost your heart,

    it's damn hard to keep the head from following suit.
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2015

    Love is like a tampon.

    It always comes with a string attached. :-P
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 9, 2015

    Too much depth, too much soul,

    high standards, loving hard, keeping it real and dreaming big. But right now, I'm fatigued. And that's ok...
    SagSunshine2014 SagSunshine2014
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 25, 2015

    A friend alluded to committing suicide on a

    site he doesn't know I read, and I am about to go kick his ***!
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 1

    It was the best breakup ever

    because he finally did all the things that I'd wanted and he'd withheld in our ten month long relationship: He told me he loved me. He told me he'd miss my laugh, our walks and our talks. He kissed me with abandon. That was all I ever wanted. Makes you think, people get so...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 7

    Don't expect to be loved

    but love. Don't expect to be understood but understand.
    opportunist opportunist
    18-21, F
    Mar 12

    The road between happiness

    and love is not marked where I stand I stand alone in a place far from the ones I love Thousands of miles between where I am and where I want to be If only I had chose your path months ago If only I could find the road that leads me to you I hope that when the fog lifts...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 10

    I know your life can go on without me,

    that you can be happy without me, that you can survive without me. But even if you turn me away, I will still choose to stay with you and be your sweetest stranger forever....
    heartless0000 heartless0000
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 5

    Kiss me Not like a first kiss Like you know

    what you are doing. Like your passion overrides your sense of Etiquette No decorum
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 10

    Crushes keep us young!

    !! "I really really really really really like yoouuuuu!!!" :) :)
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    At The Middle of the Night ,

    I usually Start Getting The Answers to My own Questions ....
    Amnik Amnik
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 8

    I think, there for I thought it.

    ..yea...Uh huh! Who gets you, understands you as you are? Sees you in your light and darkness. Desires as much as you do just to feel complete acceptance faults and all. Whose love is to dive deeper beyond your mind and soul but as far as you could possibly go...who is it that...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Mar 3, 2015

    Love of family keeps me on a narrow path It

    twists and turns... Somedays I see a bright light indicating The freedom to make different choices. Somedays it is obscured completely But that love, such a powerful love Keeps me from running wildly... Blindly through fragrant flowers. They call to me, I can touch them...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 18
    Amnik Amnik
    26-30, F
    Mar 22

    I wish I was more talkative

    and less off into my mind. I wish I was smart so I wouldn't let you hurt me. I wish I wasn't so scared to tell people everything I think.
    Rika39 Rika39
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 21

    People don't get how powerful antidepressants

    are. If they work, it's the best thing that's ever happened to them. If they don't, it's no different from where they were before. But getting off them.....is hell. Especially if you've been on them for a while. Because all the emotions the meds suppressed are coming back...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    3 Responses May 26, 2015

    What happened? You were

    such a good dad... A good man.... A good husband... An exceptional lover.... Slowly each of these traits started disappearing, but I stuck around because you remained a wonderful father.... But today, well today you have be all sorts of twisted! This has got to be the last...
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 8

    In this world full of hate

    and distrust, is there any hope anymore?
    ThePoet724 ThePoet724
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 3

    Just ride it out... If only I were on top of

    the crashing waves Instead of underneath them drowning The only things saving me are the gap between the waves that lets me breathe and the fact that I can tread water While I try to get to shore...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 6

    Don't Love Me- I scream internally.

    Even through all the pain my heart carried, I've never been able to cry. I was drought. I was empty. Any insult, any compliment, I am indifferent to in question of sentiment. I know that it hurts. I know that it saddens me, I know that it breaks me. But even then, my eyes...
    HariTheHamster HariTheHamster
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Sep 25, 2015
    Amnik Amnik
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 20

    If you think I hold you responsible,

    you're wrong. I blame you. I blame you for pulling me in when I vehemently protested. I blame you for coercing me because it suited you even when I said I didn't want it. I blame you for involving me in all the **** that went on between you and her. I blame you for telling...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 10

    Skin tingling I wonder

    if anyone could see The internal need So close to the surface It seems as if it would raise the hair on my arms or leave goosebumps The touch of the cool fabric Against my soft skin Makes the undercurrent grow stronger My body needs to be touched Needs passionate hands to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 18

    Gestalt Prayer...Something To Think About.

    "I do my thing and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, And you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful. If not, it can't be helped." (Fritz Perls, 1969...
    catwhiskers catwhiskers
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Sep 13, 2011

    Wouldn’t it be lovely

    if everyone could pursue their dreams? Wouldn’t the world be a wonderful place as everybody would be so happy!
    LittleMilwee LittleMilwee
    22-25, F
    Mar 19

    Sleep is overrated...

    So is sobriety.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 8

    Do you ever feel like anxiety engulfs you?

    Like a cold feeling starts in your core, then spreads out and out until you feel like your bones are rattling within you as the feeling of warmth and safety get sucked out of you. Do you ever feel like anxiety envelops you? Like it affects your thoughts, demeanour, behaviour...
    Etherealinsanity Etherealinsanity
    18-21, F
    Apr 13
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 26, 2015

    Logged in meaning to write about my giddy

    feelings for someone but thinking instead about the death of a friend's loved one. Life is so unpredictable. Good times appear to be so short compared to the sad ones. The ones forever lost, they still haunt us. Our memories. Perhaps I am running away from it all. Or perhaps...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 25, 2015

    How Strange

    We are a troubled people, rotting in a time when delusions of grandeur are as common as our dependency on the constant monitoring of people wealthier than ourselves is rampant. We follow routines in the fashion that our media broadcaster of choice dictates. We are wholly...
    Triundi Triundi
    26-30, M
    Sep 14, 2012

    Conversation with new shrink: Me; "And so,

    even though our friendship went through many changes, including jealousy issues on his wife's side, he is my BFF and knows every single thing about me." She: "Are you in love with him?" Me: "Well, yes, I mean, I've given him all of me so.." She: "Have you said so to each other...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Nov 17, 2015

    I already have fences Keeping me corralled Love

    me as I am Wild hearted. Free mind. Love that part of me And your smile will never leave If you could let my words Only words Take flight Keep your fear caged Then a life of pure bliss would be ours
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 22

    What is the body, after all?

    A vehicle. It can be destroyed. The voice of the soul will go on. Why do we cry for a materialistic body? Would you love it the same if there were no soul? Did you not love Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility, even if its author had been dead so many years? So then why...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2015

    Life should be measured not by those

    who left us but those who keep coming back.
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 16

    Man... I'm trying to be grown up about it

    but I miss my f**kbuddy. We had some good conversations as well as the great chemistry. And boy, he cooked up a mean steak, mind-blowing crepes and succulent seafood! I strongly believe passion for food and passion for sex/life/experiences all go hand in hand. Which brings me...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 7

    I planned to complete something today

    but I realised that I needed one more thing and I can't get it till tomorrow. I hate it when I can't complete stuff that I planned to finish. Arghhh.
    nirvsemp nirvsemp
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 28

    Most times you say "it's fine"

    or "it'll be alright" even if it wasn't going to be like that.. Yet you made people believe with those phrases over and over again. And in the end there's only two road believers take on. And either way it'll make and shape them up into what they are destined to be. I just...
    KarasuEm KarasuEm
    16-17, F
    Mar 29

    come quickly, I'm calling piercing the

    silence sounds falling upon deaf ears they can hear, but choose not to listen
    annalea annalea
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 14, 2015

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