lest I damn
The skillful liar that I am.
So convincing so sincere
Telling all to lend an ear
But lies I tell the truth be told
And I the fool who heeds them most
The poison fills my very soul
Taken deep and given whole
He said I have the right to feel
To love, to cry and...
and medium of art. You are using words instead of paint and putting emotion behind what you jot down. I wrote this poem when I was in an emotional, heightened state and my emotional wellbeing was raw at the time and I had to let it flow and write down my own interpretation of it...
I like the broken damaged mess boys,
all anorexic thin-like,
that weak wrist smoke their cigarettes for breakfast
And call coffee lunch
I like the addicted,
& the broken hearted
Who are observant and soft spoken,
Because the way they look says it all
I like the jobless non...
and never stop.
Can't you see this is killing me and I don't know if I can survive this pain my heart torn to pieces my soulf shatted I wish I could drown you in the rain of my tears.
How could you do this after so many years.
Please someone take my pain away. Don't think I...
while she sits in the bathroom tub with the shower running.
The sadness she feel when she feels alone.
The hate towards herself when she looks at herself in the mirror.
She finally does it.
She grabs the blade and strap it deep across her wrist.
Her eyes closes and you can...
tears for my sadness ....my eyes are now bleeding and blind because Sorrow has gauged them out and taken them as her treasure.
That ***** painstakingly reminds me of her stake in me. The bile of my regrets, the violence of love each a token from her twin Suffering and Her lover...
and sunlight falling free
breathing in the fresh, briny air
you are happy somewhere
in the music of days passing
laughter on rolling hills, roving
side by side with one you hold dear
you are happy somewhere
on heavenly summits
eyes glowing and love-lit
for you, I am very naive
I fear Ill lose you, I am running out of tricks up my sleeve
without you, Ill be very incomplete
is my love going to become a one way street ?
Don't just leave for everything will be dull & gray
i can't let go, please don't walk away
i cannot take this...
turn back time
and undo the monster it has become
coz' I'm just a loser, sick-
with no devices left to fix this shameless planet on my own
I'm sitting outside,
waiting to see the sun
My mouth is dry
My arms are covered with swollen, blue veins
i was not their the day you were born
i never knew that you were conceived
when you finally came into my life
there was mixed emotions
i was living life at that time day to day
waiting for my last breath
a ever ending search for god
an ever ending search for me...
Cry and not feel any pain,
Yet need a way to start again,
How is it possible for someone to be this ugly,
Yet be stupid enough to fall for his trap,
How is it possible for him to love me,
Even though he knows me for my true self,
How is it possible to fix me,
If I am...
Am I trapped inside a box that never opens? I'm in the dark and it's hard to breathe. my lungs are slowly shriveling up. my skin has turned ice cold and I'm as white as a ghost. am I dead? is this what death feels like? my worries and fears are so heavy, I feel my bones might...
You make me feel so smallYou like to see me fallI land on my faceWhen will you give me some graceI didn’t deserve thisMy life was once full of so much blissBut people like you took it awayNow I can’t enjoy the dayWhy were you so cruel?Everyone thought I was the foolIf they...
no words can describe the way you make me feel
my emotions are overflowing, I cannot conceal
I LOVE YOU so much, you are my one & only
don't leave me, i don't want to be lonely
I am helpless and all i do is cry
somehow I know my love will never die
i could be...
someone you never even had,
how is it possible that I am screaming but you don't even hear a sound,
I am blinded by the what if's and is that even posible's,
even though I know the answers but yet I am still taken back on all the possibilitys,
I am being blinded in reality...
In forgotten memories that I have found
With tear-stained cheeks
My future looks bleak
Pushed along by a light
I keep what's true in sight
Even as my body grows weak
It is you I continue to seek
Words better felled upon deaf ears,For explanation not so easily givenWhen all you do is share your fears,Why or how one could be thus driven.Such a deviously, unassuming twist,Unforeseen blessing so magnificentSnare the unwitting, unable to resist,Yet you were a willing...
You dont think you raped meyou dont think you wronged meyou clearly cant seethe obvious realityyou are scum that isnt anything newyour gum someone spit out on the ground and got stuck on my shoethe gum that burrdens me with flashbacks and nightmaresyou should be wearing a sign...
tears on my cheeks
Tears that you brought
You didn't care enough
Not enough to save me this pain
Or wipe away tears you caused
Not enough to call or text
Not enough to leave a message
Why I stayed within you so long, I'll never know
You didn't tell me you were going to...
Now stands a soulless entity
Whose path no one knows
Deep in thought
Lost without a way
Can't be found
Eyes so dark
Heart so heavy
Everything is quiet in this place of limbo
Look around to see soulless patrons
Wandering without a clue
Of how life was
How it was...
Vision clouded by this fog
Dense as over-city smog
Losing my way in this maze
As minutes turn Into days
Isolated and alone with my thoughts
Heart twisting into knots
As I look for you
I don't know what I'll do
I'm pushing forward
Hoping that the path I'm on
Points to you
have I known
They press my feet into my toes
The windlass whirls
The rope in hand
Scratches at my cheek and nose
Echoes fill my head
When down the rocky shaft I plunge
Bursting far below, the tiny sky recedes
As black cascades and icy numb
The bubbles churn
Against my ears like...
My heart was pounding,hell it was racing,my heart was running while I stood still,you had come back for a second time,I felt ill, I was ina panic,it was a panic attack,I felt it when my friend said you were coming in,I felt it when he said you would be at the office and near the...
It's a new cold art.
When will your happiness, occur?
We abandon our hearts to see them.
So hold on to your love,
Lock it within walls of stone,
A cage of frigid firmament.
Never more to grow or reveal it's visage.
Frozen, in it's horrid perfection.
A mysterious beast...
I thought you were better.
3 years of lying.
Saying life was better.
All the while,
Moving across the country.
No doctor visits.
I can nearly hear the unicorns screaming
Shattered rainbows and darkened skies
My chest hurts
I wish I could vomit
Like spilling my stomach would
Make me lighter
Make me pretty
Make me better
Take away the achy burn
... It won...
Sun's beams dance lightly on her face
Warm and velvet
Cusping her heart deeply
Beyond the thicket
Gray clouds cover;
Cold mist shrouding-
Her whimpers, drenched
Forest dimmed, alas
Stinging tears, broken
Falling solemnly to
was a whispered promise of hope...
The first gentle sigh of my thigh against your thigh
was a step closer to paradise...
The first moan of bliss as my lips met your lips
was a melody only angels may hear...
The first tears I cried when we had to say goodbye
and i'm sitting. sitting in a room staring at a blank wall, eyes wide open. i try not to feel, i push it away. silence... tension. i scream and throw the chair across the room. silence... tension. one hand on the wall, hair hanging across my painful expressions. silence tension...
. the rotting inside black like.. the blood that’s dried up his mine ours black like.. the memories I vomit, like the ones I’ve shot up black like.. the pistol I felt- twisting twisting twisting my guts into mud black like his eyes, soulless...
lost in the storm
Baby let me come back home
I'm lost alone in the cold
I've never felt more at home in your arms
I've never felt more alone without you
You know my soul, my innocence and my shame, and you loved them all the same...
I woke up this morning, and realized that no one will ever understand me...
No one will ever get the fact that I hate my life with a passion so complex,
That your mind doesn't even have the capability to comprehend it...
A passion so deep that I might just be willing to end it...