think about the things
that make me just right.
Feel all beautiful inside
Just like a watered tree.
Maybe just maybe
i could resist the urge,
to seek a empty sensual sensation
To the amount of preception,
that i can't wait for my love to get back.
Maybe, if i starve my inner...
and so here is the poem that I wrote for him when he was a baby.
_ _ _____ _ _
"Fussy Nights With Baby Boy"
Do you remember when
we would lie on the yellow couch
listening to jazz on CBC
as crickets provided the words?
Occasionally racoons would fight...
my soul needs love to breed...
to breed what is left of it..
my love for her was an oasis,
that oasis became a mirage in the desert.
and i cant have this dessert and not ask for water.
there is no water in the desert
and i watch the fear of the mirage come real,
If all we had were memories,
…of the quite times in each other’s arms.
Feeling calm, lifted, warm and floating,
…would you know I was thinking of you?
If all we had were feelings,
...tilting our heads forward to brush cheeks.
Feeling like two melting into one,
But was blocked by ma and pa
Because I was short my diploma
Then when I finished school
My girl and I were cool
So I followed her to college
In search of different knowledge
Couldn't find work with those courses
So I returned to the warehouses
And heard my...
Peace and love.
It's all the same.
Confusion and doubt.
We're not without.
We weep, we cry.
We plead, we try.
We laugh, we smile.
Only to be hurt
by one last trial.
Life is a lesson,
so learn it well.
Maybe, one day,
you can tell it's tale.
I wrote this when I was 17. I wasn't in the best of states. I had been cutting a week. But soon after I wrote this I got over my life and pulled my-self back together.
The wind combs my hair, the silk of the breeze so smooth.
The sparkles in the night sky, they shine so bright...
but what I honestly needed.
You gave me everything, while my heart continued to bleed.
Love is not a tangible thing.
Love is sunny days and complicated ways
Love isn't a battle that needs conquered.
You gave me everything and nothing at all
Hurtful, cold words that shakes deep...
if you find it silly and crazy and don't understand it....LOL! ;)))
****Silly Fluffy Cats****
Three cats like to play
In a garden - sometimes together,
With their green ball of leather!
Two are white and fluffy
one green and the other
blue-eyed as blue...
when the colors
Turn to grey
How can you be blinded by the hurtful things you say.
You don't see things as you should
Let the imagination run way off track
Wonder if I sm coming or going
Or when you will be back
So hard to understand
Why do you push so hard!
Got to see the...
trying to write the thousand
and one thoughts running through my mind;
as i think to myself,
about all that was,
all that is and
all that will be
fear takes over my senses,
clouding my thoughts,
fear of the unknown,
fear of life
sometimes i want to run away from this mad...
When one instrument creates a symphony that sings and chimes and rings.
My heart can speak of more than love my scars bleed more than pain
but the stars can never shine more bright on an evening full of rain.
up in the dark
You hear judgmental words
Calling you names
Saying no one loves you
Explaining everything you've done wrong
Making your self scream
This voice in side your head
Your trying to understand
we're it's coming from
In a place I know so well?
How could I be so broken,
In a family so together?
How could I be so lonely,
Surrounded by so many?
How could I be so unhappy,
Surrounded by so much beauty?
How could I be me,
When even I remain a mystery?
almost 12 past 1, heart to heart, soul to soul, never to go, never to show, never to late, now I'm walking out of these gates, it's getting late, i have to go, goodbye for now, hear no sound, hush hush, the darkness is here now, washing over me, goodbye for now, hear no sound...
fingers running through your hair
Dream of me warmly pressed against your skin
Dream because I can't come in
Dream of my kisses along your back
Dream of the sweet way that I talk
Dream about all that we could do
Dream away since I'm not there with you.
Can’t go Can’t let anyone know Stuck here Out of air Almost drowning in despair Hopeless Useless Hiding away in the darkness Broken Beyond repair Longing for some fresh air Why must I always fall Just another brick in the wall Sad eyes Broken heart Always has to...
sees is hatred
She doesn't see her beauty
She only sees her flaws
The flaws that made her
Leave scars on her arms
Shove her finger down her throat
Say "I'm not hungry"even though her stomach is growling
She hasn't eaten in a week
She dons that beautiful smile
Like magic nobody...
There are insufficient words
To explain all the birds
Or how I'm enthralled
When graceful wings fall.
The meaning's not clear
When I look upon deer.
And what can I tell
About the squirrels?
Am I in tune
When I dream of raccoons?
Does it suffice
To have three...
That didn't reflect well on you
When I crossed the state line
To Indiana the chimes
Started to be a bit more kind
As I got farther from home
Illinois had me think some
But no solution would come
Then I reached Wisconsin
And by now started thinking...
The good days seem to flood back.
In the bright, afternoon light,
Maybe one day you'll be here,
When I open my eyes to greet another day.
Knowing it's full of misery, loneliness, and pain.
As I regain consciousness,
the gloomy days start to settle in,
One by one.
At least when I...
You were there for me so many times
in my darkest days.
But when you had your hill to climb
I slumbered in a haze.
Had I awakened to your need,
Brought a smile to your lips,
You would have known my love for you
Your tension from you slips.
And so you...
feel like losing myself again
to drive into forgetfulness
back to thoughts, feelings, where i did'nt really care
I am now borded, i feel like coming back to a memory
i would like to loose myself again
shadow pastel movements
seeing you sleeping
move in beside you
hardly a sound
arm around you hold your hand
you hardly stir, smile gives you away
your eyes do not open, i whisper, i say...
hand glides effortlessly down...
Show me where you keep them,
I will help you stay strong.
Want to have my babies?
Want to get married...?
Tell me where'd I go wrong?
Say things are scary.
Tell me that you fear me.
And you're afraid to fall down...
Here I go my good friend,
I'm so close to life's edge.
for the guy I like can you please suggest a title?
Today as I go home,
I really feel so alone,
Thinking of you makes me feel so blue,
For you love her now and I'm still in love with you.
I long for your touch and warm embrace,
The looks in your eyes, the smiles in your face...
I've written many many poems. Since I was 8-9 I've loved writing them but of course they've changed through time and matured.
Poems is one of my best way to express my feelings or my ideas of a story or something.
seasons have plans; beasts have patterns, we do what we can.
Some people come and are valued like gold; a few of them leave and let trails run cold.
We both awoke and faced the day; I got to here while you went your way.
Wishes are limited and work does enough; so...
and beautifully flawed.
The pureness of your love leaves me speechless and awed.
Your eyes glitter like diamonds through the tears of past pain. With your head held high your broken smile holds no shame.
Of whatever is present
At each witnessed moment.
Eyes are reflectors;
To what we're enacting
Eyes are projectors
Revealing our insides
And displaying what resides
In our hearts and minds.
Your eyes speak for you;
Aging with every second that passes
Hoping to get the best life has to offer
Before leaving it all behind
Mine has been no different
Trying to find a soul mate
Capable of loving me
Not judgemental with every single turn
Gentle to one's touch
Easy on the eyes
Once the North wind made love with the seaand a tiny little wave soon came to beFather Wind would guide him as he grewHis Mother was the sea he traveled throughand as they brought him closer to the shoreeach day he would grow a little moreand safe within the arms of Mother SeaHe...
I flash back and see
Of a girl crying in a corner,
wishing they didn't scorn her.
Breaking down inside,
looking for a place to hide.
Of a girl always looking down,
averting shameful eyes from their frown.
She's all alone,
without a home...?
Of a girl filled with...
though i kept bleeding out.. you took my screaming agony on the inside of my soul seeing the reflection of the world caving in around me.. what is true love.. is there such a thing.. i believe so. how will i find it.. do fates intertwine.. do fates meet? i wonder.. cause i'm...
Chatting about dirty things,
My skin flushes and hormones sing.
What I miss
Though is a kiss.
My heart would flutter as I feel
My distant lover become real.
And the rest...
Are they the best?
Or is it happily enough
To once again feel loved?
so i wrote this poem long back ! just sharing with you all :
with lakhs of people travelling
and thousands of passing by
i found myself in the midst
just gazing at the sky
for i need to choose
which road to travel by
making decision was not so hard previously
but this time it...
and somewhere far above, not exactly from the heavens lives the Angel of Dark Love. With one crack of thunder followed by a flash of light, she enters your heart bearing smiles of delight. Once again I stand before you with arms open wide, a smile upon my lips and tears in my...
I have this wanting in my heart and confusion in my mind.
The words I’ve left unspoken haunt me all the time.
There are nights I wake crying when I wish that you were near.
To hold me in your arms and kiss away this tear.
Right now my heart is deep...