was written "for" my mother:
Fiery words shot across the room -
Bullets to the heart, bombs to the soul.
As the shrapnel settles and the dust clears,
there is a deadly silence.
We see the victim reappear - cautiously,
from the ruins of her former self.
No human, no sensitive...
spinning around and around and as time goes by. Over thinking consumes me, death gripping on me , crawling on my skin, head to toe. Until I've become numb and just stiff. I look to the right and left to see if there's a light in this world I'm in. Why I'm here? Where is everyone...
upon my canvas . So insensible and so vulnerable to my tracing touch. Your bare flesh subliminally nettles my trance. I'm mesmerized by the thought of the innumerable yet tireless times we've created the most divine art. Each piece so equally compelling, breathtaking, memorable...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
But i cant bring the courage to speak
No matter how hard i try
My voice becomes so weak
So i found a better way
Got out me pen to write
I wrote about the good things
I wrote about how you changed my life
First line was how you smiled
How it could shine so bright
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
love with Italian food, Italian cars and furniture, Italian frocks, bras and pants and Robert De Niro.
The Boy From Another World quickly fell in love with German beer and cigarettes, German sports cars, the history of the Waffen SS and The girl from Run, Lola Run.
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
filled with desolation as I face my own wrath.
And as my sidewalk slowly floods through emotion,
with each singular tear creating my ocean
I wonder, would we smile without destinations?
Could we all walk as one without expectations?
And if we cry in unity, our world might...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
Tongues of pleasing
Reminiscent of fire
Lovers in two
Becomes the one
Flames of mixed vices
Enter the emotion of flavored spices
Moaning in safe passage
Hands embraced to love
Softly I hold you
until I die:
:walk away, my mind will fly:
:my eyes lost, so they burn and fry:
:my skin lost:
:walk walk walk walk walk walk walk:
:STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP:
:WALK WALK WALK WALK WALK WALK WALK:
:TAKE THIS OUT:
:MAKE THIS ALRIGHT:
don't stop fighting
How do i tell them
This fire keeps dying
How do i tell them
Im tired of reigniting
Im sick of these leaves and twigs
Im tired them telling me to forgive
Im tired of being stuck in this place
Im tired of the human race
They say to stand tall
The say never...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
the ground today
And held it up above me
Looking, wondering and pondering
How high were you yesterday
How far above the ground
I looked at in wondrous awe
And asked how high were you
Above the clouds
Above the earth
How far did you climb
I held it in the warm breeze
Let it dance...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
who died in childbirth complications - a very strange way to die in 1986 in the US.
(Kit died the Sunday before Thanksgiving in 1986)
I saw a woman today who looked just like you:
Her hair was the same color and she wore it like you used to.
I watched her eating lunch and...
seat to look outside,
My coffee cup in hand.
The sun had yet to raise its head,
To spread its warmth upon the land.
The darkness seemed to magnify,
The crispness of the air,
And I could watch it all unfold,
From the comfort of my chair.
There is nothing like the morning smells...
out against the water
The bottom of your coffin
Leads me to this place
Lovers have no devilish device
Just fools that take heart's only ache
Constrained within emotion
Sanity's heart disguised
So it is that I bury my mourning
Pushed down to the dead of sea
Down down to the...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
hamster wheel awaits us all,
As we begin our day.
We run and run to spin our wheel,
But stuck in place we always stay.
As the wheel turns we seem to move,
But the scenery stays the same.
Sometimes events may change a bit,
Or we simply change the name.
Sometimes the wheel just...
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
You have to be taught to be happy from a neutral position.
There is no way to jump from misery to bliss -
not if either emotion is sincere.
You have to go in steps. There is no teleport in this life,
in this mental and physical realm.
Only in math and only in one process of...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
that lead this rocky shore. Scraps of your clothing tossed apart without sanity. Cold hearts of treason that runs amok. The pure madness upon this calamity which I am now sad. Darkness has set and the moon is about. Its deathly face of love filled with dew dripping like a candle...
Silence was pierced with long exhales followed by cigarette smoke that was circling around us.
We didn't talk much, but I remembered shape of each scar on his hands.
"Be my muse"-he whispered
"A contract? Should we seal it with blood?"
"I have the knife, give me the ink."-he...
Lonely day today,
not even an email,
let alone a phone call (ah, bliss!)
or seeing you (even better!)
And my heart wants to contact you...oh so bad.
But I know you're busy.
I try to be mindful of that,
even as my heart and soul cry out for you...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
Out of me
Remember me in pictures
Black or white
And let your memories
Fill me with new colors
I had no life
Would you remember the repetitions
Reduce me to flashes and pixels
And color me as one:
Today is a static blur
Of my deceased soul
Eyes blinking, I said goodbye
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...