For dropping a plate, for missing his call
for everything, for anything;
things big and things small.
"I'm sorry," I say,
and the word hits him like a train.
He makes to move towards me,
I make to move away.
I know he must get tired,
always having to soothe this fright.
The only difference between us
Is how we both have seen us
Some days the birds will fly
Or crash into the sky
They don't need to be justified
Just use your wings
By whatever it means
Leave it all behind you
If that's what you need
I'm sick of watching
And waiting to pass...
mind when you
Go on your tirades
You yell and scream
You accuse me of breaking
Promises to change.
You act as if I'm a monster.
I never cheated on you.
I never turned my back on you
I always stood by you
And when I say I am here for you
You attack me and shut me out.
thought I was
Turns out I have a breaking point
I guess everyone does
Hers is the stress
Of pleasing everyone
His is the pain
Of loosing a loved one
Mine is different
It doesn't seem right
But mine is myself
It's pretty Black and white
I am broken down
Your love gives me a magic reaction
Leaving me short of breath
With just a word my inhibitions all melt
Undressing each layer of my soul
Being bare naked before you without any hold
As an open book I am standing before you
My life is yours no matter what you do...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
I thought I knew you better
Spending a life time together.
Only to come and realize
You are a stranger to me.
Have you learned nothing?
You're in dark, turbulent waters now.
Not knowing which star to follow
The Northern Star had guided you
To safer and calm seas.
to me he speaks
The gentleness of his solitude
Grief and contentment
in his hands lie
Transparencies of love lost
barefaced in his eyes
Unyeilding strength he lends
in veiled moonlit glow
and ardent adjurations
melt slowly in his snow
In passing my...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
back into my dreams.
Like an unwanted ghost
Haunting my nights
Haunting my dreams.
You use others to do your bidding.
With promises of love and affection.
They say you miss me
But I know that's not true,
Because when I needed you most
I no longer desire your...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
yearned for it's sweet fruit and open blossom...
watched you walk in beauty...
lay with you in naked passion
as the soft unfiltered light caressed,
and kissed the rising of your breasts,
and with every sigh my passion swelled
as I sought your comfort in a dream...
but knows only your name !
never a day without arousing you, but we lack earnestness!!
we pretend in such a way as if you are our impute !!!
but still you are great,never left us unaccompanied !!!
The ice isn’t enough Frustration, anger, fear, Failure… Sitting alone in the cold Wanting a different pain I found it Below my fingertips But stop Lo and Behold Stop He loves you Stop. He. Loves. You. Stop! Shivering, crying, screaming...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
Cowardly spirited in that plain cage
Ferociously tame in wild fields
You have no name
Stealing secrets from fragile frauds
Quit your lying and confess
Don't taunt my patience
Even the gentle goat roars louder
Turning into the raging Ram
When its Devils gloat...
Slander be more than lies
Could statues be more than stone
A king be worth more than his throne
They think when it doesn't hurt
We mean that it's much worse
Shoot us in the chest again
One more day if we pretend
You'll be seeing headlines
It's all we ever dreamed
Coldness strikes, a vicious debate.
Judgmental world, of past no more,
Dying perspective, losing allure.
Trouble sleeping, painful awake,
Desiring more, make no mistake.
Twisted path to journey's end,
Skeletons closet, makes no amends.
Passion for living, questioning dead...
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
Longing for love, with every breathe.
Captured heart, a broken dream,
Loss of words, and a silent scream.
Fascinating irony of being alone,
Fake smiles and a pretending tone.
Fixated on mending a crippled dove,
Misconception of defined love.
Brought up to hope and be let down...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
i know i might just light this joint just for the touch , just for the rush
you dont even know the half of it , mad ruckess
tangled brain , im feeling like a hand puppet
cause she dont know im alone , im on my own
comatose , im feeling sick but im still posted up at...
heard the sounds of laughter,
And seen the flow of tears.
I have felt the comfort of understanding,
That comes from many years.
Sometimes it takes a journey,
For understanding to be found.
And to know the path that is meant for us,
To keep us planted on the ground.
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
to be me. Let me become everybody, so I will be able to feel good about my sanity. I feel I am blind, bound by shackles. “Let me go!” What has a hold of me? All I desire is love, something I can observe in others. This is why I hate to see my reflection; because it’s a...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
hands I held today,Brought to my face a smile.And any troubles I may have had,Left me for a while.Even though you are short right now,In emotions you are tall.Possessing a great big growing heart,In a body that is small.I watched you try to make a choice,As your mind began to...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
as the enemy and shut me down
Your words are bombs
Insults exploding inside my heart
I hear the crash over and over again
Ages after the devastation
You close the door in my face
You see me as an invader and the enemy
You see me as the root of all evil
You seek to destroy me...