If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
July 27, 2013) I can't seem to find home. This place called reality. I don't belong. I can't seem to find home. Lord, where did I come from? Every time I meet the sky, people bring me down and make me cry. I can't seem to find home. I talk to spirits all day but people bring me...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
leaving only madness behind
spinning around and around
like the hands of a clock never stopping forever going forward
so it seems like sanity is the hardest thing to hold on to
so is this the price I am to pay for love
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
Some way, that wound
Pulls its weight in pain
Hard touches will perplex
Ones entangled sublimely
But even in the scorching sun
It was cold, and thinking was dumb
Even the rain drop that shattered smoothly
Could not bear its sadness
Hoping to bounce back
I got this! Go sit down! Go sit down! I'll check it myself. I'll check it myself. Come-boo-ga! Come-boo-ga! Shwalalalalala, magic, magic....There you have an goat. There you have an turtle.Shwallalalala
Shwa Shwa Ss-sshh-sh-sh shwalalala
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
that little tiny thing
Wealth was paid in offspring
In the Den the many faces
All frolicking as one
Boredom was fecund for another
A cage gave birth to many
Rather random imaginations
All made huge machinations
By blood they share many...
life is written in,
Every single day.
All the task that you have done,
And the thoughts along the way.
You write out every chapter,
And every single page.
The book keeps growing every day,
Reflective of your age.
Some chapters filled with laughter,
But some of sorrow too...
but in the end you learn to love the pain you feel
I've figured out sometimes to stay alive you have to kill your mind
but listen here there is no feeling as tragic as wishing you had tried harder
Before the sun has warmed my fears.
Before I spend the day looking for you.
Before I try and remember what you said.
Before I swear never again.
Before I hope you call
Before I remember you won’t
I am the loneliest at night…
After the sun has left me.
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
beyond the vision, and the veil,
where dawn's thin misted whisper swept
fallen fragile, and brittle dreams
from littered paths, beyond the hang
of that old gnarled crooked bough of me,
and...in evelyn's garden, where streams have formed,
where once the broken willow wept...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
You throw shots back with him like the one who left you taught.
Sometimes you catch him looking at you through heartbreak like your body is the answer to time travel,
but you never played basketball
and he was never any good.
Sometimes you throw your arms around him...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
October 4, 2013) You can only hear thunder when the weather turns cold and the turtles in the sea becomes old. All your secrets has been told. Self becomes bold and Lilith took your soul and sold it for a sack of pure Thai Heroin.
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
Over empty words and shattered dreams
the heart you broke with the words you spoke
and with the words that are still unsaid
But just like always I'm already in your head
all in the lies you tell yourself
all the feelings you thought you felt
So what is your comfort to me...
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
don't know how I'd cope with out that place I call home
I just want to be my self
don't know how to be someone else
so let your conscious win
it'll get you out of the mess your in
so remember the further you climb the harder you fall
doesn't take long before...
A reluctant witness, to a rare desert fog.
Watched a watery sun have his way with her.
She seemed submissive.
Leaving only tears on a bystanding landscape.
I do guess, soon enough, there will be nothing left of her.
I sat…and did nothing.
2012) I didn't mean to hurt her. That horrible night back in November. I kicked her, had her stomach bruised.She changed because of the dope she abused. We promised to live a clean life but she kept ******* up all the time.I became completely psychotic knowing that the...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
her torso i hear
a dull whump,
and the sounds that accompany mouthwash
more of the same but different.
a soft machine
tightly wrapped in bands of blobs and threads
some tough, some greasy
stacked imperfectly, out barely an inch
and that spark
of 17 or so years...
In my eyes see the reflection,
Deep, dark and sensual
Reflecting in eyes of blue.
Come seduce this mind
And let it go.
Let my desire for you
Burn a longing to be held,
Taste and sound and smell
Hands and fingers, soft and firm
..to be alone with you.
Alone with your night shades and dark secrets.
Alone with under the cover of a forgotten darkness.
Alone with a symphony of quiet callings and lonely sounds.
Alone with the moon as she traces her smile across the sky.
I have been waiting all day...
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
where no one can see...
Just how long it's been.
You are my poetry.
A poem I can't seem to finish.
Just one clumsy line spilling into the next.
You are my happiness.
A low glass ceiling.
Just so you can watch.
You are my sadness.