Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
I got scared when you came home,
Mamma took the needle today,
Fell on the couch when you were on your way,
The house is burning with dirty hands,
Is it only me that understands?
Daddy why do I have to bleed,
Are you angry that you didn't succeed?
Mamma tell me why do you...
The girl that died of a heartache passed me in the night whispering memories of youI stood to frightened to move for fear my eyes cast a lightand the darkness she drew like a cape around her shoulders.Her tears fell like jewels on the crushed lovers rulesthat you broke to bring...
and destroy my body,
But you do not own me
I will never belong to you
Though you haunt me mercilessly
Though I can never seem to escape your cold presence
I do not belong to you
Your attacks have hurt me deeply
But I will not be broken
I am stronger than this
And I will heal...
It never rightfully belonged to me
But I wanted it nonetheless,
So when you were distracted and couldn’t see
I took it, I confess.
I thought that it might take a while
For you to realize your mistake,
And though I felt guilty in my guile
I held it close, for love’s sake...
What could I have done to catch your eye?
Just a face in the crowd who’s sadly mistaken
Invisible. At least you can’t see me cry
You just keep on singing
And you keep on playing
And the stage lights hit you just right
Your guitar on your knee
What your voice does to me
upon my canvas. So insensible and so vulnerable to my tracing touch. Your bare flesh subliminally nettles my trance. I'm mesmerized by the thought of the innumerable yet tireless times we've created the most divine art. Each piece so equally compelling, breathtaking, memorable...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
look in the eye
A feint smile that quickly grows
The heart beats faster
There's a tingling in your finger tips
A rush of blood and endorphins and life
The touch grows more insistent
The mind becomes preoccupied
Clever words that hide nothing
As the teasing soon begins
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
Where am I going? I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. I'm dead. Gone. Tired of living. Tired of breathing. Tired of seeing. Tired of hearing. Tired of feeling. Feeling. What an awful word. I hate feeling. I like the numbness that takes over. The emptiness. The cold...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
Roses are dull
violates are dying,
you say we dont care
but yet i am crying.
just fades away,
im left behind
we want you to stay.
In my eyes
im holding back tears,
scared and in pain
from all the past years.
We all care alot
we dont want you to go,
i try and stop you...
wrote a song for the moon
with a feeling on his heart
and woman on his mind
He found the perfect words to describe
what he sees around
and put it together to make a song
I never I though that I would love anyone
who found a beauty from the moon
with out the darkness the moon...
Open up your eyes,
Is it only the fool who lies?
No one is getting anywhere,
Heck if this demons should care,
Lies, tears and holding a flame,
How many times will life play its twisted game?
Tyrants and jesters pulling the strings,
Never deep enough, only watching the pretty...
Your armor shines and glistens upon the sun
Your helmet glows brilliant gold and silver
Your face illuminates the radiance of love
Your eyes delve deep into the world and universe
Crisis and desire conflict in one spectacle
Damnation upon you and I forfeit our lives
Your halo and...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
inside my mind
Thro the cracked looking glass
I see an unfamiliar inmate
And a readiness for defeat
A face that’s plain and crass
I am spellbound as I listen
To the words of bitter angst
Spat out by my reflection
I struggle to turn my head
From the patronising glare
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
being spoken ;)
A pin drop, quiet eyes, but a surreptitious smile
Over my glasses, coffee, held in bony fingers
Glance at me and quietly whisper
And we sit together, smiling
Because we share a warm secret.
Ten minutes in, I catch your eyes, frothy
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
A red stain flows down my skin of porcelain.
Gentle moonlight illuminates the the haunting scene.
Like mountains on a flat landscape,
Or storm on a cloudless day,
It peirces the image of perfection.
Except now it is no longer mountains,
Or a raging storm.
It's blood, dying my...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
The winds of time erode away
The memories of our past,
Leaving us with shadowy thoughts
That disappear too fast.
And so we cling with all our might
And try to hold them near,
All the things for which we care,
And those that we hold dear.
No matter how much we try to cling...
world that everything that it throws at you ,you'll remain?
for the sake of love
do you swear to stay with me through thunder , sunshine, spring, summer and rain?
just for the sake of love
Would you swear to put your name next to mine
to my pains and the hurt of life would u...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
Endorphins as you are high off the moment,
In your veins I will flourish,
But let these words not parish as I sting from the come down,
Lost but someone like me is too ambiguous to be found.
Wait. Chatter. Noise. Loud.
Coagulation turns to blood thinners while you bleed out the...
if it's good or not.. Idk I like it but that's just me
It's something so unordinary.
It's not cold.
You feel what I can't;
Joy, happiness, love.
You love what I can't;
It holds my heart.
I know you won't drop it.
Or shatter it.
Yesterday I lay in my bed... cold. Just cold.
As I shivered silently I heard a tiny shriek...
What was it? My mind asked , alarmed.
'Oh nothing it's just me crying' squealed the heart.
'Oh' answered the brain... 'What's got you down this time'?
'I'm sorry but I...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
Knowing does not take the heartache away
Knowing does not fill the sad empty hole
Nor does it prevent all the pain in my soul
Knowing does not mean that I love you less
Knowing is harder than having to guess
When you left me without leaving a trace
I know that it felt...
English teacher, Mr McCabe, for my poems tend to be quite long.
I give you my heart,
Is what the gift said,
Before he takes me over to bed
Crystal; cold and tinged with grey,
Falls away; slips from palm eager instead
For his skin; Lovers head to head, laugh...
and every day
A speck of dust
In a world full of rocks
while she floats away
By monsters she can't keep at bay
As she rots in dark, dank well of grey
One day, she pray
They'll be taken away
The only other way?
life she must pay
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
for suicide prevention.
I'll just try it one more time and see if they're right.
I've got one blade held in my hand holding it tight.
Flipping it over again and again.
Rethinking my choice of going down this lane.
It's just one cut, what harm could it do?
Maybe if they see they...
and alone with my thoughts there I sat on the floor,
It's still dawn, coffee brewing, almost as it was 4 months ago.
I'm sprawled on the floor and my thoughts became the audience,
I'm trying not to entertain my thoughts but they humor me so well especially my conscious,