And I fear you'll go again,
Where did you go?
Why am I not happy?
I thought I would be,
But all I want to do is cry,
Why am I not happy?
If all is lost,
And all is gone,
If all is pain,
Why do you cause me to smile?
Where have you gone?
Didn't you realize,
a minuscule fragment that exists in a void of space we call our existence. Plagued by the debt to pay reverence to an unknown variable that deems my worth with my devout troth, to which I cannot deny but instead do so more as to mindlessly oblige. I am minuscule, my worth is...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
Roses are dull
violates are dying,
you say we dont care
but yet i am crying.
just fades away,
im left behind
we want you to stay.
In my eyes
im holding back tears,
scared and in pain
from all the past years.
We all care alot
we dont want you to go,
i try and stop you...
the English Patient)This is no English patient.There are no parallels,No similar liaisons,But it's about those scenes,And the bath.When all was good,Tucked away in dreams,Lovers in foamA sensual two-person melee,Non-identifiable,Anonymous,Lifesaving.I admit that's what I need...
Hearts can be in many colors,
Blood bleeds in many ways,
Still my heart lingers more,
Because I am searching for a home,
We all need a home,
We all need a place to be,
A place where others lay,
Laying as a pack on we shall go,
Moonlight skies wake me up,
Keeps my mind racing...
Don't know how to tell the time,
Don't know have to live this life,
I'm on the outside looking in,
I'm on the inside said looking out,
Memories, a photo a page and layers,
Don't know how to tell the world I'm sorry,
Guess I keep on going even without a story...
as if the dawnCast beads of dew upon her lipsAnd every sweet petal of sense I ownLies scattered at her fingertips,The pages of the map are tornFrom reason, veiled in lust's eclipseAs my hands caress her, like the gentle breezeOf tranquil climates, I kiss the skinOf her silken...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
would I know?
Before me it could stay
And which of us would be perplexed,
I could not say.
It or I,
Perplexed by which.
If that white had a form,
how would I know?
Around me it could encase,
Or within me it could fill,
But perplexed, I could not say
If it or I
Were the same...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
who they are!
Sometimes I don't think before I speak,
Or I speak when I should just walk.
But I guarantee that my words are genuine,
I don't really enjoy small talk.
Sometimes it's not what you say, but nothing at all,
You can argue with the ignorant,
Useless as conversing...
as you rest your head
Against my chest. Can you hear a storm approaching?
That's my heart! It rages as your warm breath
Sweeps against the broad cage
That barely can contain it. But have no fear.
It is a heart that cannot draw, 'though it would bleed
Should your cheek forsake it...
of good love~ here to give service and love~~ I am the child of my parents~ nurtured by their character and care~ sent away at an early age~ to look for knowledge and learning~~ I am the chubby nerdy child~ that got made fun of~ called out a math oddity~ praised by some, mocked...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
of hope falls from my eyes.
poems dont rhyme and paintings are in greys,
the warmth of the sun replaced by the grave.
a burned and blackened wasteland stretches to the shore,
the blighted oceans that i once adored.
love so cold, a world of no life,
a life ruined and bitter...
a serenading streamIn a tapestry bound by threads of fancy,A tangled weave of tangled dreams.The tall grass, swept by gentle rhythmStirred by an impulsive kiss,Became the whisper of a sighResponsive to my hand's caressAnd, as we lay, my eyes were drawnAbove to cloudless phthalo...
weeping as I watch us fall like raindrops
whilst holding the knowledge of those before
that fell through misty eyes. It never stops.
There will come a time when the last drop falls,
And I will realise my greatest fear.
With arms wide open I'll join this ocean,
hoping that you're...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
my spine, and my body curls. With deliberate strokes, your adoration for me unfurls. In the dimness, the beads of sweat lay like melted pearls. When goodbyes are said at twilight, reality itself, at our consciousness, hurls.
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
with artless strokes, caressed.
Nor for a fervid whisper of desire,
Not withstanding all the hunger that my heart possessed,
For that the ink I spilt was not inspired.
Not for one kiss should I ever trade my passion, my art,
Nor seek such lucrative returns
From the blind...
I'm not here to be loved
It whispers in my ear
A lesson that repeats
As a weight that defeats
While binding me in place
Alone on quiet streets
In my own masquerade
The lies of my charade
I pretend to be more
In hopes sorrow can fade
I acknowledge the pain
As I stand...
as you know who you are
You are the person that talks with me, and hails from very far
You were one of the very first people, that I met here when I was new
Several accounts later, I'm thankful to still be talking with you
At first I was quite stubborn, and sometimes even rude...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
and of happiness and of anger and of malice and of everything else that the stars could have possibly made up of
You let them scatter all over my body
Some settle in my veins, blooming into lillies
My brain became a field of forget me nots
But by far the largest amont decided to...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...