2012) My intestines aren't intestines. There's a big *** tapeworm inside me. It ears every food I consume. And I never gain weight. As a matter of fact, I am gaunt as ****. My stomach from the outside looks swollen. And the tapeworm keeps growing. I can feel it licking my...
AND IT IS DARK< VERY DARK.
You see my cuts
Not my scars
You see my smile
Not my tears.
You see my friends
Not my enemies
you see my mask
but not my true identity
As the eagle flew
A single feather fell
And it swayed back and forth
While it fell,
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
Ugh, I am disgusted with you. Ugh, I am disgusted with you. You always have a attitude. You always actin' weird. You don't speak your mind and you always be actin' shy. You always actin' mean and you hate everyone. Why? You caged bird! You don't never talk!!
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
..fiending...like an addict.
I'd do anything just to be close to it again.
I'd trade anything just to feel it again.
My friends told me not to try it...they said curiosity killed the cat.
When I first took a hit of it...it took over my mind...everything that they said got pushed...
.. it is I ... by moiHome: Sleep Inside by LiliumDon't be frightened, it is IYou lay there prone,As you sleep inside,Breathing lowAnd air across the end of your spineFrom the open window.Free,The moon is upAnd your dreams deep and wide,Dont fret and sighIt will all be good in...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
less guessing, a ballad to generalize. Less empty. I need a pickup me up, nothing, once plenty. Nothing to see now, something mess left me. Now I let the silent dress me for no pride and less envy and escape from light and let nothing in me and open for answers to only remain...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
2012) Field of roses, within my dreams. And I see all the ghosts hovering above me. Field of roses, within my dreams. And I see all the ghosts chasing after me. Field of roses, within my dreams. And I see all the ghosts following me. Field of roses, within my dreams. and I see...
May 10, 2012)
I see you in my sea food. I'm gonna eat you, oh you'll taste so good. I want you. I need you. I crave you. I watch you. I stare at you. I'm gonna pick you up and squeeze you and drop you in my mouth.
I see you in my sea food. I'm gonna eat you, oh you'll taste so...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
My selfish pride
My drug to use
My words to abuse
The choices that choose
Sickened with disgust
My life for lust
Love my misdeeds
Not knowing, nor caring
More caring, no sharing
Our lost worlds
What was yet so intimate...
Blurring your vision,
Leaving cold smears and stains across the floor.
Your hands reach to feel,
To find the entry or exit,
The point from which the pain holds its core.
Wounds visible in their depth,
In their crimson contrast to snow white porcelain skin.
They are mended...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
frightening dream that the moon was very huge right in front of me. Rising from the ground. I even seen the flag on the moon and the night just looked so surreal. Cows are flying around in chairs. Milk splash frozen in the air and the moon kept rising. It was bigger than my...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
and threw a stone into the water.
I watched the stone drop and concentric circles spread out from it.
The stone was solid. Though it sank, it was centered, and the circles were only the mist of sadness and despair drifting away.
The stone grew. The depth of the water breathed...
Watch the flames dance with passion,
Lighting colours of red and golden amber into the night sky.
Watch the flames die,
The cold heat that remains,
Ashes and dust as a memory of us.
Carry the ashes of my heart in the pocket of your soul,
Think of me when the world becomes cold...
for low-grade happiness tonight
Narcotic of situation, not of choice
A semi-stranger on the other end
Without a face and without voice
I'd be moved to a state of semi-bliss
By the chance of his company
Typed word and mouth dumb
I'd beg for a morsel of...
Leaving a path of crimson and green.
The inky sky silent as the stars illuminate,
Lighting the colours that glisten on the crest of the waves.
My hands long to reach across the golden sand,
Touch the corners of your smile,
Etch you to my skin like an eternal tattoo,
Keep you in...
Stay locked in time in one moment, the beautiful shine, hold it and sit back proud. Cause look at me now. Every days a struggle to fight the ugliness that clings deep. It's stings to peak and see the hatred that rapes me and keeps me weak. The moments I let go and pass on flat...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
rain for a months or more
I saw you in her smile,
while I was crying on the floor
Did I give up the liquor?
-- my love, every time you call...
They say I'm looking sicker,
they never knew me much at all.
Often feel appreciated
Or strongly disliked
Appreciated when it was conquered
Hated when envy
Love is such a valuable object
Anytime we lose fear
The only difference with the precious
Him we do sail in heaven
Stupid and cursed are the Men
Who does not love as their...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
in fact, I feel no emotions for myself, nor for others. No empathy for them and no sympathy for the "devil". I see the roots beneath their every stem and yet I share with those who can only see what wilts above. A perennial masterpiece they create of flawed intricate design...
been named Lilith
Her middle names would of been Sky, or Dreamer, or maybe even Rave
Something that was our own little joke
Something that was just so..just so us
It would of made everyone smile and laugh
Just like her
She would of had bright untamable blonde hair
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds