Makes me stop and think
But sometimes it doesn't go by fast enough
Especially when things are getting rough
If you only knew
What I go through
Then maybe you can understand
But maybe all of this is part of a bigger plan
Just hold on one day longer
All of this...
Remember when all we did was smile?
Where did those times go?
Where did we go wrong?
Remember when we didn't hate?
Remember when money wasn't an issue?
What ever happened to us?
Why did we let society devour us?
Remember when we shined like diamonds?
Remember when we were...
A friend you never were to me
I regret giving you the attention you NEVER deserved
I gave to you what I can't give to myself
Memories fade away, I want to forget it
No, Alzheimer's I'm not welcoming you
Hopeless I remain, faceless I have became
A lack of identity remains...
rot and turn to dust
I will trust you again when my spirit is gone
when my breaths expires and leaves this earth.
I will give my soul, body and mind to you
when the sun and earth collide,
my love and respect shall be yours once more
when Satan rules the world!!!!
But you know...
Talking in circles.
Of fantastical theory of why,
Invention after the facts,
We connect the dots
To make sense of what really are
But labelled effective,
Due to seemingly therapeutic effects,
Sunny spells and scattered showers...
and light within desiring to be expressed. Repressed thoughts dance upon a page, illuminating darkness like an actor on a stage. Bringing to the surface every hesitant glance and misdirection. A lie is only the truth when the truth is perfection.
Ballroom dancers glide along...
It never rightfully belonged to me
But I wanted it nonetheless,
So when you were distracted and couldn’t see
I took it, I confess.
I thought that it might take a while
For you to realize your mistake,
And though I felt guilty in my guile
I held it close, for love’s sake...
so out of sync
thought this was over when you walked out on me
but I lie awake at night and drink 12 cups of coffee a day
I numb myself with sarcasm to get through the day
but nothing about what I feel is funny
nothing is right anymore and the days are longer and sunnier
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
From love and drugs for me I can't tell the difference it's the exact same comforting...
Makes you see the whole world for what it is, of pain and agoney and broken promises and suffering
But blocks out the reqrieum of my dreams
And helps you see that nothing is ever what it...
swimming over a desert
in a mirage of the sea
walk with me
be with me
release the hold on
common, usual, conventional, safe
immerse deep into
seeing, emotions, being, feeling
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
them, the people in sunlit placesTheir lives of ease, caressed by blue oceanFrom my world of deep shadows, I dreamI want to SCREAMBut ears don't want to hearI want to pull the heavens downUntil they hear the ROARThat echoes inside, incessantScreaming, asking why ~For God rules...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
The moment of soft arms
Wrapping around shoulders broad,
Chest to chest,
Lips to lips,
And mouth to neck.
It is what it is, because
Nature designed it so
The horizontal dance of two.
And of all the fanciful play
Acted out in act
One, two and three,
Cannot suffice to abate
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
i know i might just light this joint just for the touch , just for the rush
you dont even know the half of it , mad ruckess
tangled brain , im feeling like a hand puppet
cause she dont know im alone , im on my own
comatose , im feeling sick but im still posted up at...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
The winds of time erode away
The memories of our past,
Leaving us with shadowy thoughts
That disappear too fast.
And so we cling with all our might
And try to hold them near,
All the things for which we care,
And those that we hold dear.
No matter how much we try to cling...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
I can't help that every time I say "I'm fine" I lie.
I can't help that I'd almost take not wasting anymore oxygen on this earth than going another damn day where I want to slit my wrists.
I can't help the people I love, I sure as hell can't help myself.
I can't find a way to...
Roses are dull
violates are dying,
you say we dont care
but yet i am crying.
just fades away,
im left behind
we want you to stay.
In my eyes
im holding back tears,
scared and in pain
from all the past years.
We all care alot
we dont want you to go,
i try and stop you...
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
with mine, it is brilliant
Hard to look at; yet almost impossible
To avert your eyes
The colors sensational
Vivid images exploding
Like a star being born
Let your thoughts collide with mine
Into the walls around us
The ensuing echoes singing
A song that brings joy to me...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
feast upon your flesh as a message from his soul professing love to you.
Do not mistake his eagerness to be with you when the moonlight outshines the neon vacancy sign as an act of romance.
Do not mistake the hands caressing the places of your body you've invited him to...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
Running in a world of white mist
Nothing but the dirt trail ahead
The cold bites my bones and I clench my fists
I should've stayed in bed
This world consumes me
Clouds curl around my feet
Impossible to escape as it rises to my knees
The fresh air smells ever...
I have to stop drinkin
My mind isn't thinkin
Mom drank herself to death
That's what I'm doin to myself..
If I keep this up,
I'll have no hope
Gotta stand tall
Don't wanna fall
My mind needs to truly think
put it down .. that poisonous drink
Have the power to overcome...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
Do they enhance you?
Do they diminish you?
Do they improve you?
Do they suppress you?
Do they help you become a better version of yourself?
As we relax into each other, we are finding a new beauty. Finding that giving each other more freedom makes the world a more...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest