depression is not an easy thing
going thru each day not knowing what it may bring.
It's not as easy as you may think
to wash it all straight down the sink.
I have ups and downs, but I still do try
but when I mess up, you scold and I cry.
With depression you can be happy or sad...
to wake up and spread your bright and colourful wings,The time has come to explore this vast amazing world and and see what the new dawn brings.Please fly free lil one, no longer do you have to keep your feet firmly to this tree,The sky is now your branches and they are as high...
i know i might just light this joint just for the touch , just for the rush
you dont even know the half of it , mad ruckess
tangled brain , im feeling like a hand puppet
cause she dont know im alone , im on my own
comatose , im feeling sick but im still posted up at...
I know this to be true.
Because I saw heaven there
when I looked at you.
A smile so pure and simple
Your inner light was flowing free
I truly saw my heaven there
When you smiled at me
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
Love is the thing that keeps it from falling apart,
The mind is an intelligent tool
Without it a man is no more then a ignorant fool,
I grow to strive and teach my brain,
Days get hard and it can be quite a pain,
However I never wish to be plain,
My soul is impure by...
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
I dream of boats floating by, unable to make it back up.
I can see you from here, watching deep currents pulling you under, unable to make it back up.
I can't hear your apologies from here, but I have heard them before.
I sit on my bridge, watching waters of who I thought you...
person spends their life, maybe where they keep their things. I never realized until recently that it's something you make for yourself the way birds do. Meticulously, over time. Home can be anywhere that you want it to be. Sticks and moss and a little bit of your own...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
Remember what they say
All i remember
Is that terrible day
It was june
And you slipped away
Missing you hurts deeply
Cant you see
Its tearing me to shreds
Inch by inch
Tearing me up
They watch me burn
Laughing at me
And making fun
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
scratch from the bleeding quill
torn from the wings of flightless dreams
and dipped in fantasy's brimming well
where expression is the fresh carrion
in a dream's possession, gripped
by the talons of raven raged nights;
and the ink I spilt over these crumpled sheets
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
and held my coffee cup,
The day had just begun.
The morning battled to take control,
As the clouds still blocked the sun.
Orange and crimson were everywhere,
As the yellow ray peeked through.
The day was almost finally here,
And I had lots to do.
This was the time I cherished...
A fairy tale that will decline and incline
A fairy tale is just an ugly creature behind a hideous face
A beautiful meaning
A beautiful story
The tale will only end when the mistress is safe
Safe in a strangers arms who she was destined to love
Why should the story stop...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
A shining product of a fallen star.
Not to be mistaken as the one we seek,
A reflection of him, that tends the weak.
Brought to see with Omniscient power.
Activation within, the lotus flower.
Peace of mind, and piece of it all.
Piece of Universe, Never to fall.
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
sun kissed ripples
of a late and hazy afternoon
spent idly wandering...
light feet, free and fancy,
skipping over Lily pads and swaying
to rhythm of the reeds,
their roots sunk deep
in the cool blue pools of devotion.
You are the scent of pine
in the dark forest, flirting with...
here in anticipation
Déjà vu is setting in.
The past keeps flashing by me,
As I upgrade to Windows ten.
I have seen this kind of thing before,
Upgrades are nothing new.
I started many years ago,
Running MS-Dos two.
I have often fought the upgrades,
I have even threw some...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
but you are not alone
you are beautiful right down to the bone
please dont be sad
just try to smile just a tad
you are perfect in your own way
weather you are bi straight or gay
even though life aint fair
there are people out there who care
all you have to do is try
memories never fail to flow,
Back to when you were small;
To toys scattered on the floor,
And crayon on the wall.
I remembered all the questions asked,
On trips with just us two,
Like why is the water wet,
And why the sky is blue.
Those times we had were simple times,
before the sun
Another sleepless night
Another day begun
Another chance to get it right
Another day of living
Another thing that could go wrong
Another sin to be forgiven
Another place I don't belong
And as the sun shall slowly travel
Across my clearest skies
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
Your beauty; Like the dawn
A timeless clock
An eternal sunrise
Your visage drives me on
Elegance of tone
Symmetry in motion
Your grace so undefined
Upon a throne
In my heart's devotion
My feelings are now enshrined
Within my silence
And my averted glance
alone with only my thoughts,
my past returns
I can barely keep the voices at bay,
they will not be silenced,
nor will they tolerate being ignored
A dozen voices whispering in the night,
in an unending unison of judgement,
"you cannot be love"
So many chances,
and an equal...
Something oh so bright,
But please, let me be truthful.
Beauty reminds me of the pain,
It drives me insane!
Who could stand breaking down
When there's nothing to cause a frown?
It makes me want to suffocate
Trust me, I don't exaggerate.
Please, someone tell me...
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...