laughter and your smile?
How about that one look in your eyes
I've not seen in a while?
The way I feel around you?
The faint smell of your skin,?
Those moments spent beside you as
Love's embers burn within?
Stay locked in time in one moment, the beautiful shine, hold it and sit back proud. Cause look at me now. Every days a struggle to fight the ugliness that clings deep. It's stings to peak and see the hatred that rapes me and keeps me weak. The moments I let go and pass on flat...
June 10, 2012)
Everyone hates you. They like to see you hurt and abused. Everyone just can't leave you alone. You can't stand people so you spend your days, lonesome. Its impossible for you to be at bliss. And its mainly because you're always pissed. No smiles for you, never...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
AND IT IS DARK< VERY DARK.
You see my cuts
Not my scars
You see my smile
Not my tears.
You see my friends
Not my enemies
you see my mask
but not my true identity
As the eagle flew
A single feather fell
And it swayed back and forth
While it fell,
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
Roses are dull
violates are dying,
you say we dont care
but yet i am crying.
just fades away,
im left behind
we want you to stay.
In my eyes
im holding back tears,
scared and in pain
from all the past years.
We all care alot
we dont want you to go,
i try and stop you...
..fiending...like an addict.
I'd do anything just to be close to it again.
I'd trade anything just to feel it again.
My friends told me not to try it...they said curiosity killed the cat.
When I first took a hit of it...it took over my mind...everything that they said got pushed...
My selfish pride
My drug to use
My words to abuse
The choices that choose
Sickened with disgust
My life for lust
Love my misdeeds
Not knowing, nor caring
More caring, no sharing
Our lost worlds
What was yet so intimate...
in fact, I feel no emotions for myself, nor for others. No empathy for them and no sympathy for the "devil". I see the roots beneath their every stem and yet I share with those who can only see what wilts above. A perennial masterpiece they create of flawed intricate design...
been named Lilith
Her middle names would of been Sky, or Dreamer, or maybe even Rave
Something that was our own little joke
Something that was just so..just so us
It would of made everyone smile and laugh
Just like her
She would of had bright untamable blonde hair
and a deep sorrow in my bones at the mere thought of losing him. I desperately asked the universe what this feeling meant. She gently responded, “Oh my dear child, you are in love.”
— Alyssa Marie (Alyssasmusings on IG)
less guessing, a ballad to generalize. Less empty. I need a pickup me up, nothing, once plenty. Nothing to see now, something mess left me. Now I let the silent dress me for no pride and less envy and escape from light and let nothing in me and open for answers to only remain...
Ugh, I am disgusted with you. Ugh, I am disgusted with you. You always have a attitude. You always actin' weird. You don't speak your mind and you always be actin' shy. You always actin' mean and you hate everyone. Why? You caged bird! You don't never talk!!
til I met you
I had my suspicions and my biggest fear was that they were true
How far I'm willing to take it
Sometimes I'm scared that I won't make it
And the way I hurt you
You're the grass and I'm the frost just wanted to be loved but at what cost
Fight for a point that was...
Often feel appreciated
Or strongly disliked
Appreciated when it was conquered
Hated when envy
Love is such a valuable object
Anytime we lose fear
The only difference with the precious
Him we do sail in heaven
Stupid and cursed are the Men
Who does not love as their...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
.. it is I ... by moiHome: Sleep Inside by LiliumDon't be frightened, it is IYou lay there prone,As you sleep inside,Breathing lowAnd air across the end of your spineFrom the open window.Free,The moon is upAnd your dreams deep and wide,Dont fret and sighIt will all be good in...
Leaving a path of crimson and green.
The inky sky silent as the stars illuminate,
Lighting the colours that glisten on the crest of the waves.
My hands long to reach across the golden sand,
Touch the corners of your smile,
Etch you to my skin like an eternal tattoo,
Keep you in...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
2012) My intestines aren't intestines. There's a big *** tapeworm inside me. It ears every food I consume. And I never gain weight. As a matter of fact, I am gaunt as ****. My stomach from the outside looks swollen. And the tapeworm keeps growing. I can feel it licking my...
rain for a months or more
I saw you in her smile,
while I was crying on the floor
Did I give up the liquor?
-- my love, every time you call...
They say I'm looking sicker,
they never knew me much at all.
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
May 10, 2012)
I see you in my sea food. I'm gonna eat you, oh you'll taste so good. I want you. I need you. I crave you. I watch you. I stare at you. I'm gonna pick you up and squeeze you and drop you in my mouth.
I see you in my sea food. I'm gonna eat you, oh you'll taste so...
frightening dream that the moon was very huge right in front of me. Rising from the ground. I even seen the flag on the moon and the night just looked so surreal. Cows are flying around in chairs. Milk splash frozen in the air and the moon kept rising. It was bigger than my...
for low-grade happiness tonight
Narcotic of situation, not of choice
A semi-stranger on the other end
Without a face and without voice
I'd be moved to a state of semi-bliss
By the chance of his company
Typed word and mouth dumb
I'd beg for a morsel of...
Watch the flames dance with passion,
Lighting colours of red and golden amber into the night sky.
Watch the flames die,
The cold heat that remains,
Ashes and dust as a memory of us.
Carry the ashes of my heart in the pocket of your soul,
Think of me when the world becomes cold...
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
2012) Field of roses, within my dreams. And I see all the ghosts hovering above me. Field of roses, within my dreams. And I see all the ghosts chasing after me. Field of roses, within my dreams. And I see all the ghosts following me. Field of roses, within my dreams. and I see...
and dropping tears
Can someone tell why you're my fear?
I'm hollow. I'm shouting. since My first year! But nobody hears
I can't remember my nightmares, they weren't clear
Can you remind me what was the deal?
I feel your soul, but it's not real
I feel pain that just won't heal...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
i know i might just light this joint just for the touch , just for the rush
you dont even know the half of it , mad ruckess
tangled brain , im feeling like a hand puppet
cause she dont know im alone , im on my own
comatose , im feeling sick but im still posted up at...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
.. Nick Cave & Warren Ellishttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DVZ_HB9EMXsLife's a beach!Isn't that right.Just appealing for a period of calmIn the madness of all that passes by.Everything changes, ain't that trueChange what you can and accept what you can't,And let it go, like a...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...