all evening, and all night existing as one only in the mind and out of pain's sight.
Lover making love with no one but myself all the time; sharing with no one but myself my life.
Only laughing to the sound of my own thoughts, reads, reacting to needs; simply looking forward...
that slowly slipped one morning into a mist,
like a lover's lost affection for lips once kissed
and sipped so sweetly like little nips of vermouth,
and never returned? Where is the joy of my youth,
that made me shake with delight and fear at a tryst...
mind when you
Go on your tirades
You yell and scream
You accuse me of breaking
Promises to change.
You act as if I'm a monster.
I never cheated on you.
I never turned my back on you
I always stood by you
And when I say I am here for you
You attack me and shut me out.
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
Will she ever know how much i love her. I cant tell her how i feel. I keep myself hidden from the world only she knows of my being there. Everyday as she comes sits there talkn to me. I want to tell her that only she can set me free from compelete dark dispair. Her eyes seep...
then I’d lead her to the summit all the way
If she were the night I would sleep soundly through the day
If she were the day, then I would dream of her all night
If she were a tree that I would wrap my arms around her and hold her tight rest my head
In the autumn I would...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
So alive amid dying light,
Embraced by the night,
Illuminate with unseen bliss.
The earth is your canvas.
Scary, yet I’ve no fear.
From afar I see slow dancing:
On haunted soil, frolicking
In ragged dress with messy hair,
Awkward steps oh, so dear.
Remove your cozy boots...
as the enemy and shut me down
Your words are bombs
Insults exploding inside my heart
I hear the crash over and over again
Ages after the devastation
You close the door in my face
You see me as an invader and the enemy
You see me as the root of all evil
You seek to destroy me...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
Praying and wishing that it'll all be over soon.Not wanting to sleep,Not wanting to cry.Too hard living,But not easy enough to die.Drip, drop, drip,Can you hear the blood in this sinful home?No one knowsNot to trust her alone.I the serenity she falls weary,In calamity she feels...
You have eyes and yet you are blind.
Past is past
Yet you look behind.
You love yet you tear
Stop breaking my mind.
History is studied so it wont be repeated
Yet you choose to forget i end up depleted.
My lungs are dying from the screams you choose not to hear.
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
that I'm going insane
That what I say is crazy, wrong, and in vain
I never meant to offend you, but thought I would be weak
To see the signs in front of me, yet turn the other cheek
And when I spoke, and I could tell the war I waged would not end well
I apologized and I began to...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
Dressed in black
Our shirts tear stained
On looking a hurtful sight
Watching you go down
How is it so hard to believe
This is it, its the end of your round
As you get lower
The boys start to shout
Slapping their chests
Stamping their feet on the ground
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
heart wants to say...
... Life is strange...
... Bleeding lust's redemption...
... Failing to mention that love has an existence...
... ******* breeds desires of passionate innocence which you fail to see through your storm of persistence .
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
i know i might just light this joint just for the touch , just for the rush
you dont even know the half of it , mad ruckess
tangled brain , im feeling like a hand puppet
cause she dont know im alone , im on my own
comatose , im feeling sick but im still posted up at...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
through your fake facade?
You made us both like equals, we are both just as flawed.
Did you think I couldn't hear you right through your many lies?
I know what you are made of, I can see through your disguise.
You tried to be such a badass with a good guy side.
But I didn't...
Her nails painted pink,
Eyes rusted shut.
They say the distance killed her.
The coroner had a hard time
Her heart had grown too swollen
then dried too quick.
I wish I had told her at
the time that
happiness doesn’t last.
But instead she went...
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
waves roll in, the horizon grows thin as the world's eyes close I just flow in the wind. I'm alone in the end, but alone time is golden I've turned away from plenty faces though I didn't know them.
I take to my mirror to remember the scars that we grow with and the stars that...
of who I will become,
Never giving up will cause me to reach my chosen destination by the beat of my own drum,
I will overcome, though my soul is old, my heart stays independently young,
I can overcome whatever is negatively plunged at me by some.
I am blessed in spirit by...
until I saw you
I liked you until I met you
I wanted to love you until you started talking
and then I realized
maybe it was never you that I wanted
but the dream
no the idea of you I had in my head
I painted you so perfect
maybe my expectations were a bit to high
verses laced with love
And although Id always find her art appealing
I can't be with her
This thing that she wants will never be enough
She doesn't believe me when I say I'm no longer good for her
I love her still
And I always will
But I'm not willing too go down that road...
..but that is why I can't have you...this will be complicated and your understanding is priceless...even if I wanted you I still couldn't have you...and since I don't have you...I don't want you...and if I did want you I'd have you... but your presence is what I want right now...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
I fall in love with everyone. well every man at least.
if they give me attention, listen...care
it sweeps me right off my feet.
my bf. .he never hugs me, hardly touches me or speaks.
tears fill my eyes when somebody hugs me
no strength left, I go weak.
this loneliness is...
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds