all evening, and all night existing as one only in the mind and out of pain's sight.
Lover making love with no one but myself all the time; sharing with no one but myself my life.
Only laughing to the sound of my own thoughts, reads, reacting to needs; simply looking forward...
So alive amid dying light,
Embraced by the night,
Illuminate with unseen bliss.
The earth is your canvas.
Scary, yet I’ve no fear.
From afar I see slow dancing:
On haunted soil, frolicking
In ragged dress with messy hair,
Awkward steps oh, so dear.
Remove your cozy boots...
The pain so deep
Pierced right through the skin so deep
It feels so good it does not hurt
The release I need freed my mind
Pierced to deep freeing the layers
Letting out all the emotions I'm not a wanna be player
Pierced the skin final attempt
Releases it all...
verses laced with love
And although Id always find her art appealing
I can't be with her
This thing that she wants will never be enough
She doesn't believe me when I say I'm no longer good for her
I love her still
And I always will
But I'm not willing too go down that road...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
what you gave me left me wanting more.
Your waves rushed over me and I floated, feeling weightless
Then sank down and scraped along the jagged ocean floor
And tumbled beneath the surface until the tide dragged me to shore.
As I lay there on the beach
Blistered and bleeding, I...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
had come from miles around,
To hear the politician speak.
He said that he would create jobs,
And be a champion for the weak.
The applause that came from the crowd
Could easily be heard.
And everyone was mesmerized,
As they hung on every word.
As the speaker spelled out his...
that slowly slipped one morning into a mist,
like a lover's lost affection for lips once kissed
and sipped so sweetly like little nips of vermouth,
and never returned? Where is the joy of my youth,
that made me shake with delight and fear at a tryst...
of who I will become,
Never giving up will cause me to reach my chosen destination by the beat of my own drum,
I will overcome, though my soul is old, my heart stays independently young,
I can overcome whatever is negatively plunged at me by some.
I am blessed in spirit by...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
..but that is why I can't have you...this will be complicated and your understanding is priceless...even if I wanted you I still couldn't have you...and since I don't have you...I don't want you...and if I did want you I'd have you... but your presence is what I want right now...
with the wrong person.
Hate giving my time to the wrong person.
Hate arguing with the wrong person.
Hate knowing I ****** the wrong person.
Hate the energy I put towards this person.
That's how one truly feels at first from a break up.
Take advantage of the negative and turn it...
until I saw you
I liked you until I met you
I wanted to love you until you started talking
and then I realized
maybe it was never you that I wanted
but the dream
no the idea of you I had in my head
I painted you so perfect
maybe my expectations were a bit to high
heart wants to say...
... Life is strange...
... Bleeding lust's redemption...
... Failing to mention that love has an existence...
... ******* breeds desires of passionate innocence which you fail to see through your storm of persistence .
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
Defeated and mistreated
Ruined and cursed
Could it get any worse
The words run
In my head
Thats what he said
Thats what he said
And if i didn't get it
He'd hit me over the head
Then looked at me differently
Because you succeeded with your destruction
So that made me not strong enough
I couldn't withstand your infection
I allowed you too close too my deepest possession
And you stole it
And now I'm that broken toy
That you cant play with no...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
i know i might just light this joint just for the touch , just for the rush
you dont even know the half of it , mad ruckess
tangled brain , im feeling like a hand puppet
cause she dont know im alone , im on my own
comatose , im feeling sick but im still posted up at...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
That I may experience their deaths
Over, and over, until mine eyes awaken
For though i may sleep,
I shall know no rest
For ever, and ever...
Let your vengeance course through me
Thy rage inflict weeping sores upon the soul
That i may live once more,
And in light of day, devour...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
Praying and wishing that it'll all be over soon.Not wanting to sleep,Not wanting to cry.Too hard living,But not easy enough to die.Drip, drop, drip,Can you hear the blood in this sinful home?No one knowsNot to trust her alone.I the serenity she falls weary,In calamity she feels...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
I can do
as rivers slowly fall down
till they kiss the ground
lost in my thoughts
in this night so hot
hoping and wishing
for that one dream
visions fills up my head
as i lay in my bed
wondering am I good enough?
Damn this night will be tough
starting doubting suddently...
Will she ever know how much i love her. I cant tell her how i feel. I keep myself hidden from the world only she knows of my being there. Everyday as she comes sits there talkn to me. I want to tell her that only she can set me free from compelete dark dispair. Her eyes seep...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
so deep my lips can't split to speak...
... Fear of rejection while holding you in my eyes; I see...
...I love with my heart bleeding down my arm; your warmth I seek...
... I lose sleep...
...The sound of your voice; I need...
...Music to my soul; I keep...
waves roll in, the horizon grows thin as the world's eyes close I just flow in the wind. I'm alone in the end, but alone time is golden I've turned away from plenty faces though I didn't know them.
I take to my mirror to remember the scars that we grow with and the stars that...
because I feel ashamed, but because I'm afraid of the discrimination I will get...I love everyone and everything...When we have a conversation and open up to one another, I guess Ive opened up a little to far...Now it seems to me we are right back at the start...We never speak...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
eight glasses wasted on a dry throat.
The sound of boots squishing raw soil
set a course of sirens through my rotting
ears, ******* my dilated pupils
into the boiling sun, crying in the
presence of my son,
yet there I am,
seated among thinly threaded confessions...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
I fall in love with everyone. well every man at least.
if they give me attention, listen...care
it sweeps me right off my feet.
my bf. .he never hugs me, hardly touches me or speaks.
tears fill my eyes when somebody hugs me
no strength left, I go weak.
this loneliness is...