silence eating away at the spaces between the walls
The ringing of the telephone in your mind, to remind you - no one call’s
The emergent emptiness that doesn’t make you forget being full
Reminding you that humans and love - make for a cocktail called ‘Cruel’
or 15. This one is called Girl Inside. It was written during a really rough time in my life so it's pretty bitter.
Inside of me is a girl that's dying to come out
She's a better person, there never was a doubt
But in all that I do, she's trapped inside for good
that I wanted it; not until I missed you. Until I was missing being held, to feel like I mattered to someone.
I realised then that perhaps I wasn't missing you but I was missing what you represented. You represented everything I want; things that I didn't know I was allowed to...
It never rightfully belonged to me
But I wanted it nonetheless,
So when you were distracted and couldn’t see
I took it, I confess.
I thought that it might take a while
For you to realize your mistake,
And though I felt guilty in my guile
I held it close, for love’s sake...
across the room
Sex lingers in the throwaway strokes of strangers
And the alcohol drips ceaselessly from my soul
Empty glasses… void hearts
Open wounds, self inflicted pain
Standing in the acid of loneliness - like its rain
I’m nothing. Just another mouth to feed
Never Ending Pain
Have you ever had someone reach into your
chest and give your heart a squeeze?
And it hurt so bad you
couldn't hardly breathe?
And when you begged them to stop, they
laughed in your...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
What do you see?
You see hair
You see eyes
You see lips
You see a nose
You see a face
Look in the mirror
And I’ll tell you what I see
I see brown hair that is dull and lifeless
I see brown eyes filled slumbering sorrows
I see lips torn and stained red
I see a nose...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
I sat alone
And tried to think,
Of words so grand,
To put in ink.
The words came slow,
No cutesy rhymes,
No expressed desire.
No lover’s song,
No wrong to right.,
No erotic rhyme,
To fill the night.
I could not find...
I'd like to share it with you guys. (:
I'm so desperate to be free from me.
It is just not meant to be.
I cry all the time, even though I hardly show it - I have no other way to describe what I'm feeling, so I simply wrote it.
I'm sad with one or a crowd,
No matter whether it...
Her beautiful visage stares back at me like some forlorn shadow,
Always visible, yet never reachable.
Those deep dark eyes only serve to remind me just how deeply in love I still am with her.
Her soft hands only make me realize how hard it is to let go...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
dreaming I know it.
For god's sake I ask you.
Who says the danger has passed?
I could kill you for this.
It's a filthy habit.
I'll have to make a confession
This is a surprise
We're destroying ourselves
You don't feel badly?
That's all in your mind. All of it.
Full of hate and crulty
The words not entirely mine
But the words of the world
Spat at me
Like I am varmin
Written on my locker
Like they have the right
Whispered behind hands
Like they are better
As I walk through the hallways of Hèll
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
poem (: feel free to write what you think.
In the dark
These feelings wrapped around my throat
What is elation?
How does it feel to feel it?
On a leash I have been left
Oh but your so pretty
You attract many
Where? Show me?
The darkness i attract...
the pieces no longer fit together
Try to piece me back together
And you just cut yourself on my razor sharp edges
And pulverized pieces
I don't know who I was before the glass shattered
From the window to my soul
But I do know the ugly truth about people
My back faced to the bathroom stall,
Why do I see my face,
But not what's inside.
Why does my body insist that I hide?
Who I really am,
And what people see,
Are two different things.
Of who I am and my body.
No one knows who I am,
All they see is a face.
All they see is...
Your armor shines and glistens upon the sun
Your helmet glows brilliant gold and silver
Your face illuminates the radiance of love
Your eyes delve deep into the world and universe
Crisis and desire conflict in one spectacle
Damnation upon you and I forfeit our lives
Your halo and...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
when I trip over my words on the way to your heart?
Does it still make you cry when I hold in my arms so tight?
Can I still make you mine for as long as we are together?
Can we still be us when you're gone forever?
Will you stand by my soul like you and I did at the alter?
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
different lines from Transcendentalist poets to write in English. All of mine are from Whitman:
A few light kisses,
My own breath in love with the beating of my heart.
Respiration and inspiration,
A few embraces, the reaching of my arms.
Clear and sweet,
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
Roses are black
Violets are grey
I shouldn't have eaten
At all today
She tends to purge
When her demons emerge
She wishes for death
Cuz there's nothing left
She remembers her past weight
She doesn't wanna see it again
Ana & Mia are...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
up thy heart so slain
Then beating drums could never hide
A joyous heart so opened wide
Shine forth your light on flowers small
That they may scale the highest wall
And blossom yet to show the way
To hidden hearts long gone astray
Unfurled, unbidden, may it grow
For what life...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
Roses are dull
violates are dying,
you say we dont care
but yet i am crying.
just fades away,
im left behind
we want you to stay.
In my eyes
im holding back tears,
scared and in pain
from all the past years.
We all care alot
we dont want you to go,
i try and stop you...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
from this héllish land
Of crule jokes
And sick rumors
My life slips from my wrists
Thick and red
And for the first time in years I smile
The end is near
And I love the feeling a little too much
.. I hope you think it's a good read.
I woke up this morning with a thought on my mind. Why can't life be forever kind? Why does it deceive, hate, and lie. Why do tears have to flood from our eyes? I get it, I get it, life isn't flawless. But come on people, we're living like we...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
and grey while I run on all fours chasing my prey , I love and care for every member of the pack ,sometimes I'm the wolf who lonely travels to unknown places knowing that it was curiosity that killed the cat
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
become nothing but a fantasy
An unbreakable trust is destroyed by doubt
Tears have become a sad reality
A truth is birthed from lies
Words then are just better left unsaid
The wrong have been deemed morally right
Compassion for others is now dead
A blessing is now an...
a wheat being eaten by some wild animal
you know how it looks when it's down to the root?
and then it's gone?
as if it just went to another place, but it did, it went into the belly of the one who ate it.
into the earth it goes.
Ever since you entered my life I have always been sad and blue.
With your malicious plan you took all my friends away from me,
Now I have no one else but hatred for you in my heart beneath.
I promise to bring the magic in my life alive once again,
I will not let you...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
So soft a thought that is so much more softly spoken.
Whispers, echoes, cheap imitation are all I have left of you,
Left of us.
It's through you that I live my life,
Some sick, vicarious pleasure that never seems to satisfy.
For now you are gone,
All I have left is a...
The girl that died of a heartache passed me in the night whispering memories of youI stood to frightened to move for fear my eyes cast a lightand the darkness she drew like a cape around her shoulders.Her tears fell like jewels on the crushed lovers rulesthat you broke to bring...
The winds of time erode away
The memories of our past,
Leaving us with shadowy thoughts
That disappear too fast.
And so we cling with all our might
And try to hold them near,
All the things for which we care,
And those that we hold dear.
No matter how much we try to cling...