I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
return to me
and things will go back to how
they were at the start.
I hold on to patience,
although it's wearing thin;
I hold on to faith that
you'll come back again.
Perhaps she is your current lover
and will be forever,
til death do you part,
but no matter where it goes with...
the wind blows cold
howling through the night
Alone is the death
the emptiness of no love
the light doesn't shine
eternal night of loneliness
Depression is the death
the emptiness of our cuts
the blade shines in the moonlight
as blood covers our skin
like you just stumbled into
[okay, what's less bitter than isolation?]
Seclusion. And God, does it feel good.
However, there's only so long you can hold
Your hand over a boiling kettle.
Here, let me guide you back.
Let me try and conjure up some kind of meaning in these words...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
as long as I can remember
Eclipse pain resonates rain
Every drip on my fortunate face
Facing God I forgo fate
Only oxygen still satiates
For as long as he is alone
I will bear burdens as it pours
Breathing through suffocation
I've never been so harmed
And worst still...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
or high, this merrygoround why oh why,
As I gaze out of my window across the blackened sky,
the moon it hides yet pulls the tides, tucked snug in cloud quilt it resides.
Will sleep come fast tonight I wonder, gazing out in the black yonder
I try my best, my thoughts are messed...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
to have to begin with?
How do you escape that beautiful yet tragic torment
That sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach
That dreaded moment when you know the only best way is to just let go
I find myself in the middle of nowhere and everywhere all at the same time...
The girl that died of a heartache passed me in the night whispering memories of youI stood to frightened to move for fear my eyes cast a lightand the darkness she drew like a cape around her shoulders.Her tears fell like jewels on the crushed lovers rulesthat you broke to bring...
in the darkness of the night
sometimes when I gaze upon the stars of the faint light
I feel the thoughts rushing through my mind
thoughts and feelings of every sort and kind
why is it so overwhelming I do not really know
peace upon my mind, God please bestow
we know what we...
Everything around just isn't the same
Droplets fall gently against my cheeks
Feeling inside is a feeling of pure weak
Wear a smile
Blue veins pulse with a worry
Confusion follows .. super blurry
Dream a dream and catch a cloud
Roses are dull
violates are dying,
you say we dont care
but yet i am crying.
just fades away,
im left behind
we want you to stay.
In my eyes
im holding back tears,
scared and in pain
from all the past years.
We all care alot
we dont want you to go,
i try and stop you...
and hear me.
But can you understand me and feel my thoughts? Can you see beneath my skin and behind my eyes? Will you try, will you fail? Will I let you dive beneath the surface, beneath the porcelain veneer? Will you get cut if you break through? Are you strong enough to take...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
for yourself in the mirror
but you aren't there
its an odd feeling
not an empty
there are desires to experience
a yearning to never wake up
this spinning sphere falling through a great abyss,
put your hands all over it.
Picking through it with your fingers,
choosing what you'd take for your own.
You coveted my skin
so you put your breath all over it.
Hitting like an oven
leaving it parched and dry.
You coveted my heart
so you put your mind all over it...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
How can one feel so lonely amongst a crowd?
A bitter, broken heart beats wildly but falls on ears.
Eyes glassy but cheeks dry, holding back her tears.
Longing to make a connection different from rest.
Will time make her more bitter still, or can she survive this test...
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
every direction a dim touch
Twin stares single breath
Even the flower that blooms
Red or grey
A fluttering butterfly
And the beating heart
Only bleeds blood
To beat life
But not love
Bearing repeating starts
Every moment is the moment you left me
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
I just sit here crying and alone,
No friends just enemies,
Just folks that act with such idiocy, hypocrisy, and living under a bridge or a public embassy,
People just hate me and wish for me to disappear or die,
I'm just a shadow of society,
Worshipping in piety for the...
Time passes by the hour,
My dear wife and I making dough from flour,
The fresh smell of bread fills the air,
She leans in for a kiss and says if you dare,
I smiled and leaned in with a sealed kiss she smiled back with care,
My darling we make a marvelous pair,
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
when you wake up at 4am and its not dark but nor is it light. the cigarette smoke that contrasts off your loneliness. that colour underneath your eyes that matches the bruises on your thighs. hot coffee you forgot about drinking. having something to say but what you put out isnt...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
The winds of time erode away
The memories of our past,
Leaving us with shadowy thoughts
That disappear too fast.
And so we cling with all our might
And try to hold them near,
All the things for which we care,
And those that we hold dear.
No matter how much we try to cling...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
and stumbled upon. I have given up many times in life. At those moments I have made poor decisions. Sometimes it was cutting, drinking, trying to kill myself, or once having sex with a stranger. The last was stupid but I didn't care and I risked a lot. I suffered a lot after...
A jumble of thoughts,
Written on the sky,
Falling into place like raindrops of winter rain,
Back to haunt the forecast,
looking out the window pane,
On a Saturday morning,
Time stood still.
The first moment of coffee
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
a world we would live in where every day was night,
With no more sun and no more light to give our eyes a sight.
With no more stars and only clouds to let the rain fall down,
A top our heads and on the dead that's buried in the ground.
We'd walked the streets, head at our feet...