but the fear of losing u is too great to bare. I just want you to be near, so i can whisper sweet things in your ear and tell you things only you can hear. Put my hands around your waist you think i just want a taste,but what i want is to be your dear and forever feel your grace...
cant talk about you though 7 years its been
It hurts so much
But i hide the pain away
The cuts stay unseen
Your beautiful face
Stuck in a wooden frame
Behind that glass
How am i still sane
Loosing you nearly killed me
Im surprised I'm still here
To walk another day...
2012) I'm not gonna lie, I've been through a story. The wacky journey of mine can't be told in a hurry. Imagine life without morning. I've lived a dramatic story with wackiness blended into the story. Met a man that saved my days. Picture Romeo and Juliet on cocaine. Mad Hatter...
All hope is gone. All happiness is gone. All friends are gone. All money is gone. All freedom is gone. All families are gone. All care is gone. All kindness is gone. All opportunities are gone. All peace is gone. All health is gone. All sunny days are gone. All heavens is...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
The brown eye ducky. The brown eye ducky. The brown eye ducky was in the empty apartment. Was in the empty apartment. Was in the empty apartment and it sees the invisible man. It sees the invisible man. It sees the invisible man. It's so lonely. Its so homely. The ducky...
You we're smiling,
No longer in pain.
I couldn't understand why,
Or why it had to be this way,
As you made your way to the clouds,
I held on to your lifeless body and cried, I could finally say I've loved and I've lost, till this day I still wonder what your doing, and...
and its time to enter it's strong fortified walls , that room which we built together will be ready , and we can lay our desires to rest upon each others bodies and express our long awaited passions beneath cool sheets and soft pillows and embrace as the sun sets and the waves...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
of sewage, it gets in my mouth and ears. The stench is overpowering. I keep swimming. Anxiety overtakes me. Will I survive the sewage? Sometimes I ache from swimming. It gets real thick and chunky at times. Other times its real watery, and I breeze through it. Sometimes the...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
working on for quite some time.... I'd like to see what you guys think...
"... And the pain has aged me like fine wine
In time, I'll find the courage to love again
A new beginning for every end
For love without exception
yields a love that exceeds every expectation...
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
everything but you never seemed to listen, every heart beat she had wasn't ever chosen but given
She gave her all she really did but her world had a tendency to only end with a fall
Tears roll down those eyes...
they are plenty.
The sorrows of life are but few;
But the sorrows just take all our energy,
No matter the good that we knew.
We don’t always take time to be happy,
It just seems too easy to be sad.
We too often punish for goodness,
And praise those who want to be bad.
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
the day will turn dark, then the leafs on the trees leave like a theif scattered thru the park, Reminiscing with my heart this is what your reading if my soul turned to art this is the searching for Sanitys edge in the dark, this is an echoing whisper dancing in a canyon of...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
Mountain evening, fading glory of a day long past,
Heather, purple in the sea of green mountain top grass,
Lovers entwined in winds
Chilling, light from the southwest,
Wide arms and the head I love
Buried in my arms and chest.
Help you through struggles, heartbreak and strife
I'll always be here when you need to cry
Shower you with love and affection until those cheeks turn dry
Love unconditional, my true love
You give me me such strength to rise above
Youll own my heart even after I grow old and...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
seas of disjointed thought fragments, making sense out of nonsense, and nonsense out of remains of linear thought. A world I visit even in my waking hours. Sometimes I'm puzzled by the intricacy of nonsense; interesting, but rather meaningless. Its a place that is refreshing...
June 18, 2012)
Welcome to the world. Enjoy your horrifying journey through life. Let's see how much you'll suffer when darkness will consume you. Making your days full of aberration. You'll wish you was never born in the 1st place. Like me. I entered Hades when I was 13...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
i know i might just light this joint just for the touch , just for the rush
you dont even know the half of it , mad ruckess
tangled brain , im feeling like a hand puppet
cause she dont know im alone , im on my own
comatose , im feeling sick but im still posted up at...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
Dragged down below, bleeding in the dirt...
Eyes full of hate, heart cold as ice
Room so silent you could hear the mice
Silent sighs fill the air
Face full of beauty they say but I say where?
Frozen thoughts of the past
How much longer will I last.
Chained up love...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
You ripped it to shreds
Thats what happened
The day that you left
It burned so hot
But you didn't care
You laughed in my face
You said you'd be there
But you left me
Alone and cold
You left me here
With no one to hold
To wrap me up
Keep me warm at night
Shelter my heart...
The train would soon be here
There was no ambiguity
There was no murkiness
There was no mistaking it
The train was coming nearer
There was no turning back
The train was bearing down upon us
The train was rapidly approaching
The was no possible way out now
is crazy. The meat of existence is hazy.We all delude ourselves, no matter how deep one delves. No matter how smart one is, all this can't be summed in a quiz. How do things amount? You think you've got it figured out. Its still just YOUR understanding, however far its expanding...