who died in childbirth complications - a very strange way to die in 1986 in the US.
(Kit died the Sunday before Thanksgiving in 1986)
I saw a woman today who looked just like you:
Her hair was the same color and she wore it like you used to.
I watched her eating lunch and...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
So alive amid dying light,
Embraced by the night,
Illuminate with unseen bliss.
The earth is your canvas.
Scary, yet I’ve no fear.
From afar I see slow dancing:
On haunted soil, frolicking
In ragged dress with messy hair,
Awkward steps oh, so dear.
Remove your cozy boots...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
don't stop fighting
How do i tell them
This fire keeps dying
How do i tell them
Im tired of reigniting
Im sick of these leaves and twigs
Im tired them telling me to forgive
Im tired of being stuck in this place
Im tired of the human race
They say to stand tall
The say never...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
i know i might just light this joint just for the touch , just for the rush
you dont even know the half of it , mad ruckess
tangled brain , im feeling like a hand puppet
cause she dont know im alone , im on my own
comatose , im feeling sick but im still posted up at...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
was written "for" my mother:
Fiery words shot across the room -
Bullets to the heart, bombs to the soul.
As the shrapnel settles and the dust clears,
there is a deadly silence.
We see the victim reappear - cautiously,
from the ruins of her former self.
No human, no sensitive...
you turned my world upside down
I stopped answering
Silently grasping help
Hoping for notice
Theres no way you haven't feel fishy before
My ears divide voices
Yours aren't cold, its ******* freezing
Do you really turn a blind eye
Whenever I beg warmth
Ignoring me, who slowly...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
out against the water
The bottom of your coffin
Leads me to this place
Lovers have no devilish device
Just fools that take heart's only ache
Constrained within emotion
Sanity's heart disguised
So it is that I bury my mourning
Pushed down to the dead of sea
Down down to the...
But i cant bring the courage to speak
No matter how hard i try
My voice becomes so weak
So i found a better way
Got out me pen to write
I wrote about the good things
I wrote about how you changed my life
First line was how you smiled
How it could shine so bright
that lead this rocky shore. Scraps of your clothing tossed apart without sanity. Cold hearts of treason that runs amok. The pure madness upon this calamity which I am now sad. Darkness has set and the moon is about. Its deathly face of love filled with dew dripping like a candle...
spinning around and around and as time goes by. Over thinking consumes me, death gripping on me , crawling on my skin, head to toe. Until I've become numb and just stiff. I look to the right and left to see if there's a light in this world I'm in. Why I'm here? Where is everyone...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
filled with desolation as I face my own wrath.
And as my sidewalk slowly floods through emotion,
with each singular tear creating my ocean
I wonder, would we smile without destinations?
Could we all walk as one without expectations?
And if we cry in unity, our world might...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
Lonely day today,
not even an email,
let alone a phone call (ah, bliss!)
or seeing you (even better!)
And my heart wants to contact you...oh so bad.
But I know you're busy.
I try to be mindful of that,
even as my heart and soul cry out for you...
roots probed and dredged
the sodden clay of his youth
with such heavy hands, they formed a mould
from which a man inside was cast...
and, in that fierce furnace, all green was scorched
from his melting red brick eyes
and, as his mould was crudely cracked
he fell silent and...
will have crushed
When you shut the door
Each year that goes by
One less tear ....
will shed from my eye
This cold truth
Stands this chance for reason
As love changes
Like autumns fall
Bleeding leaves to these seasons
The anger may hurt
Yet time comes and goes
Like long ago...
that I won't accomplish anything.
My family doesn't notice me.
I'm like an aspiration that just walks by and just startles people at times. Everyone one is changing around me. Everyone is moving forward, when I'm just stuck here.
I dream of many things, but I'm losing hope in...
Falling apart piece by piece
Anger building to a rage
Feeling confined to a cage
Tearing my flesh away
Trying to get through the day
I feel it's hunger growing inside
It no longer feels it has to hide
Eating away at my core
Energy it's trying to store
Tearing away at my mind...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
You have to be taught to be happy from a neutral position.
There is no way to jump from misery to bliss -
not if either emotion is sincere.
You have to go in steps. There is no teleport in this life,
in this mental and physical realm.
Only in math and only in one process of...
Feeling the chilly fall breeze
Time for Jeans and Hoody Attire
Snuggled up next to a Bon Fire
Underneath the stars above
Remembering the day We fell in love
The sounds of the crackling fire
All the beauty in you, that I admire
Deep down underneath it all
This is what I...
Out of me
Remember me in pictures
Black or white
And let your memories
Fill me with new colors
I had no life
Would you remember the repetitions
Reduce me to flashes and pixels
And color me as one:
Today is a static blur
Of my deceased soul
Eyes blinking, I said goodbye
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
needs to know why
The other part doesn't care
I always tried to be fair
I truly cared about you
Thought what we had was true
It's time to say goodbye
Wish you would just say why
Is it something I did or said
Maybe your messing with my head
I hate you not talking to me
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
and asking, Why are we here?the vessel fills.the overflow so long-awaited,so striven for;the gentle overflow is so soothing,such relief compared to theempty, negative, lonely longing.the cascade finally brought to life,the ripple set free to skip lightlyand gleefully over the...