scratch from the bleeding quill
torn from the wings of flightless dreams
and dipped in fantasy's brimming well
where expression is the fresh carrion
in a dream's possession, gripped
by the talons of raven raged nights;
and the ink I spilt over these crumpled sheets
depression is not an easy thing
going thru each day not knowing what it may bring.
It's not as easy as you may think
to wash it all straight down the sink.
I have ups and downs, but I still do try
but when I mess up, you scold and I cry.
With depression you can be happy or sad...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
A fairy tale that will decline and incline
A fairy tale is just an ugly creature behind a hideous face
A beautiful meaning
A beautiful story
The tale will only end when the mistress is safe
Safe in a strangers arms who she was destined to love
Why should the story stop...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
it lies to me, it is only a defense tower against my authenticity. I am instead a horrid, violent being with much stigma to my past. At last after years of fighting I am here standing near the enemy hell bent to destroy me fast. When will God kill me? I have tried to kill myself...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
before the sun
Another sleepless night
Another day begun
Another chance to get it right
Another day of living
Another thing that could go wrong
Another sin to be forgiven
Another place I don't belong
And as the sun shall slowly travel
Across my clearest skies
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
from the past Become candles of remembrance,With wispy, heated waves of bygone yesterdays;Dancing flame in my iris reflection.The warm wax of echoes pastGlides slowly down to a cradled hold.Gathering all that was and will be,Until next time needed, when the world is cold...
desperate scratching behind cold walls.
midst tear stained passages and memories doors locked tight,
spectral dreams swirl with fright.
dark is the mind of broken hearts realm,
grey ships of fear, with death at the helm.
lifes blood pools in lakes black as night,
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
write down words,
Just to make you think.
I create a feast meant for your mind,
And invite you for a drink.
The words I write aren’t always deep,
And neither are they always right.
Sometimes they are just written down,
To bring obscure things to light.
It is easy to become...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
Remember what they say
All i remember
Is that terrible day
It was june
And you slipped away
Missing you hurts deeply
Cant you see
Its tearing me to shreds
Inch by inch
Tearing me up
They watch me burn
Laughing at me
And making fun
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
and held my coffee cup,
The day had just begun.
The morning battled to take control,
As the clouds still blocked the sun.
Orange and crimson were everywhere,
As the yellow ray peeked through.
The day was almost finally here,
And I had lots to do.
This was the time I cherished...
path I take
Goes with me too
I can work alone
And think it is fun
To start a task
And see it done
I can sleep alone
For once I'm there
My dreams will take
I can stand alone
And face the fight
I will not run
If I know I'm right
But love alone
I can not do
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
Your beauty; Like the dawn
A timeless clock
An eternal sunrise
Your visage drives me on
Elegance of tone
Symmetry in motion
Your grace so undefined
Upon a throne
In my heart's devotion
My feelings are now enshrined
Within my silence
And my averted glance
A shining product of a fallen star.
Not to be mistaken as the one we seek,
A reflection of him, that tends the weak.
Brought to see with Omniscient power.
Activation within, the lotus flower.
Peace of mind, and piece of it all.
Piece of Universe, Never to fall.
feel the beginning of the beginning
Soft, sultry, summer sun
Warm, full and free
Peeking through the trees
All the love (world) for you and me
Sweet child, sweet smile
Eyes green, full and free
Shine in the soft, sultry, summer sun
And in that moment we are one
We are won
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
I dream of boats floating by, unable to make it back up.
I can see you from here, watching deep currents pulling you under, unable to make it back up.
I can't hear your apologies from here, but I have heard them before.
I sit on my bridge, watching waters of who I thought you...
Swiftly moving your way
Away from a bright and stormy past
Where Only the mystery of future lies ahead
Beside the quiet stream I sit near
Small birds sing soothing melodies
Daylight has long gone
The moon's shining gaze hopefully and anxiously finds me
As if I...
tender heart of mine and throw it far away
Replace it with a stone and make it cold as ice
Take this tender heart of mine and lock it in a box
Then throw away the key and never search it out again
There is no reward for being kind
There are only those who take and those who...
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
sun kissed ripples
of a late and hazy afternoon
spent idly wandering...
light feet, free and fancy,
skipping over Lily pads and swaying
to rhythm of the reeds,
their roots sunk deep
in the cool blue pools of devotion.
You are the scent of pine
in the dark forest, flirting with...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
Screaming like a Banshee
Crying like there's no end.
I stop talking to friends
Friends stop talking to me.
Days turn into weeks,
Weeks turn into months...
Will months turn into years?
I spew hatred past people I don't like,
Hatred sucker punches me from people I love...
much to my dismay,
still talking and taking things,
farther and farther away
losing focus again,
like times from the past, they never end
I can't imagine what I'm doing
so far my attention, that which I am losing
still struggling to believe
sure enough to breathe
while we all lose our mind
eyes shadowed over, temporarily blind.
The world looking confusing, people unkind
but you'll always have those who wont leave you behind.
They are by your side and have your hand
as you're confused and unbalanced, they help you stand
having them near...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
amidst the people the fool so vain.
he smiles at all to dance and sing,
this to celebrate his rise to king.
a crown of lead with robes of dust,
scepter bent and sword of rust.
this motley fool, the knave of hearts,
has lost his sould to loves sweet arts.
but love alone is...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse