I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
Devoid of purpose one would assume,
This place of birth for you and I,
Our distant cosmic womb.
Chaos wrapped in icy froth,
Floating in ancient mist.
Bent and warped swaying still,
Until the spark is kissed.
The web is wide to hide the print,
Of the thing called conscious life...
things heavy and bitter
Wonder when we will ever be grinning and winning together
Could probably go wherever together
But things change never know if it's a possible thing
Guess we we do our thing and go our own ways
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
Colder air is on its way.
The arrival of winter snowstorms,
Gets closer every day.
The warmth of family kitchens,
The smells of pies and bread,
Helps to temper the transition,
And lessen winter dread.
The darkness outside the window,
Is broken by the glow.
on this gloomy *** day
Don't want to go out, not even to play
Just feel like writing.. my day away
I don't care to write, all sorts of fluff
That's what my friend, calls emotional stuff
No feeling's, no caring... I've had enough
My heart became bitter, when she split up with...
You would know her deepest fears
He fears of being shouted down
Her fears of being thrown around
What can she do
What can she say
How can she change it
Day by day
Shes constantly scared
Running for her life
But you don't care
You keep at her with that knife
Thats what she...
closes her eyes
But she cannot sleep
Constant battles within her mind
She fights the urge,
To leave it all behind
No one to claim and nothing to love
Stepping out on the ledge
Needing only a shove
She lets go of what was
And what might come
Leaping to her death,
She's going home...
So alive amid dying light,
Embraced by the night,
Illuminate with unseen bliss.
The earth is your canvas.
Scary, yet I’ve no fear.
From afar I see slow dancing:
On haunted soil, frolicking
In ragged dress with messy hair,
Awkward steps oh, so dear.
Remove your cozy boots...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
They disappear in the fog of disagreement.
I am tired of trying
There are no points to be made
No arguments to win.
The only thing left to do
Is pick a direction and drive
And disappear like the words
remembering all the journey we both know
for me nothing has changed
only the time has gone away
Love is what i feel when i think of you
Love is when my heart beats so fast for you
Love is when i give all unconditionally for you
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
while I was in a mental hospital last summer. The experiences I had there were shockingly disrespectful, even for one who has a probable reason to be there. They posed a blatant disregard to my problems and tried to convince me to sign up for paid programs to help their hospital...
All the same,
They don't have the answers,
the answers I need.
Whose eyes will I gaze into?
Whose presence will make my heart beat faster,
and all my fears go away?
Who will be the light of my life?
Who can I confide in?
Who will know me for what I truly am?
Who will see all...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
Sometimes occasions come our way,
Inspiring memories good and bad.
The occasion that is now close at hand,
Brings me memories of my dad.
The things he taught me have stayed in place,
And have become a map for me to tread.
As he told me about the things in...
feel about each other is all that matters
I'll never escape from our love
I was sent to you from up above
I once wanted to leave earth and explore heaven
Then I meet you and touched your hand
I wanted to see the paradise
Which I found within your eyes
I was searching for my...
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
pale tinges of mystery
dim gold and blue
mingle in cold desire.
Dreams so far away
burning secrets kept by twilight
hollow in their promises,
What is to come
in this translucent reality
between real and unreal
inside this singularity of fate...
at your window giving you a fright
Letting out the loud whistling sound
Emerging from each cracks to be found
A shimmering light illuminates the sky so bright
Taking a glance at the darkness of this sight
Spontaneously making vanishing every bit of dark
Naturally giving a...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
entwined, bathed in wine
Horizon is a blurred painting
cigarette smoke circling around us.
Everything seems like a melancholic dream
traces of analog photographs and bad aromas.
There is no voice to comfort you
just fingerprints showing up on my neck
and you tell me you destroy...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
Full of blossoms as rhododendron, your lips.
Carnal and vital as sins
Waiting to lay claims upon an innocent altar made by less innocent men
How is it that every time I've sinned in your name
it only feels like I'm saying a prayer?
Has ended another day.I go again into the dark,For demons in which to slay. Thoughts that err upon the night,Reveal my darkest fears,Reminding me of canyons,Bringing back the tears. I stand at first upon the edge,Just outside the light.Summing up my quarry,Preparing for...
you turned my world upside down
I stopped answering
Silently grasping help
Hoping for notice
Theres no way you haven't feel fishy before
My ears divide voices
Yours aren't cold, its ******* freezing
Do you really turn a blind eye
Whenever I beg warmth
Ignoring me, who slowly...
and swollen happy fruit
that burdened you...
I'd weigh heavy upon your fragile boughs;
you'd dip your swaying limbs so low...
just low enough to drown me, naked
in the deep pools of your giggling brook
and wash my soft kernel dreams,
ground like wholemeal from a shattered husk...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
that I am afraid of, feeding into me; slipping each vessel into a tight vein. the look you give, as if you are happy with my smiling; seeking me deeper into your sickly sweet horror. many days will go with no drowned out sound. then you are there, hovering over a innocent mold...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
want you so much
I know i cant have you
Because you gave up
You gave up on life
You let yourself fall
What happened to always
What happened to standing tall
Being strong together
But you couldn't handle the pain
What happened to best friends
The love that we gained
But you had...
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
Estranged to our own life set into the motion
Constantly trying to make them see
The perception of us they have ain't really
Growing up too fast in a world so cold
Forgotten by those who weren't supposed
Deception we could see in there eyes
Sometimes even pure despise...