by murky, fertile soil
the nursery for a growth that was at once
a flowering garden
a verdant forest
a steaming jungle
but always the contours conformed to your shape.
A shell of beauty, life and lust.
While it grew you directed it, drove it
Used its fragrant petals to entice...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
looking anywhere but eye to eye
feigning a casualness to the request.
The truth was it wasn’t casual
The quiet seemed almost to make the walls fall away
Giving too much running room to fears about ourselves
grown large and feral and rageful at their entrapment...
Undefined, floating ship at sea
Rising to the west,
Contours exponentially curved
Nirvana in the glow before night,
Long shadows, headlands,
Shades of grey and charcoal black,
Drown in fading light,
Civil, nautical and astronomical twilight.
There, alone by...
as you planted me in the earth.
"Grow!'" you said dutifully as you watered my roots.
"Grow!" you demanded as you stood over me, blocking the sunlight.
"Grow!" you said angrily as you walked past me to focus your attention elsewhere.
"Grow!" you said mournfully as I withered...
Something worth so much
Something worth so much
That which I have yet to feel
Yet I feel her love
As you are mine, I am yours
Like faded pieces of stained glass
We are joined in holy matrimony
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
meaning to write my thoughts for you,
My young sons and daughters,
Despite what I write,
It's hard to avoid
A nostalgic discourse.
Love and the passing of time.
What would I be without you?
What definition of this flawed imperfect self
Would I choose?
What purpose unfounded...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
past successful ways
interfere with what must be grasped
to deal with the present
dominant ideas and solutions falter
trying to defend
battling to hold on
to what is no longer there
space and time warp
at the edge of a hole...
You say you are my friend but you never have my back
Rude harsh and to the point is just part of your act
You pick away my flaws and then you attack
I'm not so damn perfect myself
But you have never walked in my shoes
You think you are about something, but I have some...
do it well
And you love me well
Until the morning sun
Your sweet kiss
Your body on mine
It doesn't get better than this
I'm on cloud nine
But with time
You age like fine wine
Every day with you
And it grows
Won't you put a...
Hands on your hips
Along your iliac crests,
The curve of your gluteus maximus
And lateral hip,
One of humans greatest evolutionary museums,
Bipedal, walking towards me,
Two legs, two feet.
Heat maximising the moment.
Love or lust,
Desire and intimacy,
Mouth on the...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
I want you to see,
that you have no right.
fall between these cracks,
take your time,
dont get back up,
and try to pull me down,
I'm out of words,
I'm out of tears,
I want to throw a fit,
I want to drown in my fears,
you just don't see,
and I don't think you ever will,
It bemuses me..
Doesn't amuse me.
I find it mundane..
Are you do vane to think that my world should revolve around you?
I might offend because you can't comprehend in that small mind that I actually just don't care.
I just think some peeps are pathetic...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
were strong and firm,
But also rough as well.
He used them for the work he did,
And you could always tell.
You could see the calluses,
And all the scars and pain.
On his shirt you could also see,
Where blood had left a stain.
His work was hard and took its toll,
what I gotta do to try
To be better at what I do and look with a closer glance
Wasting away all the possibilities and chances
All the nice words my heart could not touch
Why do I hate myself so much
Wish that I could escape my skin
Crawl out from the deep end
I hold back the...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
..the rain comes falling down .
As my teardrops hit my pillow, they slowly sink and drown.
The lightening streaks the sky...casting shadows from above,
the pain inside my heart, tears apart this dying love.
The thunder rocks and roars,
sending shivers down my spine...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
time we're apart feels longer
The clock ticks and the cold breeze flows
As for me,I know where my heart glows
Covering the smile you cause me to make
It's this nervousness that I must break
These hidden feelings that I can't hide anymore
As I walk up the path that lead to...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
who always told me I should write a song, well I haven't done that haha, but I have written a few poems, and I would like to share one with you guys. This poem is quite obvious on the subject, and it's really personal, I've recently told my friends about my heartbreak even...
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
that lake, that you admire so well
That pretty little face is a reflection from hell
Get over yourself, Its not about you
This damn big lake has other fish too
You are very pretty, this I can say
But like the other fish, just swim away
Out of my life is a place for you
Music Max Richter
Wind blowing trough an open window,
Curtains, ghosts in the air,
Dancing in slow motion,
Dust over footsteps
The frontal lobe dependent
On time gone by,
Future, presently passing
Wading a sea and tide in ebb.
Hard to see...
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...