personal so please be kind. Its in free verse and its about my anxiety disorder.
It crashes over me;
Live an ice cold wave,
It comes over me.
Like a forest caught in a blaze.
Hot, cold, hot, cold
will it ever end?
The winds change and I'm fine.
The winds change and I'm...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
both know I can't be enough for you
So I don't blame you for forgetting
And I understand why you fell for other girls
And it's okay that you left even though you promised that you wouldn't
Just know I told myself that I would wait for you
That I would make sure you were...
A little girl singing
Her best friend swinging.
The mother shouting
Her husband pouting.
A kitten running.
Two turtles sunning.
Big dog barking.
Black birds harking.
Castles in the sand
Lovers holding hands
Kindness when not asked
Cars driven fast
Rain falling lightly
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
Waking up in the morning,
another day dawns,
I rush to my computer,
I flip the cold box on.
As it's familiar sounds start,
Time to pour a cup,
I rush back to sign on,
To see if he's already up.
The "Sign In" is complete,
Today begins anew,
I gesture "Good Morning...
. by moi
Building a playlist of songs.
Choosing wisely, music for?
A soundtrack to the film about
Nocturnal vertical and horizontal super bliss
Whatever happened to the good old fashioned kiss.
Well that's how it starts.
My mouth all over your body,
First your ears...
random thoughts that may or may not make sense. Oh well, I like writing, let's do it.
Such tired, tainted symbolism
Toxic being so willingly consumed
Self-appreciation so selfishly misconstrued
Why does it have to be this way?
Why does it have to be this way?
Why does it have to...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
As the sun rose in the sky.
I tried to pick my self up and stand,
But I could only try.
I couldn’t remember what was wrong,
I had passed out from the pain,
I had no memory of the metal shards,
The flew right through my brain.
My arms were lying at my side,
so beautiful yet so cruel, so peaceful but full of raging wars. Every smile is led by a frown. In the darkness I see it. I see the peace. But when night turns to day. I’m just another person born upon a grave. Are we not all bid a due with the warm welcome of hello when we...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
almost like a game of charades, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, hear with your eyes, yet see with your ears,
it's so peaceful, silent, beautiful,
the vibrations play through my flesh and blood, everything in color, if only you could see these things through my eyes, then...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
On the platform I watched with fascination the lovers at the station
Lost in tender admiration
I had to turn my gaze away.
For the first time in a long time I missed your smile today.
Living life at a pace, agents to please, speeches to make and deadlines to keep.
The only time...
Your armor shines and glistens upon the sun
Your helmet glows brilliant gold and silver
Your face illuminates the radiance of love
Your eyes delve deep into the world and universe
Crisis and desire conflict in one spectacle
Damnation upon you and I forfeit our lives
Your halo and...
Pain stands behind your eyes
Rising with the tears.
Emotions sit on your lips.
All of it I know.
You're always there,
Along with me.
I've always known
What you'll do next.
Until the mirror smashes.
It never rightfully belonged to me
But I wanted it nonetheless,
So when you were distracted and couldn’t see
I took it, I confess.
I thought that it might take a while
For you to realize your mistake,
And though I felt guilty in my guile
I held it close, for love’s sake...
In the gloam
deep in the forest
where the faeries sleep
There is one who knows
She knows the full measure
of you; the flame your smile kindles
The ache your brown eyes afford with every stroke
And the wake you leave in your leaving.
In the gloam
deep in the forest
The girl that died of a heartache passed me in the night whispering memories of youI stood to frightened to move for fear my eyes cast a lightand the darkness she drew like a cape around her shoulders.Her tears fell like jewels on the crushed lovers rulesthat you broke to bring...
rubbed his eyes
And turned in for the night
As the moon took his place in the sky
And I saw you there
Could not help but to stare
When you called out to me with your eyes
I sought only one chance
As we began our first dance
Your smile was so sweet and so shy
That night gave...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
Gazing almost reluctantly out from behind dark lashes
Hiding behind a small smile and a busy pretense
While attempting to see behind what stands before me
Beyond what lies in plain sight
Trying to see underneath the careful exterior that you present
Wondering what is...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
for country and Queen
To all the innocents caught in between
To all the family's coping with loss and grief
To all the young men who give us belief
To all of the survivors who made it through
To all the deceased we will remember you
To all who had a date with death
To all who...
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
my heart beats fine - surely,
but the soul, the spirit
yearns for a completion
though seeing no difference
between the tones
seeing no change
in the sensation of illness
of the self
feeling no better
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
So it's now the early draught of Winter.
Incessant rain has been falling all this month.
And the mornings rebirth the frigid aura of brumal.
There, in the park. Too bitter for the dog walkers, too chronic for the birds.
You're standing solemnly, face pale...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
feelings of strife.
A life holds no meaning, no anchor to hold us down.
To frown, but that's only an outward expression.
Our confession, inward we are lonely and insecure.
It's purely confidential, the thoughts we hide.
Deep inside like a cave of wonders,
Full of blunders...
as the next
All the same,
Only slight differences
All look alike
How they live like that,
They all form into one
Performing as one
A whole world
Separated by one thing
Undetectable by you or...
That they will see...
See that I can't hear?
Why does it matter anyway?
Of what they may think...
Think what they will
They don't know me anyway
My name, and my smile is what,
They really need to know anyway
What am I really afraid of?
If they will talk about me after this
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
I try to take a breath
but it stops short.
it catches high up in my chest
there is nothing left to be done.
like a flower in winter
i grow cold and shrivel.
my heart beats one last time
then no more...
when the thought of taking my blade everywhere I go occurs.
It's strange when the scars on my wrist slowly fade but it's normal for me when they are replaced.
It's strange how people think my life is perfect and I honk it's not a life at all.
It's not strange how people are...
Once a same age girl when I was an 11 yo boy...
Later a teen, a young woman, a lady by those days...
Who follow me on my dreams...
Always there, never at home...
She writes ambiguous signs,
strange simple drawings around..
She throw small stones and big smiles...
No one knows the real me.
Do I care? Yes.
Do I care? No.
Caring exists not in the mind maybe?
Throwing away my life.
Throwing away your life.
Throwing away our lives’...for what?
Temporary relief from our...
Roses are dull
violates are dying,
you say we dont care
but yet i am crying.
just fades away,
im left behind
we want you to stay.
In my eyes
im holding back tears,
scared and in pain
from all the past years.
We all care alot
we dont want you to go,
i try and stop you...