..but that is why I can't have you...this will be complicated and your understanding is priceless...even if I wanted you I still couldn't have you...and since I don't have you...I don't want you...and if I did want you I'd have you... but your presence is what I want right now...
so deep my lips can't split to speak...
... Fear of rejection while holding you in my eyes; I see...
...I love with my heart bleeding down my arm; your warmth I seek...
... I lose sleep...
...The sound of your voice; I need...
...Music to my soul; I keep...
As I lay back down to sleep
to dream of nature's virtue, sweet
to dream of her within my mind,
to dream of once upon a time
to dream the dream of
happy ever afters
to dream once more
of nature's laughter
to know it teases,
and in it's recourse
My heart is as deep as the Hudson River. Its fresh with unpredictable currents. Once a murky barren zone is now the object of a mid summers swim.
My mind is a twisted Christmas peppermint stick. Its stale and forgotten in your grandmothers garage, along with...
She lies easy in my arms
This dimly moonlit night
Her body supple to my charms
She moans with such delight
I brush her hair back, find her neck
And kiss her softly there
My lips they trace her gentle curves
They make her arch and swear
While fingers brush and pinch and...
open your soul
between your ribs
steal your beating heart
I loathe you
I need you
I want to consume it all
your moments, your memories
surround and silence
every quaking pore
what's hidden away
reach deep inside
hands full of rage and gore
to find what you're made of
I stand upon the epicenter of the world
I am at ultimate peace and harmony with myself
I stand where my body and spirit
Are at one with the universe and the cosmos
I gaze upwards to see a celestial
Divine of ambiance within the clouds
The clouds unveil...
And another broken heart.
A challenge ahead,
A burnt bridge behind.
Tear streaked cheeks,
Shattered pieces of heart on the floor.
I messed up,
Like I always do.
You gave me love,
I walked away...
Another lost friend,
Another lost love.
I fell a hundred times,
You are lost
In faded colours of Summer's smile
The world we had now locks me out
I tear and strain in desperate style
You drift away, I scream and shout
My blood dries in the vein
True love just means real pain.
You are lost
Until moonbeams send you from the skies
the door swings its motions
the air rushes through
the cycle it seems
But where is
what makes it new?
the people walk past
Below me the ground,
Above me the clouds
If only they spoke ...
.. Those walls .. If only they spoke ...
To tell about that hidden truth and what really goes around ..
To tell about those secretive screams that never made a sound ..
To tell about those real smiles that yet haven't been found ..
To tell how those lies...
enjoyed when I met with you,
You greeted me with a smile.
I shook your hand and had a seat,
And visited for a while.
Your hand I felt was full of wrinkles,
It was also stiff and cold.
But your stories have warmed my heart,
Since I was eight years old.
Your stories were full of...
I fall in love with everyone. well every man at least.
if they give me attention, listen...care
it sweeps me right off my feet.
my bf. .he never hugs me, hardly touches me or speaks.
tears fill my eyes when somebody hugs me
no strength left, I go weak.
this loneliness is...
I'm sick, and it's a pretty little illness
A prefrontal bacteria that eats away my willingness
To live within the social parenthesis
I'm twisted, sick from this political annilingus.
The jacket that I'm wearing will define my disorder
I'm due to see a professional Visceral...
who wasn't there
Please don't tell
Please don't share
He saw a man that wasn't there
He whispered in the chilled night air
I'm not sure what you mean, I say.
You saw a man you tell me, "Swear!"
Swear not to tell and not ask where?
Who is this man that wasn't there?
I swear to...
All by myself in this forgotten land.
Never have I ever experienced such solitude,
But now is the time to prove my fortitude.
Though the emptiness I feel seems everlasting,
My heart must learn to cease its casting.
For a heart can handle only so many cracks,
Before it turns...
The feelings we share I ride like a wave,
The ups the downs the direction they make,
On a magic carpet that we made,
From threads of ourselves,and the pattern we laid
the vessel counts as much as the map,
The carriage awaits for us to step up,
I admit Its scary as it might...
with the wrong person.
Hate giving my time to the wrong person.
Hate arguing with the wrong person.
Hate knowing I ****** the wrong person.
Hate the energy I put towards this person.
That's how one truly feels at first from a break up.
Take advantage of the negative and turn it...
heart wants to say...
... Life is strange...
... Bleeding lust's redemption...
... Failing to mention that love has an existence...
... Phucking breeds desires of passionate innocence which you fail to see through your storm of persistence .
BUT FEEL ASHAMED I DONT BLAME YOU FOR WHAT YOU SAID I SHOULDA NEVER MADE IT SOUND MISLEAD AND I SHOULDA NEVER SAID WHAT I SAID I SHOULD NEVER LET PEOPLE BE MY CUPID BUT IN THE END I SHOULDA KNEW THIS BUT I HOPE YOU FORGIVE ME
drum musical heart beat is this storm beating down inside of me...
... Reminding me of how empty life can be.
Raging wild like the wind your energy blows right through me and I feel it's whip teasing me so lovely...
... Reminding me how sweet a friend's love can be.
eight glasses wasted on a dry throat.
The sound of boots squishing raw soil
set a course of sirens through my rotting
ears, ******* my dilated pupils
into the boiling sun, crying in the
presence of my son,
yet there I am,
seated among thinly threaded confessions...
I planted this seed...
watered it with my blood...
tried my best to shine...
my inner light upon it...
so it might prosper...
but as it broke through the soil...
I knew it was fragile...
maybe I sheltered it too much...
perhaps I didn't give it...
as much as I...
I have let the light go,But not let the dark in,The pain from withing spreading my fears,You and I,Standing here alone,We are like each other,The pain consuming me,This world is nothing but a dream,A peace of a shattered memory,Here we go,The secrets we never shared,Each time we...
In nighttime's sleepless hours my reverie of you takes hold
I place a kiss so gentle as not to stir a sleeping baby on the face that fills my waking hours and haunts my dreams
You alone are my Northern lights, evoking a rainbow of cascading colours, Plumes of light that fill the...
So alive amid dying light,
Embraced by the night,
Illuminate with unseen bliss.
The earth is your canvas.
Scary, yet I’ve no fear.
From afar I see slow dancing:
On haunted soil, frolicking
In ragged dress with messy hair,
Awkward steps oh, so dear.
Remove your cozy boots...
I knew better
I put myself in this position
Just when I think I'm winning
I start losing
This game called love
It's so confusing
A vicious cycle with no conscience
No remorse, I made my choice
I sacrificed my heart
Was torn apart by feelings I let loose
It's a noose...
I’m great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, an almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lay Down,
then you have to equate my girl with angel !
is it true that sun is source of energy for many things,
then i have nil-potent ability without her !!
is it true that universe is infinite then,
i don't pause to say,am finite before her love !!!
is it true that mom gave...
She cries each night,Never does she show her pain,Always hiding her face,How long can she stay strong?How many more days must she play along,Raw emotion in her eyes,Fear crawling up her spine as she wipes the tears,Looking down at her scars,Looking at her reflection as she hides...
Another night has come and gone and here I sit all alone
wondering what the hell I did wrong
Trying to pick myself up and carry on
Though it's tough when you have been beaten up by life
Lost your will to fight
Trying not to listen to the voices in your head
Fighting against the...
all evening, and all night existing as one only in the mind and out of pain's sight.
Lover making love with no one but myself all the time; sharing with no one but myself my life.
Only laughing to the sound of my own thoughts, reads, reacting to needs; simply looking forward...
I can do
as rivers slowly fall down
till they kiss the ground
lost in my thoughts
in this night so hot
hoping and wishing
for that one dream
visions fills up my head
as i lay in my bed
wondering am I good enough?
Damn this night will be tough
starting doubting suddently...
As a veil in your thoughts and dreams
Image of my red lips and red hair
Is what you remember
But no life is behind those thin eyes
While the real ones gleamed that colour
Like the rest of me
Shards tearing us apart
Or perhaps we were always torn...
Broken pieces, shattered all around
We heard the sound, when it all hit the ground
Torn pages, in the book of my life
In the pain and strife, seems like a losing fight
Empty spaces, covered in clutter
My heart skips paces, and my words come in stutters
I see the places, where the...
Each and Every Night
So much do I miss you that
Each and every night as I close my eyes
My heart sees your sparkling eyes, and your smile.
So much do I want you that
Each and every night as I think of you
My heart hears your sweet whispers and your...
Then looked at me differently
Because you succeeded with your destruction
So that made me not strong enough
I couldn't withstand your infection
I allowed you too close too my deepest possession
And you stole it
And now I'm that broken toy
That you cant play with no...
When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.
Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?
Do not be afraid of life,the pain,the peril and the strife.Do not shrink with fear and dread from the things that lie ahead.
Do not be afraid to try-for no goal can be too high.You may fail but don't complain,you can always try again.
Do not be afraid to speak,to adventure and to...
though it has
strings for you to pull
Much too long an empty vessel,
but lately it's been full
I could wear it, on my sleeve, but
I'm not that kind of man
It's better in your care, I think
cherish it all you can
Mind, it's fragile, can be broken
so handle it with care
(Barvo's note - I don't actually write poems. I have no urge and don't read it for pleasure. I wound up in a writing class taught by a poet, so had to write several poems. When I can't do something well, I hide behind humour. Behold the result!)
Ode to a Lost Sock
of who I will become,
Never giving up will cause me to reach my chosen destination by the beat of my own drum,
I will overcome, though my soul is old, my heart stays independently young,
I can overcome whatever is negatively plunged at me by some.
I am blessed in spirit by...