or phrase that I'm really proud of, but never get to record. And then 5 minutes later, I'm trying to remember what it is. I once thought up an amazing song on the stairs and lost it once I got to class. :/
I'll play the part I have to play
You never know, dear
When God, Himself, will intervene
and I, myself, had no fear
In time, you'll see it just like me
I am worthless
I am useless
I am powerless to even face it
I am helpless
I am hopeless
Give me another day, I...
I now cannot sleep unless you are there to hold,
I now cannot dream of silver or of gold,
I wait for my dreams to fold as they crash into every one else I know,
I grow tired I grow so old, for all of this you never show
Hidden away like a shadow of love, these are the...
The only thing complicated was catching fireflies
They said it gets better when you grow up, they lied
You're only 16, you get your first heartbreak from the girl of your dreams
But you failed to realize
From the look in my eyes, that I cried
Because it should have...
Do you see my smile?
The one that I wear everyday
The one that says I'm okay
But am I?
Do you hear me laughing
At your lamest jokes
And silly antics
But is it for real?
Or is it fake?
Is it a mask I wear
To avoid the questions?
Or a mask that I wear
To hide my emotions?
I received huge amounts of positive feedback, a few people said they want to publish it in newsletters. (schools, agencies, etc). So I figured, maybe it's worth sharing.
People spend their whole lives
Trying to figure out
Who that are
Why they're here.
But I'm lucky...
All over again:
i sit here, erasing the pictures of you,
i sit here, wondering what did i do
i go through it in my head, everything that i've said
i can't believe i let you in, now i start all over again
I only ever told you i needed you
I only ever told you i...
From this i would learn
The scars and memories of 1000 lashes
I wish i could fly
high in the clouds above
I wish I could rise and the old battered spirit could die
Rise like an eagle with the grace of a dove
That was when
no one would
I am alone.
started to count...
My heart almost
pops out of my chest.
I get those...
but then I woke
I still remember each word you spoke
I dreamt the way I wanted things to be
Here we stand just you and me
I look to the sky, know that you are there
Hope you know I’ll always care
Looked at the pictures of you and me
Thought that you and I would always be
... If only you knew ...
I see your beautiful smile ..
I see your beautiful eyes ..
... If only you knew ...
How much I love you ..
I see my life before you ..
And I see my life with you ..
... If only you knew ...
How much you've changed in me ..
I'm trying to tell you ..
another day by the grave,
Six feet down the broken cannot be saved,
When all is said and done,
We gotta sacrafice our paradise for oblivion,
One more day till the other side,
No time to waste on the stronger ones,
Tonight we have to bring it down,
Who knows tonight could be...
Close the door
Invade me I never opened my eyes
I don't really care anymore
Rob me of my soul
Rape me with your eyes
Transcend through time
I never opened my eyes
You'll whisper soft dark sweet lyrics in my ear that are as black as night and spread across eagles' wings
I wrote this recently for one of the most amazing people in my life. She has long suffered with autism and muscular dystrophy, and has faced many years of intolerant and judgmental people not bothering to get to know her and only considering how she looks. To me, she is stunning...
I know that you and the bottle are buddies since way back when
you say that whiskey stood by you, when you couldn't find a friend
but sweetheart, I can't help but worry
you need it more each passing day
and when you crawl inside the bottle
the best of you just crawls away
once where she claimed that "Sweet Disposition" by the Australian band "The Temper Trap" was a life changing song for her. In truth, I think this was Jake Gyllenhaal's favorite song. Maybe it was their makeout song when Taylor was dating Jake.I love Taylor Swift. Her lyric is...
change the world? What about the parrot? Yes, I admit it-the world we now live in is my fault...though the parrot isn't without blame either.
It has been 3 1/2 months since my birthday. For my present, I had gotten a parrot. Yes, a parrot. You know those little winged beasts...
But my vivid mind is so blurry
Take it slowly I feel you getting closer
Take it to the ground
I switch so quick, do it quick, now hurry
If I could change the world it would be much faster
Feel the mood link us in closer
Feel us sink in deeper
You rush it, we're going...
VERSE 1I have faced each day with the blade,Found no answers at all,I hold on until the end,But slowly it gets colder,Each night draws in my tears.VERSE 2You say not to run away,Yet you have left over and over again,Letting my light go,Fading away my childhood,Where has my...
Take a step back,
Look at your life,
Put it in perspective,
See what it's worth.
Through the good and bad times,
You said you'd be there,
But now you're gone, It just aint fair.
And I'm the one that's been abandoned,
Left behind on my own,
Tangled in the mess you've made.
"The invisible woman"
The invisible woman went out on the town
At the bar her husband sat down
So she was overjoyed when she caught the eye
Of a dancing guy
Who would twirl her around
It was nothing seedy that would go too far...
and crumble the page
she's gone now so shouldn't i erase?
How i feel inside?
Take apart what makes up my heart and cast it aside?
Do the feelings i have mean anything at all?
the words i know have become lame, replaced with a sole name
calling, hoping within' an instance
Sorry i looked at you
Sorry i said hello
Sorry i want to give my heart
Sorry i want to be with you
Sorry i want you by my side
Sorry i said i loved you
Sorry i told the world
Sorry that without you i feel i need to hide
Sorry but i'm just me
while I was having an anxiety attack which caused me to hallucinate. I thought about posting the first draft to display the pure, unbound disorder, but I decided against it, and revised it to try and turn the feelings into something coherent through the rhythm. Anyway, I'm not...
want someone to hold me
I have hit a low
See me as I am
A lost lamb
And life is the wolf
And I'm running away
Please tell me it won't always be this way
I have tried so hard to say my feelings
I have tried so hard to search for a healing
Depression is swallowing
Faster everything changes to a gray.
Farther I'll move away,
This madness in my mind,
It's just killin time.
This sadness in my bones, it follows me where ever I go.
Ya know I'll be alright,
If I can just make it through tonight.
And maybe you'll hold me tighter...
and I was a single pale of water.
Silly me, thinking I could ever be enough to change you or contain you.
Both of us destroying ourselves trying to make ourselves over.
I emptied myself out so many times trying to control you,
and you spread yourself thin trying to see how much...
been sorrow , there could have been pain but yet all i can remember is the void.
The void of feelings once felt, it's essence leaving me in it's wake. Teasing, taunting me to chase only to find more of the same.
My heart is a time bomb of desire, i have no control when i...
but the problem is I never really finish it. Well, today I was inspired by the people in my life to complete a song. I completed a song, my very first completed song lol.
I also write poems too. I find writing poems are way easier than song writing.....
I'm so bad I'm so bad
Look me in the eyes tell me you promise please
It's getting harder for me to see you straight right now
All the girls you've been texting, texting over seas
It's been a long day get out my face please, look me in the face tell me I am wrong
Can't you tell...
Past Present and Future
We're connected for sure
Not by blood, but by time and soul
We might have a different role
In another life
In another sight
Our souls have bonded
All on it's own
In another time, explained
Like invisible lines
and definitely stories every single day. Really I find that amazing. Every single day a short song. A story... Though my latest stories are part about this girl Leah, and this boy man person name Sam.
Sam is immortal, he has been around for more than 1.5 years and looks 18. He...
So, sometimes I get ideas in my head for poems. I mostly write lyrics, but occassionally an idea will pop into my head so I will write it down. This isn't very good, and I will probably adapt it, but I thought I would get it down whilst it was still fresh in my mind and edit it...
scars and make me sane// Make me numb/ Kill the pain/ Heal my scars and make me sane// I'm broken, broken/ Maybe this pretty pill will fix me/ I'm broken, so broken/ Somebody please just kill me// I am done/ I am done// Scars on our hips/ Scars on our thighs/ Eyes full of hurt...
A helpless babe to her mother's
Arms, culled from comfort, carried
Off by artificial dragons.
Seeing, hearing, frantic as babes are,
With weak, uncomprehending minds.
The roars she roared as her wings
Made the wind submit to her will!
The city was set ablaze!
Someone I can run over to and jump into their arms,
Someone who is my everything,
Someone who could relate to my issues,
Someone who I can trust,
Someone who I could run away with,
Someone who feels what I feel,
Someone who wonders what lies beyond,
Someone who loves me...
all of a sudden this was on the paper, and oh my god, where did it come from? But I love it.
I used to be the kid
Who wrote poetry at 1 AM
On a spare napkin
Because inspiration hit.
I used to be the kid
Who wanted to be a lawyer
So badly that I watched Suits
Like it was the...
where he put a semicolon
lost all faith in your father
so why even bother
rather be living in these pills
and drown in the bottle
Suicide is the forever happy portal
She was your gift from god for escaping your past
and you'll love her forever
but she had other plans...
removes the dagger from Leah's chest
Sam: wake up my love, you've had enough sleep
Leah slowly wakes up, Sam feeds her blood.
Sam: wake up, I need you
Leah: how long has it been Sam?
Sam: oh, probably a couple centuries
Leah: centuries? What century is this 23rd...
Is numbness an emotion?
How can it not be when, at times,
It’s all I ever feel?
Sometimes I wonder if it has a mind of its own
It’s very deceptive,
At first it seeps into yourheart,
Makes you cold,
Then it envelopes your...