... If only you knew ...
I see your beautiful smile ..
I see your beautiful eyes ..
... If only you knew ...
How much I love you ..
I see my life before you ..
And I see my life with you ..
... If only you knew ...
How much you've changed in me ..
I'm trying to tell you ..
Someone I can run over to and jump into their arms,
Someone who is my everything,
Someone who could relate to my issues,
Someone who I can trust,
Someone who I could run away with,
Someone who feels what I feel,
Someone who wonders what lies beyond,
Someone who loves me...
I could cry but it gets me no where. If I say something Ill be screwed. I don't want anything to happen but I dont want anything to NOT happen either. Maybe it's that perfection is staring me in my face and feeling how I am and my heart not wrecking the safeness of the state...
while I was having an anxiety attack which caused me to hallucinate. I thought about posting the first draft to display the pure, unbound disorder, but I decided against it, and revised it to try and turn the feelings into something coherent through the rhythm. Anyway, I'm not...
Past Present and Future
We're connected for sure
Not by blood, but by time and soul
We might have a different role
In another life
In another sight
Our souls have bonded
All on it's own
In another time, explained
Like invisible lines
I know that you and the bottle are buddies since way back when
you say that whiskey stood by you, when you couldn't find a friend
but sweetheart, I can't help but worry
you need it more each passing day
and when you crawl inside the bottle
the best of you just crawls away
"The invisible woman"
The invisible woman went out on the town
At the bar her husband sat down
So she was overjoyed when she caught the eye
Of a dancing guy
Who would twirl her around
It was nothing seedy that would go too far...
where he put a semicolon
lost all faith in your father
so why even bother
rather be living in these pills
and drown in the bottle
Suicide is the forever happy portal
She was your gift from god for escaping your past
and you'll love her forever
but she had other plans...
watch as i fall
Watch as i burn, as i risk it all
I battled them all to be the best
Time after time stepping over the rest
Nothing can stop me, i'll break down the wall
Nothing can stop me, i stand here, i stand tall
Try to break me, i'll just break free
It''s time to...
or phrase that I'm really proud of, but never get to record. And then 5 minutes later, I'm trying to remember what it is. I once thought up an amazing song on the stairs and lost it once I got to class. :/
one another. I really didn't want to post it cause I think it sucks but I haven't posted a poem in awhile so why not? Lol:
"Kevin I hate you!"
"Priscilla you're disgusting!"
"Kevin you're nothing but a liar and cheat"
"Priscilla, your presence is like rotten meat"
From this i would learn
The scars and memories of 1000 lashes
I wish i could fly
high in the clouds above
I wish I could rise and the old battered spirit could die
Rise like an eagle with the grace of a dove
wishing i could die
I'm on public show
With absolutely nowhere to go
people stand there watching me falling
As i hear the heavens calling
I'm here thinking of the days when i used to feel tall
Now all i want is to end it all
I fell from grace,The fall was hard,The pained you caused,was brutal and scarred.I wished to never be in this place,That it hadn't happened,Was all a mistake.Yet still I fell.Heat turned to fire,The flames building so high,I just couldn't see it,I didn't want to try.I hit the...
Touch her again,I'll break your hands
Hurt her again and i'll make you cry
Touch her again, I'll break your hands
Hurt her again and i'll make you wish you could die
She says she loves you
All you do is hate her
She said she needs you
All you say is you'll kill her...
I wrote this recently for one of the most amazing people in my life. She has long suffered with autism and muscular dystrophy, and has faced many years of intolerant and judgmental people not bothering to get to know her and only considering how she looks. To me, she is stunning...
wish we’d never seen
There are things in life of which we’d never dream
I guess these were the things you had to see
I guess these were the things you dream
I close my eyes and I can see your face
I close my eyes and I can feel your touch
I close my eyes and I can hear...
want someone to hold me
I have hit a low
See me as I am
A lost lamb
And life is the wolf
And I'm running away
Please tell me it won't always be this way
I have tried so hard to say my feelings
I have tried so hard to search for a healing
Depression is swallowing
all of a sudden this was on the paper, and oh my god, where did it come from? But I love it.
I used to be the kid
Who wrote poetry at 1 AM
On a spare napkin
Because inspiration hit.
I used to be the kid
Who wanted to be a lawyer
So badly that I watched Suits
Like it was the...
So, sometimes I get ideas in my head for poems. I mostly write lyrics, but occassionally an idea will pop into my head so I will write it down. This isn't very good, and I will probably adapt it, but I thought I would get it down whilst it was still fresh in my mind and edit it...
back. I don't really know if I would call this lyrics, poetry or a short story. It's a bit of all three I guess, though structured horribly.. but anyway, here goes:
Every person has that point where they break when all of a sudden your sanity and self it's at stake...
Do you see my smile?
The one that I wear everyday
The one that says I'm okay
But am I?
Do you hear me laughing
At your lamest jokes
And silly antics
But is it for real?
Or is it fake?
Is it a mask I wear
To avoid the questions?
Or a mask that I wear
To hide my emotions?
change the world? What about the parrot? Yes, I admit it-the world we now live in is my fault...though the parrot isn't without blame either.
It has been 3 1/2 months since my birthday. For my present, I had gotten a parrot. Yes, a parrot. You know those little winged beasts...
to walk on through the rain, while hammers break and bend the fibers of this heart that beats for You, each day I have to start again & search for strength anew.. Some may say, why put yourself through this? Why stay? I stay because I don't have it in me to walk away From the...
been sorrow , there could have been pain but yet all i can remember is the void.
The void of feelings once felt, it's essence leaving me in it's wake. Teasing, taunting me to chase only to find more of the same.
My heart is a time bomb of desire, i have no control when i...
All over again:
i sit here, erasing the pictures of you,
i sit here, wondering what did i do
i go through it in my head, everything that i've said
i can't believe i let you in, now i start all over again
I only ever told you i needed you
I only ever told you i...
I now cannot sleep unless you are there to hold,
I now cannot dream of silver or of gold,
I wait for my dreams to fold as they crash into every one else I know,
I grow tired I grow so old, for all of this you never show
Hidden away like a shadow of love, these are the...
another day by the grave,
Six feet down the broken cannot be saved,
When all is said and done,
We gotta sacrafice our paradise for oblivion,
One more day till the other side,
No time to waste on the stronger ones,
Tonight we have to bring it down,
Who knows tonight could be...
On Spring's fruit, chest
To head. Helpless swaddling,
Doe eyes, butter skin.
A barter coddling, for you
An ache-dripping honeysuckle.
Milk for babes in there.
Mother seahorse, empty
Cradle. An elbow's crook
For my fawning heart
Instead. Nip my terra cotta
You don't see me as I feel you .
You don't feel me as I see you .
Do not hear me as my heart holds true .
You won't give me.
When my mind is blue.
The time of day
Is it all I deserve?
A period of passing by .
Day and night a heartfelt cry.
To save me from myself...
Faster everything changes to a gray.
Farther I'll move away,
This madness in my mind,
It's just killin time.
This sadness in my bones, it follows me where ever I go.
Ya know I'll be alright,
If I can just make it through tonight.
And maybe you'll hold me tighter...
Close the door
Invade me I never opened my eyes
I don't really care anymore
Rob me of my soul
Rape me with your eyes
Transcend through time
I never opened my eyes
You'll whisper soft dark sweet lyrics in my ear that are as black as night and spread across eagles' wings
I'd calm your fears and dry your tears
make you smile if only for a while
give you the wings to help you fly, never make you cry
A lifetime by your side, i would never have to hide
A lifetime in my arms to keep calm
A lifetime looking in your eyes, there would be no...
So much praised ignorance
Those who fear the darkness are doomed to live in it and be blind
But those who understand it will find light
Freedom of thought, expression , and choice
Isn't that what everyone wants ?
Knowledge can be a sword that swings in both directions...
and crumble the page
she's gone now so shouldn't i erase?
How i feel inside?
Take apart what makes up my heart and cast it aside?
Do the feelings i have mean anything at all?
the words i know have become lame, replaced with a sole name
calling, hoping within' an instance
scars and make me sane// Make me numb/ Kill the pain/ Heal my scars and make me sane// I'm broken, broken/ Maybe this pretty pill will fix me/ I'm broken, so broken/ Somebody please just kill me// I am done/ I am done// Scars on our hips/ Scars on our thighs/ Eyes full of hurt...
I received huge amounts of positive feedback, a few people said they want to publish it in newsletters. (schools, agencies, etc). So I figured, maybe it's worth sharing.
People spend their whole lives
Trying to figure out
Who that are
Why they're here.
But I'm lucky...
The only thing complicated was catching fireflies
They said it gets better when you grow up, they lied
You're only 16, you get your first heartbreak from the girl of your dreams
But you failed to realize
From the look in my eyes, that I cried
Because it should have...
I'll play the part I have to play
You never know, dear
When God, Himself, will intervene
and I, myself, had no fear
In time, you'll see it just like me
I am worthless
I am useless
I am powerless to even face it
I am helpless
I am hopeless
Give me another day, I...