wishing i could die
I'm on public show
With absolutely nowhere to go
people stand there watching me falling
As i hear the heavens calling
I'm here thinking of the days when i used to feel tall
Now all i want is to end it all
You don't see me as I feel you .
You don't feel me as I see you .
Do not hear me as my heart holds true .
You won't give me.
When my mind is blue.
The time of day
Is it all I deserve?
A period of passing by .
Day and night a heartfelt cry.
To save me from myself...
You just stand there with the widest grin
For the life of me I can’t see why
You’d hold my hand and let us fly
From my lifeless times to melodic rimes you
You’ve been by my side
Hard times come and go but we’ll pull through
Forever on this ride
Those times my...
So much praised ignorance
Those who fear the darkness are doomed to live in it and be blind
But those who understand it will find light
Freedom of thought, expression , and choice
Isn't that what everyone wants ?
Knowledge can be a sword that swings in both directions...
Is numbness an emotion?
How can it not be when, at times,
It’s all I ever feel?
Sometimes I wonder if it has a mind of its own
It’s very deceptive,
At first it seeps into yourheart,
Makes you cold,
Then it envelopes your...
want someone to hold me
I have hit a low
See me as I am
A lost lamb
And life is the wolf
And I'm running away
Please tell me it won't always be this way
I have tried so hard to say my feelings
I have tried so hard to search for a healing
Depression is swallowing
your life's problems,
But being on the road doesn't have to make them worse.
All that time by yourself is an opportunity for thinking,
Piece together the full story and maybe framing it as a verse.
Then you can rehearse and sing the song about what's troubling you,
And like with...
I wrote this recently for one of the most amazing people in my life. She has long suffered with autism and muscular dystrophy, and has faced many years of intolerant and judgmental people not bothering to get to know her and only considering how she looks. To me, she is stunning...
Past Present and Future
We're connected for sure
Not by blood, but by time and soul
We might have a different role
In another life
In another sight
Our souls have bonded
All on it's own
In another time, explained
Like invisible lines
So, sometimes I get ideas in my head for poems. I mostly write lyrics, but occassionally an idea will pop into my head so I will write it down. This isn't very good, and I will probably adapt it, but I thought I would get it down whilst it was still fresh in my mind and edit it...
... If only you knew ...
I see your beautiful smile ..
I see your beautiful eyes ..
... If only you knew ...
How much I love you ..
I see my life before you ..
And I see my life with you ..
... If only you knew ...
How much you've changed in me ..
I'm trying to tell you ..
watch as i fall
Watch as i burn, as i risk it all
I battled them all to be the best
Time after time stepping over the rest
Nothing can stop me, i'll break down the wall
Nothing can stop me, i stand here, i stand tall
Try to break me, i'll just break free
It''s time to...
I deserve to die
What? What did you say?
You hate me?
Well, I hate me too.
Crimson tears flow down my face
I can't seem to be in the right place
People tell me it's just a phase...
That life hasn't punished me... That this isn't my fate
Every time I look in...
and be a man
All you see are the memories in time
They said shake it off you’ll be ok
The truth is yesterday will never go away
The memories that haunt
The past that tries to taunt me as I sleep
The scars may fade from the days of feeling gaunt
In the face of the...
VERSE 1I have faced each day with the blade,Found no answers at all,I hold on until the end,But slowly it gets colder,Each night draws in my tears.VERSE 2You say not to run away,Yet you have left over and over again,Letting my light go,Fading away my childhood,Where has my...
Like an eagle in a cage somewhere, clipped wings by his sides
You can read the secret dreams of flight that soar behind his eyes
He may stay a while and love you, let you feed him from your hand
Ah, but leave the cage door open, you'll find the eagle's spirit strong
to walk on through the rain, while hammers break and bend the fibers of this heart that beats for You, each day I have to start again & search for strength anew.. Some may say, why put yourself through this? Why stay? I stay because I don't have it in me to walk away From the...
Weaving pictures in my mind,
Of all the things I've left behind.
A tapestry of memories,
A portrait of how things used to be.
A word, a thought, a laugh a smile,
All beautifully etched in the image for a while.
The colours fade,
The feeling remains,
Like a part of your soul has...
Touch her again,I'll break your hands
Hurt her again and i'll make you cry
Touch her again, I'll break your hands
Hurt her again and i'll make you wish you could die
She says she loves you
All you do is hate her
She said she needs you
All you say is you'll kill her...
scars and make me sane// Make me numb/ Kill the pain/ Heal my scars and make me sane// I'm broken, broken/ Maybe this pretty pill will fix me/ I'm broken, so broken/ Somebody please just kill me// I am done/ I am done// Scars on our hips/ Scars on our thighs/ Eyes full of hurt...
Close the door
Invade me I never opened my eyes
I don't really care anymore
Rob me of my soul
Rape me with your eyes
Transcend through time
I never opened my eyes
You'll whisper soft dark sweet lyrics in my ear that are as black as night and spread across eagles' wings
"The invisible woman"
The invisible woman went out on the town
At the bar her husband sat down
So she was overjoyed when she caught the eye
Of a dancing guy
Who would twirl her around
It was nothing seedy that would go too far...
another day by the grave,
Six feet down the broken cannot be saved,
When all is said and done,
We gotta sacrafice our paradise for oblivion,
One more day till the other side,
No time to waste on the stronger ones,
Tonight we have to bring it down,
Who knows tonight could be...
You took my soul.
When you looked into my eyes,
All you saw was a deep dark hole.
Help me when I'm falling deeper down.
I need you her to make me feel loved.
For every word you say is sweet.
And my heart stops each time we meet.
A day seems like an hour when you...
I fell from grace,The fall was hard,The pained you caused,was brutal and scarred.I wished to never be in this place,That it hadn't happened,Was all a mistake.Yet still I fell.Heat turned to fire,The flames building so high,I just couldn't see it,I didn't want to try.I hit the...
when it's too dark and you can't really on eye sight
no blanket to coat you when the monsters of the world surround you
no safe feeling of your mothers love all around you
no affection no protection the world only treats you with aggression
and you better...
All over again:
i sit here, erasing the pictures of you,
i sit here, wondering what did i do
i go through it in my head, everything that i've said
i can't believe i let you in, now i start all over again
I only ever told you i needed you
I only ever told you i...
One man's drink is another man's poison...that's true of women, too...she's anxious to get you, I can't wait to get rid of you...I say, more power to her! and I hope she's got a sense of humor...when she finds out she didn't steal a husband...she just won herself a part-time...
but then I woke
I still remember each word you spoke
I dreamt the way I wanted things to be
Here we stand just you and me
I look to the sky, know that you are there
Hope you know I’ll always care
Looked at the pictures of you and me
Thought that you and I would always be
I'll play the part I have to play
You never know, dear
When God, Himself, will intervene
and I, myself, had no fear
In time, you'll see it just like me
I am worthless
I am useless
I am powerless to even face it
I am helpless
I am hopeless
Give me another day, I...
(unlike the bad poem I wrote last week).
Sleeping on the job in Memphis
Sleeping on the job in Memphis
waiting for my shift to come in.
I can't get my trailer unloaded
until these guys start working.
I'm not getting paid for this downtime
so I'd better do something...
I now cannot sleep unless you are there to hold,
I now cannot dream of silver or of gold,
I wait for my dreams to fold as they crash into every one else I know,
I grow tired I grow so old, for all of this you never show
Hidden away like a shadow of love, these are the...
of release, red droplets staining my sheets, dripping down my leg, thighs on fire, the feeling of relief like a scream from my body, X's and Oh ****'s on my skin, my mind is full of hurt and deceit, watch my skin unzip with the razor blade, the pinky white below the surface...
and crumble the page
she's gone now so shouldn't i erase?
How i feel inside?
Take apart what makes up my heart and cast it aside?
Do the feelings i have mean anything at all?
the words i know have become lame, replaced with a sole name
calling, hoping within' an instance
Flicker stars along your back
Soaring over sorbet mist.
To the albatross
An airborne ship of dreams
Where no mark stains
The summer canvas.
Nay, you give us
But a glimpse of that space,
I know that you and the bottle are buddies since way back when
you say that whiskey stood by you, when you couldn't find a friend
but sweetheart, I can't help but worry
you need it more each passing day
and when you crawl inside the bottle
the best of you just crawls away
all your words and all your taunts
when alone i bled inside
ran away to my own little corner to hide
You used to make me cry
thanks to you now i can fly
i used to dream of the day i died
now i'm stronger i no longer have to hide
Keep thinking you ruined me...
Going to pour myself another drink
Anything that’ll to help make me sleep
See it’s not my dreams that haunt
But it’s how far they’re out of reach
So I sit by the window
Watch the world go by
Pretend it’s not getting to me
Tell myself another lie
“It’s alright, it...