wishing i could die
I'm on public show
With absolutely nowhere to go
people stand there watching me falling
As i hear the heavens calling
I'm here thinking of the days when i used to feel tall
Now all i want is to end it all
I wrote this recently for one of the most amazing people in my life. She has long suffered with autism and muscular dystrophy, and has faced many years of intolerant and judgmental people not bothering to get to know her and only considering how she looks. To me, she is stunning...
Sorry i looked at you
Sorry i said hello
Sorry i want to give my heart
Sorry i want to be with you
Sorry i want you by my side
Sorry i said i loved you
Sorry i told the world
Sorry that without you i feel i need to hide
Sorry but i'm just me
You don't see me as I feel you .
You don't feel me as I see you .
Do not hear me as my heart holds true .
You won't give me.
When my mind is blue.
The time of day
Is it all I deserve?
A period of passing by .
Day and night a heartfelt cry.
To save me from myself...
wish we’d never seen
There are things in life of which we’d never dream
I guess these were the things you had to see
I guess these were the things you dream
I close my eyes and I can see your face
I close my eyes and I can feel your touch
I close my eyes and I can hear...
Close the door
Invade me I never opened my eyes
I don't really care anymore
Rob me of my soul
Rape me with your eyes
Transcend through time
I never opened my eyes
You'll whisper soft dark sweet lyrics in my ear that are as black as night and spread across eagles' wings
Take a step back,
Look at your life,
Put it in perspective,
See what it's worth.
Through the good and bad times,
You said you'd be there,
But now you're gone, It just aint fair.
And I'm the one that's been abandoned,
Left behind on my own,
Tangled in the mess you've made.
write our names in the sand?
Would you let me kiss your cheek, hold you up when you feel weak?
Would you let me be the one to take you off into the sun?
Would you allow me this simple dream?
Steal a kiss or two, so glad to be near you,
Listen for a whisper or two, so glad I can...
back. I don't really know if I would call this lyrics, poetry or a short story. It's a bit of all three I guess, though structured horribly.. but anyway, here goes:
Every person has that point where they break when all of a sudden your sanity and self it's at stake...
I now cannot sleep unless you are there to hold,
I now cannot dream of silver or of gold,
I wait for my dreams to fold as they crash into every one else I know,
I grow tired I grow so old, for all of this you never show
Hidden away like a shadow of love, these are the...
for you my dear
For our love is beyond compare
Real, transcience, without despair
Calm as the water, oh so clear
You are the light that shines when I am lost
I give my heart and soul without a cost
I will wait just to see you even if it takes time
No space, no hymn, our love...
I'll play the part I have to play
You never know, dear
When God, Himself, will intervene
and I, myself, had no fear
In time, you'll see it just like me
I am worthless
I am useless
I am powerless to even face it
I am helpless
I am hopeless
Give me another day, I...
So, sometimes I get ideas in my head for poems. I mostly write lyrics, but occassionally an idea will pop into my head so I will write it down. This isn't very good, and I will probably adapt it, but I thought I would get it down whilst it was still fresh in my mind and edit it...
Is numbness an emotion?
How can it not be when, at times,
It’s all I ever feel?
Sometimes I wonder if it has a mind of its own
It’s very deceptive,
At first it seeps into yourheart,
Makes you cold,
Then it envelopes your...
I received huge amounts of positive feedback, a few people said they want to publish it in newsletters. (schools, agencies, etc). So I figured, maybe it's worth sharing.
People spend their whole lives
Trying to figure out
Who that are
Why they're here.
But I'm lucky...
change the world? What about the parrot? Yes, I admit it-the world we now live in is my fault...though the parrot isn't without blame either.
It has been 3 1/2 months since my birthday. For my present, I had gotten a parrot. Yes, a parrot. You know those little winged beasts...
You just stand there with the widest grin
For the life of me I can’t see why
You’d hold my hand and let us fly
From my lifeless times to melodic rimes you
You’ve been by my side
Hard times come and go but we’ll pull through
Forever on this ride
Those times my...
That was when
no one would
I am alone.
started to count...
My heart almost
pops out of my chest.
I get those...
where he put a semicolon
lost all faith in your father
so why even bother
rather be living in these pills
and drown in the bottle
Suicide is the forever happy portal
She was your gift from god for escaping your past
and you'll love her forever
but she had other plans...
Do you see my smile?
The one that I wear everyday
The one that says I'm okay
But am I?
Do you hear me laughing
At your lamest jokes
And silly antics
But is it for real?
Or is it fake?
Is it a mask I wear
To avoid the questions?
Or a mask that I wear
To hide my emotions?
"The invisible woman"
The invisible woman went out on the town
At the bar her husband sat down
So she was overjoyed when she caught the eye
Of a dancing guy
Who would twirl her around
It was nothing seedy that would go too far...
or phrase that I'm really proud of, but never get to record. And then 5 minutes later, I'm trying to remember what it is. I once thought up an amazing song on the stairs and lost it once I got to class. :/
One man's drink is another man's poison...that's true of women, too...she's anxious to get you, I can't wait to get rid of you...I say, more power to her! and I hope she's got a sense of humor...when she finds out she didn't steal a husband...she just won herself a part-time...
I know that you and the bottle are buddies since way back when
you say that whiskey stood by you, when you couldn't find a friend
but sweetheart, I can't help but worry
you need it more each passing day
and when you crawl inside the bottle
the best of you just crawls away
All over again:
i sit here, erasing the pictures of you,
i sit here, wondering what did i do
i go through it in my head, everything that i've said
i can't believe i let you in, now i start all over again
I only ever told you i needed you
I only ever told you i...
So much praised ignorance
Those who fear the darkness are doomed to live in it and be blind
But those who understand it will find light
Freedom of thought, expression , and choice
Isn't that what everyone wants ?
Knowledge can be a sword that swings in both directions...
Touch her again,I'll break your hands
Hurt her again and i'll make you cry
Touch her again, I'll break your hands
Hurt her again and i'll make you wish you could die
She says she loves you
All you do is hate her
She said she needs you
All you say is you'll kill her...
scars and make me sane// Make me numb/ Kill the pain/ Heal my scars and make me sane// I'm broken, broken/ Maybe this pretty pill will fix me/ I'm broken, so broken/ Somebody please just kill me// I am done/ I am done// Scars on our hips/ Scars on our thighs/ Eyes full of hurt...
but then I woke
I still remember each word you spoke
I dreamt the way I wanted things to be
Here we stand just you and me
I look to the sky, know that you are there
Hope you know I’ll always care
Looked at the pictures of you and me
Thought that you and I would always be
I fell from grace,The fall was hard,The pained you caused,was brutal and scarred.I wished to never be in this place,That it hadn't happened,Was all a mistake.Yet still I fell.Heat turned to fire,The flames building so high,I just couldn't see it,I didn't want to try.I hit the...
and be a man
All you see are the memories in time
They said shake it off you’ll be ok
The truth is yesterday will never go away
The memories that haunt
The past that tries to taunt me as I sleep
The scars may fade from the days of feeling gaunt
In the face of the...
and crumble the page
she's gone now so shouldn't i erase?
How i feel inside?
Take apart what makes up my heart and cast it aside?
Do the feelings i have mean anything at all?
the words i know have become lame, replaced with a sole name
calling, hoping within' an instance
all your words and all your taunts
when alone i bled inside
ran away to my own little corner to hide
You used to make me cry
thanks to you now i can fly
i used to dream of the day i died
now i'm stronger i no longer have to hide
Keep thinking you ruined me...
one another. I really didn't want to post it cause I think it sucks but I haven't posted a poem in awhile so why not? Lol:
"Kevin I hate you!"
"Priscilla you're disgusting!"
"Kevin you're nothing but a liar and cheat"
"Priscilla, your presence is like rotten meat"
VERSE 1I have faced each day with the blade,Found no answers at all,I hold on until the end,But slowly it gets colder,Each night draws in my tears.VERSE 2You say not to run away,Yet you have left over and over again,Letting my light go,Fading away my childhood,Where has my...
On Spring's fruit, chest
To head. Helpless swaddling,
Doe eyes, butter skin.
A barter coddling, for you
An ache-dripping honeysuckle.
Milk for babes in there.
Mother seahorse, empty
Cradle. An elbow's crook
For my fawning heart
Instead. Nip my terra cotta
Past Present and Future
We're connected for sure
Not by blood, but by time and soul
We might have a different role
In another life
In another sight
Our souls have bonded
All on it's own
In another time, explained
Like invisible lines
another day by the grave,
Six feet down the broken cannot be saved,
When all is said and done,
We gotta sacrafice our paradise for oblivion,
One more day till the other side,
No time to waste on the stronger ones,
Tonight we have to bring it down,
Who knows tonight could be...
been sorrow , there could have been pain but yet all i can remember is the void.
The void of feelings once felt, it's essence leaving me in it's wake. Teasing, taunting me to chase only to find more of the same.
My heart is a time bomb of desire, i have no control when i...