want someone to hold me
I have hit a low
See me as I am
A lost lamb
And life is the wolf
And I'm running away
Please tell me it won't always be this way
I have tried so hard to say my feelings
I have tried so hard to search for a healing
Depression is swallowing
All over again:
i sit here, erasing the pictures of you,
i sit here, wondering what did i do
i go through it in my head, everything that i've said
i can't believe i let you in, now i start all over again
I only ever told you i needed you
I only ever told you i...
Close the door
Invade me I never opened my eyes
I don't really care anymore
Rob me of my soul
Rape me with your eyes
Transcend through time
I never opened my eyes
You'll whisper soft dark sweet lyrics in my ear that are as black as night and spread across eagles' wings
all your words and all your taunts
when alone i bled inside
ran away to my own little corner to hide
You used to make me cry
thanks to you now i can fly
i used to dream of the day i died
now i'm stronger i no longer have to hide
Keep thinking you ruined me...
Do you see my smile?
The one that I wear everyday
The one that says I'm okay
But am I?
Do you hear me laughing
At your lamest jokes
And silly antics
But is it for real?
Or is it fake?
Is it a mask I wear
To avoid the questions?
Or a mask that I wear
To hide my emotions?
Is numbness an emotion?
How can it not be when, at times,
It’s all I ever feel?
Sometimes I wonder if it has a mind of its own
It’s very deceptive,
At first it seeps into yourheart,
Makes you cold,
Then it envelopes your...
star puller, stone shoes
Gripping and sucking down the swamp,
My bog, my ocean. My dead god
Beholden to none and nothing,
Dead deity's bed under sea.
All's naught to naught but I and me.
We have differences, you see.
I weigh the Old Ones on antique
Everyday is a blessing, living in a palace she play queen and I be her king .
She could be a goof, and I could play aloof, she could sing to me and she'd have my heart instantly.
Oh Taylor, could I love you any more?
To wake up next to that face, I'd know i was in a...
I wrote this recently for one of the most amazing people in my life. She has long suffered with autism and muscular dystrophy, and has faced many years of intolerant and judgmental people not bothering to get to know her and only considering how she looks. To me, she is stunning...
is just a little song I made well atleast part of it-
It's never going to last said the blue bird. You're on the devils path said the blue bird.I swear you're going to trip and fall and scrape your knees on glass said the blue bird.
And I should've known dear blue bird knew...
and I was a single pale of water.
Silly me, thinking I could ever be enough to change you or contain you.
Both of us destroying ourselves trying to make ourselves over.
I emptied myself out so many times trying to control you,
and you spread yourself thin trying to see how much...
another day by the grave,
Six feet down the broken cannot be saved,
When all is said and done,
We gotta sacrafice our paradise for oblivion,
One more day till the other side,
No time to waste on the stronger ones,
Tonight we have to bring it down,
Who knows tonight could be...
One man's drink is another man's poison...that's true of women, too...she's anxious to get you, I can't wait to get rid of you...I say, more power to her! and I hope she's got a sense of humor...when she finds out she didn't steal a husband...she just won herself a part-time...
feel you in the air. It’s like every inch of that house reminds me of our first phone conversation, our first kiss, the first time you said I love you, our first time. Where I was laying when we shared our secrets. The place I was in when you called and told me your brothers...
Here between air and whispering
Wind, between wind and worrying
Of wrinkles in soft fabric, which
With cold become hard and icy,
We will wait for nothing further
Than the hollow bell's ring and rest.
We will sleep the sleep of satans,
Dream in Hell of wanton...
" I know "
Feeling alone got no one to talk to
You just want to go home
But no one is there but you
I know that your heart is hurting
And you can't hide your eyes
Cause I know that you've been crying
I know pain is knocking your door
I know you can't take it...
Take a step back,
Look at your life,
Put it in perspective,
See what it's worth.
Through the good and bad times,
You said you'd be there,
But now you're gone, It just aint fair.
And I'm the one that's been abandoned,
Left behind on my own,
Tangled in the mess you've made.
VERSE 1I have faced each day with the blade,Found no answers at all,I hold on until the end,But slowly it gets colder,Each night draws in my tears.VERSE 2You say not to run away,Yet you have left over and over again,Letting my light go,Fading away my childhood,Where has my...
scars and make me sane// Make me numb/ Kill the pain/ Heal my scars and make me sane// I'm broken, broken/ Maybe this pretty pill will fix me/ I'm broken, so broken/ Somebody please just kill me// I am done/ I am done// Scars on our hips/ Scars on our thighs/ Eyes full of hurt...
I now cannot sleep unless you are there to hold,
I now cannot dream of silver or of gold,
I wait for my dreams to fold as they crash into every one else I know,
I grow tired I grow so old, for all of this you never show
Hidden away like a shadow of love, these are the...
the sound of everyone gone
as i sit, bleeding and torn
The sound of silence, the sound of everyone gone
as i sit, wishing i'd never been born
Today was the day it came crumbling down
life in shattered pieces
Today was the day it all came crumbling down
all the pain just...
and crumble the page
she's gone now so shouldn't i erase?
How i feel inside?
Take apart what makes up my heart and cast it aside?
Do the feelings i have mean anything at all?
the words i know have become lame, replaced with a sole name
calling, hoping within' an instance
Where the sun scorches bright.
The waves come crashing in.
While death goes on slashing.
My people cry out to the Lord.
But their prayers are held within.
The silver knife leaves a trace.
Of their blood tainting the waves.
They're like stars falling, burning the sky. The world...
I'll play the part I have to play
You never know, dear
When God, Himself, will intervene
and I, myself, had no fear
In time, you'll see it just like me
I am worthless
I am useless
I am powerless to even face it
I am helpless
I am hopeless
Give me another day, I...
I know that you and the bottle are buddies since way back when
you say that whiskey stood by you, when you couldn't find a friend
but sweetheart, I can't help but worry
you need it more each passing day
and when you crawl inside the bottle
the best of you just crawls away
I fell from grace,The fall was hard,The pained you caused,was brutal and scarred.I wished to never be in this place,That it hadn't happened,Was all a mistake.Yet still I fell.Heat turned to fire,The flames building so high,I just couldn't see it,I didn't want to try.I hit the...
... If only you knew ...
I see your beautiful smile ..
I see your beautiful eyes ..
... If only you knew ...
How much I love you ..
I see my life before you ..
And I see my life with you ..
... If only you knew ...
How much you've changed in me ..
I'm trying to tell you ..
From this i would learn
The scars and memories of 1000 lashes
I wish i could fly
high in the clouds above
I wish I could rise and the old battered spirit could die
Rise like an eagle with the grace of a dove
Sorry i looked at you
Sorry i said hello
Sorry i want to give my heart
Sorry i want to be with you
Sorry i want you by my side
Sorry i said i loved you
Sorry i told the world
Sorry that without you i feel i need to hide
Sorry but i'm just me
You don't see me as I feel you .
You don't feel me as I see you .
Do not hear me as my heart holds true .
You won't give me.
When my mind is blue.
The time of day
Is it all I deserve?
A period of passing by .
Day and night a heartfelt cry.
To save me from myself...
I'm so bad I'm so bad
Look me in the eyes tell me you promise please
It's getting harder for me to see you straight right now
All the girls you've been texting, texting over seas
It's been a long day get out my face please, look me in the face tell me I am wrong
Can't you tell...
Past Present and Future
We're connected for sure
Not by blood, but by time and soul
We might have a different role
In another life
In another sight
Our souls have bonded
All on it's own
In another time, explained
Like invisible lines
write our names in the sand?
Would you let me kiss your cheek, hold you up when you feel weak?
Would you let me be the one to take you off into the sun?
Would you allow me this simple dream?
Steal a kiss or two, so glad to be near you,
Listen for a whisper or two, so glad I can...
So, sometimes I get ideas in my head for poems. I mostly write lyrics, but occassionally an idea will pop into my head so I will write it down. This isn't very good, and I will probably adapt it, but I thought I would get it down whilst it was still fresh in my mind and edit it...
but then I woke
I still remember each word you spoke
I dreamt the way I wanted things to be
Here we stand just you and me
I look to the sky, know that you are there
Hope you know I’ll always care
Looked at the pictures of you and me
Thought that you and I would always be
story, but I do have an idea of a story, Brutal Bones... story of a guy who falls in love with a demon. An old Indian town, run down after years of crime and poverty. A **** hole, Cory is just your average f*u*ckup. No dreams, no talents , no purpose to live. His life is then...
fragile white heart,
if they hit to hard,
you might fall apart.
Your dress is ripped up with blood all over the lace,
and a smile is painted on your pretty cracked face.
You’re a Porcelain doll, skin white like a shell,
a porcelain doll, you’d break if you fell.
but I wrote something, kids a lyrics about my sleep..
I can't think straight
It can not wait
I can feel it inside
There is no room to hide
It always finds a way to capture me
I'm weak.. I'm weak
I'm loosing myself into the dark
I tried to get up but I fell apart
been sorrow , there could have been pain but yet all i can remember is the void.
The void of feelings once felt, it's essence leaving me in it's wake. Teasing, taunting me to chase only to find more of the same.
My heart is a time bomb of desire, i have no control when i...
he sees his life fade away
Looking down the barrel, he wonders if he can last another day
Looking down the barrel, thinking what he's been through
Looking down the barrel he think he's doing it for you.
As life spirals further and further down
He doesn't think he should...
and definitely stories every single day. Really I find that amazing. Every single day a short song. A story... Though my latest stories are part about this girl Leah, and this boy man person name Sam.
Sam is immortal, he has been around for more than 1.5 years and looks 18. He...
removes the dagger from Leah's chest
Sam: wake up my love, you've had enough sleep
Leah slowly wakes up, Sam feeds her blood.
Sam: wake up, I need you
Leah: how long has it been Sam?
Sam: oh, probably a couple centuries
Leah: centuries? What century is this 23rd...
the way you are part of me. I want to be the thought to which your mind strays when you're staring out to sea..the one within your dreams that you wish would pay you all it's mind, the one you look to that says it wouldn't leave you behind..How is it, now that I'm the one laying...