back of my brain
The ghost of my
fears, past, laws
insecurities and morals
In a masochistic state
Wanting to do
In the process
In the middle
A limbo of
Don't know where
Cant even fathom
that I have, when I see your face; I freeze – I fall, for you a thousand times, I'm walking blind when you enter my mind, like through snow in my heart.
Tell me, please oh tell me, that you've never loved someone, like I love everything that you are – all these pieces...
Your pretty diamond necklaces
And, your silk and satin robes.
Please don't tell me your " I'm sorry's"
They don't mean much to me!!
They are just empty words said after what you really spoke to me.
from stories that shaped me,
and memories that scraped me
I am from having a fit every time I didn’t get what i want.
from therapist meeting every other thursday for a year
I am from growing up with just my brother and mother
And a different dog every 6-8 months...
hidden u under the duvet,not sure where i wanted to be.
I cant bury this anymore,i really cant.
The alarm clock rings,that dam ringing noise.
It penetrates my ears,with such familiar pain.
I rise ,still half in the dream land from the night before.
Is this really it?I sigh...
I wrote it after he died to help with the grief.
I was at the nadir of my life
god heard my prayer it seems
For late last night He answered
Jesus brought you to my dreams
I saw Him coming
And I cried for release
I begged Him 'take me with you'
He smiled at me and said 'Be at...
When you see this girl
what do you see?
you see a girl who has
been labeled as
when you see this girl
who do you see?
you see a girl who wants to
why you ask because of this label she hates who she is
she hates that you label her
now who is...
We have our differences
And that is true
But in many ways
We are the same
“I’m just like you”
You have stories to share
and I have mine
You have experiences to share
and so do I
I have confession to make
and maybe you have too
We are in the...
Now I feel nothing but heart ache.
Said you'd always care.
Having you care is very rare.
I fell in love. I didn't mean to.
But everything you told me sounded so real and true.
You looked into my eyes. The...
and no ones true,
When you can't tell anyone anything, that's when it gets lonley. Please someone hold me!
People used to tell me, they got me. But was never ever there because there fony.
Young, trying to figure everything out.
Surrounded by death, my loved ones being takin...
A paw fits into another
like a jigsaw fits together.
Bonded with the force of love,
It's unbreakable, invincible and unconditional.
They join at the heart,
In a world of insanity,
Where the only thing that exsists
is the love between them.
A full moon glows and the stars twinkle...
The next there was nothing there at all. Not wanting attachments to a sweet smiling face, Fighting off warmth from a loving embrace. I have never needed so much space, Between despair and anguish..will I find a soft place? Running from memories stuck in my head, Trying to forget...
I’ve known it for years,
Without all the heartbreak,
Or shedding of tears,
The world is cruel,
And it never let’s you up,
After you’ve been knocked down,
And you’re ready to give in,
It’ll leave you to drown,
The world is like a child,
It uses and discards,
You are a...
looks like its stopping
All I have is memories
Of you and me
The days that I spent loving you
If only you knew
How I try to get over you
I wonder if you think of me
Maybe it was all just a dream
If it was then I wish that I was still asleep
In your arms or holding hands
if some of you recognize who i am after reading this- keep your big mouth shut. i enjoy being "anonymous"...
once again i hang myself with my words, every sentence another knot on the noose, every feeling an inch closer towards the edge of the chair. i throw all i...
My feet keep moving even though I don't know where I'm going
I'll never know where I'll end up yet I chose not to stop because if I were to stop I would have no where else to go and nothing else to do
I can't see my future
I can't see where I'll end up
It might be in a...
reconsidering my purpose.
The light that I had, is blocked by a man who seems nervous.
He grabs me by the end and brings me along,
for the ride of a lifetime, cause soon he´ll be gone.
He hangs me on a chair, to look up instructions,
I see myself on the computer, my beautiful...
that filled your face with gee
Cause from what I could see, that smile was meant for me.
But then it all went wrong, and all your love for me went dry
It's hard to still stay strong, it's hard for me to even try
I was depressed and you were gladness, I'm still depressed but...
If you can no longer pretend
Pretend that your smile is your friend
Don't pull that act
Don't say your okay
Let me help you take the pain away
I'm only trying to be your friend
I know the feelings
I've had them before
Please no don't...
I wrote and published my first poem at 6, my career as a poet has been uphill ever since. I publish and perform, but lately other ventures have crowded it out. Here's one of my better ones, it reduced a friend of mine to tears - in the world of poetry that's...
All I can do is pray, as I wait for a better day
Cause how can you forget a voice that makes your soul feel warm, How can you forget a laughter that makes the world smile, please stay for a while
You're my home but you wont let me in
I'm outside and I'm cold knocking on...
Im not asking you to care
I dont trust anyone anymore
People are nothing but liars
And hide this fact under layers
I am done trying to be heard
When no one is ever around to hear
I don't want you to save me
I don't want to be saved
I just let this lupus to kill...
Daniel came a-running
We were meeting in the sun
Daniel was a dead man
When the night had just begun
Red sweater and red shoes
On a tree branch, then a call
Bloodred sweater, bloodred shoes
And blood in the waterfall
The seas changed their direction...
I want to got to the Secret Place
Where the Dreamers roam
And pride is shown
I want to go to the Secret Place
Where love is deep
And Passion is a race
Where preciousness is kept
All while we sleep
No monsters roam
No evil to creep
I want to...
it was random and i had no idea what it meant, now i understand and i was not even trying to make it thi way. its about me being gay and everything and working though it.
the darkest crown, the darkest light, blurring out all of the twilight. New face’s shown, and new faces...
Afraid of success,
Afraid I'll do my best.
How can I live,
With all this uncertainty,
Always clouding over me.
Can't I I breathe?
Can I breathe?
Let me out, let me out,
I'm dying to live.
I'll shout, I'll shout,
If you will only give,
Give me a chance, give me a...
If you really wanna hear me scream,
Then cover me in gasoline,
Set me alight with the match of the dead,
Watch as the flames burn a hole in my head.
Come smell my weeping heart,
Lift it high and tear it apart,
For nothing can hurt as much,
As not feeling your tender...
and I noticed all your feeling
You have a flood full of pain inside your head and your simply looking for a drain to let it all out
You fake a smile to look your best
Keep your head up even when your upset
Your afraid of what they all might say
You get home and cry your...
Everything's going to be okay, this I pray,
May I find the innocence of my child, may I be as foolhardy as my youth,
My mother talks; offers me her wisdom,
She says, "We are only ever responsible for our own deaths."
She says, "Don't cry now, just listen."
I may find comfort in...
Sometimes I focus on everything bad,
Everything that's got me thinking of throwing the towel in,
Makes me want to jump off a platform of any kind.
Sometimes we meet somebody that takes away the will to jump,
And I guess I'm just that lucky,
'Cause I met you.
So now I'm...
so why do make me feel the way I do
At times we talk and it seems to have no end
The compliments you pass at me
The way you stare
You make me curl my toes and tousle my hair
And yet I'm just an object
Just a pretty face for your pleasure
Just a hole to fill your forbidden desire...
speaking words they could not hear
thundered silence from her scream
*what you doin chile?
where you goin chile?*
the stranger whispered in her ear
she looked in to the strangers eyes
and vomited her fear
*when I stand here, he is there
when I stand there he's here
if it's all just a lie
Sometimes I wish I could forget things
But memories never die
I let myself drown in insanity
I can't find my personality
A demon has taken over
It's like I'm drunk but sober
The world around me twists and turns
My heart inside me bleeds and burns
I am a fierce wind and a gentle breeze,A roaring of thunder, a whisper in the trees.Cold as ice, and a red, fiery flame,A drought, a desert, and a torrent of rain.A calm, quiet lake, with water serene,Violent ocean waves crashing, a nightmare, a sweet dream.I am a fighter...
But never heard him breathe.
I took his tiny hand in mine,
But knew he had to leave.
I saw him enter this cruel world,
But never saw him grow.
I'll never see his face again,
It's so sad to watch him go.
Some friends remain
Some were meant to be
We can always sit under a tree
Talk about our long history
The good, the bad, the ugly
While some will make you mad
Others will make you very sad
The majority of these memories
Will fill you with so much happiness
Because when push...
that people can't be owned
Why do I feel so drawn?
Like I could feel the push and pull
See the tug and twirl
Of galaxies in you
Walking has never been so graceful
Standing has never been so beautiful
I wish I could explore
Every world you've been into...