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I Wrote a Suicide Note

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 90 People

    Three Actually

    Ironically, it was during a time when I wasn't even suicidal. Every time I've had to deal with suicidal ideation the thought of writing a note never even came to my mind. I just wanted to end it quick or to wither away without a lot of extra stuff like writing notes.But...
    golddust2009 golddust2009
    18-21, F
    Jan 9, 2010

    Have Them Tucked Away

    I wrote multiple notes a while back. I have tucked away in a drawer just in case I need them. One to my mother, one to my grandmother, and a couple to old friends.
    Melody08 Melody08
    18-21, F
    Sep 12, 2008

    I Have

    I have written a suicide note. I will be honest, I wrote one not so long ago. I have been in a very dark place, and suicide and leaving this place does seem the answer. I think of suicide all the time, so much lately, I just wish I could tell someone what's hurting me so much. Is...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 21, 2013

    Several Actually

    I wrote one to each of my closest family members: my 2 sister, parents, nephew and neice (who wasn't born at the time). I also left one for members of my church family and instructions for my cats and for my funeral service. I had packed all of my belongings and left out the...
    Shonnie Shonnie
    22-25, F
    Jul 29, 2008

    I Wrote a Few

    Basically to feel better. Get my feelings out. When I did try it for real, I didn't write one. There's no one it would be useful for. I don't have anybody, so there was no point to write a real one.
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Dec 27, 2007

    17 October 2011

    I have decided. Today is the day I do it. I no longer wish to be in pain anymore. No one will care if I die, because I have no one.
    lntel lntel
    Mar 26, 2012

    If I Were To Write One Right Now...

    Goodbye, cruel world. I won't see you tomorrow. You've thrown enough at my emotions. I'm done with you. Forever. Goodbye cruel world. You're more than I can handle. How do you expect me to live like this? Well the answer is, I can't. Goodbye cruel world. I have a different friend...
    MichaelaChase911 MichaelaChase911
    18-21, F
    Apr 28, 2011

    On Many Occasions

    In fact, I have one right now. Not that I plan on killing myself. That phase is over. I have, tucked away, a pile of letters that I periodically update. They say what couldn't be said while I was still alive. In some ways those letters are a constant reminder of what I do...
    eyes eyes
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Dec 27, 2007

    A Pathetic Attempt At a Suicide Note (in Case I Ever Need It)

    That was what was written at the top of a random page in my Spanish II notebook. It was dated February 8, 2007...   "I'm sorry. I realize this is selfish. I realize that I am loved. I am not an idiot who thinks I am unloved. But no matter how loved I am, I'm alone...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax
    18-21, F
    17 Responses Mar 9, 2008

    I Had Saved This As A Draft On My Email. I Just Found It Now.

    well what can i say? bye, i guess..... well its not like theres much more to say right? do you want me to apologize? forgive? anything else? a sandwich before i'm gone? maybe i'm not anything, never was, definitely never will be. i used to consider myself broken, but then again...
    wannawalkaway wannawalkaway
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 1, 2012

    I Wrote Seven

    Before my suicide attempt I wrote 7 notes. One for each of my sisters 4 children that basically went. I will always love you, I am happy now in heaven with Nanny (my mum), I have no pain anymore. I wrote one to my brother in-law & my big sister that...
    britbear britbear
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Jan 24, 2009

    There Is Little Point In Adding A Suicide Note On This Site

    as it will simply be flagged for removal. If you'd rather the tame - I was going to kill myself seven years ago, or I felt mildly suicidal two weeks ago, then this site lacks any credibility whatsoever. I'll be sure to add PE's draconian rules within my suicide note!  
    mountainwiccan mountainwiccan
    31-35, F
    Oct 26, 2009

    I Wrote It and Never Sent It

    After writing this I made a 24 hour contract with myself and lived another day: Dear Riley: If I'm lucky it'll be a few days before you read or even open this message. I feel horrible making this last request of you, but you're the only one not judging me right now. I tried to...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 4, 2009

    It Always Comes Back

    I found it a few days ago when I was *coughs* hiding some stuff. Peculiar. I can read all of the pain that "person" had been in. Their reasons are good, but the feelings are gone now. The main theme of the letter was that life gets better but the despair always comes back. It...
    Allergic Allergic
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

    Another Soul Lost

    Jasmine, I want you to understand that this isn't because I'm angry or upset with you. Life has just thrown too much at me in such a short time. I tried to move on so we could have a happy life together I tried. I wish that things could be better for us but the truth is it cant...
    Weretiger Weretiger
    31-35, M
    Jun 20, 2013

    In A Blue Envelope....

    I've always been depressed. I've been cutting myself for years and I have so much emotional baggage that it's disgusting. I won't get into it. Towards the beginning of the year, I had just about had it with everything. I was going to write a note and jump off a bridge near my...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2012

    15 October 2011

    Dear Who I have everything planned out for tonight. I will try my best to get a ticket for the AC, then I will catch a cab and go there. I won’t let any of them see me – I’ll hide in the shadows – but I’ll be there to watch him play. After the awards ceremony, I will...
    lntel lntel
    Mar 26, 2012


    Guys, I'm really scared tonight.
    NiTy NiTy
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 2, 2009


    I wrote a suicide note a few months ago when I tried to hang myself. Already had the noose around my neck, but was too much of a pathetic, abject, spineless coward to actually go through with it. The funny thing is, thinking about it now, I knew from the very beginning that I...
    flowerlesswall flowerlesswall
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Feb 4, 2013

    Couldnt Leave Anyone Thinking It Was There Own Fault.

    mine was basicly telling everyone that it was no ones fault but my own, i just couldnt bare to kill myself and leave people questioning if it was there fault or weather they could have done more. thankfully my attempt failed but it was probably one of the hardest things i ever...
    jossiemarie jossiemarie
    22-25, F
    May 13, 2008

    I've Written a Few

    I don't think I have any of them anymore. trashed or recycled at this point. very out of date they'd all be. I was alone and lonely and depressed and wanted to die and thought I better leave something behind for thoseI cared for, at the time only including people I knew online...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark
    31-35, F
    Nov 21, 2007

    Some Time Ago..

    I wrote one... It was only one page.. I didn't have time enough to write any longer.. I just wanted to be dead.. and leave something behind.. that tells them about my reasons.. and stuff they don't know.. I throw it away lately.. It wasn't recent anyhow... I thought about...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2007


    Ive written many. only three times has it gotten to the stage where they have been read.     my stepdad came to the hospital, after the last time. id just been moved out of ICU. he read it to me. watching his face, seeing his tears, made me vow that no one would...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    19 Responses Feb 13, 2009

    I Wrote A Suicide Note

    The closest I've ever come to actually been brave enough to go through with the act of suicide was at the start of 2013. At that time I wrote a suicide note. I did not go through with the act at that time but I have kept the note. I know I will need it one day when I am...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 28, 2013


    I can count on two hands the many times that I have stood on the edge of the darkness during my life time.  I almost made it over the edge several times, only to be brought back screaming and crying.  For as long as I can remember, I have hated my body, I've hated how...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2010


    I'll never forget writing it...It was more of a confession rather than a suicide note...When I think of it, it brings back all the emotion..I remember crying hysterical, I could barely see the page, my vision was so blurry from tears. I never want to feel that way again. I cant...
    NiRiada NiRiada
    22-25, F
    Sep 17, 2008

    I Found Them The Other Day

    I was going through an old box of mine, bored nothing else to do. When i found a huge envelope, all that it said on it was LIFE in my cursive print. And it all just came rushing back at me. all those memories from when i was younger. I read all the letters in that envelope again...
    Artemis17 Artemis17
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 31, 2010
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