Life never really moved on the way I wanted. Not that I always wasted time in complaining or something but moments of positivity lost existence naturally. Not that I did not ever try exploring moments, people and stories to inspire me along the way. Not that I did not try helping someone more unfortunate than me so that I could feel significant and do something to make it better. Still after all this, fate has cackled at me all the time. I would not say that I did nothing wrong and was always on a right way, but the wrong came to me in such a way that I lost myself.
Today when I see the girl standing in front of me in the mirror, I do not quite feel sure of who I am looking at? I have a job, family, set of friends, principles and hope, I have a future yet something is missing like it always was. Tried searching everywhere, never found it.
There are 2 things, I am lost and I am unaware of things in life. Again here, not that I did not read books that mentioned various 1001 ways of understanding oneself nevertheless I am at that point from where I can only see huge valleys with no visible land below them and I have moved to the edge and have also taken the next step. And now I dont know what will happen?