last 3 days. I am soooo tired. I needed the nap I took this morning. -___-
I went on a hike today. Brittany wanted to go on one but I couldn't get a hold of her, so I went solo. What a workout. I don't know how many miles I did, but it felt pretty good.
Last night I went to...
the mirror of the night
Yearning for a voice that made seem everything so alright
The gentle voice like a caress so reassuring
In the midst of a flight of thoughts now soaring
Brimming at the corners of her useless mind
The loving gesture shall disappear in no time
woodwork now that John is away? Last Thursday, when he and I were at dinner before he left, Mark - an old scientist friend that I've not spoken to in ages - randomly texted me and asked if I wanted to hang out (this week). I told John about Mark. I was like, "Dude, I feel like...
I haven't felt exactly myself these past few days. Sad, easily annoyed, even angry. And I never get angry. But these things happen. Emotions build up over a long period of time until they finally start dribbling out. I distract myself and cordon myself off from the world...
Where did the time go?
It's been about four and a half years since I was last in a relationship. That was all the way back in my freshman year of college, and at that point, I feel I was headed in a mostly good direction. I liked the girl I was with, I was...
those memories sitting in your hands
But your life will be greater than imagination
And I hope it may still last
Love is like war
You just try to fight for it
Just make sure you never give up
'Cause life won't be like before
No one can tell you
What your life will be like...
Held against my chest
The gun is yours
The bullets are providedDeadly at their touch
This is my everything
My trust in you
You possess the knowledgeYou know every fear
Don't pull the trigger
I beg of you
Don't lose your coolStay close to me
Hold on, don't hesitate
A butterfly sees the beauty of the world,
sees the ocean,sees the mountains,
sees changes,the nature n more beyond walls.
She hears of a sweet melody,
happy or sad,
music from ppl's hearts,
music when the city dream n dance.
She feels the peace,the courage when ppl...
I.There once was a beautiful field,A lush verdant paradiseHidden far away, concealedFrom the world's darkness and vice.Every spring after winter had thawedThe children would trickle out in ones and twosAnd play by the lakeside with their fishing rodsAnd footballs, with no need...
when I was in ninth grade, or somewhere around there.
The boy was very angry with Mr. Shiftlet as well as well as Lucynell for leaving. The boy comes up with a brilliant idea; he calls the police and reports a stolen vehicle. He informs the police that an old 1920 Ford has been...
my last hope. It is what I have the best chance for and yet still, the thing furthest from me. I have no entitlement to it, no expectation for it, and perhaps, it is this that I needed. Nothing to lose. Yes, so much to gain, everything I'd ever hoped and dreamed for, but I...
i first heard of trolls quite some time ago and i still dont get it. all new people eventually ask what trolls are and its always some vague answer. ive never been privy to the people that seem to know about them. ive never seen one that i know of. i am a bit insecure like...
Welcome to my autumnal garden of paradise delights
At times it can be dark, beauty smoldering joy, amidst riotous flowering moody colors.
Soon bright serenity and pristine comfort
Be willing to dirty your hands freeing your mind
Feel the grass wet on bare feet, cool mist...
It has been a long journey dealing with the passing of my Mom. This,Thanksgiving is the anniversary of living my life minus a Mother.The seasons of life and how they are played out. The time is like yesterday no matter how long any loss is. When I first started out this journey...
of days ago and it turns out he wanted to talk to me about some bucket list blog project he wanted to start. He just got back from Europe and he showed me some of his pics.... So jelly. His idea is to "interview" people he knows about things that changed their lives and feature...
since I post anything here well due to many reasons well a very busy schdule in study and family matters and a bit lazyness and a lot had happen since there well being in relationships whith a bunch of guys at the same time just to feel better about myself but this never happen...
.into a equally small balcony and look at all the depressing faces..gaunt out of lack of food and late night study...I must look like them too...a part of this machine. All for achieving a higher goal. I almost give up..I want to give up. One face catches my eye and smiles at me...
chance to find out who they are. There is always an obstacle or two in the way of what they truly need to feel. What is important is getting to know your emotions before anyone else's because in the end you'll only end up feeling all of these overwhelming, unnoticed, crazy...
Anxiety has been down and no real anxiety attacks yet, so I haven't taken the Ativan.
I drank a few times on the med, and I don't think I had any bad side effects, just the alcohol hit me quicker and harder. Which means that I drink less. Although I will tell my doc when I have...
Hurting you was the last thing I wanted to do
Hurting you means I hurt myself even more
I can't live with what I did to you
How can you live with that?
How can you still love me?
Please forgive me
All I want is for you to be happy even if that means without you
Eyes closed,deep wounds that noone feels,
bleeding since birth,
she lives for everyone n noone.
She sleeps in the cemetery,by her angel which is one with her,
-her suffering feels.
She remembers what she has built but shes
always bound to him.
Her soul was connected...
The words "i love you" are priceless, unpredictable like rolling dices/ here we are taking chances, making sacrifices / suffices and keeping one another in sight, our hands of cards dealt is right to play for any fight, in hope of getting that much needed balance that is tight...
Don't read if you don't like.)
Staring out to the clouds, I wish that I could be with you. Why do you have to be so far away, far away that you are but a far-fetched dream deluding me of this existing reality? I miss you so much. Why can’t you be beside me even if I beseech...
Swahili because I ******* said so.
Oh, kusema unaweza kuona na alfajiri mapema mwanga
Nini ili kujigamba sisi ikipongezwa katika twilight ya mwisho gleaming? Ambao pana kupigwa na nyota angavu kupitia mapambano hatari, Oh ngome sisi kuangalia walikuwa hivyo gallantly Streaming...
appointment (the first I've had in a very long time). I told her my main concern was my anxiety and she asked what helps calm me down during an attack. I told her the only thing that's ever worked for me was Xanax. She asked if I'd want to go on Zoloft for depression and anxiety...
You do not know me Lady , But I know that you're real.I ask about you often . And do care how you feel . We share a common interest , and share a common bond . But i am here and you are there miles across the pond .He loves so most dearly and his heart is yours to own. I listen...
gold leaves shiver
through cracks of time
rays of sun flicker
through the crying sky
in my ballroom dress
clouds above leaps through the sky
gold leaves dangle blow in the wind
why must we be jealous
think more deeply
and a bit saddening when things from your childhood slowly slip away, one by one, especially when you realize it in the moment and nostalgia hasn't had time to set in yet. But one of the things that stay the longest are childhood idols in the form of sports stars, that is, if...
pause.hear the lost promises found,scornful enough to devour from it's premises.Such holy heart sang me a melody.......I cannot be smitten, this symmetry was sung by a gluttony.Would you stop all this illusion of desire.....?Until you make me decide to enter the hatred's...
He's the one that hurt me and left me to die
My wrists are stained blood red because of him
He's the one who lied
He's the one that broke my heart for good
He's the one to blame because I can't trust anymore
He's the reason why I'm going to die
When angels hold your hands You just can't hit the ground They'll take you high and high And never let you down when angels hold ur hands u know ur not alone but u have someone that shows care, they love u without asking something and they never leave by ur side u call...
She looked down at her hands as though seeing them for the first time. The red covered them, oozing down from the gaps between her fingers. She watched it, her eyes bright with surprise. It was warm and almost friendly. A smile crept across her pale features. The crimson was...
post, but, for my sanity's sake, I need to let this out.
For the past few days, the what-ifs have been haunting me. I cannot afford to experience another monumental (I am exaggerating here, but that is how it feels like, at least for me) failure.
"When people say it's not...
This morning while sitting at the breakfast table, looking at my daughter who was complaining that her brothers were traveling and she was unhappy she had to go to school. What is happiness for you? How do you see it? Can you buy it?
Happiness is a small box we keep hiding until...
that are hidden, nor for the sorrow that you lock away. But you are still a mask. Our problems define us, make us who we are. Sometimes it can be difficult to understand the joy behind such a concept. Yet still, you are a mask. Maybe the fault in our value, the crack in our self...
I haven’t been doing much lately except stress myself out applying to jobs. It’s left me feeling a bit empty. I haven’t been writing, haven’t been inspired lately. Basically, this will be the dam bursting, so this will probably be long, gushing, rambling, and...
and people who have just had a rough day)
This girl was standing over a bridge. She was ready to jump. But someone grabbed her before she could even take the leap. She turned around to face a boy around her age. "Where you going to jump?!" He asked. She knew he already knew the...
just to make sure there weren't any crazies in there before I sent them off to the authors. But they're mostly from kids anyway, so they're not crazy. Yet. But I read some damn inspiring, heartfelt, and touching things. So many of them were how they hated reading before, but...
It's time to take a break.I love you, EP, I really do, but you **** me off sometimes.Flagging should be a privilege, not a right, since so many people abuse the hell out of it, either to flag something they disagree (the horror) with or to simply mess with someone that they don't...
-writing!- I told you about the police officer his name is Sofiane well one day I was mad and I went for a walk then I saw an Audi Q7 and the guy was flirting me and I was with no money and he start talking while I walk and he was with his car and I said I'm going to get lunch...
All I think about is when I'm going to see you next
Every time you say you love me my heart skips a beat
Every time I look into your eyes I forget about the world
Every time I talk to you, you take my breath away
just a sun peak volcano in the distant sky, as if seeing a "great force of endless energies" a deeper awakening
beyond, the hearts of humanity through an energetic oneness with unity.
as being a full moon gateway to other dimensions. Level of awakening the hearts of...
I've always been hesitant to put up myself as a profile picture here. I've mostly used avatars, whether it be a picture I like, something I felt at the time, or my recent stint of Hobbes-related pictures, I rarely had my face up there. And I never really thought...
I have a heart that sometimes cries,
i wonder if someone can hear,
i can feel it again,this sadness,
i know i feel it..
I can wait for some words,
one tight hug,
letting me by ur side to sleep,
my tears to kiss,
but im on my own
in the night,
in the day,
I like to sit upon the fence
Its high and that makes sense
I can see the guy on both sides.
Fence sitting it is often said
Is something to not be tolerated
But the fence rules in my georaphy
Get off the pot is similar
Either that or do what youre supposed to there
But a fence has...
face of god is not gone
in the flowers smiles
aqua black drop sky
pure transcendent sun
ascends to astonish
the angels in heaven
who keep the light
of their loved ones
enshrined in angelic voices
one is so rich and full
so many inner worlds
outer world is joy...
It's depressing to keep applying to jobs and hearing nothing back. I so badly want to work, to get out of the damn house and do something that means the world to me, but the world isn't letting me, at least not yet. Sometimes I think I should just give up and apply to law school...
so beautiful. The moment of Zen, the lack of mystique and grandeur that bound itself to those who could see it. The day was simple; clear skies, a rich blue so bright that it seemed to saturate the suns rays which were happiness. A whisper of a breeze caressing the leaves of the...