It's depressing to keep applying to jobs and hearing nothing back. I so badly want to work, to get out of the damn house and do something that means the world to me, but the world isn't letting me, at least not yet. Sometimes I think I should just give up and apply to law school...
I have a tenuous relationship with cameras. While I think photography is an art form and a powerful one at that, I don't think it should be a substitute for experience. I kind of dislike how everyone has a camera to document every trivial part of their lives. Most people are not...
Where did the time go?
It's been about four and a half years since I was last in a relationship. That was all the way back in my freshman year of college, and at that point, I feel I was headed in a mostly good direction. I liked the girl I was with, I was...
i died a little that day. I thought giving you my all would strengthen our bond, how was I to know that it would only tear us down. You promised me I could trust you, your actions said otherwise. I wonder, five years from now would you remember me? Or would I just be an...
i wouldnt feel anything
id be free like a wind and still get fed
id scratch the ones who touch me and make furious sounds
look at the sun with proud eyes
and move in the dark with no fears
i wish i were a cat !
face of god is not gone
in the flowers smiles
aqua black drop sky
pure transcendent sun
ascends to astonish
the angels in heaven
who keep the light
of their loved ones
enshrined in angelic voices
one is so rich and full
so many inner worlds
outer world is joy...
truth in my life I can't even begin to explain but that's a lie, I know exactly what I'm going through.
I spy with my all seeing eye, this entity that is love, an infinite being I breathe as I long to weave this thing to a beautiful tapestry of a future with you and my dreams...
I haven’t been doing much lately except stress myself out applying to jobs. It’s left me feeling a bit empty. I haven’t been writing, haven’t been inspired lately. Basically, this will be the dam bursting, so this will probably be long, gushing, rambling, and...
for you. I promise you're gonna miss me being there, putting up on you, refusing to give up on you. You're gonna regret everything that you've done to me including all the damage you've caused. And someday you'll turn back and i wont be waiting for you any longer. I might have...
i first heard of trolls quite some time ago and i still dont get it. all new people eventually ask what trolls are and its always some vague answer. ive never been privy to the people that seem to know about them. ive never seen one that i know of. i am a bit insecure like...
Heck, I don't even know completely what this is that I'm feeling
I doubt words would ever be enough to express it anyways
But if I try if I try really hard to jot it down so much comes to my mind
fragments. We instinctively and unwillingly hold onto the broken bonds we once forged so long ago. The memories stay aflame despite the efforts of time and space to douse them, and in doing so remind us of what it's like to be burned.
My mother had a double mastectomy yesterday...
post, but, for my sanity's sake, I need to let this out.
For the past few days, the what-ifs have been haunting me. I cannot afford to experience another monumental (I am exaggerating here, but that is how it feels like, at least for me) failure.
"When people say it's not...
Eyes closed,deep wounds that noone feels,
bleeding since birth,
she lives for everyone n noone.
She sleeps in the cemetery,by her angel which is one with her,
-her suffering feels.
She remembers what she has built but shes
always bound to him.
Her soul was connected...
your laugh.I love your hair, whether down, in a bun, or braided around the sides.I love how you crane your neck to the side when you're looking down at someone's desk.I love how starkly straight-up you sit at your desk; puts my posture to shame.I love your legs. Dear god, your...
sky over Waterloo, Iowa. It was unseasonably warm for the first week of September, though no one was complaining. The alarm clock setting on the bedside table of Josh Newton was buzzing insistently, doing its best to wake the sleeping boy.
Josh reached over and shut his alarm...
outside my work, and I happily took one. Of course, it was actually for a promotion for this wine that company sold in a blue bottle, but what about Valentine's Day isn't commercial? I still appreciated the damn flower.Carrying it from work to my friends' place, and then from...
I have a heart that sometimes cries,
i wonder if someone can hear,
i can feel it again,this sadness,
i know i feel it..
I can wait for some words,
one tight hug,
letting me by ur side to sleep,
my tears to kiss,
but im on my own
in the night,
in the day,
and cold on the top of the hill. The boy looked up at the scudding, dark clouds racing across the sky. At the bottom of the hill a group of men had just cornered a giant and were teasing him, rushing in on their horses to jab at him with their spears and then dancing back out of...
A butterfly sees the beauty of the world,
sees the ocean,sees the mountains,
sees changes,the nature n more beyond walls.
She hears of a sweet melody,
happy or sad,
music from ppl's hearts,
music when the city dream n dance.
She feels the peace,the courage when ppl...
skip, catch. That's all there is to it when I twirl the staff. There are a lot of names of the movements of this tool turned weapon; beautiful metaphors for a somewhat sinister purpose.
Skip, catch, skip, catch, the staff whirls like a typhoon in front of me. It warps reality in...
and dirt. The day's toils had left its pungent mark on him, but she didn't seem to mind somehow as she lay her divine face against his chest, her eyes looking into his. He felt something stir in him, something climbing up from depths he never knew he had. He kissed her forehead...
My heart doesn't know; it wanders, it strays, it leaves and it stays, and so has it been for all of its days, but the Earth opens up to your delicate touch, the nightingale croons her crestfallen tune. The autumn swallows you up in its embrace. I looked, I almost.. then...
They arrived at the club at 11: Ian, Émile, Kevin, and Troy.
The music was already loud, and they hadn't even gotten through to the entrance yet. The long line streamed out of the front door, filled with bigger, better looking guys than Ian. He hadn't even wanted to come out in...
......only u will read it......my words to you.....it will haunt u and it will burn ypu for tge rest of your days You *****.......you will ******* hurt and u will feel me deep....u wanted this and u will get what u wanted.....happy...yes....I say **** this...........the sunrise...
share with you this morning, but i cannot seem to find them. They usually come to me like droplets of water falling from the grey skies on a rainy day. They usually wait to be herded onto the paper before me like grazing cattle on an open field. They usually yearn to be read...
of Banal I spend my days treading the murky waters of Misery Canal Kicking, squirming, water-churning, drowning in the surf of a sickening spell I witness time and the changing of seasons from my dark and dreary well
It has been a long journey dealing with the passing of my Mom. This,Thanksgiving is the anniversary of living my life minus a Mother.The seasons of life and how they are played out. The time is like yesterday no matter how long any loss is. When I first started out this journey...
I.There once was a beautiful field,A lush verdant paradiseHidden far away, concealedFrom the world's darkness and vice.Every spring after winter had thawedThe children would trickle out in ones and twosAnd play by the lakeside with their fishing rodsAnd footballs, with no need...
It's time to take a break.I love you, EP, I really do, but you **** me off sometimes.Flagging should be a privilege, not a right, since so many people abuse the hell out of it, either to flag something they disagree (the horror) with or to simply mess with someone that they don't...
A couple of days ago, there was some sort of question about if the military draft were back, would they take people who have mental problems. I answered, as is typical, not the question, but what the question made me think about, and that is that I would not fight if there were a...
?? He will be coming to talk to me in a day or two. He left me cuz we fight to much but he might want To get back together.
I wanna be free
But not without you holding me
And baby I am one to see
Of the river valley.
Of all the oceans, lakes, the sky
And all the stars...
just a sun peak volcano in the distant sky, as if seeing a "great force of endless energies" a deeper awakening
beyond, the hearts of humanity through an energetic oneness with unity.
as being a full moon gateway to other dimensions. Level of awakening the hearts of...
Nothing can sometimes be something.
But does it matter? Will you be snuffed out like a quivering ember in the ashes of society... Or will you ignite and spark the flames of your life and warm the inner sanctum of your soul?
Take flight you poor soul, warp the dark and the...
and control yourself.” David said quietly as he opened the door slightly and looked out. No one seemed to have noticed the outcry and he closed the door slowly.
“As you know, my name is David Sterling. I am not normally a councilor but I do have a job that I am working even...
It's an abstract written for a might-have-been.
I've always said that I would die for our love, and now it feels as though it's happened.
How could such happiness so abruptly morph into such discord, such agony? How could you love me one day, and not the next?
I've always been hesitant to put up myself as a profile picture here. I've mostly used avatars, whether it be a picture I like, something I felt at the time, or my recent stint of Hobbes-related pictures, I rarely had my face up there. And I never really thought...
Sorry about that ^.^
Anyway, I recently wrote a song:
Dying, crying, trying
Every time I see you shaking
Lying with my mind, oh whoa
Your heart keeps still from breaking
Eyes so red, the pain you bled
Holding together, but you wanna die instead
No, you can't steal my love
Held against my chest
The gun is yours
The bullets are providedDeadly at their touch
This is my everything
My trust in you
You possess the knowledgeYou know every fear
Don't pull the trigger
I beg of you
Don't lose your coolStay close to me
Hold on, don't hesitate
gold leaves shiver
through cracks of time
rays of sun flicker
through the crying sky
in my ballroom dress
clouds above leaps through the sky
gold leaves dangle blow in the wind
why must we be jealous
think more deeply
just another lonely dream away. A heart breaks, just an ache. Who tortures it tonight? Yourself, the victim, and the one at stake.
Forgiveness has never came as hard as the night you gave yourself away. A heart breaks, just an ache. Who tortures your thoughts tonight? Yourself...
aligned at the downward slope
Shake a little ,wake up better
It is a message of heaven in letters
Thunderstorm was severe
Glad,What could happen in a year?
It wasn't just loss of mind but of soul
Question of existence in mind on roll!
Thinking about life mere like playing fife...
as his mother drove through town towards the school. He was imagining how it was going to go this year. More bullying, no doubt. Of course, no one would do anything about it. When he reported it, no one ever so much as raised a finger to do anything to make it stop so he had...
tighter against the light fog as she let herself out of the kitchen door of the boarding house.
“Molly!” shouted a voice from in the kitchen.
She paused on the top step and snarled “What?”
“Am I to prepare breakfast this morning?” asked an older woman coming to the...
one out.I just can't stop thinking about her, I have to at least try. This time, I don't feel as scared as I used to as when in this situation in the past. If she's not interested, at least I'll know. And when I do have occasion to ask her, that is, when I get another job out of...
I haven't felt exactly myself these past few days. Sad, easily annoyed, even angry. And I never get angry. But these things happen. Emotions build up over a long period of time until they finally start dribbling out. I distract myself and cordon myself off from the world...
When angels hold your hands You just can't hit the ground They'll take you high and high And never let you down when angels hold ur hands u know ur not alone but u have someone that shows care, they love u without asking something and they never leave by ur side u call...
just to make sure there weren't any crazies in there before I sent them off to the authors. But they're mostly from kids anyway, so they're not crazy. Yet. But I read some damn inspiring, heartfelt, and touching things. So many of them were how they hated reading before, but...
for me, that she called my name from a far away place. So i set out to find her. I searched every forest but she was not there. I explored every mountain but she was not there. I traversed every desert but still, she was nowhere to be found. Finally, after i had traveled all the...