I haven’t been doing much lately except stress myself out applying to jobs. It’s left me feeling a bit empty. I haven’t been writing, haven’t been inspired lately. Basically, this will be the dam bursting, so this will probably be long, gushing, rambling, and...
sky over Waterloo, Iowa. It was unseasonably warm for the first week of September, though no one was complaining. The alarm clock setting on the bedside table of Josh Newton was buzzing insistently, doing its best to wake the sleeping boy.
Josh reached over and shut his alarm...
......only u will read it......my words to you.....it will haunt u and it will burn ypu for tge rest of your days You *****.......you will ******* hurt and u will feel me deep....u wanted this and u will get what u wanted.....happy...yes....I say **** this...........the sunrise...
just a sun peak volcano in the distant sky, as if seeing a "great force of endless energies" a deeper awakening
beyond, the hearts of humanity through an energetic oneness with unity.
as being a full moon gateway to other dimensions. Level of awakening the hearts of...
post, but, for my sanity's sake, I need to let this out.
For the past few days, the what-ifs have been haunting me. I cannot afford to experience another monumental (I am exaggerating here, but that is how it feels like, at least for me) failure.
"When people say it's not...
and dirt. The day's toils had left its pungent mark on him, but she didn't seem to mind somehow as she lay her divine face against his chest, her eyes looking into his. He felt something stir in him, something climbing up from depths he never knew he had. He kissed her forehead...
let people in easily
it's self defence
'cos i've been got hurt a lot and i don't want to repeat the same thing.
It ripped my heart out...all black
Too much for me
No tragedy anymore
If same thing happen to me again,i seriously can't get over it
I can say i understand...
Welcome to my autumnal garden of paradise delightsAt times it can be dark, beauty smoldering joy, amidst riotous flowering moody colors.Soon bright serenity and pristine comfort.Be willing to dirty your hands freeing your mind !Feel the grass wet on bare feet, cool mist pollinate...
as his mother drove through town towards the school. He was imagining how it was going to go this year. More bullying, no doubt. Of course, no one would do anything about it. When he reported it, no one ever so much as raised a finger to do anything to make it stop so he had...
aligned at the downward slope
Shake a little ,wake up better
It is a message of heaven in letters
Thunderstorm was severe
Glad,What could happen in a year?
It wasn't just loss of mind but of soul
Question of existence in mind on roll!
Thinking about life mere like playing fife...
It's time to take a break.I love you, EP, I really do, but you **** me off sometimes.Flagging should be a privilege, not a right, since so many people abuse the hell out of it, either to flag something they disagree (the horror) with or to simply mess with someone that they don't...
skip, catch. That's all there is to it when I twirl the staff. There are a lot of names of the movements of this tool turned weapon; beautiful metaphors for a somewhat sinister purpose.
Skip, catch, skip, catch, the staff whirls like a typhoon in front of me. It warps reality in...
of Banal I spend my days treading the murky waters of Misery Canal Kicking, squirming, water-churning, drowning in the surf of a sickening spell I witness time and the changing of seasons from my dark and dreary well
i'd rather be alone than lonely in company.
People thinks i'm friendly.
And i am funny,interesting.
But i'm not the person as they think.
Everytime someone say ''you're nice..''
This makes me almost crying....
My heart ache.
I don't even know what's there if i could close...
Need something new in my life.
I need something to blow my mind.
Why do I have to know everything?
Wasn't life more fun when I didnt?
Will life ever be that fun again?
Well first I would need to forget what judgements I was taught. Right?
Why's it so hard to ditch this?
fragments. We instinctively and unwillingly hold onto the broken bonds we once forged so long ago. The memories stay aflame despite the efforts of time and space to douse them, and in doing so remind us of what it's like to be burned.
My mother had a double mastectomy yesterday...
for you. I promise you're gonna miss me being there, putting up on you, refusing to give up on you. You're gonna regret everything that you've done to me including all the damage you've caused. And someday you'll turn back and i wont be waiting for you any longer. I might have...
and control yourself.” David said quietly as he opened the door slightly and looked out. No one seemed to have noticed the outcry and he closed the door slowly.
“As you know, my name is David Sterling. I am not normally a councilor but I do have a job that I am working even...
face of god is not gone
in the flowers smiles
aqua black drop sky
pure transcendent sun
ascends to astonish
the angels in heaven
who keep the light
of their loved ones
enshrined in angelic voices
one is so rich and full
so many inner worlds
outer world is joy...
A butterfly sees the beauty of the world,
sees the ocean,sees the mountains,
sees changes,the nature n more beyond walls.
She hears of a sweet melody,
happy or sad,
music from ppl's hearts,
music when the city dream n dance.
She feels the peace,the courage when ppl...
The words "i love you" are priceless, unpredictable like rolling dices/ here we are taking chances, making sacrifices / suffices and keeping one another in sight, our hands of cards dealt is right to play for any fight, in hope of getting that much needed balance that is tight...
Held against my chest
The gun is yours
The bullets are providedDeadly at their touch
This is my everything
My trust in you
You possess the knowledgeYou know every fear
Don't pull the trigger
I beg of you
Don't lose your coolStay close to me
Hold on, don't hesitate
outside my work, and I happily took one. Of course, it was actually for a promotion for this wine that company sold in a blue bottle, but what about Valentine's Day isn't commercial? I still appreciated the damn flower.Carrying it from work to my friends' place, and then from...
for me, that she called my name from a far away place. So i set out to find her. I searched every forest but she was not there. I explored every mountain but she was not there. I traversed every desert but still, she was nowhere to be found. Finally, after i had traveled all the...
tighter against the light fog as she let herself out of the kitchen door of the boarding house.
“Molly!” shouted a voice from in the kitchen.
She paused on the top step and snarled “What?”
“Am I to prepare breakfast this morning?” asked an older woman coming to the...
When angels hold your hands You just can't hit the ground They'll take you high and high And never let you down when angels hold ur hands u know ur not alone but u have someone that shows care, they love u without asking something and they never leave by ur side u call...
I have a tenuous relationship with cameras. While I think photography is an art form and a powerful one at that, I don't think it should be a substitute for experience. I kind of dislike how everyone has a camera to document every trivial part of their lives. Most people are not...
loom and cast long and thick shadows across the sidewalk.
Only on the thoughtfully priced balconies dose the afternoon sun shine
The golden light is a prize for those who can pay for it.
Can you afford the sun?
I've always been hesitant to put up myself as a profile picture here. I've mostly used avatars, whether it be a picture I like, something I felt at the time, or my recent stint of Hobbes-related pictures, I rarely had my face up there. And I never really thought...
for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not, wont. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just...
A couple of days ago, there was some sort of question about if the military draft were back, would they take people who have mental problems. I answered, as is typical, not the question, but what the question made me think about, and that is that I would not fight if there were a...
It's depressing to keep applying to jobs and hearing nothing back. I so badly want to work, to get out of the damn house and do something that means the world to me, but the world isn't letting me, at least not yet. Sometimes I think I should just give up and apply to law school...
i first heard of trolls quite some time ago and i still dont get it. all new people eventually ask what trolls are and its always some vague answer. ive never been privy to the people that seem to know about them. ive never seen one that i know of. i am a bit insecure like...
and a sentence will pop into my head, so I have to pause and hurry to find a pen and paper and these are the kinds of things I come up with, tune and all, in my head:
When she walked on, everyone walked past
No one took a spotting glance at this poor young woman with an...
Nothing can sometimes be something.
But does it matter? Will you be snuffed out like a quivering ember in the ashes of society... Or will you ignite and spark the flames of your life and warm the inner sanctum of your soul?
Take flight you poor soul, warp the dark and the...
Heck, I don't even know completely what this is that I'm feeling
I doubt words would ever be enough to express it anyways
But if I try if I try really hard to jot it down so much comes to my mind
there are some words that was unforgettable for me
You can't take it back
you are such a jerrrrrk
i shouldn't let you in in the first place.
You are a robber...
But i won't sell my soul
keep lying to yourself
keep lying to ladies
i don't care
heavy waves of gray, defiant to its last breath. I compare its progress to the formation of debris fields, Saturn’s rings, the Kuiper belt. Smaller scale, the same physical principles in play. Force of momentum and attraction, mass and density, light and a path of longitudinal...
gold leaves shiver
through cracks of time
rays of sun flicker
through the crying sky
in my ballroom dress
clouds above leaps through the sky
gold leaves dangle blow in the wind
why must we be jealous
think more deeply
I.There once was a beautiful field,A lush verdant paradiseHidden far away, concealedFrom the world's darkness and vice.Every spring after winter had thawedThe children would trickle out in ones and twosAnd play by the lakeside with their fishing rodsAnd footballs, with no need...
gently kisses my lips
the taste of sunshine in my mouth
bright vibrant colors shine from the heaven
a spectrum out of skys
our eyes glow with wonder
as hands touch my thighs
Love comes with power
beating hearts entwine
an out of body experience
when we kiss the sky...
and cold on the top of the hill. The boy looked up at the scudding, dark clouds racing across the sky. At the bottom of the hill a group of men had just cornered a giant and were teasing him, rushing in on their horses to jab at him with their spears and then dancing back out of...
It has been a long journey dealing with the passing of my Mom. This,Thanksgiving is the anniversary of living my life minus a Mother.The seasons of life and how they are played out. The time is like yesterday no matter how long any loss is. When I first started out this journey...
share with you this morning, but i cannot seem to find them. They usually come to me like droplets of water falling from the grey skies on a rainy day. They usually wait to be herded onto the paper before me like grazing cattle on an open field. They usually yearn to be read...