and self indulgent, but I feel like I need to write.
Today, everything didn't quite "work" in my head. I feel like I'm being pulled in a million different directions, my head spins and time stretches inexorably. I could bash out a million sad poems, or howl at the moon in...
A butterfly sees the beauty of the world,
sees the ocean,sees the mountains,
sees changes,the nature n more beyond walls.
She hears of a sweet melody,
happy or sad,
music from ppl's hearts,
music when the city dream n dance.
She feels the peace,the courage when ppl...
It has been a long journey dealing with the passing of my Mom. This,Thanksgiving is the anniversary of living my life minus a Mother.The seasons of life and how they are played out. The time is like yesterday no matter how long any loss is. When I first started out this journey...
just a sun peak volcano in the distant sky, as if seeing a "great force of endless energies" a deeper awakening
beyond, the hearts of humanity through an energetic oneness with unity.
as being a full moon gateway to other dimensions. Level of awakening the hearts of...
gold leaves shiver
through cracks of time
rays of sun flicker
through the crying sky
in my ballroom dress
clouds above leaps through the sky
gold leaves dangle blow in the wind
why must we be jealous
think more deeply
They arrived at the club at 11: Ian, Émile, Kevin, and Troy.
The music was already loud, and they hadn't even gotten through to the entrance yet. The long line streamed out of the front door, filled with bigger, better looking guys than Ian. He hadn't even wanted to come out in...
It's depressing to keep applying to jobs and hearing nothing back. I so badly want to work, to get out of the damn house and do something that means the world to me, but the world isn't letting me, at least not yet. Sometimes I think I should just give up and apply to law school...
close my eyes
I see your smile
When I fall asleep
I dream of your lips
While you live out there
I have you with me
What I have with me
It's just a mirage
I'm feeding my heart
With the crumbs of your love.
ears and the piece you're hearing
in a space much larger
and you wonder if the man
lying next to you
can hear the acoustic guitar bouncing off our bedroom ceiling
so you look over
and see him curled
and you sadly know
you haven't bothered him
I haven't felt exactly myself these past few days. Sad, easily annoyed, even angry. And I never get angry. But these things happen. Emotions build up over a long period of time until they finally start dribbling out. I distract myself and cordon myself off from the world...
Eyes closed,deep wounds that noone feels,
bleeding since birth,
she lives for everyone n noone.
She sleeps in the cemetery,by her angel which is one with her,
-her suffering feels.
She remembers what she has built but shes
always bound to him.
Her soul was connected...
I'm not sure if it's because fall is at our door step, or something else, but the air has an odd fervor to it today. Autumn is a time for letting go; a time for dying and giving up, but that's not what's happening. Though the air is light and crisp, the eyes around me are heavy...
heavy waves of gray, defiant to its last breath. Compare its progress to the formation of debris fields, Saturn's rings, the Kuiper belt. Smaller scale, the same physical principles in play. Force of momentum and attraction, mass and density, light and a path of longitudinal...
Where did the time go?
It's been about four and a half years since I was last in a relationship. That was all the way back in my freshman year of college, and at that point, I feel I was headed in a mostly good direction. I liked the girl I was with, I was...
public speakers, conversationalists, writers, not patient enough, not good with math or money and so on. I believe that getting good at anything is simply a matter of practice. Say you're not the best at public speaking... so were the best public speakers at some point...
It's time to take a break.I love you, EP, I really do, but you **** me off sometimes.Flagging should be a privilege, not a right, since so many people abuse the hell out of it, either to flag something they disagree (the horror) with or to simply mess with someone that they don't...
aligned at the downward slope
Shake a little ,wake up better
It is a message of heaven in letters
Thunderstorm was severe
Glad,What could happen in a year?
It wasn't just loss of mind but of soul
Question of existence in mind on roll!
Thinking about life mere like playing fife...
but I'm not sure what. I sit here alone in the darkness of my apartment and my hands dance across the keys, writing and deleting. I don't have much to say tonight, but I have a fire within me to write it out. What I'm writing out, I'm not sure. Perhaps my emotions that have...
I guess. Haven't gone on a date in about 2 months (and the last 5 months before that), but snagged a potential date with someone on the usual dating app. She seems nice and pretty outgoing, and I seem to have more chemistry with outgoing people rather than, well, people like me...
Welcome to my autumnal garden of paradise delightsAt times it can be dark, beauty smoldering joy, amidst riotous flowering moody colors.Soon bright serenity and pristine comfort.Be willing to dirty your hands freeing your mind !Feel the grass wet on bare feet, cool mist pollinate...
if you start it with bad news
A co worker fell onto the subway tracks on Friday night
He will live
But he lost both legs in the accident
Did somebody push him?
Why he couldn't pull himself to safety?
Maybe he was drunk or sick
I don't know for sure
I can't believe...
and dirt. The day's toils had left its pungent mark on him, but she didn't seem to mind somehow as she lay her divine face against his chest, her eyes looking into his. He felt something stir in him, something climbing up from depths he never knew he had. He kissed her forehead...
I have a tenuous relationship with cameras. While I think photography is an art form and a powerful one at that, I don't think it should be a substitute for experience. I kind of dislike how everyone has a camera to document every trivial part of their lives. Most people are not...
I haven’t been doing much lately except stress myself out applying to jobs. It’s left me feeling a bit empty. I haven’t been writing, haven’t been inspired lately. Basically, this will be the dam bursting, so this will probably be long, gushing, rambling, and...
I've always been hesitant to put up myself as a profile picture here. I've mostly used avatars, whether it be a picture I like, something I felt at the time, or my recent stint of Hobbes-related pictures, I rarely had my face up there. And I never really thought...
even though people kept telling me I'm still young, I still have time, even probably now, they'll tell me that 25 isn't that old, that I just have to be patient, but deep down, if I was honest with myself, I've always known. Some days, I'm okay with it, some days, bitter...
His skin is all honey and summer sun against the winter chill of mine. His chestnut hair is warm and soft, tousled like a child. I wish he'd open his eyes though. I like his eyes. They're warm too, like sunlight through whiskey and a touch of cigar smoke. He's honest, tame by my...
for you. I promise you're gonna miss me being there, putting up on you, refusing to give up on you. You're gonna regret everything that you've done to me including all the damage you've caused. And someday you'll turn back and i wont be waiting for you any longer. I might have...
post, but, for my sanity's sake, I need to let this out.
For the past few days, the what-ifs have been haunting me. I cannot afford to experience another monumental (I am exaggerating here, but that is how it feels like, at least for me) failure.
"When people say it's not...
let people in easily
it's self defence
'cos i've been got hurt a lot and i don't want to repeat the same thing.
It ripped my heart out...all black
Too much for me
No tragedy anymore
If same thing happen to me again,i seriously can't get over it
I can say i understand...
I woke up this morning broken. I know why but I just wasn't expecting it. I'm shocked but not surprised.
So now I would usually say something like 'I know how to fix this and I probably will' and that'll be the end of it. This time is different though.
I suppose I could say...
. So don't expect it to make any sense) (also I think I edited it too much (and maybe not enough))
Take the door to the right
She looked and there were 5
She didn't know where to go so she cried..
She just sat and cried..
Advise me where to put this punctuation..
either with us or against us" mentality that some feminists have? It's almost like they don't like people questioning their belief system. It's like there's something sacred about it. I get the sense that if I were to question it, I would easily be labeled a misogynist. It's...
i wouldnt feel anything
id be free like a wind and still get fed
id scratch the ones who touch me and make furious sounds
look at the sun with proud eyes
and move in the dark with no fears
i wish i were a cat !
Who found love in their mothers
And the children they adopted
When their wombs
Had past their date
Not yet another woman
Living in a man's house
Hoping her hands
The sway of her hips
To bring him back from oblivion
(When really she...
I always have. Friends and family, people who have hugged me say that I lack warmth. I am tense a lot of the time. It feels as if I'm fighting half of the time and I feel exhausted around other people, sometimes to the point where I hallucinate. I interpret that as weakness...
why I write without seeking publication or acknowledgement from the people around me. Why it's not a "hobby". Hobbies are things people do that make them happy, or to fill the spare time we have. Writing doesn't make me happy. It's like using a rib spreader on myself every time...