I haven't felt exactly myself these past few days. Sad, easily annoyed, even angry. And I never get angry. But these things happen. Emotions build up over a long period of time until they finally start dribbling out. I distract myself and cordon myself off from the world...
a hopeless case, but when I got to talk to my aunt (my dad's sister) in her final weeks, I couldn't help but feel hopeful l because she was still tough and strong as ever.
Yesterday, she left the living realm and i can't help but feel a sense of relief because she was in so...
It's depressing to keep applying to jobs and hearing nothing back. I so badly want to work, to get out of the damn house and do something that means the world to me, but the world isn't letting me, at least not yet. Sometimes I think I should just give up and apply to law school...
aligned at the downward slope
Shake a little ,wake up better
It is a message of heaven in letters
Thunderstorm was severe
Glad,What could happen in a year?
It wasn't just loss of mind but of soul
Question of existence in mind on roll!
Thinking about life mere like playing fife...
as his mother drove through town towards the school. He was imagining how it was going to go this year. More bullying, no doubt. Of course, no one would do anything about it. When he reported it, no one ever so much as raised a finger to do anything to make it stop so he had...
and cold on the top of the hill. The boy looked up at the scudding, dark clouds racing across the sky. At the bottom of the hill a group of men had just cornered a giant and were teasing him, rushing in on their horses to jab at him with their spears and then dancing back out of...
Where did the time go?
It's been about four and a half years since I was last in a relationship. That was all the way back in my freshman year of college, and at that point, I feel I was headed in a mostly good direction. I liked the girl I was with, I was...
When angels hold your hands You just can't hit the ground They'll take you high and high And never let you down when angels hold ur hands u know ur not alone but u have someone that shows care, they love u without asking something and they never leave by ur side u call...
It has been a long journey dealing with the passing of my Mom. This,Thanksgiving is the anniversary of living my life minus a Mother.The seasons of life and how they are played out. The time is like yesterday no matter how long any loss is. When I first started out this journey...
gently kisses my lips
the taste of sunshine in my mouth
bright vibrant colors shine from the heaven
a spectrum out of skys
our eyes glow with wonder
as hands touch my thighs
Love comes with power
beating hearts entwine
an out of body experience
when we kiss the sky...
The words "i love you" are priceless, unpredictable like rolling dices/ here we are taking chances, making sacrifices / suffices and keeping one another in sight, our hands of cards dealt is right to play for any fight, in hope of getting that much needed balance that is tight...
I've always been hesitant to put up myself as a profile picture here. I've mostly used avatars, whether it be a picture I like, something I felt at the time, or my recent stint of Hobbes-related pictures, I rarely had my face up there. And I never really thought...
Held against my chest
The gun is yours
The bullets are providedDeadly at their touch
This is my everything
My trust in you
You possess the knowledgeYou know every fear
Don't pull the trigger
I beg of you
Don't lose your coolStay close to me
Hold on, don't hesitate
for you. I promise you're gonna miss me being there, putting up on you, refusing to give up on you. You're gonna regret everything that you've done to me including all the damage you've caused. And someday you'll turn back and i wont be waiting for you any longer. I might have...
face of god is not gone
in the flowers smiles
aqua black drop sky
pure transcendent sun
ascends to astonish
the angels in heaven
who keep the light
of their loved ones
enshrined in angelic voices
one is so rich and full
so many inner worlds
outer world is joy...
outside my work, and I happily took one. Of course, it was actually for a promotion for this wine that company sold in a blue bottle, but what about Valentine's Day isn't commercial? I still appreciated the damn flower.Carrying it from work to my friends' place, and then from...
just to make sure there weren't any crazies in there before I sent them off to the authors. But they're mostly from kids anyway, so they're not crazy. Yet. But I read some damn inspiring, heartfelt, and touching things. So many of them were how they hated reading before, but...
Need something new in my life.
I need something to blow my mind.
Why do I have to know everything?
Wasn't life more fun when I didnt?
Will life ever be that fun again?
Well first I would need to forget what judgements I was taught. Right?
Why's it so hard to ditch this?
your laugh.I love your hair, whether down, in a bun, or braided around the sides.I love how you crane your neck to the side when you're looking down at someone's desk.I love how starkly straight-up you sit at your desk; puts my posture to shame.I love your legs. Dear god, your...
i first heard of trolls quite some time ago and i still dont get it. all new people eventually ask what trolls are and its always some vague answer. ive never been privy to the people that seem to know about them. ive never seen one that i know of. i am a bit insecure like...
let people in easily
it's self defence
'cos i've been got hurt a lot and i don't want to repeat the same thing.
It ripped my heart out...all black
Too much for me
No tragedy anymore
If same thing happen to me again,i seriously can't get over it
I can say i understand...
I.There once was a beautiful field,A lush verdant paradiseHidden far away, concealedFrom the world's darkness and vice.Every spring after winter had thawedThe children would trickle out in ones and twosAnd play by the lakeside with their fishing rodsAnd footballs, with no need...
post, but, for my sanity's sake, I need to let this out.
For the past few days, the what-ifs have been haunting me. I cannot afford to experience another monumental (I am exaggerating here, but that is how it feels like, at least for me) failure.
"When people say it's not...
and a sentence will pop into my head, so I have to pause and hurry to find a pen and paper and these are the kinds of things I come up with, tune and all, in my head:
When she walked on, everyone walked past
No one took a spotting glance at this poor young woman with an...
gold leaves shiver
through cracks of time
rays of sun flicker
through the crying sky
in my ballroom dress
clouds above leaps through the sky
gold leaves dangle blow in the wind
why must we be jealous
think more deeply
and control yourself.” David said quietly as he opened the door slightly and looked out. No one seemed to have noticed the outcry and he closed the door slowly.
“As you know, my name is David Sterling. I am not normally a councilor but I do have a job that I am working even...
Really, the best time with anyone. I don't think I've felt that connected that quickly to anyone, and in just 5 hours.Sunday through Wednesday: I'm smiling a lot for no reason, humming, too. I talk more with my coworkers. I am generally a better person.Wednesday night: We get...
and dirt. The day's toils had left its pungent mark on him, but she didn't seem to mind somehow as she lay her divine face against his chest, her eyes looking into his. He felt something stir in him, something climbing up from depths he never knew he had. He kissed her forehead...
It's time to take a break.I love you, EP, I really do, but you **** me off sometimes.Flagging should be a privilege, not a right, since so many people abuse the hell out of it, either to flag something they disagree (the horror) with or to simply mess with someone that they don't...
i wouldnt feel anything
id be free like a wind and still get fed
id scratch the ones who touch me and make furious sounds
look at the sun with proud eyes
and move in the dark with no fears
i wish i were a cat !
sky over Waterloo, Iowa. It was unseasonably warm for the first week of September, though no one was complaining. The alarm clock setting on the bedside table of Josh Newton was buzzing insistently, doing its best to wake the sleeping boy.
Josh reached over and shut his alarm...
just a sun peak volcano in the distant sky, as if seeing a "great force of endless energies" a deeper awakening
beyond, the hearts of humanity through an energetic oneness with unity.
as being a full moon gateway to other dimensions. Level of awakening the hearts of...
A butterfly sees the beauty of the world,
sees the ocean,sees the mountains,
sees changes,the nature n more beyond walls.
She hears of a sweet melody,
happy or sad,
music from ppl's hearts,
music when the city dream n dance.
She feels the peace,the courage when ppl...
loom and cast long and thick shadows across the sidewalk.
Only on the thoughtfully priced balconies dose the afternoon sun shine
The golden light is a prize for those who can pay for it.
Can you afford the sun?
for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not, wont. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just...
I have a tenuous relationship with cameras. While I think photography is an art form and a powerful one at that, I don't think it should be a substitute for experience. I kind of dislike how everyone has a camera to document every trivial part of their lives. Most people are not...
and there was singing, reminiscing, and Bible passages that were on point and coincidentally proper.
What I have failed to mention in my most recent post was my uncle (my aunt's husband) who has shown unconditional love throughout this challenge.
"In sickness and in health...
Welcome to my autumnal garden of paradise delightsAt times it can be dark, beauty smoldering joy, amidst riotous flowering moody colors.Soon bright serenity and pristine comfort.Be willing to dirty your hands freeing your mind !Feel the grass wet on bare feet, cool mist pollinate...
I haven’t been doing much lately except stress myself out applying to jobs. It’s left me feeling a bit empty. I haven’t been writing, haven’t been inspired lately. Basically, this will be the dam bursting, so this will probably be long, gushing, rambling, and...
for me, that she called my name from a far away place. So i set out to find her. I searched every forest but she was not there. I explored every mountain but she was not there. I traversed every desert but still, she was nowhere to be found. Finally, after i had traveled all the...
......only u will read it......my words to you.....it will haunt u and it will burn ypu for tge rest of your days You *****.......you will ******* hurt and u will feel me deep....u wanted this and u will get what u wanted.....happy...yes....I say **** this...........the sunrise...
heavy waves of gray, defiant to its last breath. I compare its progress to the formation of debris fields, Saturn’s rings, the Kuiper belt. Smaller scale, the same physical principles in play. Force of momentum and attraction, mass and density, light and a path of longitudinal...