It's depressing to keep applying to jobs and hearing nothing back. I so badly want to work, to get out of the damn house and do something that means the world to me, but the world isn't letting me, at least not yet. Sometimes I think I should just give up and apply to law school...
A butterfly sees the beauty of the world,
sees the ocean,sees the mountains,
sees changes,the nature n more beyond walls.
She hears of a sweet melody,
happy or sad,
music from ppl's hearts,
music when the city dream n dance.
She feels the peace,the courage when ppl...
gold leaves shiver
through cracks of time
rays of sun flicker
through the crying sky
in my ballroom dress
clouds above leaps through the sky
gold leaves dangle blow in the wind
why must we be jealous
think more deeply
i wouldnt feel anything
id be free like a wind and still get fed
id scratch the ones who touch me and make furious sounds
look at the sun with proud eyes
and move in the dark with no fears
i wish i were a cat !
for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not, wont. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just...
Need something new in my life.
I need something to blow my mind.
Why do I have to know everything?
Wasn't life more fun when I didnt?
Will life ever be that fun again?
Well first I would need to forget what judgements I was taught. Right?
Why's it so hard to ditch this?
I have a tenuous relationship with cameras. While I think photography is an art form and a powerful one at that, I don't think it should be a substitute for experience. I kind of dislike how everyone has a camera to document every trivial part of their lives. Most people are not...
It's time to take a break.I love you, EP, I really do, but you **** me off sometimes.Flagging should be a privilege, not a right, since so many people abuse the hell out of it, either to flag something they disagree (the horror) with or to simply mess with someone that they don't...
and dirt. The day's toils had left its pungent mark on him, but she didn't seem to mind somehow as she lay her divine face against his chest, her eyes looking into his. He felt something stir in him, something climbing up from depths he never knew he had. He kissed her forehead...
Welcome to my autumnal garden of paradise delightsAt times it can be dark, beauty smoldering joy, amidst riotous flowering moody colors.Soon bright serenity and pristine comfort.Be willing to dirty your hands freeing your mind !Feel the grass wet on bare feet, cool mist pollinate...
post, but, for my sanity's sake, I need to let this out.
For the past few days, the what-ifs have been haunting me. I cannot afford to experience another monumental (I am exaggerating here, but that is how it feels like, at least for me) failure.
"When people say it's not...
and there was singing, reminiscing, and Bible passages that were on point and coincidentally proper.
What I have failed to mention in my most recent post was my uncle (my aunt's husband) who has shown unconditional love throughout this challenge.
"In sickness and in health...
for you. I promise you're gonna miss me being there, putting up on you, refusing to give up on you. You're gonna regret everything that you've done to me including all the damage you've caused. And someday you'll turn back and i wont be waiting for you any longer. I might have...
i first heard of trolls quite some time ago and i still dont get it. all new people eventually ask what trolls are and its always some vague answer. ive never been privy to the people that seem to know about them. ive never seen one that i know of. i am a bit insecure like...
loom and cast long and thick shadows across the sidewalk.
Only on the thoughtfully priced balconies dose the afternoon sun shine
The golden light is a prize for those who can pay for it.
Can you afford the sun?
heavy waves of gray, defiant to its last breath. Compare its progress to the formation of debris fields, Saturn's rings, the Kuiper belt. Smaller scale, the same physical principles in play. Force of momentum and attraction, mass and density, light and a path of longitudinal...
let people in easily
it's self defence
'cos i've been got hurt a lot and i don't want to repeat the same thing.
It ripped my heart out...all black
Too much for me
No tragedy anymore
If same thing happen to me again,i seriously can't get over it
I can say i understand...
state of mind. A laser sharp focus pinpoints problems, an open focus allows you to see things as a whole. Most of life's problems, I think, are spent in the former state of mind, eyes fixated, locked on, seeking solutions to problems.
Where did the time go?
It's been about four and a half years since I was last in a relationship. That was all the way back in my freshman year of college, and at that point, I feel I was headed in a mostly good direction. I liked the girl I was with, I was...
a hopeless case, but when I got to talk to my aunt (my dad's sister) in her final weeks, I couldn't help but feel hopeful l because she was still tough and strong as ever.
Yesterday, she left the living realm and i can't help but feel a sense of relief because she was in so...
Eyes closed,deep wounds that noone feels,
bleeding since birth,
she lives for everyone n noone.
She sleeps in the cemetery,by her angel which is one with her,
-her suffering feels.
She remembers what she has built but shes
always bound to him.
Her soul was connected...
face of god is not gone
in the flowers smiles
aqua black drop sky
pure transcendent sun
ascends to astonish
the angels in heaven
who keep the light
of their loved ones
enshrined in angelic voices
one is so rich and full
so many inner worlds
outer world is joy...
aligned at the downward slope
Shake a little ,wake up better
It is a message of heaven in letters
Thunderstorm was severe
Glad,What could happen in a year?
It wasn't just loss of mind but of soul
Question of existence in mind on roll!
Thinking about life mere like playing fife...
I haven't felt exactly myself these past few days. Sad, easily annoyed, even angry. And I never get angry. But these things happen. Emotions build up over a long period of time until they finally start dribbling out. I distract myself and cordon myself off from the world...
Held against my chest
The gun is yours
The bullets are providedDeadly at their touch
This is my everything
My trust in you
You possess the knowledgeYou know every fear
Don't pull the trigger
I beg of you
Don't lose your coolStay close to me
Hold on, don't hesitate
there are some words that was unforgettable for me
You can't take it back
you are such a jerrrrrk
i shouldn't let you in in the first place.
You are a robber...
But i won't sell my soul
keep lying to yourself
keep lying to ladies
i don't care
between limitless riches and power.
For the powers that lay beyond
in the dim light
must have seemed irrelevant
to the sensibilities of man.
Sometimes it cannot be quenched,
for who knows what is noble,
and what is divine?
But not permanently so
Let our spines entwine
Finding the music in the creaking of our bones
Knowing each other well enough
To stray from the formula
Making our song whole and new
Every time we find new notes
And they become part of our duet
that having a high-self esteem and a huge ego were synonymous. The reality, for me, was that I had low self-esteem and a huge ego. All I really see the ego as, is that voice which tells me what I am or am not. If not for the ego, I wouldn't even know what to call myself. At the...
.. Your not good enough... They deserve better and I acknowledge that, I do...
I have no choice the option is really no option at all.... if I did... My warrior is tired of fighting for this life.....There is no choice.....so here I am, continuously stuck battling to keep my head...
``the picture of Dorian gray`` ,dedicated to one of my best friends who reminds me of him
"lord henry is like a devil
only noticing and leaving satire comments
also talking on people s back
always having evil plans to ruin someone and enjoy a laugh after
he would look for...
I haven’t been doing much lately except stress myself out applying to jobs. It’s left me feeling a bit empty. I haven’t been writing, haven’t been inspired lately. Basically, this will be the dam bursting, so this will probably be long, gushing, rambling, and...
A couple of days ago, there was some sort of question about if the military draft were back, would they take people who have mental problems. I answered, as is typical, not the question, but what the question made me think about, and that is that I would not fight if there were a...
to read along the sky,
Readily wrote with beauty captured by a reverent eye,
Without the rays of the sun we would die,
No plants, no oxygen, no food to keep you satisfied,
My spirit moans louder then the belly groans
When I see the lost souls drifting unaware and