Confessions from Virginia Beach

 MY BEST COLLAGE BUDDY WERE AT A DEAD SHOW IN GREENVILLE N.C.1987. WE GOT SEPARATED IN THE THE PARKING LOT. I HAD HIS TICKET AND I WAITED  FOR  HIM.THE MUSIC STARTED FIRST SET THEN THE SECOND SET.I MET THIS SWEET GIRL LOOKING FOR A TICKET.I LOOKED AT HER AND IN WE WENT INSIDE THE SHOW WAS  GREAT NOT THINKING ABOUT MY BUDDY.THE SHOW ENDED THE WHOLE NIGHT WAS GREAT GIRL AND ALL.WHEN I FOUND MY BUDDY HE WAS IRATE AND VERY MAD AT ME.IT WAS LONG 5 HOUR RIDE HOME.I CARRY THIS GUILT  .TO THIS DAY I CANT FORGET WHAT HE SAW AND FELT OUTSIDE THE STADIUM.TO THIS DAY AFTER, ALL THESE YEARS I HOPE MY BROTHER R.W.B.IIIrd HAS FORGIVEN ME.M.S.C. Peace Bro.

I actually somehow believed that I could survive a summer relationship without getting too attached.  After three months of an incredibly intimate relationship, I was so much more emotionally tied up to this guy than I could ever have guessed, and when the predictable end of summer came, I felt like my heart was going to crumble and never really work again.

Two weeks later, I'm not feeling a lot more confident in my ability to get over it.

I thought that Summer Lovin' was reserved for high school sweethearts.

I lost my husband to a terrible accident...he is alive but much different now.  So I am out here in the single world after 17 years of marriage.

I was on line and met a very sweet person, he told me he was separated and that his wife was abusive to him.

Seems he is not separated, and I have fallen in love with him.  I do want a relationship and thought this guy would be someone I could connect with deeply...I am soooo hurt and cry everyday.  I hope that this feeling leaves me soon.  I have the hurt of losing my husband compounded by the hurt of this man not loving me...

I pushed him to tell me, I had to many strings, to many conditions (as we should, we shouldnt date married people)  So he dropped me like a hot potato wont even have a face to face discussion.

This is the saddest point in my life..I feel sooo alone.  I am doing great with my career and love my children dearly..But I feel I will never  be loved again...