Confessions from India

m single, i have friends but i dont have any gf. i find myself very uncomfertable talking with girls. i know it sounds stupid but its true, i dont know if i am ever going to find a girl who will totally understand me!!!!!!!!!!

(& yes you can laugh at me..)

Hii..the hardest truth that i'm not able to digest is that i'm 22 now and i dont hav a girl friend.I had some casual frinedly relationship with girls previously but i cant term dem as girl friends.One incident that is frustrating me is that during my graduation we used to hav a girl in my class.She looks really good.The only guy she talks to in the college is me.As i was the only guy who speak to her i felt really proud of that.I nt tryng to be pompous bt even i look good.I seriously confess i was in love and i beleived even she loves me.

But nw she's currently working and nw she's talking freely with other guys also in the work.She's nt calling me.Serioulsy i feeling jealous of the whole situation.

Nw the desperate solution that i found is to look to find girl friends.

So i'm in look for some good girls who maintain a casual relationship wid me.

An IT fresher, always overestimated (I guess) by teachers, friends, relatives. I was supposed to be working in a top Company, intelligent with impressive attitude. But, I am unemployed. I dont want to start my career from small companies as I have got lots of expectations from myself, and its recession there's no openings in top MNC's.. I started "googling", how to get jobs in top MNCs, and finally came across few brokers who say can place me to my dream company. I know this is not the right way to get the job, but instead of joinin a small company and leting myself and everyone around me down , I can rather chose the secondary option. After all how you start your career plays a vital role in building your career. Wish me luck. And forgive me if I succeed to get myself placed in top MNC and forgive me for the lies that I will be sharin with my frends. I need the job by hook or crook.

iam a good man in the past days but for the past few days iam doing mistakes. i know that iam doing mistakes still i doo the same. i want to confess myself and to be good in my future like the past. i will be a good man. 

i just finished my engineering exams.i lost 3 papers...i told my parents that i lost 2 papers...i havent ever lied to my parents before...at first i thought maybe 2 papers may not make them feel angry and later as per the situation i will tell them the truth.i was wrong they were really mad at me for losing two papers.i dont have the courage to tell them i lost in 3 papers.i love them i dont wanna see them hurt...

I keep on wondering about whats happenin around and then comes a time when I say him that I desire to be single again.... and he looks at me and says is this what you want me to give u.... I go quite...he just sayz take your time and decide what u want from life....its almost 3 days that all I am doing is feeling lonely and hopeless ...I am missing his voice, missing his possessiveness...missing his anger...missing his care....just want to be felt loved and by noone else but him...I was wondering all day long though what would he be going through like....WILL HE BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND ME what am I going through...its just a phase in my life before taking the big decision of getting married and living my whole life with him... I am just trying to mentally be strong to face every drastic change in my coming life...

Its all about love love and love...and I am blessed to be loved but then, deep within me is a desire to be single again....I wonder and panic at times whats wrong with me but still strugling hard to figure it out !!!!