Confessions from Nevada (NV)

          I'm a  20 yr old single mom with two girls who moved in with my grandma who is 53 years old & my 11 yr old sister who my grandma has custody of. She was thrilled for us all to live together. My grandma started going out & wouldn't come home till 3am or the crack of dawn. I didn't care what she was doing. I wanted to know why she wasn't spending more time with my sister if she wanted custody of her? So we got into a big argument & never solved the situation.

          My grandma started bringing this guy named Marcos who she use to date a while back who use to do crack & meth with my babies dad(who isn't in the picture)& my mom. I never liked the guy so I never said hi. He started coming around more until he finally moved in.

          After Marcos moved in, my grandma started changing for the worse. She would talk behind my back & tell my mom that she was tired of me & my kids & she wanted us to move out. I knew she wanted us out cause of Marcos.

          One day my grandma was at work & I tried calling her. She always picks up her phone even if she's at work. So since she didn't pick up I text her if she wants me out, she & Marcos are gonna have to wait. I also told her to tell Marcos to leave the toilet seat down cause he always leaves it up which is rude & disgusting, but she never told him cause he still does it.

          A week ago, Marcos put up a naked picture of a woman where my 4 yr old & 6 yr old girls can see it. I love art, but in my opinion you shouldn't expose that kind of stuff to kids till they're a certain age. I wanted to take the picture down, but I knew Marcos would get mad. Today he purposely shut off the bathroom, hallway, & kitchen lights. The power box is in my grandma's & Marco's bedroom.

          My grandma doesn't talk to my sister cause she lives with my mom now. My grandma told my sister if she doesn't live with her she doesn't wanna talk to my sister anymore. I brought her over one time & my grandma was sitting in the living room watching tv. We sat in the dining room & got on the computer & my grandma never said hi to my sister which I think is messed up.

          I did a horrible thing by getting access to my grandma's bank account & I'm so close of donating her money to charity. I'm moving out with my fiance. I hate it here. When I move out I'm going to tell my grandma she is never allowed to see my girls, my sister, or me or I will put a restraining order on her & Marcos

          So now she wants us out and I thinks its because of her druggy boyfriend. I think he still does drugs. I think my grandma is evil. I want revenge. I wanna do something bad, but I don't know.

Forgive me dear father, i have sinned so many times. i have said such hurtful things to and about my husband. I married someone that i don't love but don't want to loose. I hit him so many times.Forgive me for judging his financial situation and his past. Forgive me for taking part in destroying this marriage.

all of my friends always ask,"what is your secret" none of them ever get it right. see i do something really nasty when i am alone. i 'bate. i don't know why i do. it just feels good. please dont judge me/