Confessions from Oregon (OR)

This has probably been posted a million times before. I think I'm falling for my best guy friend, but it the chances of it happening are nil. But If we can't have chemistry, then we can have physics; he helped me with my homework today. 

Okay, please don't laugh, i tried posting this to one person but i really don't think it came out, i don't know but i really need someone to tell me everything is going to be fine and to give some sensible words of advice becuase i am really freaking out.

A month or two ago, maybe even last week i am not even sure anymore for my fear but one of our cats died a painfull death and i am getting clues from everyones reaction of however different i'm acting about the other cats, paranoid fearfull protection and lately i have not had sensible thoughts. I have not told anyone but because i fear to confide in case i upset them, i am falling down a deep dark pit of misery and i see sharp rocks ahead.

My dreams have always been frightening, including demons and violent ghosts, gigantic spiders, my mom is some sort of possesed murderous frenzy to stab me and rip me to shreds, evil wolves stalking me, and this time it went to far that i near collapsed in tears by my bed. My dreams are so bad, you can laugh and call me a child but the only way i don't go in deep depression from one of my dreams is to go to my mom and lay with her for a while, i'm 18 and i'm terrified that my whole family is doomed to be miserable for all our lives, i fear terrible things to happen, things that could easily happen in this bad neighborhood, i could lose them. I have dreamed all the rest of the cats have dyed one by one and for some strange reason i see huge spiders all over the place in my minds eye.

Please don't laugh at me, if you care at all just don't comment at all if that's what you're going to do, i have been picked on enough to last me a life time. If even one person can find it in their hearts and give me some words of advice, as little as it may be it would still mean the world to me. Please help, i'll even pay it forward!

i can't even say "perro" correctly. Damn! I know how to roll my r's in Spanish, but it still comes out wrong.

I am seriously trying to learn spanish. not just because i might (?) have a 2nd b-friend who is from mexico, but i know it will be useful as a social worker. all these verbs and special rules for them! very frustrating. I always had respect for people trying to learn English, but MAN it it is a bear trying to learn a second language in your 30's.

OK .. so I have been divorced for a year.  I just found out that he had an affair with my sister for a "year or two" while we were married.  I am going on a family reunion cruise in two weeks and she will be there.  She lives in the next town from me.  I know if I confront her she will deny everything and say that he is a lier.. Help me take the high road on this one please!!!! 

My life should be on a Jerry Springer Show..

I was drinking beer, hiking around in the woods when I found a geocache. It was in a sealed tupperware box, with little trinkets in there, including a little notebook. I was drunk and had to crap pretty bad, so I did it in the geocache, sealed it back up, put it back, and laughed my *** off all the way back. I'm sorry for the family of geocachers who found it.

I got married about 4 months ago, and I'm realizing more and more that I'm not in love with my wife.  I love her as a person, but I'm not IN love with her.  I'm actually in love with somebody else who doesn't know I'm in love with them, and I can't say anything b/c everyone knows I'm married and it would make me look like a horrendous creep.  So I'm stuck.

Please offer me some advice on what I should do, b/c I don't know. Thank you.