Confessions from South Carolina (SC)

I just found about something in the past,it took me a long time to learn how to forgive.But this is defferent.There are three people in this one is already dead,I wish he wasnt.If it is the truth.I want to break there back or ther neck with my bare handes I can see me doing it.There is one right or wrong either someone is lying,I wil brek that neck.I will never no the truth about it. so I will just have to stand down.The past is the past it still hurt .I guess I will have to be a man and let it ride..I would still like to feel some bones cracking against my bones.Thats not me.I could do it but.God tells me not to.Dam its hard to be good Pain is life. 

Finally spoke my mind and it did not feel so good. Maybe I was too mean?

I am single and have been for five years now. I loved my husband very much. He cheated and caused our relationship to end. he was a real bastard for that.I did everything I could to make him happy. I still miss him, I miss him holding me, loving me, and us being a family. It was the happiest I had ever been I guess that is why i am still the saddest I have ever been.I realized just recently I loved who he pretended to be...not who he really is. I loved the man he tried to be but couldn't because he was not man enough. He was not man enough to be a step father to my kids and a husband to me let alone a father to his own child. I guess that is what I get for falling so hard so fast.I love you for who you tried to be and who you were for a while but I hate tyou for who you are and what you have done to me and the kids...all three of them and I love your child still and I miss her.