6 years and cheating on me.
I have a boyfriend for almost 6 years and we’re on the stage of planning to get married next year. But I caught him flirting with his friend (YM CHAT). I read all the messages that he misses her and hope to see her soon. And I think something happened between them (according to the messages) I confronted him but he told me nothing happened b/w them. I was very hurt. I have tried to break up with him but he cries and begs me not to leave him. He asked me for a chance and forgivenes and even I, can’t bring myself to break up with him. He’s my life. But I don’t know how I can trust him after all, Im so paranoid what if he do it again. Even we're ok, I still can't sleep, I feel unsecured.
I know I don't deserve it, but I feel tortured. but I also can't imagined myself without him. How can I forgive him? Do I need to hold on him..