So, today and tomorrow I have two graduation parties I said I'd go to. I feel really stressed because I want to back out of them just like I've done for all the other grad parties I said I'd go to, but then again I also want to actually show up and see people for like the first time since Summer started. I feel like I'm letting everyone down, even myself, because when I don't go I lied but if I do go then I'm just a huge bummer.
"but then again I also want to actually show up"...<br />
And this proves you truly want to go. Just plan an "out" so you can split whenever you feel like you need to.