I am exstatic with myself. I'm exercising, I'm a real help to my family, and the internet is providing me with a continual stream of new wonderfulness.

Plus, I've had some very good mediations, but feeling good about sitting down to concentrate on feeling good just seems silly.

no

no i am not happy with my life my life is boring and lonely

Most of the time, yes.

Am I happy with myself? My answer? Not particularly.

I spend the day doing small things, drinking my morning cup of coffee, going to the library, then coming home and listening to music; afterwards going for a walk, shopping for dinner, cooking my evening meal. In between all this activity, when I have a quiet moment (as if all my moments were not quiet!), I look over my notes. I am daunted by them--the strange handwriting, the bizarre references, the bizarrely-boring notes about my life (if one might call it a life). There are two large notebooks, about two hundred pages, filled with my writing. There is too much of it. Some pruning is in order, I should think. There's enough material here for a hundred blog posts, at least.

It's a relief to have household chores to do. They keep me from thinking, just as thinking keeps me from living. My chores are brainless and tiring, they are just what I need.

I think of myself when I was a little boy coming home in the middle of the day for lunch. I had a very serious face, very pale from the Philadelphia winter and perfectly smooth. I had small beautiful hands and deep brown eyes that were so expressive my mother did all she could to please me. She gave me treats, bought me chocolate at the corner store, and cakes for my after-lunch dessert. She watched television with me, sitting next to me. When I was at school my mother missed me so much that sometimes she went early to meet me, and loitered until I appeared.

"What do you want for lunch?"

"A ham sandwich with Swiss cheese."

It delighted my mother that she could make me happy by being with me and offering me these simple things.

Actually, all this is a lie. My mother all but ignored me, and never picked me up at school. When I started kindergarten, my mother had a neighbor child walk me to school to acquaint me, no doubt, with the cruel reality of life that mother is not always there to offer comfort. I accommodated myself very early to the fact that my mother mostly ignored me, rarely tried to please me, and never offered an empathic observation to soothe my troubled heart.

It's too late to be unhappy with myself, so I'll have to say yes I'm happy with myself.

Well I don't *like* myself, but I've learnt to put up with me...

No. Not at all.

Happy? I don't know. I'm not unhappy with myself. I am working on some things right now to make me a better person. Maybe after I get some of those goals under my belt I will be happier with myself. I guess it's one of those things where you feel like you could always be better than you are.

I am happy with my kids and man. But in myself hell no I am over weight and just lost in life I am ready to be so much more for me and my family I hate the person I see in the mirror.

No, but I'm trying to get there.

i usually am pretty happy with myself, but latley, no.

I am still learning what happiness is and how to apply it like band aids to my mental boo boo's is taking time. "Happiness is an emotion we forget to choose" I like this saying :)

Not really but I am at peace with God, and that is what matters to me. Duana

yeah, but feel like lately a certain someone is trying to pull me down because they dont feel too good about who they are and misery loves company....

How could I be? My husband doesn't think I'm good enough for him! But I'm working on it. "You are the only one who can make you happy".

Yes. I am happy with myself. Iam, and will always be, a wonderful work in progress. Standing still would make me unhappy.

Not entirely.

Yes, I am ...