Can never please my dad?
I love my dad and I have spent so much energy trying to please him, but its like trying to fill up a black hole. I know he wants the best, but he contradicts himself. He will tell me to do what makes me feel accomplished and boost my self esteem, but when I pursue something 99% of the time he has something negative to say about it. I could understand if it was drugs or something really bad, but I'm just doing what can boost my self esteem. I love animals, but a couple years back all I heard "you've outgrown animals, the're childish, no one wants to hear about them, you can't just talk about animals". I was even told that people didn't want to hang out w/me cause I most likely talked about animals. This confused me and made me feel defective cause that is my passion (not crazy cat lady though). I just feel like I'm tearing myself apart trying to please. My dad would say "you can't meet guys if you don't talk to them", when I told him I asked a couple guys to dance he told me I come across as desperate, even though I just wanted to dance.