It is like a swirling tornado of depression, loneliness, anger, terror, disgust, thoughts of blood and cuts and scars and suicide, anxiety, nervousness, and love swirling faster and faster, moving crazily all over the place, faster and faster, left to right, forward and backwards, faster and faster, destroying all in its wake, faster and faster until I don't think I can take it anymore, faster and faster until I think I think my brain is going to explode and leak out of my nose, faster and faster and faster until I think I am going to SNAP!!!!!!!
It would scare and confuse you. I have a mix of random colorful drug trip type elements and dark disturbing elements as well as some happy loving ones.
In my head. There is hope and eternal optimism. Life is like a drumbeat to me, and the music I hear it the heart and soul of mankind. It is rhythm, it is soul.<br />
And you my dear friend, have a lot of soul. =)
Most of it's like a carnival midway, but way, way in the back you'll find a sturdy trunk bound in heavy chains with a formidable lock. Don't ever dare open that.
A million houses. A thousand hamlets. Moon in the pond. Blossom in the sky.
I miss the age when the mountains walked and the oak whispered its tails to a mankind that wore a younger mans clothes. The sun was smaller then, we could block it out with little more than our thumb so of course the world of hurricanes and volcano's, of earthquakes and torrential rain, the world of the buffalo, the lizard, the snake was so much brighter then. A shift occurred, the world got turned inside out. People keep waiting for it to end but it has already come. We are the walking dead. Damn you Copernicus, I'm so sure you thought what you did was right...
Opps I had to edit it, wore not *****, Lol.
That would take way to long and I have to go to work in a few minutes.
I will send you a note.
Tried to send you a reply but was unable to due to your restrictions. Didn't really want to answer it here.
Ok, I'll answer here. It's a whole lot different than what you see on my profile if you have checked it at all.
In my head I'm trying to figure out how to get my life back in order, and more like it was 10 years ago. Mostly due to employment changes in a major way, and obviously not for the better.
One of millions of Americans who were down sized at the peak of my employement, and unable to even closely get back to where I was. That occupies alot of my thinking when I'm not here enjoying myself.
BTW, I did try to mail this but it would not go through. Said it was due to restrictions on your account regarding adult content. I copied and pasted it here so not sure why.
How much more of me do you want me to show (kidding). I still have conversation with some who do not only see the naughty side of me, and realize that I'm not completely about adult content. Kind of like now. But that is part of my personality too, so I don't try to push it on those who only assume from what they see.
Like I said, I don't push that said on someone who doesn't want to see it. I must be doing something right cause I don't think anyones blocked me yet, and I woundn't want you to be the first.
Alive with ideas, always considering what ifs, how to push the limits of such and such. How could so and so be better. It's also a world always trying to figure out the other point of view of things.... so complicated
Quiet and organized and not much happening and my world can be lazy.
I pretty much keep my world in order i can't cope with everything swirling around. I do know what you mean.
It's been hard work,a lot of ups and downs.
I'll do that. Thanks.
Silent waterfall :-D
im holding so many things & feeling inside of me and nobody knows that :P