It is like a swirling tornado of depression, loneliness, anger, terror, disgust, thoughts of blood and cuts and scars and suicide, anxiety, nervousness, and love swirling faster and faster, moving crazily all over the place, faster and faster, left to right, forward and backwards, faster and faster, destroying all in its wake, faster and faster until I don't think I can take it anymore, faster and faster until I think I think my brain is going to explode and leak out of my nose, faster and faster and faster until I think I am going to SNAP!!!!!!!
It would scare and confuse you. I have a mix of random colorful drug trip type elements and dark disturbing elements as well as some happy loving ones.
In my head. There is hope and eternal optimism. Life is like a drumbeat to me, and the music I hear it the heart and soul of mankind. It is rhythm, it is soul.
And you my dear friend, have a lot of soul. =)
hmmm....Well if you're just talking physically, I imagine it's like my brain is a big thunder cloud and the engaging neurons are like lightning firing off and sending cascading patterns of light and waves that circle around in always changing but constantly repeating patterns.
As for the thoughts themselves.... well, imagine talking to a guy whose has hundreds of great ideas about art and he wants to share you with them all the time. Then imagine he has a friend and that guy has just as many ideas but his are about science and he's trying to tell you projects to do and theories to think about. His buddy is a naturalist and hes' also trying to tell you stuff all the time. And he's got a friend and his friend has a friend too. And all of them have great ideas they want to share or have brought forth into the physical world. But there's only one of me and not enough time.
Most of it's like a carnival midway, but way, way in the back you'll find a sturdy trunk bound in heavy chains with a formidable lock. Don't ever dare open that.
A million houses. A thousand hamlets. Moon in the pond. Blossom in the sky.
I miss the age when the mountains walked and the oak whispered its tails to a mankind that wore a younger mans clothes. The sun was smaller then, we could block it out with little more than our thumb so of course the world of hurricanes and volcano's, of earthquakes and torrential rain, the world of the buffalo, the lizard, the snake was so much brighter then. A shift occurred, the world got turned inside out. People keep waiting for it to end but it has already come. We are the walking dead. Damn you Copernicus, I'm so sure you thought what you did was right...
Opps I had to edit it, wore not *****, Lol.
its like a cartoon or tv show depending on my mood inside my head my lil word revolves around me i can be the hero or the villian or the dork or loser or bad *** its always changing go figure
more or less cartoons i see it more like a dream world or day dreaming anything can happen so long as i can imagine it and trust me i have an amazing imagination wouldnt trade it for the world lol
what about you??
The deepest secrets of our hearts can be known through the language of myth. The sky hangs to low now for mankind and the imagination has no boundless realm to wander in as it did in the past. This contributes to the mental illness of the world. Just because thoughts are imaginary doesn't mean they are not real. We can find ourselves in our fantasy. Dreams sing a ancient song that we all dance to, even when we cannot name the tune.
so... is that a good or bad thing i only understood half of that sorry? :/
thats cool interesting ive never experienced something like that sounds like it can be chaotic?
i can understand that sounds like your battling or clashing with yourself i tend to do that too but its not what you would call a different personality i battle with sometimes more like a different side or part of me lol
That would take way to long and I have to go to work in a few minutes.
I will send you a note.
Tried to send you a reply but was unable to due to your restrictions. Didn't really want to answer it here.
Ok, I'll answer here. It's a whole lot different than what you see on my profile if you have checked it at all.
In my head I'm trying to figure out how to get my life back in order, and more like it was 10 years ago. Mostly due to employment changes in a major way, and obviously not for the better.
One of millions of Americans who were down sized at the peak of my employement, and unable to even closely get back to where I was. That occupies alot of my thinking when I'm not here enjoying myself.
BTW, I did try to mail this but it would not go through. Said it was due to restrictions on your account regarding adult content. I copied and pasted it here so not sure why.
How much more of me do you want me to show (kidding). I still have conversation with some who do not only see the naughty side of me, and realize that I'm not completely about adult content. Kind of like now. But that is part of my personality too, so I don't try to push it on those who only assume from what they see.
Like I said, I don't push that said on someone who doesn't want to see it. I must be doing something right cause I don't think anyones blocked me yet, and I woundn't want you to be the first.
Alive with ideas, always considering what ifs, how to push the limits of such and such. How could so and so be better. It's also a world always trying to figure out the other point of view of things.... so complicated
Quiet and organized and not much happening and my world can be lazy.
I pretty much keep my world in order i can't cope with everything swirling around. I do know what you mean.
It's been hard work,a lot of ups and downs.
I'll do that. Thanks.
Silent waterfall :-D
im holding so many things & feeling inside of me and nobody knows that :P