I know how that feels
All the time
It makes no difference to me whether the world is against me, or not. I am in this world, I devote myself to God, my kids, and those people that are worth my time and attention. I am not here to appease or be come something or someone that I'm not. I don't contend that I will ever be looked upon as normal or decent or not deficient; I already know how people view me in this world. It still doesn't matter, or change who I am.
What goes around comes around. Be patient, you're young
some paths are not easy but worth travelling and beneficial to the 'whole' ?
I know exactly how you feel