I know how that feels
Well, I have been exactly where you are and I have discovered that help doesn't usually come in the conventional ways. You might not get someone to listen to you and you're so busy being upset that there isn't someone to listen, you miss something small, that could've made you feel better. Like the weather changing to sunny in the middle of a cold winter, or it starting to rain in a dry, hot summer. Well, the good things aren't always to do with weather, but it's the only examples I could think of right now. Just don't be bothered by it. Do what makes you happy. Even if it's making other people happy.
All the time
It makes no difference to me whether the world is against me, or not. I am in this world, I devote myself to God, my kids, and those people that are worth my time and attention. I am not here to appease or be come something or someone that I'm not. I don't contend that I will ever be looked upon as normal or decent or not deficient; I already know how people view me in this world. It still doesn't matter, or change who I am.
What goes around comes around. Be patient, you're young
some paths are not easy but worth travelling and beneficial to the 'whole' ?
I know exactly how you feel