it is different for everybody ,but its now part of yours,let it go dont beat yourself up over (pardon the pun)................hang tough you can do it ........xx
It's a part of recovery. Don't beat yourself up. Just start over again. the worst thing you can do when you relapse is to be too hard on yourself. You messed up, Big deal, you can still do it!!
It's a test to pass. It is not a just a setback but an opportunity to put what you have learned of recovery into action.