every morning after a HAAAAARD drinking
not for a long time, maybe not ever - my pain/fear/anger/hate found different ex<x>pressions
No. That would be giving up and I got an allergic reaction to giving up.
Unfortunately, yes. During some dark days in my past, on a suicide attempt, I woke up in a hospital room, alone with rectangular stickers all over me (where they had been monitoring my heart. I was in tears because it did not work. <br />
I am so very happy that did not work! I was on some whacked out meds, that continued to make me wish i was dead. I am so happy I am alive today. With all of life's problems, I'm still glad I'm here.