Everyone experiences this unfortunately some more than others. Although I help people. Everyday recover from this mindset that they don't impact anyone, are alone, or unnessassary I suffer from my own demons in my personal life. All I can say is you are not alone, despair and loneliness are not always real even when it feels real, look for support try to find others who understand how you perceive the world and that will support you as you learn how to cope with your unfulfilled needs
I posted that not to long ago. I think they would miss me when they need something!
I know it sometimes feels that way but it isn't true people aware missed for their laugh, smile , a look, their ability to provide guidance. When we loose someone we dwell on the ddetials that mattered and often blame ourselves for not acknowledging them when the person was with us. Don't let the things that don't really matter affect how you think they feel about you because they need you for all the little things they don't acknowledge...
It would be nice to know before you die.
I think people honestly don't mean to overlook others in their lives. Unfortantlypeple are so busy trying to keep it together, get things done, and miserable themselves that they become to focused on what they need. People like us who experience moods of depression and thoughts of self harm are more sensitive and aware than others it is both our curse and our strength have you ever considered working with a therapist or counselor? It helps... I go to one for my depression but I am also a counselor... And I can understand it is scary but openly talk to your family tell them how you feel and what you need... Please they need you more than you may realize... And you would be missed. Don't let your thoughts and emotions control you take them back and confront them ask your family directly if they would miss you? Prove to yourself that those thoughts are wrong...
There are times I have felt like that, deep in despair and do sometimes think of creative ways out. Hope you realize those are just thoughts though and people truly do care
I feel that way every day. No spouse, no kids, no friends.
You are. I meant like who visits. : )
Yes i do :/
I let peoples actions affect my mood too much
Especially when i care too much.
I once considered faking my death so that my partner at the time could collect on my life insurance and just disappear into a new life. She had gotten so focused on money, that I felt that my only value to her was my earning potential and that she would actually rather have the cash up front.
My daughters had just left home to being their own lives, but I knew I could not and would not and should not subject them to the illusion of losing their father (even for a brief period) or to the fact of having to maintain the fiction of my death...
It was a bad idea anyway... instead I just chewed my leg off (financially) to get out, leaving her with (as we are wont to do) the (very) big end of our joint assets.
I've never imagined my children would not miss me. I doubt that is ever truly the case, no matter how much they may take you for granted!