It depends on which gray area you're thinking of. So if white means that I never think of killing you, and black means I pick up a gun and kill you, where is the gray area exactly? I think of killing you, but I say nothing? I think of killing you and I tell you? [OK, right there, I think you already have grounds to report me to the police!] I think of killing you, tell you so, and pick up a gun? [CALL THE POLICE NOW!]
So you see, gray areas are tricky.
I'm confused and gray but I'm also an owl exterminator
Not with horse shoes or hand grenades.
In what context?
All this ego stuff is meaningless. Absolute Truth is constant and changeless. The world that we perceive is an illusion and the Truth and your real Self is somewhere else with the Universal Mind/Creator/God/Source and whatever you do here doesn't matter a jot in reality. Do whatever makes you feel good but remember that as we are really all One, if you hurt your brother, you are really hurting yourself. Likewise, if you give unconditional love to all your brothers (I don't mean sex), you will find love coming to you.
I'm pleased. Love and light to you.