Eehhh Wow! Exactly my story, bang on :P I'm starting risperdal for the first time tomorrow... im very nervous about it. Maybe we could talk? Very close stories we have.
My ex took it for a few years. It did make him put on weight a bit. Also we both decided it was making him feel too 'numb'. He had trouble being happy as well as sad, like everything was just numbed down.
I had a positive experience with it but it causes weight gain docs may not want to put you on it if they feel it may cause a health concern