Screw that! I alienated them for a fugging reason! Because they were a bunch of selfish ******* who honestly didn't give a crapola whether I lived or died. They can choke on the ashes from the burnt bridges. <br />
Anybody asks about my people, I give a straight up answer and have yet to be told I was wrong. And before you question, I'm quite fair in my side of the story, I've never had a problem owning up to my shortcomings. It's others not owning up to theirs that drive me away. *shaka*
I went thru a very rough time after my son got brain damage and I alienated everyone- I tried to appologize but nothing was ever the same- they all shun me now, you can't go back to the way things were even if people say it's ok and they understand they still hold it against you. : (
I did to a few. Pretty much I just faded away from everyone for about almost 3ish years. I tried once or twice in those years to talk but I just didn't want to. I didn't want to talk to anyone. Anyways I didn't care to fix the damage I had done with any of them, since they were "great" friends/family but they used to be good friends/family of mine. I was just different from them is all. Maybe once in a blue moon we will talk. Sad to say I know. So far those years were the darkest of days for me. It's funny how you can fall of the face of the earth and no one really cares where you went. Doesn't even search for you. Lol yet your "cared" about or so they say. I still have mixed feelings about that period of life.
I do all the time, now they just say forget about it.
Not thinking about them as much as they think about me. It not true, I have just live far away from them. Talking is not always my thing.
I think, I did not make myself clear to you, My loved ones are great and they like me just the way I am. That took some time. Am older than fifty. I can stile learn a trick or two. I know now that I am in the hearts of some and on the mind of others. I wish I knew more but what would life. As it is, if not for learning to forgive myself for juging what I do not understand. Have fun, best wishes