Have you ever had a moment in your life when you were just glad that you were alive? What made you feel like that?
When I became schizophrenic I had that feeling that I was just glad that I was alive, because I felt like I had a chance to be on Gods side, dispite me hearing voices of the enemy. I really didn't feel ready to die and go to what I thought was hell, I'm glad that I hung in there because after years of working out my salvation I found more peace and discovered that I could in fact have a very fulfilling life in Christ. And now I even have a heavenly hope.