Hey, i'm right now quiting smoking cold turkey on 4th day, thing is i really want to smoke because i love it?
I mean honestly, i experience anxiety and i dont have any anxiety when i quit smoking cigarettes, i think cigarettes has ****** up my brain when i was younger or something, but i feel so fcking good without cigarettes, however i also want to smoke cause thats my drug, i am addicted and just need to stop all this blood flow because all of this oxygen in my body is making me crazy when i can breath this deep, and not GAIN any high or relaxed state of mind, i kind of describe it like this (my consciousness leaving my body) and when i stop smoking i get so conscious and i cant control it :D im so present that i dont like it
its the first time i have held it for so long, and i can feel some changes (my running nose, my airway in my throat, i can sing in more tones lol, my body constantly feeling like its repairing, can feel my flesh, and feel very dizzy from time to time. :(
I dont even know what im doing..
I'm using smoking to be less present i think? as an anti-biotic?