The stress is and was awful. I am late 50s and just starting estrogen therapy. No labels ever seemed to fit. There are many like you...us. my stress was eased a little by shopping for clothes but I needed more. I am in a traditionally female career and I found no true relief until I came out to other women and sought medical intervention. I will never be a beautiful woman but neither will I be an old man. I am on a better path.
i just dont have the need to have a "sex change". have become comfortable as a cd/tv and i share with some, but dont embarrass others with it.