How do you get over missing what you consider an essential life experience?
My father's death when I was 15 set the stage for the rest of my teenage years. I'm 20 now, if you're wondering. My mom and sister turned into depressed zombies, and my mom's job was so demanding that she wasn't available for much else. I almost felt like an orphan. My Asperger's set me back socially so that I wasn't able to create or maintain relationships very well, so I was pretty alone in the world. I have no warm teenage memories like other people's. Sleepovers, hanging out at the mall, prom, high school graduation. None of that. And yes, I dropped out because my overpowering depression made attending school futile. All of this haunts me every day. And now I'm (technically) an adult. I'm expected to have risen above the childish desires for classic teenage fun and gotten serious. I feel hopelessly ruined.