Then he doesn't love you. And he doesn't deserve you.
In the movie "gardens of stone" James Caan had a great line when someone asked him why he was insisting on going back to Vietnam as a platoon Sargent when he was intellectually opposed to the war... His answer is pretty applicable here.. He compared it to running into a burning building to try to save your children from the fire, knowing you couldn't save them all.. His answer was " you do what you can, then cry about it later"<br />
I think in this situation, you do what you know you have to do... Then cry about it later... Ultimately, life goes on. You'll find someone you love, who loves you back the way you want to be loved.
You will find that they do not mean as much to you as you thought they did.
I can have any1 I want. So, I can't answer your question, sorry =/