I'm constantly depressed and I don't know how to get out of it.. It's really bad and I'm sick and tired of always being so sad.. I just can't seem to let go of my past and I try to fight my suicidal thoughts as best as I can but I don't want to be like this forever. Meds and seeing a doctor aren't really options for me since we're broke and living paycheck to paycheck. I just need to somehow forgive myself and let go but how does one do that?