Twice...In 2004 i was unemployed, lonely and feeling worthless. I live close to Virginia Beach....the plan involved an inflatable raft, a bottle of meth, and a strong offshore wind. It would be peaceful...waiting for the Gulfstream current to take me out further.<br />
But then i realized I could never do that to my family...my mom & dad, my sister, brother and my kids. <br />
Seriously depressed in 2011.....was thinking bout getting lost in the NC woods with a bottle. Flet like nobody would miss me anyways. <br />
What keeps me going? Family...friends...loved ones..helping others out here on EP
Never HAVE ...never WILL ...suicide is for COWARDS
Youre entitled to your opinion
Once. I destroyed my life. At that time I came to accept the blame and quit blaming others for all the crap **I** did. and **I** guess it all became too much for me to handle. The hole I was in was deep, and I was seated on the bottom. It looked too big of a hole for me to ever climb out and I didn't think I had the energy or the emotional stores to pull myself out. <br />
God was my strength. Period... Nothing other than God pulled me from the muck and mire I was drowning in. I'm forever grateful for that!
Every week during high school. No joke. I couldn't take being an Outcast who's only options for friends were either negative people or boring people. Since then i've learned to embrace solittude and turn it into kindness
attempted 3 times still want to now. i just dont want to go on in this life
Sheesh....my heart goes out to you. Just remember you have people that care for you.....friends....family peeps here on EP :-/
Whenever I get depressed I pray....ask Him for strength....and this video helps me.
Her name is Cassie....lost her mom to suicide and tried herself....its a very inspiring video.