Id turn of the computer but that's just me
You imagination fills in the gaps that you don't know. And your imagination makes those bits really good. Probably not so good in real life, but don't ruin it while it lasts.<br />
But most of all, you should share your deep dark secret things with us here on EP. I won't tell anyone.
just go with the flow.. sooner or later it does come to an end... I've had many too.. some I thought will last forever.. but they are gone now.. <br />
One thing I know for sure, even how addicting, exciting such is... just a waste of time.. <br />
One of my online friend also told me "one can never love online" I really didn't/dont believe him.. maybe he is right.