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evrynyt i cry myself to sleep...4 d last 8 yrs v both hav suffrd so much..i had known her 4 10 yrs nd v shard a normal healthy relationship.. until dat night wen on a visit 2 our family v shard bed togther i's disturbd nd she's consolng me and she kissd me and dat chngd evrythng btw us...it hurts i nevr intnded to hurt anyone i know it's wrong but wen we are together it feels so right..she calls me secretly...and among people she's indifferent but in private v r inseparable..nd it hurts a lot..at times i resolve to end this but at common gatherings v often come face 2 face nd it's so hard to resist....i feel so incomplete widout her...but it's so painful..d guilt n helplessness...so depressd havng suicidal thoughts....dis relationship has no future and it's so hard to bear her separation...nd i know dis has 2 end becoz i cant ruin her life,reputation....plz help how to distract myself...