Grow to be the person they aspire to want to be with. In the mean time set some future goals and start working towards them.
The questioner is in the 13- 15 year old age group how many kids can they have!! Just a troll people!!!
And please note the screen name, " wanna be killer" Keep your kids close to you tonight!! A troll is on the loose!!!
I never stop thinking about my kids, I don't think there is anything I could do to get them out of my mind.
Start a journal and funnel all your feelings and thoughts into it!