I didn't just break his heart, I think I broke him.
What do I do? He's drinking everyday, showing up to school after smoking weed. His eyes, they're not just red and tired, they are dead. Empty. He just stares into space, zones off. He doesnt talk TO people, he speaks AT people, he's not communicating, pushing people away, hiding away, I haven't seen him smile for almost a week. His friends say he's not him, I'm not the only one who is losing him, his friends are losing him too. What do I do? I feel like it's my fault. ALL MY FAULT. I love him, I still care but I'm drowning in this sea of depression and he is only pulling me down, I want someone to pull me up, he's not what I need right now which is why I broke up with him. My heart is breaking yes, but his just falling apart.