I don't know how to tell my family that I want to die. This is a serious question and I really need someone's help.
I've decided that if I'm not able to find a job before I turn 25, which is next year, then I'm just giving up with life. This is no way for a person to live. I spend most of the day, everyday, alone. I have nowhere to go, nothing to do. I have no way of supporting myself. I've gotten a useless education, which was a waste of the last four years of my life. I CAN NOT spend the next 50 years or so living like this. The thing is I don't know how to tell my family. Generally, in my community, suicide is not something people do. We turn to religion when things get rough. We pray and have faith that things will get better. However, I feel that it's just a bunch of BS to be honest. I've prayed and kept the faith, but it has gotten old. I feel like I'm just talking to the damn wind. I want to tell them that I have these thoughts. I just don't know how. If I tell them, then it won't be a surprise when I actually go through with it. This isn't the only issue I'm struggling with either.