I feel like i can't even stay living at home anymore, i'm crying every night and all through the day.
i've never been 100% happy living at home, but recently my mum has got way too controlling. to the point where she wont even let me eat in the house when she's not at home because i'll "makes a mess" when i always try to do things to please her. i haven't ate all day and i just went to get a slice of toast and she shouted at me and refused to let me eat until dinner is ready, i'm starving upset and all i can do lately is cry. i'm getting so angry aswell i literally feel like i want to smash up my whole room sometimes. last night i was so bad i ended up drinking some spirits taking pills and crying in the bathroom on my own and just broke down. i've tried to tell her what i get like sometimes but she just says im being pathetic. don't know how much more i can handle. i have a boyfriend who is 18 (i'm 16) and we're so close and he already talks about me and him moving in together. because we are in love. that's my only choice but again my controlling mother wouldn't let me do anything.