I relate to all that.
you might be depressed <br />
you might be in denial<br />
you might be a psychopath <br />
you should get a doctor's opinion.
You're a normal human being just open your eyes to all things, then one day you'll be interested in one particular thing then you'll have feelings then set goals to achieve what you'll be interested in. Don't force anything it comes naturally all in good time, you'll be stronger then.