I feel lost
So a couple of days ago, i found out that i was going to be a father. My ex and i had been broken up for about a week. The news hit me hard because i am a 19 year old kid who works a part time job and i am going to community college. Plus my ex had an implant put in to where it was basically birth control. I didn't know what to do and i was freaking out. My emotions were so jumbled and i asked God to help me through this. I prayed that she wouldn't be pregnant.. Today she went to the doctors to confirm that she was in fact with child and we got terrible news. She had been pregnant for about 11 weeks now and apparently the implant killed our child. I was at work when i found out and i was in shock for the rest of the day. I thought i wasn't going to be able to take care of a kid, but now i wish my child was still alive.. I feel so heart-broken right now and i'm lost. I finally came to my senses and was looking forward to being a father, but now my baby is gone.. how do i get past this.?