Just another day. Then tomorrow will be another, then another, then another.....
I have a dysfunctional family and no friends 'coz I'm in Africa with the family for Christmas and I should be back in Perth with my Alexithymic partner which is only marginally better. But his kids are great.<br />
I only came back because my parents are in their 80s and getting ill and I may never see them again. But having exposed myself to their criticism and my vicious, unkind siblings, I know I will never see any of them again. They're very rich and I am desperately poor.<br />
They don't know how to value people. Only whatever money can buy.<br />
They buy their fun.<br />
And no-one enjoys each others company. They all hang out in their own rooms until dinner and then everyone goes and sits down... No alcohol.<br />
I seldom drink, but I do feel alcohol is a social lubricant.<br />
They don't see it that way.<br />
I would love it if the family were social enough to sit around and have a laugh and just be nice to each other. But no, it's all raised eyebrows and criticism for me and each other.<br />
I hate it because my birthday is Dec. 25th and I have never been able to celebrate it like normal people
Your not alone :)
"Each Jingle Bell is a requiem hell"Christmas Time is Killing Us
I feel so alone, even when surrounded by family, because I feel like I am missing something... a partner to feel loved?
I used to be like that at your age - I hated being with my family I wanted to spend time with my friends!
Well you need to work out why then, I knew exactly why I hated it so in a way it helped but it didn't stop it being depressing!