I have death obsession. Please read Im not here for attention. Just need someone to talk.
I have obsession to die. This isnt a joke, if anyone out there is reading this these obsessions are reacurring. I have thoughts of going to grave sites and just laying there. Sometimes i look at myself in the mirror and close my eyes just to see what i would look like dead. I really have this urge to die. My boyfriend told me if i killed myself he wouldn't have any respect for me. Im always sad and getting to a docor is hard because idk if i want to let go of these death feeling and negative feelings that lead me to want t o die. I want to die but i cant because i dont want to hurt any1 and idk if i took pills like asprin and overdosed what if i wake up mentally retarded and not dead. I just have weird dying thoughts. Ive drunk sleeping pill water hasnt killed me i am sad always have been for 2 years so far. Most of my life actually. Im confused im sensative times i feel like ripping myself apart. But the funny thing is i appear normal on the outside and everything. I also have anxiety of my little brothers dying my family. My boyfriend also i have anxiety that he is going to die. So im super clingy to him because i eant him close if i lost him idk what i would do